The scumbag I raised has collapsed

Luo Shi's hand was pressed on Lu She's chest, and he tried several times to pull it away, but it was strange, obviously Lu She didn't use much strength, but he couldn't break free.

He felt the vigorous and powerful beating under the palm, one after another, the rhythmic frequency accompanied by the touch of the palm resonated with his heart, which brought Luo Shi's heartbeat to speed up along with it, beating up and down, strong and intense exist alive.

The two sat facing each other, and after a long time, Luo Shi withdrew his hand.

He lowered his head and looked down at his withdrawn palm. After a moment of silence, he slowly said, "Lu She, my mother, committed suicide when I was five years old."

"At that time, she wanted to take me to die with her. Although she didn't know why she changed her mind in the end, her body was lying next to me for the whole night. Before she died, she said that she was stupid and shouldn't believe in love. You hurt yourself, you hurt me and my elder brother."

"Your mother wants to take you to die together?" Lu She was shocked. When he investigated Luo, he knew that his mother passed away due to depression when he was very young, but he didn't know these details.

"kindness."

Luo Shi looked indifferent, and gestured with his hands: "It's about as long as an eyebrow razor, a very small piece. My wrist was only this thick at the time, so such a small knife is enough."

Luo Shi smiled: "I watched her gesture to my wrist for a long time with my own eyes, and finally I got annoyed and pushed her away. Probably because of this push, she couldn't bear it again, so she let me pick it up." fate."

Luo Shi suddenly raised his eyes to look at Lu She, with a smile: "You know what happened after my elder brother and I's backgrounds were exposed, right?"

"I know something, your father's legal spouse, Irene Tang, has attacked you."

Lu She blurted out that this matter is not difficult to investigate.

"After Irene Tang knew about the existence of my elder brother and me, he attacked countless times, but the circumstances of our two brothers were different. Compared with my elder brother, I can say that I was in danger. I can only say that I was able to escape several times. Fate."

"Because your brother was born before marriage, and you are an illegitimate child?" Lu She could somewhat figure out how an arrogant noble lady like Irene Tang hated Luo Shi.

Luo Shi turned his gaze out of the window, and smiled faintly: "Well, I thought so too."

"Originally?" Lu She frowned, and asked, "What do you mean? Is there another reason?"

Luo Shi looked out of the window with heavy eyes and nodded.

"Two years ago, I met Luo Xiangkun, my biological father for the first time. Before that, I thought the same as you, because I was more hated than my brother because of an illegitimate child in marriage. In this regard, I Brother, even my mother thought so before she died."

"But after I stimulated Luo Xiangkun with drugs to recover his mind for a moment and forced him to hand over his shares, he said to me at the last moment when he lost his mind..."

Luo Shi was in a daze for a moment, his eyes were empty and his expression was blank. He didn't know what he remembered, but Lu She didn't dare to urge him.

After waiting for a long time, I heard Luo Shi's soft and low voice again——

"You're still alive, Irene, a useless lunatic."

"What do you mean! Luo Xiangkun knew about everything that happened to you?!"

Lu She grabbed Luo Shi's arm, and once he came to this terrible conjecture, his whole body trembled angrily: "He is your biological father, how could he watch Irene Tang put you to death! Could it be? Didn't he try to bring you back to country M, so he exposed your existence in Rockwell?"

"He just wants to take back his eldest brother, as for me..."

Luo Shi laughed at himself: "Luo Xiangkun abandoned my mother in the early years, and when he was old, he began to miss the past, thinking that my mother was the love of his life. It's a pity that she is gone, so he began to regret and miss her. He felt that my mother It was because I was born that I got postpartum depression, so he blamed me for my mother's death, and he hated me and wanted me to die."

it is ridiculous!

Lu She was so shocked that he couldn't say a word, why did an innocent child bear all the muddled accounts of the previous generation!

"Do you think it's ironic? Do you think I'm pretty miserable?"

Luo Shi smiled sarcastically: "This is not the end, there is more. Lu She, do you know how I was tied to the Pearl?"

Lu She looked at Luo Shi blankly, and shook his head: "I checked your affairs, but mainly I wanted to know what you did in country M for the past two years. thin."

"Almost seven years have passed in the blink of an eye, and I can't even remember clearly."

Luo Shi raised his head and slowly recalled: "I remember that Luo Zhun had a girlfriend when he was in college. They were both first loves. They had a good relationship until my brother graduated from college."

"I was kidnapped at the door of my house. After school, I was knocked out as soon as I walked to the gate of the community. When I woke up, I realized that it was not only me, but also my brother's girlfriend who was taken away by those desperadoes." .She came to look for my brother, and just happened to encounter me being attacked. She shouted for help in a panic and was found, so they were tied up together."

"But I only found you on the boat, and you didn't say you wanted to save others? That girlfriend of your brother..."

Lu She was puzzled. With Luo Shi's personality back then, if Luo Zhun's girlfriend was tied onto the boat together, he would definitely ask himself to try to rescue him, but Luo Shi didn't mention it until he got off the boat, and even kept silent about it after that. don't talk about it.

"My brother was on the Pearl, and he came to rescue me. In fact, Luo Xiangkun has always sent people to follow my brother to protect him. My brother found out my whereabouts from those bodyguards, and got on board."

"When he found us, it shouldn't be long before the boat sailed, and I could still see the coastline clearly."

Luo Shi calmly narrated the past, but Lu She's already hard-to-calm heart was filled with turbulent waves.

If Luo Zhun found Luo Shi at the beginning of sailing, how could Luo Shi be forced to jump into the sea later?

Where was Luo Zhun and his girlfriend at that time?

Shouldn't...

Luo Shi noticed that Lu She's face was getting more and more serious, and smiled with the corners of his mouth: "Guess it? Well, my brother took us out, but we were discovered soon. He was kidnapped when he boarded the boat." In addition to me and his girlfriend, I only prepared a motorboat in advance, which can seat two people, and his girlfriend and I only have time to take one."

"So, Luo Zhun left you behind?"

Lu She grimaced, clenched his molars tightly, and the veins on his neck burst.

"Forget it, I pushed them out, but the elder brother didn't look back."

Luo Shi's expression was indifferent, as if he didn't care: "Because of this incident, they broke up later. In order to save me, my elder brother took the initiative to go to country M to find Luo Xiangkun, but at that time..."

"Family and love, it's difficult to choose anyone, not to mention that the other party is innocently implicated by me. I know that my elder brother is right. But, Lu She, without you, I would really die in the Uriel Sea."

Luo Shi looked at Lu She and smiled lightly: "Thinking about it now, I still feel very sad."

"Stop talking, Ah Shi, stop talking."

Lu She hugged Luo Shi into his arms: "We don't want to think about the past, it's my fault, you shouldn't be reminded of it."

These things have been kept in Luo Shi's mind for so many years, and he has never mentioned them to anyone. Many things like He Yalan and Luo Xiangkun are not even known to Luo Zhun.

But Luo Shi said everything today, because the person in front of him was Lu She, the only Lu She whom he regarded as a special existence.

Once emotions that have been pent up for too long explode, it is difficult to control.

Even though Lu She refused to let Luo Shi continue, he still couldn't stop, and continued to talk on his own.

Lu She could only hug him tightly, Luo Shi's body began to tremble, but he didn't realize it yet.

"Luo Zhun's tolerance and care for me these years is nothing more than the guilt of giving up on me. He thought I would blame him, but in fact I didn't."

"I don't blame him, I just pity him. He is really like his mother. He has been bound by these useless feelings in this life, first love, then family affection, and he has been tortured by years of guilt and regret for the rest of his life .”

"But I won't, I hate these things, what kind of relationship, I don't need it!"

"Especially love, I will never touch it in my life!"

"My mother wants me to die, my father wants me to die, even my brother has given up on me, why can everyone want my life for their own love, shit love, they asked for it!"

"It's not my business!"

"Why do I have to bear the consequences!"

"Then what am I? In their eyes, what am I!"

The nightmare that had plagued Luo Shi for many years struck violently for the first time when he was awake, and the hatred that had been harassed by demons for many years was nakedly displayed in front of Lu She: "I just want to live, I don't want to live Can you? Lu She, tell me, what did I do wrong! I don’t deserve to live! I just want to live, what’s wrong with me!”

Lu She noticed that something was wrong with Luo Shi, and kept calling his name, trying to calm him down.

"Ah Shi, Ah Shi, calm down, I am here, you are living well, don't be afraid, I will protect you."

Luo Shi turned a deaf ear to Lu She's words, but slowly focused his somewhat lax pupils on Lu She's anxious face.After more than ten seconds, he suddenly grabbed Lu She's lapel again, and traced his facial features with his eyes, with eager and crazy eyes——

"Lu She, you are very kind, really, you saved me, because of you, I can survive."

"Not only that, but you are playing around with the world, and you are too flirtatious. You change bed partners one after another. I have never seen a man worse than you. I am very satisfied."

"People like you can't be sincere, and feelings are a joke in front of you."

"I can be with you at ease, without any burden. You are clearly a scumbag, that's very good, Lu She, I think this is very good."

"Hold on, don't be tempted. Fuck love, as long as we don't talk about feelings, you and I can live a good life. You stay with me, and we can live a good life."

"Ah Shi..."

When Lu She looked at Luo Shi who was a little crazy, his heart ached beyond measure.

It was the first time he was so close to Luo Shi's heart, but he didn't feel happy at all.

He realized that Luoshi should have a certain degree of psychological trauma, which may have been left over from witnessing the tragedy of his mother when he was a child, and a series of encounters later exacerbated his condition. It has been integrated into his spiritual world and shaped the current Luoshi, which is already irreversible.

"Lu She, talk!" Luo Shi grabbed Lu She's lapel, forcing him to answer.

Lu She looked at Luo Shi steadfastly. After a long time, he reached out and clasped the back of the other's head, and pressed a tender kiss on the lips of the person in front of him: "Ah Shi, I love you."