The grass seeks the end of the world

"Master Xie, the person is here," Hong Luo pointed at me, "here is the body deed," and took out a thin envelope.

His chest rose and fell, he took a deep breath, and took out two bank notes from his pocket.

The Chinese guarantor signed and pledged, and in a blink of an eye I changed hands.

"Let's go." He said, as if he couldn't bear to stay here for a while, he walked out of the lobby quickly.

I was already limping on one leg, and I often didn't have enough to eat and had no strength. I gritted my teeth and barely walked over, but still couldn't keep up with his footsteps.

The more impatient he was, the more he could not control his legs and feet. One accidentally tripped over the threshold and fell directly to the cold and hard ground.

Holding on to my crutches, I got up from the ground and looked in his direction in a panic.

He stopped, frowned, and looked impatient: "You can't even walk, should I invite home a Bodhisattva or something, and have to make offerings every day?"

"Hug, I'm sorry." I endured the pain and started walking again.

Wrapped in a quilt, I sat on a cart and left the fireworks hall, fireworks alley, and even the city.

I know that if it wasn't for Uncle Wang's last wish, he would never want to see me, let alone buy me.

I just found out that for my father and me, Uncle Wang has almost emptied his family in recent years.It took him a long time to go up and down to be able to meet in prison that day.In the past few years, I have spent a lot of money looking for me.

And after finding me, Uncle Wang... was overly excited, and his old illness relapsed.

It took him a month to raise money, but when he got the money and was about to set off, he collapsed.

The lingering sickness lasted for more than a month, and passed away forever.He wanted to arrange Uncle Wang's funeral, and he didn't even think about redeeming me.

"He didn't die because of you! You are not worth it at all!" He beat me and scolded me, venting.

Yes, I have nothing, not worth it at all.

Even God didn't accept it.

Seeing him living alone in the house, my whole body is his, and I owe his family, I can't pay it back, I can't pay it back.

If I repay Uncle Wang's kindness well, I can still be of some use, so I will take good care of him for the rest of my life.

Moreover, I secretly said to myself, I can finally get very close to him.

Although I am not qualified to love him at all.

Life with him was not easy.

It is too common to be beaten, scolded and starved.

Sitting and eating, you have to think about the future.

It's not that I don't want to persuade him to make progress, or to find something to make a living.It's a pity that he never listens to a word I say.

I also tried to start some small businesses, such as writing letters or painting on behalf of others, in order to supplement the family income.

——He overturned my stall, smashed the inkstone, and tore all the paper.

He yelled at me: "Don't you think it's not enough to be ashamed, go back!"

Yes, I really embarrass him.

Since I was not allowed to show my face, I had no choice but to do women's work, collect old clothes, wash them, and mend them.

Thirty pieces of starch can be exchanged for a big coin.

He found out, and threw the basin directly on me: "How treacherous are you, do you want everyone to know that I can't afford you?"

"But young master, the family's expenses..."

"It's up to you! It's fine if you don't starve to death!"

When he went out that day, I asked a lot if I wanted to prepare dinner, and he got angry and slapped me so dizzy that I hit the wall.

——It seems that there is no need, I eased the nausea that came up for a while, supported my head and went back to my place to lie down for a while.

As soon as I lay down, I fell asleep.

I was woken up by the pain, before dawn, I curled up, gritted my teeth, tossed and turned for a long time before closing my eyes again.

Waking up again, it's still dark outside, I just took a nap?

——No, not right.

My house is very close to the street, and I can faintly hear voices of people, cars and horses, sounds that would never appear in the middle of the night.

My body hurts badly, and I'm definitely not dreaming.

Something happened outside?I got up, and the room felt a little darker than usual, but it didn't look like a cloudy day.

I have long learned to distinguish the weather without a teacher. The night before the weather changed, the old injury on my body reminded me in an extremely painful way.

Although the body hurts, it doesn't come from the cracks in the bones, so there is absolutely no change.

I stumbled and touched the fire folders on the table, there were dozens of them, but there was no bright light.

——Is it broken by the fire?

Surprised, he hit him hard the second time.

Smell clearly of sulfur and smoke.

However, it was still pitch black.

I rubbed my eyes and looked carefully at my palm.can not see.

Panicked and rushed out of the house - night, it can't be so long.

It's not cold outside, and the sun is warm on the body.

--Sunlight? !

I was terrified, I looked up and tried to distinguish, there was a light and shadow above my head, far away and hazy.

He raised his hand in front of him again, and it was very close, almost touching his eyes.

It was also a mass, but it was a black shadow.

Looking around in a panic, black shadows, black shadows, black shadows...all are black shadows!

I reach out to catch, to feel, forward, left, right, nothingness.

I just walked a few steps indiscriminately, and then turned around, but I couldn't find where the door of my room was.

The sun is still warm, but the heart is as cold as ice.I stared blankly, pointed in one direction, and walked down with my hands outstretched. Before my fingertips touched something, I tripped hard on the steps and fell to the door.

My knee hurts, I rolled up my trousers to see if the skin was bleeding, my eyes were still black against the wound - oh, I'm blind, I just found out.

I grabbed the ground with my head heavily, on the stone steps.

I was disliked at first, but now I am like this, how can I continue to take care of the young master, how can I continue to live?

I don't know how much time has passed, but my body is getting colder.

Even the last ray of light was lost.

——The young master is coming back, will he not want me when he sees me like this?

I got up slowly, and it took me an unknown amount of time to find my room. I lay there for a long time without eating or drinking, and I didn't know day or night.

The only thing that is still clear is to keep your ears open to listen to the movement outside.

I always have the illusion that the young master will break into the door the next moment and drive me away.

If only I didn't survive the injury in the fireworks hall.

It would have been nice if he had been beheaded with the whole clan back then.

It would be even better if she hadn't been born, or hadn't thought about it.

But I am still alive.

Since I didn't die from the serious injury, I thought, maybe God doesn't like me, so he refused to accept me.

Then live.

You can still hear his voice, right?

It's just that in the future, you have to be more careful.

Thinking that I could still see him for the last time yesterday, I will remember it forever.

The young master who returned home three days later discovered my anomaly.

Because I seem to have misremembered the color arrangement and picked up the wrong thread when I was fumbling to sew?

He slapped me hard again.

Forget it, he is still willing to touch me.

Moreover, although he scolded badly, those nonsense words were no worse than what I heard in the fireworks hall.

The important thing is that despite beating and scolding, he didn't want me in the end.

I can really do things, really.

I'm not deaf, at least I can walk, at least I can do things.

So I learned to judge the weight of objects by weighing them, and to distinguish objects by smelling them.The young master's house, walking and touching repeatedly, by touching the walls and pillars, I can tell where I am within three breaths.

The second time I learned how to make a fire, relying on the crackling sound of firewood in the stove.

The second time I learned to boil water, I relied on the sound of bubbles bursting in the pot.

Learn to cook for the second time.

Pasta is easy to handle, but it's just a few hands burned by steam.

It is not easy to judge the heat when cooking.

Without money, I couldn’t buy too many ingredients for my practice. I pulled some weeds in the backyard based on my memory and hand feeling, and tried to make the raw ones mature first, and only started to cook after I was proficient.

It's okay to wash clothes, just use more force, scrub more, and don't let go of any corners.

I'm worried that the clothes will be discolored and mixed. The young master always washes one piece of clothes thoroughly, changes the water, and then washes another piece.So what if you are tired, just change the water a few more times.

……

I thought it would be like this all my life.

Then one day, the young master got into trouble and was injured. After recovering from the injury, he seemed to be a different person.

I got the treasure of my dreams.

Later, I...

"...Later, I never expected...to be like this..." Yue Mo leaned on the beauty couch, his cheeks were flushed, his eyes were drunk, and he had a special charm.

There are crimson candles on the desk, apricot blossom wine in the bottle, the person on the couch looks like jade, and the words in his mouth are like needles.

"I was wrong!" Doctor Wang took the initiative to criticize, with his head lowered to his chest, "You are young and ignorant, and the hurt can't be wiped away with an apology. As long as you can calm down, Tianya, you can beat and scold, Just save my life."

Yue Mo seldom gets drunk, and occasionally drinks too much. Through the drunkenness, he will slip out a sentence or two about the past, and his behavior is much bolder than before.

"Hit? Okay..." He responded with a smile, "Your face... come closer so that I can hit..."

Wang Xie was very guilty on the first visit, and also a little drunk on the second, and the Popi bachelor's spirit regained his possession. Hearing the words, he got closer, tilted his head slightly and said, "You hit me!"

Yue Mo raised his hand, still smiling: "You... hiccup... close your eyes... otherwise I... hiccup... won't let you go..."

Wang Xie closed his eyes according to his words, and there was a gust of... breeze on his face.

Yue Mo brushed his four fingers lightly over his face, and sighed: "Oh."

"What's wrong?" Wang Xie opened his eyes in surprise.

Yue Mo's eyes were moist, and he said pitifully, "But, I, I can't bear it."

Wang Xie also sighed: "Fool."

As he spoke, he leaned forward and embraced him.

Yue Mo nodded heavily: "Yeah...so stupid..." With his head resting on Wang Xie's shoulder, he put his hand into the other's shirt, hugged him close to his waist, and murmured in a low voice, "Why do I just like is you……"

"...I want to know too." Wang Xie also put his hand into the opponent's clothes and returned the favor.

And the good night is short.

After a spring breeze, the breathing stopped.

The wine also woke up most of them, hugging each other and lying down, talking in whispers.

"Tianya, what happened to the events and people...is there any whereabouts?" Wang Xie didn't believe that Yue Mo would not investigate.

What doctors fear most is not the terminal illness of the patient, but the despair of the patient.Some patients can live happily for more than ten years even if they are terminally ill.Some patients are just minor illnesses and disasters, but they are mentally traumatized and depressed, and even a small high fever can turn into a serious illness and die.

If you have knots in your heart, you can get twice the result with half the effort and even recover without medicine.

Even if you are not sick, if you don't get rid of the knot, it will be a kind of pressure on the body, and sooner or later something will happen.

Therefore, Dr. Wang is very concerned. He wants to live with the person next to him for a long time, so how can he not care about the other person's knots.Besides, he had done the matter of investigation and revenge once in his previous life, and he was very familiar with it this time.

Yue Mo leaned against Wang Xie, turned over, and lazily said: "Yeah." He casually drew circles on the other's chest with his fingers, "After I recovered from my injury, I began to investigate what happened back then, and there were some clues. We have also dealt with it." When he woke up, he was thinking about "chasing his husband thousands of miles away", and after successfully taking down Wang Xie, he was relieved, and then took advantage of his position to investigate the reason why the Liu family was wiped out.

"Brilliant views from the sky." Wang Xie's chest was itchy from the painting, and he stretched out his big hand, grabbing Yue Mo's hands, "You are tired."

Yue Mo sighed: "Yes. The world is impermanent. Ah Xiaoke still wants to hear the memories later?"

There was a faint blush on his face, and he was slightly annoyed: "I wanted to talk to you today, but I was interrupted."

Wang Xie hurriedly said: "I want to listen." As he spoke, he poured another glass of wine and brought it to the other party's lips, "Moisturize your throat?"

Tell the truth after drunk, it is good if you can finish it all at once, the sooner you will get rid of your knots, and the sooner you will be happy.

Those who save him feel uncomfortable, which makes him even more uncomfortable.

Yue Mo drank the fine wine in one gulp and continued to speak slowly.