The grass seeks the end of the world

My surname is Liu, Liu Wan, and my courtesy name is Yanhua.

It is said that when the name was named, my father read a long book before deciding on it.

And the characters that were supposed to be taken when I was an adult for the crowning ceremony were determined when I was very young.

As a parent, of course you have hope for your children.

My family has been educated for five generations, and it can be regarded as a scholarly family, but the population is not prosperous, and the family situation is not so satisfactory.It wasn't until the grandfather's generation won the election, served as local officials for several terms, and the official career was smooth, that the family's situation improved.

And my father lived up to everyone's expectations and won a small three yuan. Since then, my family's life has become more and more nourishing.

My grandfather left early, and my impression of him is only tablets and portraits.

My father dotes on me very much. I like to read, so he collects books; I like to play the piano, so he hires teachers;

But there is one thing, he doesn't allow me to give up halfway, he manages me very strictly.

It even strictly restricts my making friends and traveling.

I was busy reading and playing the piano every day, and I didn't think that this was actually his limitation. It wasn't until I was a teenager that I realized that I rarely had playmates.

Well, the father's friend's child, and the mother's brother's son, there are probably seven or eight people of the same age, and they are still casual acquaintances. They usually nod and say hello when they meet, and occasionally gather to discuss knowledge and the like.

As for the most familiar person, the only one who can enter the house without reporting is the young master of the Wang family next door.

——Because he can jump over walls, drill dog holes, mess around, play and roll... It's very interesting.

Also very cute.

He was never afraid of my father. On the contrary, he was very open-minded. Even if he sneaked in and was discovered, he would run away with a grin.

As soon as his father saw him, he would lower his face and repeat the order to guard his servants.

But he always finds a way to sneak in and play with me.

I think it's because at his full moon wine, he was just giggling and peed all over my father.

It seemed that was the beginning of a long battle of wits between him and my father.

Sometimes his father or his servants couldn't find him, so they would rush around and shout "Where are you, Young Master" or "Master Dou, it's time to go home".

Well, his nickname was Xiaodouzi, Doudou, Douer, Adou, Wang Xiaodou, etc., and he kept calling him until he was six years old.

However, I don't call him by his nickname.

Because he thinks the name Xiaodouzi is rotten and not unique at all, he doesn't like it very much.

So I changed my name and called him "A Xiao", and I promised that no nickname would be so unique.

Satisfied, he kissed me, his lips soft.

Leave a watermark.

——The deciduous teeth have not been fully replaced, and one front tooth is missing, and it is common to leak air and saliva when speaking.

After he was six years old, he got his name, Wang Xie.

I still think this name is not good, so I still call him Ah Xiao.

Later, when he heard that I had chosen the character, he went home and asked his father to ask for a character for himself, calling him Chongfang.

He came back to complain again, saying that this name was not manly enough.

I said this meaning is good, both of our names mean thriving.

Ever since I called him Ah Xiao, he has always believed in me.I was very happy to hear my explanation.

My father never told me about the affairs of the court and the outside world, and he also restrained his surroundings from telling me.

When I said that I was going to take a scientific examination next year, I would become an official like my father and grandfather, so as to become an official, to benefit the people, and to serve the court, I didn't see my father's expression clearly.

He just said lightly, as long as you like it.

However, I did not participate in the second year of scientific examination.

Because the mother died unfortunately.

Those who are sons of man shall mourn for three years.

My mother also came from a family of officials. It is said that when she married her father, many people envied her father for climbing a high branch.

My mother loved me very much, but after I was four years old, my father disciplined me more, so she could only take care of me in terms of clothes and food.

In the midst of my filial piety, after mourning, I found my father was old.

The creases between his brows deepened, and there were spots of silver frost on his temples, and he became thinner day after day.

Also tired day after day.

But he still didn't tell me anything.

It sucks to be a son of man and not be able to share the worries of his father.

The sky is gray, and the heavy dark clouds in my heart are occasionally dispelled by the arrival of a person.

The young master of the Wang family next door built a ladder to climb the wall this time.

"Unhappy? I haven't been happy either."

"Hey, my mother died early, we are the same now!"

"My lord's business, I'll worry about it myself, and we'll talk about it when we grow up!"

"Delay the scientific examination for a year? It doesn't matter, I will take the examination for you!"

Sitting on the top of the wall, he patted his chest and laughed heartily.

...almost fell off.

This is his way of comforting me.

Seeing his beaming and confident appearance made me feel a lot more comfortable.

He would still slip up to my place from time to time, pretending to ask for advice, but in fact he was lazy, eating, chatting and listening to me play the piano. The book he brought never turned to the third page.

When you are sleepy, wrap your clothes and sleep on a soft couch.

Well, as long as I play the piano, he will definitely be sleepy.

I did it on purpose.

He is so cute when he is asleep.

Looking at his arms that look like lotus root joints, his pink face, and his small earlobes...

The pen and ink had been prepared a long time ago, and Dan Qing sketched and drew several pictures of him sleeping.

There are even those who drool and pick their feet.

Before the end of the filial piety period, something happened.

Ah Xiao left late that day, and I had to make up for the missed homework. I was a little sleepy and fell asleep on the soft couch in the study.

The smell of Ah Xiao still remained on the soft couch.

This Ah Xiao, in my dream, was also chattering and bluffing.

Even though he was still sound asleep last moment, he woke up when I picked up the brush to paint, rushed over to grab my brush, and made a fuss.

Although I am a scholar, I am a head taller than him, and stronger than him, after some disputes, I threw him on the painting table, grabbed his hands and pushed them to the top of my head, and grabbed his waist with my hips. .

His chest rose and fell, he lay on his back and looked at me, blinking his eyes, not knowing why.

I felt my heart beating so fast, I wanted to do something, but I didn't know what to do, my whole body was hot, and I was irritable for no reason.

I was awakened by the heat, and immediately noticed the abnormality of the body below me.

There hasn't been such an embarrassing moment in a long time.

I think I'm done, this incident is too shameful, no matter when it happened or to whom it happened, no third person should know it anyway.

But, I just like him, what can I do.

I was very anxious for a few days, and finally I decided: I will see what to do when he grows up.

Now, let's just like it silently.

I cheered up, hid my small thoughts, continued to watch him bring gadgets to present treasures, continued to help him write the topics that my husband explained, continued to make exquisite and delicious snacks for him, and continued to chat with him...

Continue to play the piano to lull him to sleep, and draw a picture of him drooling.

Then burn the portrait silently at night.

The soft couch has become a place where I often rest.

What a sweet and painful day.

I thought that in the next few years, my business would be to wait.

Wait until the filial piety expires, wait for the next scientific examination, and wait for him to grow up.

But I was wrong.

In just one noisy night, everything suddenly changed.

From a young master to an official servant, from a rich and fine food to a prisoner, every day.

Hanging heavy handcuffs and shackles, with his head down, he walked into the prison step by step.

The smell of blood and foul smell is disgusting.The filth in the prison was the first time I saw it in my life.Rotten bedding, wet ground, fat rats running around, sticky soup with a bad smell, and... many unkempt prisoners.

Some were dumbfounded, some were lazy, some were crying, and it was also the first time I saw the dark side of the world.

Looking at the prison again, apart from my servants, the common and uncommon relatives were all relatively tearful, crying out for grievances.

It was only then that I found out that my father had committed a felony.

The heinous person they speak of is my father?

A well-behaved father?

--how come!

We were all detained separately and interrogated in turn.

Walking out with the people who were locked in the cell, some were carried back, others were dragged back, a few were able to walk back by themselves, and some never came back after going out.

I have also been taken out, kneeling in the lobby, answering questions over and over again, being beaten, and answering again.

It's all questions that I don't know.

Strangely, although the board hit me, it didn't seem to hurt too much.

After a long time, I found out that someone spent a lot of money to bribe the yamen servants and save my life.

Since I've been in the cell, I've scratched the wooden railing with my nails to mark the date.

After the accident at my house, no one came to visit me for more than ten days. Only after my interrogation was over did people continue to go to the death row under the guidance of the jailer.

Almost all of those people were wearing tall hoods, and their faces were hidden in the shadows so that they could not see clearly.

But occasionally one or two of them would stop in front of my cell, sigh, and hurry away.

I can hear their voices, my father's friends.

And the man who stood the longest in front of my cell, after giving the jailer money, was able to have a few words with me.

He took out an oiled paper package from his pocket and handed it to me, and the scent rushed into my nostrils.

"Eat slowly and don't choke."

"Uncle Wang, my father..."

"Hush—" he shook his head, "Eat first, eat first."

I bowed my head to eat pancakes. I have never eaten such delicious biscuits.

"...Little Douzi misses you a lot." He whispered, "I keep asking me when you will come back. You must take care of your health and put your life first. I'm afraid that Lao Liu's side will not get better, but he never I didn't involve you in it, no matter what, I will try my best to find a way..."

I was on my knees, the first time in days that someone told me this.