Pandora's Box

In an instant, I ran like a revolving lantern in front of my eyes, frantically running through various submissions in the death group of Douban.

I immediately understood the urgency of "picking out three rooms and one living room with my toes on the ground" and "pack up your luggage and change your life on another planet".

Although I did it with great effort at the time, just to present the treasure to him, but the situation is not what it used to be, and I was completely unprepared!

My eyes turned black, but I still tried to calm down and said: "What PPT, where did you read it haha, how do you know that I made it."

Zhuo Wenyang said: "When you and my dad disappeared, I dug out all the things I could find clues and checked, and I also cracked your computer password."

"..."

"But that PPT, I didn't notice it for a long time, because it looked like an academic material," he added, "Later, when I had more time, I started to look at your computer little by little. file. When I found it, it has actually been a long, long time.”

"..."

"I'm surprised," he said softly, "you're doing pretty well."

"..." I could only murmur, "Yes, yes."

"Yes. The effect of the display is exquisite, with a sense of hierarchy and design, the logic is also very clear, and the information is conveyed just right."

"Is that so hahaha..."

The confession PPT, which was enough to make me escape from the earth overnight, received such serious praise from the person concerned, which made me feel very confused and confused.

After a while, he asked again: "Then can you answer my question?"

I was still in a trance: "What's the problem?"

Zhuo Wenyang was silent for a while, he stopped asking questions, and just smiled: "It's nothing."

The room suddenly fell into silence.

Originally, there were only our table of guests, the weather was neither too hot nor too cold, but the weather was not comfortable, the drinks were not very tasty, the fried snacks were over-fried, the boss was paralyzed in the corner playing with his mobile phone, the whole There was an unpleasant smell in the space.

Zhuo Wenyang said suddenly: "Let's go." Then he stood up and asked the boss to pay the bill.

When we entered the store, we were all relaxed and even happy, but when we came out, there was only embarrassment and silence between the two of us.

Is this store poisonous?

Zhuo Wenyang clicked on the phone map and looked at it for a while, then said, "It's quite a long way to the gallery, do you need to call a car?"

"Oh that's fine."

"Well, it's more convenient for you to take a taxi back directly."

"Hey?"

I thought he was going to ask me to take a taxi back to the gallery to pick up his car.

I had to ask: "Then, do you want to walk there?"

"Ah."

Dare to say that he said to walk back slowly, just as a walk, didn't he mean to walk with me, he wanted to take a walk by himself?

I felt that the remaining strength in my body was leaking again.

My day has been full of ups and downs, sad and happy and sad, it's like I've been on a jumping machine, and my soul can't catch up with my people.

Standing on the side of the road for a while, I tentatively said, "Then I, let's go first?"

He said softly: "Yes."

If I was sensible, I should take a taxi and leave, but my two legs were very ignorant, so I stayed firmly in place.

Zhuo Wenyang suddenly said again: "There is something I forgot to ask."

I came to the spirit: "What?"

"You came to see me today, what's the matter?"

"..."

His question hit my nails, and I was paralyzed like a robot that had been unplugged.

On the way here, of course, I carefully typed up what I wanted to say, but after two waves of tossing, the draft that was finally brewing has already been smashed.

Now I am like a scumbag who has managed to hold the Buddha's feet and memorized two pages of books. When I mustered up the courage to speak, I missed my turn, and when I was distracted, I was suddenly called by the teacher to ask questions.

I was tongue-tied for a while, the brain that was down was still processing data at a slow speed, and kept freezing and reporting errors, and I heard him say again: "Forget it. It's okay."

"what……"

He smiled and said, "I won't embarrass you. Go back quickly."

I suddenly realized that maybe Zhuo Wenyang felt that I was pretending to be stupid, so he was upset?

But I really didn't pretend!

How do I get him to understand that I'm just really stupid?

I summoned up my courage and called him: "Zhuo Wenyang."

He turned to look at me: "Huh?"

In his eyes, my heart was pounding, and the feeling of being dizzy from nervousness and weak hands and feet came again.

Not at all, I'm really too good at it.

I still have to take my time and organize my language well so that I can express what I want to say clearly in one breath without messing things up and jumping needles indiscriminately.

I said weakly: "At least let me, let me take a taxi. It's not cheap to take a taxi back from such a long distance,"

He looked at me for a while, nodded, and said, "Okay."

So we walked back to pick up the car together.

No one spoke on the road, and whenever I peeked at Zhuo Wenyang out of the corner of my eye, I could see him keeping his eyes straight and frowning slightly.

This dull and embarrassing journey is really long and exhausting.How come I didn’t realize how heavy and tiring it is to walk this distance when I was furiously walking?

Finally arrived at the parking lot, I sat in the car obediently, and Zhuo Wenyang asked me: "Where should I take you? Your address is..."

"Ah, I'm temporarily staying with Uncle Chen."

He seemed to be slightly startled, and turned to look at me: "Really? You already, have you visited my dad? When did it happen?"

"Well..." I confessed, "I stayed overnight last night."

He didn't speak again, just started the car.

There was nothing to say along the way, the air conditioner was obviously turned on in the car, and the air was supposed to circulate well, but for some reason, it felt difficult to breathe.

"Here we are," he said succinctly when the car stopped, "you go up."

I hurriedly asked: "Ah, won't you come up and have a seat?"

He shook his head.

"Really not coming? Uncle Chen should have cooked a lot of good things..."

He remained silent.

Although it was very suffocating to get along for nearly an hour, it is not a big deal to be suffocated. I am willing to stay with him if I can't breathe air.

And my thought is, if we change the space and have Cheng Yichen as a buffer, will the atmosphere be more relaxed?I also need a little time to clean up my mood and re-brew this crucial speech.

"What's the matter?" In order to create an opportunity, I could only say cheekily, "Go up and sit down, have a meal, have a chat, catch up on old times, it's also good."

"..."

"Let's go, let's go." I forced myself to be brave, and even tugged at his arm.

He suddenly said: "Lin Jing."

"Ok?"

He looked at me without a smile on his face: "Don't do this again."

His expression made me suddenly panic.

Indeed, this is his father's home, and it is his home even if rounded.What is my position as a guest to invite the host in turn?Still using your hands and feet?Is it too ignorant?

"Can you stop teasing me?"

I froze quickly: "Huh?"

"Stop teasing me," he said, "it's not funny at all."

"..."

"The question I asked today may be too offensive. It doesn't matter if you pretend to be stupid and don't want to answer, or you think I'm not sensible, I decided not to ask any more questions, so as not to cause trouble to you. But why do you keep asking me What about some delusions?"

"..."

"I know you like to joke, but I'm too serious. But please understand my seriousness."

"..."

"As long as you send me some vague signals, I will mistakenly think that you may like me, and once I have unrealistic thoughts, I will soon be ruthlessly awakened. But when I plan to recognize the reality, often You will get some wrong signals again. Maybe you are wrong, maybe you just did it unintentionally, maybe I will never have a chance to be selected in the first place, but sometimes I really make some mistakes in judgment."

"..."

"This process is really not interesting at all. Of course, this is all my mediocrity. You didn't mean it. Everything was caused by my overthinking. But I also have an obligation to let you understand that I am too sensitive and serious Man, it is difficult for me to correct this. You have no idea about me, so after I have expressed my heart to you, you should actually draw a clear line with me and keep a distance. This is the best way to deal with us. "

"..."

I have never heard him say so many words in one breath, and his emotions are not calm enough.

This makes him look different from the quiet and indifferent Zhuo Wenyang I am familiar with.It was as if a magma spewed up suddenly under the iceberg.

Before I could digest it, he said quickly, "I'm sorry I made these emotional remarks. Although I ask you to correct some behaviors, it is not your problem, it is my problem. I am not good at myself. Mentality. I know that you have adapted to life in Z Town, got along well with the Zhao family, and you have found your direction in life. If we destroy you, then they saved you. I am very happy that you can meet To them, that is the place that can make you happy, the people who can make you happy. Clean, pure, without stains, it is different from T City and us. There is really no need for you to leave such a pure land and come to be with We are entangled. So I also want to do something for you, such as helping you, so that your ideals can be realized faster. I think seeing you happy and fulfilled should be enough for us."

"..."

"But in the end, I'm still selfish, and I still have expectations that I shouldn't have, just like my dad always looks forward to your return."

"..."

"You did come back, but the reason for coming back has nothing to do with me, and I can't accept it. I can't handle my mentality well. You see, I have become a twisted person. I am also far from the illusion that you praised It's getting farther and farther."

"..."

"Lin Jing, your PPT, whether it's a joke or not, is really well done, but unfortunately, its premise is wrong, so the conclusion can only be wrong. It is based on the fact that I am a person like you. Based on the calm, rational, powerful and noble person I portrayed, and that is just the appearance I have been trying to maintain. As you can see, I am not calm, and I am not noble. So you don't want to listen to me Talking about it, I can understand."

"..."

Zhuo Wenyang is humble, he is definitely calmer than most people.After saying so many violent words, the only changes in his whole body were that his speech became faster and his lips became tighter.His skin was still as white as snow, his expression didn't fluctuate much, and he didn't even pant.

What a great lung capacity it must be.

I was suddenly a little sad, and I felt sorry for him, he seemed to think he had no right not to be calm.This is the most restless he can allow himself as an adult.

I stretched out my hand and placed it on his cheek, it was strange that such pale skin had such scalding heat.

Then I leaned in and pressed his lips hard before he could react.