Pandora's Box

I kind of can't remember when and how I left there.

By the time I realized what I was doing, I was already walking alone on the road with deep feet and shallow feet. For some reason, I was still clutching the backpack that didn't belong to me.

The streets of T City are very cold at night, I don’t wear much, and after walking for a long time, I gradually become so cold that I can’t move my fingers, and my mind is not smooth, so I found a small hotel with lights on in the dark street, thinking Rest your feet.

After registering and entering the room, the heating relieved my numbness a bit, and my limbs barely came alive again.

I was terribly tired, but unwilling to lie down on the bed, I tucked myself into a chair by the table and threw my head back against the wall.

So far, my mind is still not clear and confused, I don't know if it is because of that punch.

Concussion?

I do not know.

But as soon as I close my eyes, there are many pictures flashing in front of my eyes uncontrollably and fast in turn without stopping.

In order to escape them, I can only force myself to open my eyes again.

I hid for a day in this small hotel.

In fact, I can't even talk about "hiding", I just sit in a daze and take a nap, because this kind of "hiding" has no meaning in itself.Check-in requires personal information.As long as Lu Feng thinks, he can find me anytime, and then crush me to death with one hand.

But I don't seem to particularly care.

No one came to arrest me, so I just drifted along and muddled through.

I sat and sat, and the time I could keep my eyes open became shorter and shorter, and finally I fell asleep.

I had a dream. I dreamed that I was riding a bicycle crookedly. I couldn't ride it well. Cheng Yichen was sweating profusely and ran after me. Zhuo Wenyang was looking at me from the side. They were all smiling at me.

Then the smiling face suddenly turned into an angry one.

I woke up suddenly.My body slid down and my head hit the table.

I got up and looked out the window. It was already dark and it was still raining outside.

The cold winter rain was carried by the night wind, came in through the window, and hit me on the face, which finally made my brain clearer.

I went to the front desk to buy instant noodles, and I ate them quickly after they were hot. I just finished eating for the first time since last night.

After recovering a little strength, I began to clean the wound on my face, and then went to buy some medicine to deal with dizziness.

I have to go now.

I have had my revenge.I ruined them as I wished.

In fact, I didn't expect that what I wanted would come so quickly and so easily.I don't even have to do the last step myself.

Although I was the instigator, the one who killed Cheng Yichen was precisely Lu Feng himself.

This is simply better than I could have imagined.

Is Lu Feng doing this on his own accord?

I thought about it and couldn't help laughing out loud.

But the voice sounded weird in an empty room, not pleasant at all, but permeating, so I shut up.

I know I should leave here, the sooner the better, there should be no more hesitation.

There is no place for me in T City, and there is nothing worthy of my nostalgia.

No one will miss me either.

... Not entirely true, maybe there is.

Cheng Yichen.

I still vaguely remember the feeling when he lay on top of me.He is so light.

Weird, he chose me in that moment.

why?

I can't figure it out.I really do not understand.

But it probably doesn't make a difference either.

He is no longer here.

After packing up my things and gathering my mind, I called Sun Shilun again, and this time the call was finally connected.

I smiled and said, "Mr. Sun, it's really hard to find you."

He still said in a good voice: "Oh, sorry, it was a little inconvenient before."

"Then it's convenient now, right?" I asked, "What about the things you promised me? And you promised to arrange someone to take me out of T City? Mr. Sun, you won't be a noble person who forgets too much, right?"

"Oh, it's already this time, why are you still talking about this?" Sun Shilun said, "I'm in a mess here now, and the mud bodhisattva crosses the river, and I can't protect myself."

I said very angrily: "What do you mean, are you going to go back on your word?"

His tone was still very kind: "I just gave you a lesson for free, young man."

If you want to kill a giant beast with steel and iron bones, you need to let the snake bite its only weakness and inject poison into its most vulnerable place.

Although it will definitely throw the snake down and trample it to death in a rage, but who cares, anyway, the fatal wound has been cast, and the mission of the snake has been completed.It makes sense.

I blew the whistle for myself.

Hang up the phone, I called a car.

It's too remote here, and the nearest driver would have to spend half a day to get there, which is the result of my fare increase several times.

When I checked out the room and went to the side of the road to wait for the car in the rain, I suddenly found a black figure standing not far away, as if watching me or waiting for me.

I stared at the figure vigilantly, and then it really moved, and it slowly walked towards me.

Although the streetlights were not very bright, I could quickly see the face of the person coming.

It's Cheng Yichen.

My whole body tensed up.

I'm mentally prepared for everything.But the person who came was him, not Lu Feng, or the thugs sent by Lu Feng, which made me suspicious.

I killed Cheng Yichen, of course his brother hates me, but can he hate me more than Lu Feng?

Cheng Yichen walked in front of me, we both stared at each other silently, I noticed that his eyes were red.

I'm not surprised, of course he cried for Cheng Yichen.

He suddenly put his hands in his arms.

I instinctively jumped.

But what was pulled out was not a gun or anything lethal, but a bag that didn't know what it contained.

He handed it to me and said, "You take these and let's go."

"...???"

Seeing that I didn't move, he came over and unzipped my backpack, and forced the bag into it.

I stepped back and asked him, "What are you doing?"

He didn't answer me, but said hastily: "You go, find a place to hide first. Lu Feng will not let you go."

I smiled: "I'm not afraid."

I'm really not afraid of death.If that's the price revenge needs.

"Don't be like this." His face looked extremely pale under the dim light, "You must be careful and take care of yourself. Don't use your card and ID anymore. I have prepared another card and cash for you , and some things you can use on the road."

"???" I was puzzled, "Why? What does it matter to you?"

He looked at me.

"What the hell does this mean?" I was full of suspicion, and I was also annoyed, "Are you kidding me?"

"..."

"I killed Cheng Yichen, don't you hate me? Why do you want to help me escape?"

He stared at me, his lips trembling for a moment.

I thought he was going to say something, but he didn't make a sound after all, just looked at me with red eyes.

I scolded him: "Is there something wrong with you?"

He didn't respond, but said in a low voice, "Hurry up, Xiao Jing."

I looked at him, and for a moment, I thought he was about to cry.

Of course I know that I should leave as soon as possible, but for some reason, my feet seem to be unable to move.I ask him why?"

"move."

"..."

He seemed to choke up: "Come on, kid."

"..."

The car I called arrived, with double flashing lights next to it.

Cheng Yichen suddenly stretched out his hand and put it on my shoulder.His hands were shaking.

He said intermittently: "In the future, you must take good care of yourself. I have not been able to take care of you..."

Suddenly, I realized something: "Are you Mr. X?"

I saw his face clearly, and he was actually in tears.

In his silent tears, my brain suddenly roared.

All the things came up, all the strangeness, all the coincidences, all the clues.

Before he opened his mouth, I said again: "Yes, you are Mr. X."

I repeat this answer because I instinctively want to escape the deeper, another answer.

The hand he put on my shoulder had been firmly trying to push me away, but at this moment he struggled to hold my shoulder tightly.

He said, "Xiao Jing!"

"..."

"I, I am... Dad."

"..."

In this rainy night, and in his choked sobs, his voice was scattered and scattered, almost unable to form a complete sentence.

"I'm sorry...I, I'm yours...I'm..."

He raised one hand, as if he wanted to touch my face, and then only lightly touched my cheek, and shrank back in shame as if he had been scalded.

His fingers were trembling and cold.

The rain was getting heavy, so I stood there blankly.

"I'm sorry...Xiao Jing. Dad...I'm sorry for you..."

He suddenly hugged me tightly.

He hugged me very tightly, as if he had exhausted all his strength, as if he wanted to melt me ​​into his flesh and blood, as if he would never be able to hug me again.

This was the first and only hug I got from my biological father.

Soon he let go of me.

"Let's go, Xiao Jing."

"..."

"Let's go," he said with a sob, "the farther you go, the better."

He opened the car door, put his hand on top of my head, pressed me down, and firmly pushed me into the car as if trying to block something for me.

Through the rear window, I silently saw his figure getting farther and farther away, getting smaller and smaller.He also ran a few steps, as if to say something to me.But I can't hear you.

The car drove for an unknown amount of time, and then finally stopped.The driver read formulaically: "The pier is here, please take your belongings and don't miss your luggage."

I have no luggage, only this backpack that originally belonged to Cheng Yichen, and the things that Cheng Yichen gave me inside.

After getting out of the car, I lost my sense of direction and took two steps in a daze. The wind at the pier was even colder, and I stood in the wind in a daze.

After standing for a while, the phone rang.I looked down and saw the expected phone number and answered it.

Sun Shilun's distraught voice came from over there: "You bastard, ungrateful, bastard, you are not a thing, you..."

I listened to his abuse for a while, and said with a smile: "Hey, how should I put it, the enemy's enemy may be a bigger enemy. I just taught you a lesson for free."

The intel I gave him was mostly true, and it did a good job of showing them my cornered sincerity and credulity.There is only one that I have tampered with a little.

He is indeed careful step by step, and of course he will inevitably fall into the pit in the last step.

This world is like this, no matter how good the calculation is, if you make a wrong move, you will lose everything, no matter who you put it on.

I know that I am the poisonous snake used to sneak up on the giant beast.

Except I bite on both ends.

I really am not something.

I hung up the phone, pulled out the card, and whistled again involuntarily.I really want to thank Sun Shilun, for bringing me such happiness at this time, it’s like sending charcoal in a timely manner.

I bought a ticket and sat in the waiting hall.The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, the hall was not airtight, and the night wind was blowing in, making it very cold.

I shivered a little, so I put the backpack on my lap and unzipped it.

I know there are windbreakers and scarves inside, Cheng Yichen put them in that morning.

I put on the windbreaker and wrapped the scarf around my neck, nose and mouth, and it was finally warmer.

There was still something of the old days on the clothes, as did the scarves.It was a familiar, reassuring, warm smell that belonged to Cheng Yichen.

I think of his gentle face, his smile, the feel of his fingers caressing my hair.

He said at that time: "Xiao Jing, you are a good boy."

"..."

I was not born to be destroyed.

I wasn't born for this.

What I want is not this.

I sat quietly, tears welling up in my eyes.

The ship seemed to be approaching, and some passengers started to line up, and I stood up, silently intending to join the line.

Then I suddenly saw Zhuo Wenyang in the crowd that wasn't too crowded.

My heart sank suddenly.

I looked at him, and he looked at me, and I didn't see any emotion in his eyes.

After recognizing the reality, I suddenly calmed down again: "Are you here to arrest me?"

He said, "No."

He looked out of shape, even a little more haggard than Cheng Yichen.

I did succeed, I think.

Besides Lu Feng and Cheng Yichen, I also ruined him.

"Really?" I asked, "So what are you doing here?"

He didn't make a sound, just looked at me carefully, as if it was the first time we met, looked me up and down seriously, and wanted to scan my image.

After a while, he said, "I'll see you off."

"..."

I seem to have heard a bad joke.

Everyone knows their father and son love each other deeply.Did he mean to send me off when he came to see me off?

However, he just stood quietly opposite me, as if he really just came to see me off.

The boat arrived, and the passengers began to pass through the ticket gates in an orderly manner.

I called him: "Hey, if you don't take revenge, it won't be too late."

He still didn't move.

I frowned suspiciously: "I treated your dad that way? Don't you hate me?"

He didn't speak.

"Oh," I said, "I see, you got even because I took revenge on Lu Feng, who you hate the most?"

He shook his head.

"why?"

He looked at me, still silent.

I pondered for a while, figured it out, and suddenly couldn't help laughing.

This is indeed Zhuo Wenyang's style.In fact, it is not surprising at all.

He is like this, a saint who has neither love nor hate.I can imagine why he doesn't hold grudges against me.

I mocked: "It's because you are tolerant, you are great, you pity me, a stupid mortal, and want to influence my lost soul, isn't it?"

"No."

I smiled: "So you don't want to hit me, and you don't want to influence me, so why did you come all the way here?"

He said, "Because I like you."

"..."

It seemed very quiet all around.Only the wind was blowing.

"Lin Jing, I've liked you since we were classmates in high school."

"..."

"I've always, really liked you."

"..."

"Always."

I looked at him, and he looked at me.

We stared at each other in suffocating silence.

In his field of vision, he gradually seemed to be shrouded in a thick layer of fog.

If this is in that year.

If none of those things happened.

If there is really an if in this world.

I can finally breathe again.I took two steps back suddenly, turned around, and quickly walked through the ticket gate.

I heard him call me in a low voice: "Lin Jing."

I said, "Goodbye."

I knew that his figure would slowly disappear into the crowd.I want to see him again, just one more time.

But I didn't look back.

I can't go back.

I bid farewell to him and my past self in my heart.

I walked down the aisle quickly, the wind outside was very, very bitter, so cold that I couldn't speak.

Obviously winter is coming to an end, but the chill in the air is so penetrating to the bone marrow.