Pandora's Box

When I got home, I checked my phone over and over again.His profile picture was quietly lying in the WeChat list. I clicked on it and quit it, quit it and clicked it, clicked it and quit it, but I couldn’t think of a perfect way to start chatting with him.

After thinking about it for a long time, I finally couldn't help but make a move, and the result was: "Are you there? ^^"

He replied quite quickly: "Yes."

"Are you home? ^^"

"arrive."

I continued my dick three times: "What are you doing? ^^"

"Get ready for a shower."

"..." Is this a standard answer from a male god?

I can only go to the end: "Go, wash it well, bye. ^^"

"Bye-Bye."

I squatted on the chair with my hands crossed and stared at the chat box. Is this going to be gone forever?

Fortunately, after a while, the news came: "It's finished."

I regained my energy immediately, and in case he said "It's late, I'm going to bed", I quickly acted first: "It's still early, I shouldn't be going to bed yet."

He replied: "Not yet." There are also a few smiling emoji expressions.

I:"……"

"Can you stop using this emoji?"

He replied: "Huh? Why?"

"It's scary," I said, "It's a smile on the face, MMP in the heart, it's swearing."

He said, "Sorry. I don't know."

This guy is really old school == does anyone even surf the web.

So I'm generously sharing a curated collection of laughing memes.

"You can collect it and keep it for later use."

He quickly returned a laughing emoji.

Children can be taught.

"What are you doing?" he asked.

"Me..." I really wanted to make up a reply on the content of Gaoda, but the DV over there has already frantically urged me to go online, "I'm going to play games."

I would rather chat with him than play games.But I gave up on the benefactor's father, where do I get the money to treat him to dinner? Am I really going to steal a battery car to support him?

He replied: "Oh."

I was afraid that this would be gone later, but fortunately, after a few seconds of fear, I received another message from him: "What game are you playing?"

I immediately replied: "PlayerUnknown's Battlegrounds, have you ever played it?"

"No." Then he added a laughing emoji.

=_=...

Looks like I have to share some other emoticons with him.

"My teammate is live broadcasting on Douyu, the room number is XXXX, do you want to see it?"

"it is good."

The word "good" made me feel as if I had been beaten with blood, gearing up to kill the Quartet, and I became more and more courageous every time I fought.

After playing for a while, I couldn't help but ask him, "Are you watching?"

"Yes," he said, "you're having a good time."

I was immediately flattered: "Really?"

"If it wasn't for your age, you could consider playing professionally."

"..." Hearing these words, he didn't know whether he should be happy or worried.

These four words are too heart-wrenching when you get older ==

Of course he is telling the truth. As far as e-sports is concerned, at the age of 22, his responsiveness has already begun to decline.At the age of a professional player, it is too disadvantageous in front of opponents who are seventeen or eighteen years old.

But I never thought that I could eat this bowl of rice. After all, I don’t even have a single thing that I can do well from the beginning to the end. In the eyes of everyone, playing games is just me playing games.

12 years ago, when I first started using my dad’s computer to play World of Warcraft, playing games was regarded as spiritual opium, and Internet addiction had to be cured.

He asked, "Do you have your own studio?"

"No."

"Actually, you can also consider starting a channel as an anchor."

I was taken aback: "... Me?"

"Yes. You play well, you react quickly, you talk funny, and you scold people."

"???" Is being able to curse people a good thing?

Before the chat was over, the line went in again.But for the first time, I feel that the game time is so long, and I always want to end it early so that I can concentrate on chatting with him.

After playing a few more times, it was nearly twelve o'clock, and I took advantage of the spare time to ask him, "Are you still asleep?"

"Well, I'm working," he added, "watching while working."

"You work a lot, do you work and study?" I remember that when I met him outside of class, he was not reviewing his homework, but dealing with work.

"That's all right to say."

"My grandfather is getting old, and I hope I can help the family share more," he said, "He is afraid that he will not live until I can take over."

I was taken aback for a moment.

"Some time ago my grandfather was ill, and we were all very nervous. He is recovering well now, but when I look at him, I always feel that I am watching him less and less every day."

It feels like his life is so heavy.

I couldn't help but say: "But you are still very young."

He was quiet for a while before returning: "I can only grow up quickly."

I suddenly didn't have the mind to play games at all. I whispered to the DV that I had to download first, and I would play tomorrow night. It didn't matter if the red envelope was not given out. DV expressed understanding.

"Aren't you playing?"

"Ah."

After a while, he said, "Sorry, it affected your mood."

"No, no, nothing," I said hastily, "I'm also tired from beating, and I want to chat with you."

He made another laughing emoji.

"==..." I said, "I have several sets of classic expression packs here, I recommend you to download them."

"Oh……"

"Speaking of which, your father, don't you want to help?"

"After all, divorced, my dad is a complete outsider to my mother's family," he said, "and it's impossible for my dad to take over. His health is not good, and his brain and spirit can't keep up."

"Then you, do you hate your father??"

"No, my dad and I have a very good relationship," he said after a while, "Actually, my parents are very good people and love me very much. After they divorced, they still kept in touch like friends. ,until……"

"what?"

He didn't continue the topic, but said: "They are destined, maybe it's just that they chose the wrong way to get along."

Hearing him say that, I feel very relieved for him.Although it is an incomplete family, at least there is love.Much better than my tearful parents.

"Then, do you plan to bring your dad back to live with you?" Even though they are legally alienated, it still feels different to have someone who can be called "Dad" at home.

"Actually, I seldom go to him," he said.

"why?"

He didn't speak.I suddenly had a flash of inspiration: "He has formed a new family, hasn't he?"

"Ah."

Damn, I can understand that too well.Originally, I still thought about my dad a little bit, after all, I only have such a dad left.But when he was with that Cheng Yichen, I really couldn't stay with them calmly.

He said: "We have also met, but most of them are outside."

I suddenly felt so pitiful for him, it made me want to touch his head.

I understand the feeling of being homeless even if you have a home.

So I can only say that I am unhappy trying to make him happy.

"Actually, my parents were also divorced. When I was very young," I said, "they are still alive, but after they divorced, they never saw my mother again."

I sent a sighing expression: "I really don't remember what she looks like anymore. She doesn't care what I become at all."

He also made a sighing expression.

==This guy is really updating the emoticons obediently.

"Speaking of which, do your parents often quarrel?"

He said, "Not really. As far as I remember, they were very harmonious. They never quarreled once, not even loudly."

I was very surprised: "Then why did you get divorced?"

"Probably because it's not the right person. There are feelings, but not love."

"Having feelings is not enough?" I feel that I will never understand marriage and love, "I can't figure out why your parents divorced, just like I can't figure out why my parents got married—they touched each other There is no one who is not noisy, and they always talk with guns and sticks, yin and yang, just like two old onmyojis. In fact, it is better to leave, and the world can be a little cleaner."

After a pause, I couldn't help but say again: "And they don't love me at all."

"There will be no parents who do not love their children," he said.

I was suddenly irritated: "That's just because you haven't seen it!"

"..."

"If you haven't experienced it, you feel that it doesn't exist? You can eat and eat every day, and you feel that no one is hungry?"

"..."

"Some people just shouldn't be born, because no one wants him to be born, his existence is not welcome from the beginning, and every second he is in this world is superfluous!"

After a moment of silence, he said, "Sorry."

I suddenly felt vulnerable.For the first time, I really wanted to cry.

He asked, "Are you crying?"

"..."

"I feel sorry for you."

"..."

I didn't speak any more, and after a while, he sent an emoji of a rabbit hugging another rabbit.

My heart is sour and soft.

Even if he is better than me, it is difficult for him, and there is no happiness to speak of. Neither of us has a normal family, and neither has complete fatherly love and motherly love.

It seems that two very lonely little animals can only keep each other warm.

Before falling asleep, I wondered vaguely, would he really hug me if I was next to him?