After amnesia, monopolized by paranoia

Lu Bei ignored the counselor's question, walked under the hanging microphone and asked, "Qi Rang, are you still taking drugs?"

Everyone knew what the word "drug abuse" meant. Although Lu Bei stopped after saying this sentence, the large classroom with more than 400 people was inexplicably quiet.

Qi Rang couldn't hear anything anymore, his consciousness was completely occupied by Lu Bei's words.

He looked at Lu Bei in a daze. From a distance of tens of meters, it seemed that the man was right in front of his eyes. He could clearly see the movement of every muscle on Lu Bei's face, forming a complicated picture that he couldn't understand at all. expression.

Those things that were suppressed in the depths of his mind suddenly vibrated, like crazily growing water plants, intending to break through a solid and impenetrable barrier and occupy his peaceful consciousness.

Qi Rang pressed his head in pain, and many images flashed by quickly, but he couldn't capture them completely, and was forced to scan those unfamiliar images as if he was looking at flowers on horseback.

"Rang Rang, what's the matter with you?" Gao Yuanyi found that something was wrong with Qi Rang next to him, and hurriedly asked, "What's the matter with these people? It wasn't enough last time, but it's still here this time. You don't have to pay too much attention to what he said. We They will definitely believe you."

No, what he said was true, what Lu Bei said was true.

Qi Rang just knew that what Lu Bei said was true, just like he could tell at a glance that this person was Lu Bei. He lost his memory, but some things were just hidden in unnoticed corners. its to find out.

The counselor on the podium scolded Lu Beidao: "Who are you? I advise you to get out quickly, and I won't pursue the matter of your intrusion today, otherwise I will call the guard room now."

Lu Bei turned a deaf ear and even grabbed the counselor's wrist to prevent him from calling the security guard.

"The wounds on your arms were all left after injecting drugs. You won't forget it, right?" Lu Bei smiled, but every word he said pierced Qi Rang's heart.

Qi Rang held his scarred arm through his sleeve, and finally knew why Jiang Shuixin had such a big reaction when he saw his scar in the bathroom that day.

Jiang Shuixin knew at that time that he had taken drugs, so he went back to find Lu Bei, and that's why he had the video of the National Day...

Seeing Qi Rang's pained and confused expression, Lu Bei showed a happy but extremely complicated look in his eyes, and continued: "You forgot, but I didn't, because your brother Qi Yuebai almost didn't stop you from taking drugs. I'll beat you to death. Your Qi family is so powerful, rich and powerful, what's the point of killing a child from the countryside?"

"My father died, and I couldn't go back to see him for the last time. Are you proud?"

"Oh, your parents knew that you and your brother were together, so they didn't die of anger? Your parents are really good parents, no wonder they can raise you and Qi Yuebai, a match made in heaven and earth."

"One is a slut who seduces his own brother, and the other is a pervert who fucks his own brother. You guys make me sick."

Following Lu Bei's words, there were gasps and discussions that were deliberately suppressed in the originally quiet lecture hall.

It was so noisy that Qi Rang's brain was about to explode.

He was becoming more and more unable to control the pictures in his mind, they were getting faster and faster, new pictures were constantly pouring in, compressed to the extreme, accompanied by Lu Bei's cold eyes - bursting.

Qi Rang's ears were buzzing, in the extremely gorgeous and distorted colors, he saw himself trapped on a bed, his expression distorted like a beast losing his mind, "Please, kill me, I I can't take it anymore, let me die! Please, let me die!"

Qi Yuebai sat on the head of the bed with a gentle expression, but in that gentleness, there was clearly a chilling indifference to everything, he pressed Qi Rang's forehead, and comforted in a steady voice: "Rang Rang, it's okay Yes, brother is here, and brother will definitely make you better."

It's over, Qi Rang is in pain to death, he heard from his brother's phone call that he is infected with the most addictive drug, and it is impossible for him to get better in his life.

"Rang Rang, you must get better. After you get better, shall we get married?"

Qi Rang tried to ignore the restlessness coming from all over his body, trying to see his brother's expression.

He couldn't see clearly, but suddenly remembered that a long time ago, he found out that he fell in love with his brother, and told his best friend Lu Bei about it.

Lu Bei seems to be good at everything, encourage him to pursue him if he likes, and teach him to change his elder brother's view of him first - no longer a younger brother, but a suitor.

So that night, Qi Rang plucked up the courage to enter his brother's room, waiting anxiously for his brother to come back, imagining what his brother might say to him.

Among all his fantasies, he never imagined that his elder brother would look at his naked body indifferently and say, "Rang Rang, it is impossible for us to be together, I am your elder brother."

In his eyes, his elder brother is the representative of a British gentleman, and he will always pamper and let him.

"But we are not related by blood!" Qi Rang wanted to refute.

Qi Yuebai replied: "Then I am also your elder brother, and will always be your elder brother. You go back, and I will treat what happened tonight as never happened."

The first confession ended with Qi Rang being carried back to his room. Qi Rang was a little sad, but he was encouraged by Lu Bei again after returning to school:

"The first time your brother knew that you liked him, it's normal for him to subconsciously refuse. The next thing you have to do is to pursue him hard. You live with him, and he dotes on you so much. If you want to pursue him, you are close to the water Deyue, he will definitely like you."

Qi Rang was still immersed in the sadness of being rejected by his brother for the first time, and did not speak.

Lu Bei took another dose of strong medicine: "Think about it this way, your brother is so good, if you don't pursue him, there must be many people chasing him, don't you want to see your brother's position next to him being replaced by another man?" Are people occupying it?"

"……I do not want."

"Then you must keep working hard, don't worry, I will help you."

Most of the pursuit plans given by Lu Bei are simple and straightforward, such as finding ways to increase physical contact and make the atmosphere ambiguous.

Qi Rang felt that he was not doing very well in this aspect. For example, when he accidentally got burned, his brother handed him the water glass, and he drank it a few times. He felt that his tongue did not hurt so much. He looked at his brother expectantly and said something Ambiguous words:

"This is the water you drank..."

"This glass of water is placed relatively close, do you feel uncomfortable?"

"No, I feel very happy..."

"Happy what?"

"We call it indirect kissing." After speaking, Qi Rang blushed with embarrassment, but still stared at his brother's reaction anxiously.

Qi Yuebai's reaction could be said to be indifferent, and he flung aside the cup that they both drank, "I will pay attention to it in the future."

Qi Rang felt that his seduction plan had failed so badly that he couldn't fail anymore, and lowered his head in disappointment, but he didn't know how his unique naive sex appeal sharply cut Qi Yuebai's reason.

Qi Yuebai was far less calm than he seemed, and it took him a lot of effort to restrain his urge to kiss Qi Rang.

But he knew that he couldn't do this, not because of the so-called brotherhood, but another kind, a hidden emotion hidden deeper.

Qi Rang's "clumsy" seduction lasted for two years. In his own opinion, the only use of hard work is probably to test that his brother probably really doesn't like him, and he will never like him.

Until his poisoning happened, his brother told him, "When you recover, we will get married."

Qi Rang knew that those words were for comfort, not love, but he was really too uncomfortable. He tried his best to grab the last straw, telling himself over and over again that he must get better and marry his brother.

Isn't everyone like this?We didn't like each other at first, but as time goes by, we will.

he can't give up...

This kind of thinking supported Qi Rang to spend three years of married life. In fact, it was no different from before marriage. His brother still couldn't hug him, couldn't kiss him, and he didn't live the so-called married life. The older brother chased forward until Jiang Shuixin appeared.

Until now, Qi Rang didn't know whether he should thank Jiang Shuixin or hate Jiang Shuixin.

Their meeting was a coincidence, Qi Rang regarded Jiang Shuixin as a girl, Jiang Shuixin used this as a reason, and began to have an intersection with him.

But they really became close because of an event that happened half a year after that.

At that time, Jiang Shuixin asked Qi Rang to be a model. Qi Rang went to the appointment, but he couldn't wait for Jiang Shuixin all day. After that, Jiang Shuixin didn't show up again for a few days.

Qi Rang couldn't sit still anymore. He heard from his classmates that Jiang Shuixin had been hanging out in the bar these days, so he hurried to find him.

Qi Rang took the drunk Jiang Shuixin away, and after Jiang Shuixin woke up, he knew what had happened in the past few days:

"My mother is dead." Jiang Shuixin said in a very calm tone, as if he didn't care about the woman's death.

But Qi Rang knew that Jiang Shuixin must have cared about his mother for being so drunk.

"She has never fulfilled the responsibility of a mother," Jiang Shuixin continued to elaborate: "She only has her dead first love in her heart, which is my biological mother."

Qi Rang opened his mouth slightly in surprise, he shouldn't be like this, but hearing such shocking news suddenly, he is really not a person who is good at controlling his expression.

"Are you so surprised? Didn't Gao Yuanyi tell you about my family's situation?"

Gao Yuanyi didn't want Qi Rang and Jiang Shuixin to get too close. Indeed, he told Qi Rang a long time ago what a weird and terrible family Jiang Shuixin had, but at most he said that Jiang Shuixin lived with his parents and another man. Together, Jiang Shuixin's mother may be the same wife.

What he didn't know was that his family was not a homosexual couple, but a combination of two pairs of homosexuals.

"I'm sorry..." Apart from being sorry, Qi Rang didn't know what else to say.

"You don't have to apologize to me, and it's none of your business." Jiang Shuixin hooked the corners of his lips mockingly, and continued: "Since that woman died, she has been crazy. She doesn't care about any family or children. She just wanted her first love back. So, she created me, a half-male monster."

Jiang Shuixin once knew that he was a boy, but so what?He gradually lost his gender in the beautiful hairpin and soft skirt. He was no longer forced by his parents to put on glamorous makeup, but when he saw his beautiful self in the mirror, he felt sincerely. stunning.

However, she died.

When his father told him the news on the phone, he comforted him earnestly: "I have wronged you all these years, and you also know that since your Aunt Lan left, your mother has suffered from depression. We have not dared to stimulate her all these years. , I can only indulge her in dressing you up as a girl."

"But from now on, you don't have to make yourself look like a man and a woman. I paid you tens of thousands of dollars. You can buy some men's clothes and things that boys like. You'd better go to the gym to practice. , It’s fine in the past, but you’re a man after all, you’re going to get married and have children, and you’re as thin as a bamboo pole, and you don’t look good.”

"What the hell am I?" Jiang Shuixin asked: "I am their burden to deal with the elders in the family, a tool to keep her alive, and the next father's body to carry on the family."

"Rang Rang, it's boring, don't you think?"

"How can it be boring? There are still a lot of delicious food and beautiful scenery in this world. You can also draw, and many people like you." Qi Rang comforted Jiang Shuixin clumsily.

"Do you think these things are interesting? But I don't think so. They are all so dull."

"It doesn't matter if you can't find something interesting right now, as long as you can find it, you can definitely find it. If you don't mind, you can come with me and I will share something interesting with you."

Jiang Shuixin took a deep look at Qi Rang, as if he could see the holy light of divinity behind Qi Rang that could save all living beings.

"Well then, you accompany me to find something interesting."

From this day on, the relationship between Qi Rang and Jiang Shuixin has grown by leaps and bounds, becoming closer and closer. Seriously, the relationship between them is more like some kind of mutual meaning. Qi Rang helps Jiang Shuixin to feel life, and his own feelings are also There is redemption in the process.

More than a year ago, when Qi Rang came down from Yunding Mountain, he saw his brother who had been waiting at the foot of the mountain all night, and said, "Let's get a divorce."

The heartbeat and pursuit of youth finally came to an end at this moment.

Qi Rang decided to return his freedom to his brother and let himself go.

But he never thought that getting married was easy, but divorce would be so difficult.

First of all, his elder brother flatly rejected his request for divorce just like he rejected his confession at the beginning, and then his parents did not allow him to divorce because of the bondage of family interests.

Qi Rang couldn't understand his brother more and more, but he was sure that he didn't want to chase after his brother forever like before. He decided to find a wider world, so he secretly submitted an application for studying abroad to the department. The application was not told to Jiang Shuixin secretly until before departure.

On the day of going abroad, Qi Rang only dragged a small suitcase. He could buy many things in France. For the first time, he completely abandoned the old days and decided to pack lightly.

At the check-in counter, Qi Rang's wrist was suddenly grabbed.

"Rang Rang, where do you want to go? Why don't you tell your brother?"

Unexpectedly, he was discovered in the end, so Qi Rang simply broke the jar and said, "I'm going to study in France."

"Go back with me."

"I will definitely go out. If you stop me today, I will go out tomorrow."

"thanks for reminding."

At first Qi Rang just felt confused and didn't understand what this "reminder" meant, until he was locked at home and couldn't go anywhere.

Qi Rang spared no effort to escape from here, and later, the iron rope was put on his ankle.

"I don't understand! Why did you do this? You obviously don't love me, why did you keep me by your side? Why!" Qi Rang was so angry that he was like a trapped animal, he grabbed the damn iron chain and questioned Qi Yuebai.

"Why do you say that you don't like this for me?"

"Isn't this obvious? I've pursued you for so long, but you never promised me. Even after getting married, you are still as indifferent to me as ever! Do you still want me to deceive myself that you actually love me?!"

"Of course I love you."

Qi Rang didn't want to be swayed by Qi Yuebai anymore, he shook his head and said, "You lied to me! You don't like me at all, and you will never like me! You just can't accept that I like Jiang Shuixin. You never did this before you appeared!"

"I really don't like him, Jean, you are free and should not be owned by anyone."

Including Jiang Shuixin, and of course himself.

Qi Rang couldn't understand Qi Yuebai's words at all. Did he mean that in the past few years, it wasn't that his brother didn't like him, but that he felt that he shouldn't be owned by anyone, so he never touched him?

What kind of shit reason is this? !Qi Rang would rather hear his brother say that he never liked him!

Years of grievances continued to ferment, and finally reached the peak. Qi Rang broke down and smashed everything on the bedside table, "I must go out, I would rather die than continue to be locked up by you here!"

Qi Rang, who was born bright, may really not be able to understand Qi Yuebai's mentality, like a child in an orphanage who has not had enough to eat for a long time, and suddenly got a candy, and would not want to put it in his mouth immediately If you swallow it in your stomach, you will want to keep it well. If you are greedy, you will look at it more, touch it more, and secretly lick it when no one is around, to taste the sweetness that only belongs to him.

But if someone covets his candy, or even tries to steal it from him, no matter how reluctant he is, his natural possessiveness and the madness bred in the dark will definitely prompt him to swallow the candy in one gulp.

And Qi Rang is Qi Yuebai's candy.

Qi Rang didn't understand Qi Yuebai's psychology, and couldn't stand it anymore, and even tried to commit suicide to force Qi Yuebai to let him go.

Qi Yuebai's madness and possessiveness hidden deep in his bone marrow finally broke through his reason, he kissed Qi Rang with a pill in his mouth, and fell into the gorgeous world together.

From now on, Qi Rang will no longer think about staying away.

The author has something to say: a sudden update, haha!