Temperament

"No, now I can't wait to split myself up a few times to make things work for you. You didn't even have an accountant to match me before. When you woke up, the first thing you did was to ask if she was okay!" Gu Qingyang pretended to be distressed. road.

Zhuo Tianyi laughed, "When I get well, I will transfer you the best accountant in the mansion."

Gu Qingyang shook his head, "Isn't Shen Qinglan the best in your house, are you willing?"

"Except for him." Zhuo Tianyi hurriedly dismissed it.

Gu Qingyang withdrew his smile, "Tianyi, I want to ask you, are you really so attached to Shen Qinglan?" He corrected his expression, and asked seriously: "With your skill, you won't be able to deal with a few thieves, Even if Shen Qinglan was taken hostage by them, you would not be so seriously injured. Tell me, what is going on with you to Shen Qinglan? Do you really want him so much? I remember you said that if you want him, I can't swallow the breath of Meng Huaiyuan and Jiang Moyan."

"Uncle Jiu, you don't understand." Zhuo Tianyi closed his eyes and smiled, "To tell you the truth, I always thought that I wanted him because I couldn't bear it, but now, I know very well that I am not. I am I want him to stay by my side with peace of mind. He only sees me in his eyes and only thinks of me in his heart. Don’t think about others, let alone want to leave. I can give everything just to keep him by my side. "

"Give everything, just to keep him by my side..." Gu Qingyang paused thoughtfully, and asked again: "If you really die, will you regret doing so?"

Zhuo Tianyi shook his head, "If it weren't for the fact that I have no choice, I don't want to do it either. This is my last chance. If I die, I have nothing to regret. I only know that if I can't keep him, I will regret it. "

Gu Qingyang stared at him blankly, with a serious look on his usual lazy and elegant face that had never been seen before.

"Do you think I'm particularly worthless doing this? It's not like what the head of the family did?" Zhuo Tianyi asked.

"It would have been possible in the past, but not now." Gu Qingyang said bluntly, "I used to think that I was older than you, and I always pretended to be romantic, thinking that I was more transparent than you when it comes to love. Unexpectedly, a In a blink of an eye, you walked in front of me."

Sighing, it seemed to be speaking to Zhuo Tianyi, and it seemed to be talking to himself, "The word love is too difficult to understand, and it is difficult for anyone to pass through thousands of flowers without a single leaf touching the body. "

Zhuo Tianyi heard what he said casually, and seemed to mean something, thinking that even Uncle Ninth Master couldn't stay so free and easy all the time, let alone himself.

Gu Qingyang was afraid that talking too much would affect his rest, so he briefly said a few words about the affairs of the house and left.Zhuo Tianyi drank the rice porridge and decoction fed by the servants, and fell asleep again.

When he fell asleep full of hope, Shen Qinglan was wandering in one dream after another that seemed real or unreal.In the haze, a voice that could not distinguish between male and female, nor old and young, sounded next to my ear, "Shen Qinglan, do you really want to go? When the time comes, you will be hurt by a man, don't blame me for not reminding you, let alone regret!"

He heard the firm answer from himself who still didn't understand the young man, "Yes, I'm going, and I won't regret it at all!" The place where Meng Huaiyuan, a half-grown boy, rescued him.

He saw that when the boy who opened his eyes faced Meng Huaiyuan's pleasantly surprised smiling face, the light in his eyes burst out at that moment, like a chicken and a duckling breaking out of their shell when they first saw the giver of warmth and security. , destined to be an indelible impression.

After that, there were eight carefree years, and it was also the key to turning the ignorant boy into Shen Qinglan instead of someone else.Under Meng Huaiyuan's teaching, he studied the Four Books and Five Classics, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, he learned Meng Huaiyuan's way of dealing with people, and even learned his various hobbies. He knew him better than he knew himself.

Looking back now, Shen Qinglan found that she was walking along a path called Meng Huaiyuan.He has walked on this road for too long, so long that he thought that as long as he kept walking, he would catch up with Meng Huaiyuan not far ahead, and the two of them could grow old together.

But only now did I realize that after walking on this road for so long, I never caught up with Meng Huaiyuan. It was like when Meng Huaiyuan was practicing swimming on Taihu Lake, Meng Huaiyuan was always standing on the bow of the boat, while he was always in the water. The cloth rope was firmly connected, even though Meng Huaiyuan's eyes were always on him, but he still couldn't hold his hand.

The dream began to shake, and many pictures were interspersed together, disorderly and chaotic. For a while, there was a terrible scene of flash floods, and for a while, it was a warm scene of basking in the sun on a grassy slope, and for a while, it returned to the bloody scene in the dense forest.

Those pictures came one after another, constantly surging, Zhuo Tianyi's face began to appear more and more in the pictures, the expression on his face was ever-changing, and finally it was frozen into a ferocity in the dense forest that seemed to swallow people in one mouthful, and then, in the ear There was a rumbling sound, and his face suddenly turned into a crimson torrent, rushing towards him. Shen Qinglan was caught off guard and was caught in it, struggling endlessly.

Looking forward blankly, Meng Huaiyuan's figure was standing on the bow of the boat as usual, reaching out to him with a gentle smile, "Qing Lan, hold on, swim a little longer, and senior brother will pull you up!"

Familiar faces, familiar hands, familiar words, but she was surrounded by red waves and exhausted, Shen Qinglan finally heard her own inner voice in the rolling torrent, "Brother, where are you, why don't you come?! Meng Huaiyuan, Meng Huaiyuan, you Where the hell?!..."

The shouting went from light to loud to wild shouting to hoarseness to silence, and his body went from frantic to icy cold to the exhaustion of every ounce of strength. He was finally completely desperate in the growing torrent. There was a voice in his heart saying, brother, I'm tired and can't swim anymore...

In the turbulent waves, Shen Qinglan glanced at the figure at the bow of the boat again, then slowly stretched her hand to her chest and untied the cloth belt.

Farewell, Meng Huaiyuan.

Meng Huaiyuan's figure moved away in an instant, and when a wave hit, Shen Qinglan turned a few times in the vortex, sank to the bottom of the water, her ears suddenly became quiet, and her turbulent heart was finally completely silent.

The body is very heavy, indescribably tired, as if after a long journey exhausted every bit of hidden strength, and finally lost the feeling of soreness, all senses became dull and hazy, as if lying in a pile of cotton , that long-lost feeling of relaxation and softness slowly embraced the whole body.

Could it be that this is death?Shen Qinglan asked herself in her heart.

The eye sockets were extremely sore, and a tear slowly flowed out of the eye sockets and slid down the cheek like a traveler who had traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers.

When Zhuo Tianyi woke up again, he felt that his mental and physical strength had recovered a lot, and he pulled the iron chain on his left wrist, but there was no response. Thinking of Shen Qinglan's fearful and desperate face that night, is he still angry with himself?

He tried calling out "Qing Lan", but there was no response, still sleeping?Zhuo Tianyi struggled to get up, Zhuo Xin heard the noise and ran in from the outer room, "Master!" stepped forward to support him.

Zhuo Tianyi asked him to take the outer shirt and put it on himself, "Is the young master asleep?"

Hearing his question, Zhuo Xin changed his usual twittering temperament, but bowed his head and remained silent, his expression became serious, "My lord..."

Zhuo Tianyi's heart tightened, "What's wrong, young master?!"

Only then did Zhuoxin look up at him, his round face collapsed into a bitter gourd, "Master, he hasn't eaten since he came back. It's been almost five days now! Master, what should we do? Will you be hungry?" die?!"

"What?!" Zhuo Tianyi became anxious as soon as he heard it. In his panic, his chest felt a stabbing pain. He quickly raised his hand to cover it, "Help me there quickly!"

Zhuo Xin responded, helped him up, and walked slowly to the other bed across the tent.

When Zhuo Tianyi looked down at the person lying on the bed, he instantly understood what it means to be heartbroken like a knife.The person lying on the bed was as thin as a piece of paper, blue blood vessels could even be seen under the skin on his pale face, his lips were chapped, and a tear that had just dried up slipped from the corner of his eye.

The whole person is lifeless, like a dying person who is already terminally ill.

"How come...Shen Qinglan, Qinglan! Qinglan!" Zhuo Tianyi covered his chest with one hand, sat down on the edge of the bed, held Shen Qinglan's hand with the other hand, and cried out in a low voice.I really can't believe that Shen Qinglan turned into this after she was injured and unconscious for a few days.

Even though the two had been arguing and confronting each other before, he had already done everything he could.He originally thought that this would definitely make Shen Qinglan see his sincerity, and even if he didn't fall in love with him immediately, he would definitely not resist it endlessly.

Never expected that Shen Qinglan made herself into this appearance.

"How did this happen?! Where's the doctor?! Come here! Go get the doctor!" Zhuo Tianyi yelled wildly, grabbing Zhuo Xin's collar by his side, "What are you still doing? Go get the doctor!" Show it to the young master!"

Zhuo Xin cried out, "Young master, the doctor comes every day, just came in the afternoon, and said... that you need heart medicine to treat your heart disease, and the son's heart is not clear, and the medicine stone is useless! Huh..."

"The heart knot is not opened, and the medicine stone is ineffective..." Zhuo Tianyi murmured and repeated, his heart was twisted like a knife, and he shook Shen Qinglan's body with one hand, "Shen Qinglan, what do you want from me? How can you be well?" Stop torturing yourself and tossing me?! You say it! You say it!"

In a frenzied state of mind, there was a sharp pain in his chest, and he couldn't tell whether it was the pain in the wound or the real heartache. After shouting a few times, he was exhausted, so he could only bend down, hug Shen Qinglan into his arms, and hug her tightly.

At this time, I realized that the countless times of helplessness towards Shen Qinglan in the past did not add up to the gravity of this moment. It was the helplessness and powerlessness emanating from the depths of my heart, which gnawed at my heart.

Shen Qinglan seemed to have heard his shout, and slowly opened her eyes, which looked darker and brighter than usual.The slight itching on his cheek made him turn his head to see what it was.

Zhuo Xin shouted in surprise, "Young master is awake, young master, young master is awake!" No wonder he is so happy, even if Shen Qinglan wakes up these days, she keeps her eyes closed and remains silent, and sometimes she can't even notice whether he has woken up or not. .

Zhuo Tianyi raised his head and saw Shen Qinglan looking into his eyes, he was also infected by Zhuo Xin's surprise, "Hurry up, go ask the cook to cook something to eat!"

Zhuo Xin ran to the outer room to bring a bowl of rice porridge warm in a wooden barrel, "Young master, I have always prepared food, I am afraid that you will not have time to make it when you want to eat!"

"Quickly, help the young master up!" Zhuo Tianyi ordered.

Zhuo Xin put down the porridge bowl, stepped forward to carefully support Shen Qinglan's upper body, and stuffed a pillow behind him.Zhuo Tianyi squeezed the soup spoon from the bowl, scooped up a spoon, blew it cool, and handed it to Shen Qinglan's mouth, "Hey, take a bite."

Shen Qinglan looked at him, there was neither the fear and despair of a few days ago, nor the tenderness he expected to appear in those eyes, but extremely calm.

It seems that everything has passed, and everything is bearish.

Zhuo Tianyi's heart was beating like a drum, not sure what Shen Qinglan was thinking at this time, since the relationship between the two of them did not appear as he expected after this huge change, what would happen?

Everything will be clarified after Shen Qinglan speaks.

He looked nervously at Shen Qinglan's opened eyes and closed lips, like a prisoner waiting to be sentenced.

The author has something to say: Shen Mi finally broke the invisible bond between herself and Meng Huaiyuan, and bid farewell to him...