Temperament

If, if he met Meng Huaiyuan one step earlier than Jiang Moyan, confessed to him his longing for so many years and the secrets buried in his heart, and then told him Jiang Moyan's whereabouts at this time and Zhuo Tianyi's love for Zhuo Tianyi that he heard in the small hotel. Jiang Moyun's dialogue, what will happen to Meng Huaiyuan?

He was almost certain that Meng Huaiyuan would not, nor would he, refuse him and stick to the status quo.Because Meng Huaiyuan saw his eyes, he could clearly see the excitement and joy in them, which cannot be faked.Moreover, Jiang Moyan had already returned to Zhuo Tianyi's side, it was impossible for Meng Huaiyuan to chase after them and break them up, Zhuo Tianyi couldn't do that kind of thing, and Meng Huaiyuan was even more impossible.

Therefore, Meng Huaiyuan will bring himself back to the Meng family, that is a fact that can be guaranteed.In this case, those concerns and worries about the Meng family's reputation and status in the world can be ignored.He believed that Meng Huaiyuan, the man he had loved deeply for ten years, would take care of everything for him.As for myself, I just need to put my affectionate eyes on him and follow behind him.Moreover, he can also bring unexpected benefits to him and the Meng family. He believes that Meng Huaiyuan will love him, just as he loves Meng Huaiyuan, and definitely will.

If so, how good would it be?

It was supposed to be like that, the four of them, it was supposed to be like that.Even if Jiang Moyan changed his mind as Zhuo Tianyi said, he still couldn't catch up with Meng Huaiyuan and himself.

He should be the one who should come back to Zhuo's house!As for the bad debt between him and Zhuo Tianyi, let them settle it slowly.

Just a little bit, a little bit!

He can even now clearly remember that Jiang Moyan seemed to have twisted his feet when he walked, and the torn and dirty hem of his moon-white robe.Come to think of it, that night, like himself, he hurried on the road leading to Meng Huaiyuan and happiness just like himself.

It's a pity that their starting point is not the same, he has walked a longer distance than Jiang Moyan.

Just such a journey has changed everything that should have been.

Jiang Moyan was led into the Meng family's carriage by Meng Huaiyuan with a smile in front of his eyes, and ran happily towards happiness; while he was mistakenly bound together by fate with Zhuo Tianyi, suffering with no end in sight. day.

His chest was so congested that he couldn't breathe, his eye sockets were so hot that they were sore and astringent, but no tears flowed anymore, it seemed that even the tears were blocked in his heart.

He stood up staggeringly, clutching the hem of his clothes and walking back and forth in the inner room, as if he was followed by invisible fear.

Her footsteps became faster and faster, and her heart became more and more confused. Shen Qinglan was like a trapped animal, struggling in vain in the cage, looking for a way out.

After a while, he seemed to remember something, threw himself on the bed, picked up his pillow, turned over, found a silk bag from the interlayer, opened it in a panic, and the jade pendant appeared in front of his eyes.He held it into his hand impatiently, to feel the delicate and moist texture of jade.

But in fact, from the moment she saw this jade pendant, Shen Qinglan's heart became even more difficult to calm down.There is another jade pendant that is exactly the same as this jade pendant, with the word "Shen" engraved in the corner. It is made of sky blue jade with tassels of the same color, hanging on the dark blue silk satin robe. It looks like It's like wearing his heart on his body.

This pair of jade pendants should have been together in the first place, he had learned from the master of the jade and utensil shop for a long time, and he had carved the pattern of connected branches on it so that they corresponded to each other, making them look like a pair.

A pair, a pair...

Shen Qinglan couldn't bear it anymore, she stood up and took a few steps to the door, opened it and ran out.

It was still daylight outside, and the servants probably went to the cashier to get their monthly money, but there was no one in the courtyard at this time, not even Zhuoxin.

Shen Qinglan ran out of the courtyard gate, ran to the corridor in front of the East Wing, walked through the path between the East and West Wings, and ran straight to the back garden.

The back garden is very large, with many tall trees planted, connected with the woods behind.Through the woods is the back mountain.

There are stone paths and steps on the back mountain, and there are plank roads at the foot of the mountain.Shen Qinglan ran wildly all the way, leapfrogged to the top of the mountain in one breath.

At this time, the sun had already set, and the red-orange color of the mountains in the west reflected the Qianlong River, which meets the sky in the distance.

It was dusk, the summer heat dissipated a lot, and the wind on the top of the mountain was very strong, blowing hair and skirts fluttering wildly.

Shen Qinglan walked a few steps quickly, came to an open area at the highest point of the mountain, and looked towards the direction of the Qianlong River.

At the place where this river flows into the sea, there is also an ancient city with warm mountains and soft water, and beautiful scenery.His lover is there.

Tears are like fruits that have finally matured after the accumulation of four seasons and the nourishment of rain and dew, rolling down in a rustle, and shattering on the chest with fluttering hair.

If Jiang Shui could take him all the way east to find Meng Huaiyuan, realize his long-cherished wish for many years, and wash away the dust all over his body, Shen Qinglan felt that she would jump down without hesitation.

But now, no matter where they jump from, they will never reach the place called Meng Huaiyuan. There have been thousands of tributaries and countless dangerous shoals between them.Looking at each other from a distance, during this period, it is like a world away.

Just because, when it was most likely to arrive, there was a little accident, and there was a slight deviation.

Just a little bit, a tiny bit.

The swollen emotions in her chest were finally no longer suppressed and neglected, her sobs turned into wails, Shen Qinglan clutched the broken jade pendant, and lay on the ground weakly, unable to cry herself.

On the top of the mountain shrouded in twilight, a group of birds, startled by crying, fluttered over the head, facing the oncoming river wind, and flew to the high place where the water and the sky meet.

Shen Qinglan didn't know how long she sat on the ground until her tears dried up and the dew soaked through her clothes, then she slowly got up and walked down the mountain with numb steps.

After walking a few steps, he stopped, Zhuoxin yelled "Young Master, I found you", ran up quickly, grabbed his arm, "Why are you here, I'm so anxious!"

Behind him stood Zhou Yunlei with worried eyes and complicated expression.

Shen Qinglan walked past him silently, Zhou Yunlei moved his lips, wanting to say something, but finally held back.

Zhuo Xin looked at Shen Qinglan, "I went back to the room after receiving the monthly payment in the afternoon, and saw that the young master was not there, and the door was open. I waited for a while and didn't see you back, so I went to the housekeeper and Senior Brother Zhou, and everyone lit a torch. , I searched for it for a long time. Brother Zhou and I went up to the back mountain to try our luck, but I didn't expect to find you."

Shen Qinglan didn't speak, Zhuo Xin looked at him worriedly, and said again: "My lord, it's so late, what are you doing here at the back of the mountain, what are you doing here in the dark, if we encounter snakes, insects and beasts, how can we explain to the young master?" ..."

Shen Qinglan listened dumbly, letting Zhuo Xin help him walk down the back hill step by step.

When approaching the East Chamber, Zhou Yunlei called out behind him, "Shen Qinglan."

Shen Qinglan stopped in her tracks and remained silent.Zhuo Xin looked at Zhou Yunlei from the side, and whispered to Shen Qinglan: "My lord, I'll go over and talk to the butler first, so that he won't be in a hurry." Then he ran into the yard in a hurry.

Zhou Yunlei took a few steps closer, "I'm sorry." He said with difficulty, his voice hoarse, "I know it's useless to say anything now, you can beat me and scold me, just please don't do this..."

"There's no need to say anything," Shen Qinglan said without turning her head, "I want to come back myself, and it has nothing to do with anyone. That's it."

As he spoke, he lifted his foot and stepped into the courtyard gate.Zhou Yunlei looked at his back from behind with heavy eyes.

Back in the room, Shen Qinglan dragged her heavy body to take a shower, and after Zhuo Xin's various beggings, she ate something without taste, and then went to bed.

Maybe it was because he was tired, he fell asleep as soon as he went to bed, his body was so heavy that he seemed to fall into a dark and endless abyss, and he fell straight into sleep.

In the next few days, I will still have classes in the morning and shop around in the afternoon.Zhuo Shi'an was intimidated by Shen Qinglan's sudden disappearance that night. After that, whenever he went out, he followed him every step of the way. When he returned to the East Chamber, he also ordered Zhuo Xin to adopt close-fitting tactics. He even followed him to take a bath and relieve himself, and slept in front of his bed at night. Threatening to stay there until Zhuo Tianyi returns.Shen Qinglan was extremely helpless.

Sure enough, Gu Qingyang did exactly what he said, he came to eat, drink and have fun.In the past few days in Zhuo Mansion, like Shen Qinglan, she ran around the shops in Jinyang City every day.The difference is that he didn't go to assist Zhuo Tianyi's Zhuo family's business, but went to drink and chat with his senior brothers and nephews. Every day he came and went freely like wild cranes, which was a great joy.

Days are like the water of the Qianlong River, rushing forward non-stop, and those thoughts are like the waves swirling and disappearing on the river surface, and it takes only a moment to pass away, but the undercurrents and eddies hidden under the water surface Never stopped, never disappeared.

In the afternoon, Shen Qinglan visited the last shop in Jinyang City - North Street Silk and Satin Shop, and then boarded the carriage to return to Zhuo Mansion.Zhuo Shi'an sat beside Zhuo Quan who was driving outside the car, chatting with him casually.He is a man of all ages who can chat with anyone. Not only can he understand Zhuo Tianyi's mind, he has a good relationship with so many Zhuo family children, and even the servants in the mansion have a lot to talk about with him.

Shen Qinglan was sitting in the car, with a big bag at her feet, which was just taken over from the smiling tailor Lu Xiantou after reading the accounts at the silk and satin shop, saying it was the latest ready-to-wear.

A while ago, I had sent the boy in the shop to deliver it twice. This time, Lu Xiantou was very happy to hand it over to him, and he repeatedly praised Shen Qinglan for being easy-going and not picky. The stitches on the hem of the clothes have to be long and short, which makes it very difficult for them to do.

Shen Qinglan doesn't like this kind of so-called praise very much. The relationship between Jiang Moyan and Zhuo Tianyi is well known, but now he is placed in the same position as Jiang Moyan, and they are allowed to compare and comment. The side publicity of his relationship with Zhuo Tianyi made him disgusted and resisted.

As long as he doesn't hit the smiling person with his hand, he can only take over the burden, put on a smiling face, and say a few polite words casually, so as not to take away the kindness of others.

Good intentions, good intentions again.This kind of kindness is not worth mentioning.

He thought lightly, listening to Zhuo Quan and Zhuo Shi'an gossip about which servant girl fell in love with which boy, and gradually became a little tired.

Just as he was about to fall asleep, suddenly, there was a sound of copper bells coming from outside the car.The sound of the copper bell is so familiar and intimate to the ears, even to the point where it will make people feel an unstoppable excitement and joy from the bottom of their hearts.

Shen Qinglan rushed to the window of the car, lifted the curtain and poked her head out.A convoy of escorted goods came one after another from the rear of the car. On the flag post in front of the head car, "Meng" with yellow characters on a blue background fluttered in the wind, which was exactly the same as in memory. Even the blue on the flag was all in my mind. The most familiar and kind look.

That was the Meng family's motorcade.

For a moment, there was an unspeakable excitement in my heart, my throat was so choked, I couldn't even breathe smoothly, my eyes were hot and sore, and the fundus of my eyes seemed to be gently pricked by thin needles.

Shen Qinglan clutched the car window frame tightly, knelt in the carriage, watched the convoy slowly passing by the road with greedy eyes, wishing to imprint the image of the Meng character flipping and fluttering in her field of vision.

Unfortunately, the convoy was not going in the same direction as them. At the intersection of the street, it turned to another road and gradually disappeared at the turn.

As the sound of the copper bell gradually disappeared, Shen Qinglan turned around and closed her eyes.If possible, he wished he could become a piece of cargo on that carriage, at least the cargo was heading towards Meng's house, and even though he was a living person, he could only stay in this carriage and return to Zhuo's house.

On the street behind the car, Zhuo Tianyi, who was riding a horse, tightened the reins in his hand, watching Shen Qinglan's carriage slip away, a dark look flashed in his eyes.

The author has something to say: Many things seem to be accidental, but they are inevitable.It's just that many times we are unwilling to take the responsibility we should bear, and push it to accidental or external people and things.Shen Mi is trapped between her own accident and necessity, unable to extricate herself.

Sometimes it is difficult for us to clearly define what kind of emotion it is for some people and things, but there will be a deep sense of involvement, which will make us feel involved in someone's life.Xiao Zhou witnessed Shen Mi's life trajectory in the past three years, and also participated in an important link in the change of Shen Mi's fate. It was not easy for him to stay out of it.His feeling towards Shen Mi was this kind of deep involvement.