I was reborn after swallowing twenty fingers

——[Osamu Dazai] Born in 1909, his real name is Shuji Tsushima.

Novelist, representative writer of rogue school literature.A master of modern Japanese literature.

"Setting Sun", "Run, Melles", "One Hundred Views of Mt. Fuji"... and "No Place in the World", etc., have many works in his life and are very famous.

that's all!

For honor.

The following is life - the writer Dazai Osamu committed suicide five times in his life.

The first time was to take sleeping pills, but it failed due to insufficient dose.

The second time I jumped into the sea at the seaside of Kamakura and was rescued.

Hanging/hanging for the third time because of losing the Akutagawa Prize, the rope broke.

……

The fifth time, I drowned in Yuchuan.

The writer Dazai Osamu was not discovered until a few days later.

The day his body was found coincided with his 39th birthday.

――You are still so young.

This is the Dazai Osamu that Knotashi Yuhito knows.

That's right.

That's exactly what a teenager thinks.

In the biographies, in the works, and the evaluations of the writers of the same generation, it has been recorded-Osamu Dazai.

However, this is not the Osamu Dazai who is right in front of his eyes.

The waves of the river messed up the boy's early cherry-colored hair, and when he floated towards the bank with Dazai Osamu half in his arms, he jumped out of the water.

It is doubtful that his wet and unruly hair will cry bloody red.

In the final analysis, the Dazai Osamu he knew was just the literary giant he once remembered. He was born to be a nobleman, but his whole life was tragic and glorious.

Long Yu Fu, but said that he could not understand the thoughts of rich people.

Knotweed doesn't understand the Dazai who is right in front of his eyes, what he knows, what he understands, is only the novelist, the rascally great writer.

…No, it’s not even accurate to say that.After all, what Polygonum cuspidatum understands is only the life trajectory of the writer, not the heart, so it is a bit too arrogant to describe it as "understanding".

That's all Knotaba Yuhito knew.

And about them who did not appear as writers in this world... Chuya Nakahara, Sakunosuke Oda, Osamu Dazai, etc.

Therefore, the two should not be confused.

They are different people.

But even so, when the knotweed heard the self-introduction and the look from the person in front of him.

——Almost the first instant association.

Writer Dazai Osamu.

He committed suicide five times in his life and finally drowned in Yuchuan.

...That's right, that's the thing, that's all.

Because of this kind of association that I don't know if it will happen.

Knotashi Yuhito would run wildly around Yokohama in the morning and afternoon, chasing the sun, the stars and the moon.

From the wind to the clouds and from the grass to the flow.

Knotweed asks the whole city for a person's whereabouts, and asks the fish and water for the origin of his life.

A boy named Knotabagi Yuhito, here he is.

"--finally found you."

The knotweed was drenched all over, and his early cherry-colored hair was dyed a bit red in the setting sun.

Deep, smudged tasteless land.

"Good afternoon, Mr. Dazai." The boy squatted beside Osamu Dazai, waving to him energetically.

"...Ha." Osamu Dazai completely disregarded his wetness and lay down on the ground, "What are you doing here?"

As if he hated the glare of the setting sun again, he covered his eyes with his arms.

"I don't remember us getting to know each other so well." The boy's tone was as heavy as the black coat he was wearing, and there was a faint, imperceptible sternness, "You are following me, it's Little Pie Are you here to disgust me?"

Knotweed sat obediently by Dazai Osamu's side and listened.He didn't admit it, but he didn't open his mouth to defend himself.

It seems that it doesn't matter whether the other party treats him in the dark or doesn't appreciate it, it doesn't matter even if he stabs him back.He just looked at Dazai quietly like this, neither persuading nor preaching.

In the end, Osamu Dazai who got no response was the first to stop angrily.

"……why."

With a soft and hoarse voice, it was extremely low.

"Huh? Why are you asking... because your name, Mr. Dazai, gives people a feeling of dying." Knotweed turned his eyes to him, and said with great certainty: "Well, that's it."

The great writer [Osamu Dazai] committed suicide five times in his life, the last time, he succeeded.

The young man with a faded smile on his face lost two points of his healthy stupidity, and his expression was clear.

"The feeling of dying or something... this is a curse." Osamu Dazai stared at the knotweed for a while, then looked away, sticking out his tongue listlessly: "It's so vicious."

"Huh?" Polygonum cuspidatum didn't seem conscious, "It's okay."

"so what?"

Dazai raised his wet cuffs, "Just because of this inexplicable reason, are you looking for me every day?"

"It's too much, it's not inexplicable! I'm going to be angry!"

Just when Osamu Dazai was expecting Yuzu Yuhito to get angry—the boy got up and went to pick up the m note he had just dropped.

He gestured to Dazai who was still sitting there, "When you are in a bad mood, fried chicken and Coke are the best choices."

"Shall we eat together?"

"That's right, who wants to eat junk food!"

Although it is disgusting, Osamu Dazai is much happier eating than knotweed now.

They sat on the bank of the river.

The white and lush reed covered most of the figures of the teenagers.And the land under the body is wet with residual water, so you don't need to care about anyone's eyes.

Knotashi Yuhito didn't ask Dazai Osamu why he committed suicide, but just pulled him out of the water, gave him fried chicken and Coke, and smiled at him.

It is said that the name Dazai Osamu gives people a feeling of dying, so he will spend time looking for it until he confirms that [Dazai Osamu] is still alive.

"……I see!"

In an atmosphere so quiet that only the wind was rustling, the boy with a bandaged eye suddenly realized, "Sure enough, it's because Mr. Knotweed is an idiot!"

"...Huh?" Knotthu Zhang turned his head in disbelief.

Osamu Dazai looked at the boy's face: "It's an idiot."

"Hey, wait a minute—"

"Sure enough, it's an idiot!" Osamu Dazai directly set up an idiot three times, completely ignoring Knotweed's desire to stop him.

Knotweed: ...

Harmful.What do you care about with the idiot, let's make do with it, how can you throw it back into the water?

"Forget it." Knotweed ran down the dripping water from the tip of his hair, completely giving up resistance: "Although I don't agree with Mr. Dazai's statement, it's great to see you can be so energetic."

……what.

Isn't this an idiot?

Osamu Dazai failed to bully him to the point of crying, and began to exhale disgust.

That's right.

Knotabagi Yuhito is an idiot child, he can't learn how to become a smart adult.

Maybe it was a whim that day, or as Osamu Dazai once said, he found Odasaku's work very interesting... In short, he participated in the work of Odasaku that day.

Catch a runaway kitten for a high-ranking lady.

On that day, Osamu Dazai met Yuzuhito Knotashi, whom Oda Saku had mentioned by chance.

The boy's eyes, like the cat he had just caught, were the same bright, vibrant amber gold.

Until both pairs of eyes look up at the same time.

――At that moment, [non-existent memory] appeared in Osamu Dazai's mind.

He was sitting in the seat of the head of the port mafia, which was the chair Mori Ogai was sitting in now.

Looking up is the interior decoration in dark tones.Oda Sakunosuke fell asleep next to him, with a stack of manuscript paper under his stubbled face, which was a novel he had recently written with a new theme.

After lowering his gaze, it was a scarlet scarf that symbolized the identity of the leader.

--and the death of a young man.

[Knotweed Yuren died] How funny and ridiculous.

He was a good man with a bright and cheerful personality, completely different from Osamu Dazai.

I won't jump/hang from stairs, I won't enter the water, and I won't think about mixing up messy medicines and swallowing them.

Will take the initiative to help others, and will take the initiative to ask a person who seems to be in a bad mental state if something happened.

Emotional intelligence is very high, the king of support.Has a strong ability of empathy, and will seriously stand on the other side's standpoint and think about problems.

... Such a person is dead.

As a result, there is a strong sense of unreality that is cut off from reality.

'Dazai Osamu' thought about his many endings and the end of the world.

On the wind-blown Tamagawa, the fire-burnt bar, and the liveliest beams in Kabukicho.

Or the seeds of conspiracy and deceit in the other world took root and sprouted in his body until a bright red flower formed on his chest.

But no matter how many times he wanted to go, it was Osamu Dazai's 'himself', he never thought that Yuzu Yuhito would take a step ahead of him.

After all, that's the 'Knotweed Yuren' huh?

The one who would go out of his way time and time again to save a hopeless man who was keen on committing suicide... Knotweed Yuuhito.

however.

It was such a good boy that he died.

The death penalty was executed.

But he did it voluntarily.

[This world...God, what are you doing. ] People who commit suicide are saved time after time.

The man who saved everyone is living to die.

The knotweed flowers withered.

In that summer, Jing Chan made noise for the 365th time.

Who embellished whose life, and who ruined whose life?

――[Non-Existent Memory] is over.

Silence scattered.

Dazai Osamu squinted his eyes and smiled under the strong sunset light.

He declined the willingness of the knotweed to take him home.

He promised lightly that he would settle down for a while recently, and his tone couldn't tell whether his emotions were true or false.

"Then, you have to be nice to yourself." Although still a little worried, Knotweed still chose to trust the other party, "Go home and take a hot bath, drink hot water, and keep warm."

You have to be nice to yourself.

"You too." Dazai said inexplicably.

Although Osamu Dazai knew very well that the knotweed would still continue the habit of 'morning jogging', but what happened next would make this person have no time to take this into consideration.

The official has obtained and distributed the news about the invasion of foreign powers.

Yokohama is going to be in chaos.

Osamu Dazai laughed 'huhu', and then looked down calmly.There flows the water of Tamagawa gurgling at sunset.

Just like the day when the knotweed caught the cat.

The boy in a black overcoat, with half of his eyes covered under a bandage, talked to him as if standing on the verge of dreams and death.

Those eyes were filled with a dark iris-colored desolation.

What was blocked into the pupils of the eyes was the back of the boy wearing a hoodie. His early cherry-colored hair was twitching, and soon disappeared, far away from Dazai Osamu's sight.

"I'll do what I should, and probably what I shouldn't."

"And you, what are you going to do." There was no doubt in the words that came out.

The youngest cadre in the history of port mafia, his gaze is far beyond the sky—"God."

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