retired from port today

I know Rintaro is not lying.

My mother was originally a member of the Akagumi, and after handing me over to a friend, she went away with her king, but she didn't expect that the Himi couple also died not long after.

Only their good friend Rintaro Hyuga knew about my background.

It turns out that Ema is not my sister either. Thinking of this, a sarcastic smile appeared on my lips.

I locked myself in the apartment for a few days, during which I didn't return anyone's calls or messages, not even the leader's message.

I think the speed of adjustment is still very fast. After about a week, when I really couldn't stand the environment at home, I was finally ready to go out for a walk.

The moon hangs in the dark sky, which is very obvious.

I don't know if something happened recently, it's a good season to cool off at night, but there are no people on the road.

There is a river not far from the apartment. Not long ago, I took a walk here with Shinichi and the others. Walking on the familiar street, I looked at the river and thought of a person inexplicably.

If Mr. Zhi was here, I don't know if he would come here and enter the water.The last time he was still in Waterloo here, I am afraid that he has cast a psychological shadow on the water here.

Thinking this way, I walked forward, and there was a dark figure standing under the bridge not far away. If I didn't get closer, I couldn't see it clearly.

It was so late, who would hide in such a dark place.

I became alert in my heart, moved my steps lightly, tried not to make a sound, and approached the black shadow.

"Who?" I heard from nearby residents that this area is rather chaotic, and murderers often flee here, because this is the territory of Hong Kong gangsters, and it is rarely found here.

When I think of this, I feel a little scared in my heart, and subconsciously want to run away.

Just as soon as there was movement on my feet, my steps stopped because of the voice made by the man.

"Chiba-chan?"

Listening to a familiar voice, I tentatively asked, "Is it Mr. Zhi?"

He didn't come out of the darkness, and acquiesced in his identity. Seeing him like this, I walked into the shadows and asked curiously, "Mr. Zhi, what are you doing here? Are you thinking about entering the water again?"

Dazai didn't deny it, his voice was dry, it sounded like he just did some strenuous exercise and didn't drink water: "Yes."

I felt something was wrong with him, trying to make out his appearance in the dark.

"Mr. Zhi, why is your bandage missing? Did you finally think about it?"

He touched his eyes, there was nothing covering them: "Yeah, I finally figured out something."

He doesn't look right now.

Realizing this, I didn't say anything else, I just knew that something must have happened during the few days when I disappeared to make him lose his composure.

"Mr. Zhi, maybe you didn't realize that you ran this way subconsciously, is it because I live nearby?"

Hearing this, Dazai's movements froze, he really didn't think about it, and subconsciously ran in this direction, so that he ran into her here.

"Maybe it's because Chiba-chan is safer here."

"It's better to say that I make people feel more secure." I corrected.

He laughed 'poof' and turned his head to me. Although I couldn't see his expression, his hand was lightly placed on my shoulder.

"Hey, you won't want to..."

As soon as the words fell, I felt a force coming out of his hand, and the ability would have no effect in the next second.

I looked at him helplessly: "Again?"

After being used for countless times, I lost my disguise again.

But in fact, in this pitch-black environment, it is impossible to see clearly what he looks like without camouflage.

I don't know how to do it with his eyesight. His eyes are looking at me back and forth: "Wow, is it fruit today? I quite like it."

I wasn't very happy, his tone was not as usual, but rather far-fetched, trying to force himself.

"Mr. Zhi, what happened?"

Although I think he may not want me to ask, but this kind of Osamu Dazai makes me very uncomfortable, as if all the programs are set, it is not natural at all.

He was silent for a moment: "Chiba-chan, you haven't gone on missions these days, what happened?"

I was surprised by his sensitivity, but felt that this was a normal reaction: "Yeah, it probably can't be compared with what happened to Mr. Dazai, but it was also a thing that changed my life."

He chuckled lightly: "What a coincidence."

"Mr. Zhi wants to know?" I asked him like this. After these few days, my mentality became better instead, and I felt that the evasive life before was meaningless.

He didn't say anything, so I assumed he wanted to know.

In fact, I didn’t intend to show my sadness to others, it’s just that after experiencing so many things suddenly, I had an urge to keep my mouth shut.

And there just so happens to be someone around who can listen.

"Mr. Zhi, although you may know about my identity. So there are some things I don't know clearly, but it doesn't matter if you want to tell the leader."

After all, I may not be very suitable for the black organization and Hong Kong black.

"I was adopted by an organization when I was young. Although I didn't have to worry about eating and drinking, the training inside was very hard. I couldn't hold on to it several times, and finally survived by luck."

"Until I was ten years old, I met my own sister and my father. At least that's how it was at the time. My sister is very strong, and she is a gentle and lovely child. Anyone who sees her will like her."

"At that time, I thought, as long as I live for a day, I will protect her forever - from the organization that killed my parents, how did I live every day at that time, probably to protect my family, revenge, two thoughts back and forth in my mind The circling makes me live mechanically every day like a living dead."

"Of course it didn't work in the end. You should also know that the power of the king I obtained, from the Red King, I know my life experience."

Dazai was obviously listening carefully, he didn't speak, but I think he should have predicted what was going to happen.

I smiled bitterly and said, "Isn't it a bit ridiculous? The father and sister I thought were not my family members. I feel that all these years have been wasted."

Maybe my words touched him, or maybe he was thinking about something. In the darkness, no one spoke.

After a while, he said slowly: "No, it's not too late from now on. From now on, you can still find the meaning of your existence."

He rarely said such comforting words, but he could hit the nail on the head.

"Chiba-chan, from now on, would you like to join me in finding the meaning of your existence?"

The night gradually receded, slowly turning into light blue, and even the ground had shadows from the sun.

With the light, I noticed the tear stains in the corners of the other party's eyes, and the inconspicuous dried liquid on the black clothes.

I looked at him and said, "Is it like the meaning you gave that child to live?"