[Quick wear] The protagonist always wants to press me

Despair still lingered in his heart, and before Lu Shen recovered from his grief, the surrounding scene changed.

The broken soil and cinders became flat ground, and the surrounding low slopes turned into lush forests.In front of you is a pool of clear water, and by the side of the pool are two people... skin to skin, going to Wushan together.

He stared blankly at that figure, even forgetting all the grief in his heart.

anger……

Anger without a reason.

He rushed over, trying to pull people away.His fingertips felt hot, and in the blink of an eye, the person in front of him turned into grains of sand.

Before he could feel sad, he was pulled back violently by a force.

He fell to the ground, and the surroundings changed again. The dark sky was filled with thunder, and a dazzling blue light exploded.

A sharp pain hit, as if something was missing.

The light dissipated, and his eyes became clear, and he saw himself hugging someone...

He couldn't see that person's face clearly, but he was very attached to the smell of that person's body.Like a lost treasure, he cherishes it very much, is very reluctant to part with it, and at the same time is very grateful.

Unfortunately, soon, he lost his baby again...

He watched himself disappear bit by bit, and finally turned into a flying green halo.

There was a vast expanse of whiteness in front of his eyes, and his consciousness was also light, only the constant pain was sparing no effort to remind him.

he is alive

He still has important things to do...

He still has important people to find...

He wants to protect him...

But what should he do?Who should he look for?Why should he protect him?

He... Who is he?

Questions ensued.

Unfortunately, his rigid consciousness could no longer move his thoughts.All he can do now is to follow his instinct to pursue the belief without reason.

The process was so painful that every second felt like a long night.He has also walked this road for a long time, so long that he needs pain to awaken his perseverance.

Slowly, he got used to the pain.

He was thankful, thankful for the maddening pain.

It is because of the pain that he realizes that he is alive, and that as long as he is alive, he has the opportunity to follow his beliefs.

Thinking about it this way, pain may be a gift to him.

It was also in this grueling gift that he kept searching, and he finally got rid of the boundless whiteness.

【...I want to eat mousse cake. 】

He heard the voice, and what the man said made him feel sour.

[I'm going to buy, I'm going now!You are waiting at home! 】

The eager and careful words were like a needle piercing his heart hard.

can not go……

can not go!

Can't leave!

He tried to stay still, but in the next second, his foot stepped out of the threshold.

Can't go!Can't go! !

He lied to you!He's going to leave you again, you can't go!

stop!stop now! !

He screamed like crazy, trying to stop it.

But that door is still closed

At the time of loss, the picture is also quietly changing.

This time, he didn't hear the man's voice.

In the setting sun, he was sitting on a small slope, holding a sleeping person in his arms, and an unfinished grass ring in his hand.

He stared at the ring in a daze until the sky was stained black and blue.

The person he was looking for had already left, and there was no trace of that person here.He didn't move for a long time, but because the body in his arms was tainted with the smell of that person, he was a little greedy.

He didn't catch up with the man, he should be sad.But for some reason, he felt sweet in his heart, with unprecedented satisfaction, even the sourness and bitterness of chasing all the way were tinged with sweetness.

Looking up at the last ray of red glow in the sky, a sentence suddenly appeared in my mind.

【I want to hold your hand...】

【Walking in the sun...】

He read it abruptly.

After being stunned for a moment, a pained expression appeared on his face, as if he remembered something, and similarly, he also forgot something.

Do you want to remember...

Confused, he kept asking himself this question.

Do you want to remember...

Are memories important...

Can he choose to forget...

There was a sudden pain in his heart, as if "choosing to forget" would kill him.The pain emanating from the flesh and blood was like demons, yelling resentment at him non-stop.

He can't forget.

He has to remember.

He asked himself again, why so determined?

Why……

Because he can't bear to...

He was reluctant to stop, reluctant to part with that forgotten memory, reluctant to part with the familiar breath.

He can't bear that person.

He is not afraid of pain, not afraid of death, what he fears is parting.

If pain is to open the valve of memory, and despair is the long road to memory, then he would rather be smashed to pieces on this road.

He'll get all his memories back, he'll remember everything!

The firm belief broke the wavering in the heart.

In an instant, a strong wind blew up around, the scene began to distort and change, and gray clouds and mist filled the air.

As if feeling something, he suddenly turned his head to look.

A person stood in the gray mist.

【You shouldn't have come...】

【I can't go back...】

He subconsciously shook his head, trying to grab the man's hand.

【I can't go back...】

Do not……

He rushed over to try to hug the man, but went straight through the gray fog.

【I can not go back……】

【You can't go back...】

He still shook his head desperately.

You can go back!

Just remember everything!

He roared in his heart like this, but there was no sound in his throat.

【You forgot me...】

I do not have! !

He roared sharply, but it's a pity that he is like a mute at this moment, no matter how much he shouts, he can't make a sound.

The man moved further and further away from him.He frantically ran towards the gray fog, but he was still unable to get close to it. Even touching the cloud of gray fog became a luxury.

【Here...will be my home...】

Whispers drifted past my ears, the gray fog in front of my eyes suddenly dissipated, and the road under my feet became a smooth floor.

The man is standing on the balcony.

【I said……】

【I can not go back……】

He watched the slender figure fall backwards.At that moment, his world was suddenly quiet.Without any thought, without any hesitation, he flew straight up.

This time, he finally grabbed those hands.

But before he had time to rejoice, the scorching flames rushed up and engulfed the man.

【This...is my home...】

The voice dissipated, and the figure of the man also fell into the snow.

At this time, the balcony has become a tower in the sky, and the long snow falls silently.

He stared at the people on the snow, almost full of jealousy.

Why……

Why is this!

He clearly caught it... He clearly caught it firmly!

【Because you forgot about him! 】The deep voice carried anger and resentment.

He turned his head, and a strange face appeared in front of him.

【You made him like this! 】

【why! 】

[Why let him die again and again! 】

[Why don't you save him!Why let go!You obviously can't make him suffer like that! 】

I do not have……

I wanted to catch him... I wanted to catch him!

【Why should I forget...】

【Why do you forget him...why】

【He is afraid of pain...he is afraid of pain, but you let him die in the most frightening way! 】

【all because of you!all because of you--! ! 】

He looked at the person in front of him. He had a lot to say and a lot of questions to ask.He wanted to think of everything too, he longed to think of everything!He watched the man fall in front of him, he watched the man leave again and again...

He also wanted to stop it, but he couldn't!

He can't solve this mystery!No matter how he thinks, he can't remember!He is also in pain, and he is also angry!

Finally, he grabbed the person in front of him, and the uncontrollable negative emotions almost made him collapse.

[Do you think you are the only one who is angry!I watched him fall, I saw him fall with my own eyes!I caught it, but he still left!Aren't you great?Then why don't you shoot, why don't you catch him!You also watched him die again and again!You are like me, you say you love him, but what happens?You didn't save him either! 】

[I'm trying!And you?You just watch!You blame me and hate me, so why don't I!It's obviously your fault...]

[It's your fault!It's your inaction that hurts!You give him back to me... give him back to me! ! 】

Unspeakable pain swept over his body, and a strong sense of suffocation suddenly woke him up.

Lu Shen opened his eyes and stared straight at the ceiling.That anger seemed to be still in his heart, but soon, it was overwhelmed by pain again.