1984 days when she disappeared

Cen Jin was born in a well-to-do family.

His father, Cen Haitao, is a geological expert in Qishi City. He has a bad temper, rigid temperament, and a strong machismo complex.

Her mother, Xue Yafen, works in the tax bureau and manages a lot of things. She acts in a hurry and has a strong personality.

The husband and wife have discord, often quarrel, and have no time to care for each other when they are busy.

The Cen family wanted a son and grandson wholeheartedly, but Xue Yafen gave birth to a daughter, and she was quite neglected in her husband's family.Cen Jin was raised as a boy since he was a child. He has short hair, vest and shorts, toys are airplane tanks, and games are basketball sandbags. Before entering elementary school, he always looked like a tomboy.

Xue Yafen always felt that this was not the way to go. After Cen Jin went to school, she started to develop her girly qualities - she often put hairpins on her short hair, bought her Barbie dolls for business trips, changed into colorful dresses and skirts, and bought cartoon stationery ... Cen Jin grew up ignorantly and vigorously under the guidance of different principles and policies.

After junior high school, Cen Jin is no longer at the mercy of adults, and has become very determined in life: he likes to wear shirts and trousers, which are comfortable and easy to match.I like to comb short hair, which is refreshing and easy to manage.Loves playing basketball, but hates boys playing on the hoop.Love to read books, see ten lines at a glance, day and night.I love to draw and draw a cartoon character with a few strokes.Neither dolls nor tanks like it, but with a pair of skillful hands, they are good at cutting clothes for dolls, or kneading an aircraft carrier out of clay.

Since childhood, her parents had no time to take care of her, and the elderly did not get close to her granddaughter. Cen Jin was lonely and comfortable in her childhood, going to and from school, basketball courts and painting classes alone.She doesn't like to talk, and she seldom advocates. She just keeps getting taller and hides her intelligence. She didn't attract everyone's attention until she got exceptionally good grades in junior high school. However, she has developed a personality of being a loner and going her own way.

Compared with Cen Jin, Siting's growth was much more bumpy.

When Siting was 4 years old, his father died in a production accident.

The only memory of her father is that Siting stumbled and fell into the river when she was young, choking on a lot of water, her father patted her on the back, the strength of that palm, every time she thinks about it, she feels a burst of warmth on her back.

But mother Liu Qin said that her father had never photographed her and was a doctor.

If I don't believe it, my mother must have remembered it wrong, otherwise my father's only memory would be gone.

Looking at the photo of her father's death, she seemed to be unfamiliar, and this strange face sank in her flesh and blood.

At the age of 5, he went to the city to go to kindergarten and lived in his aunt's house.My aunt was an actress of the Municipal Art Troupe. She was 30 years old and unmarried. She took Siting as her own child and sent her to learn dance and vocal music. Contracting, but Siting cried day and night to ask for his mother, and his aunt finally got impatient. It was okay to pay, but boarding was not.

Go to elementary school and finally reunite with my mother.The school took good care of her family and allowed her mother to work in the school cafeteria. She learned to be grateful at a young age. She should be grateful when the leader condolences, and never show embarrassment in front of her classmates when queuing for lunch.

I was not so lucky when I was in junior high school, so my mother switched to a part-time job.Three families a day, hurry up and go home at noon to cook for Siting.Siting knew early on that reading was the only way to change his destiny. Every day was like carrying a shackle, and he hated himself for doing a wrong question.

Nai He Si stops and looks more and more beautiful, and there are more and more boys around her, who often insist on sending her home, but she is worried about how to cover up the fact that she lives in a slum.

Finally, my mother gritted her teeth and moved into an old community. It was the first time to live in a building, and Siting was surprised by the flush toilet for a week.

Her person, her style, are all natural.And her fate seemed to be unable to afford such beauty, and she was even troubled by it.

Once, my mother's employer happened to see her and praised her appearance, "It's better to marry well than to study well, sister-in-law, you will be blessed with such a daughter in the future."

Siting seems to understand that this talent can be sold at a price.

Liu Qin also seemed to be awakened, and began to focus on her daughter's beauty.At that time, she had to cook a pound of shrimp in three installments to improve her life, but she spent [-] yuan to buy a skirt for Siting.Si Ting did not live up to the high expectations, and was approaching the throne of the school flower. I don’t know how many boys rushed to send her home, but she felt uneasy, like Cinderella who borrowed glass slippers and had to return them after midnight. Who could accompany her to the end.

Like Daddy's big hand patting her back, she wanted that kind of security.And in this family, the old, the lonely, the widowed, always feel that the world is unstable, and there is no happiness to sit on.

It's strange to say that it's so cute and kind, like thinking about it, but after seeing Cen Jin, he feels better, wants to ignore it, and makes a fuss.

One semester passed in the blink of an eye, and Cen Jin and Si Ting were inseparable.After school at noon, Cen Jin took her home and cooked noodles for her.

"Do you want to add a fried egg?" Cen Jin asked.

"I only eat fried eggs for breakfast, and poached eggs are served with noodles." Si Ting said.

Cen Jin smiled, "I only know how to make fried eggs. Every time I cook poached eggs, they disappear."

Si stopped and stood up, "I'll teach you."Beat the eggs into hot water, turn off the low heat, turn to high heat and cook until cooked, and gently shake with a spatula to prevent sticking to the pan.

A few minutes later, a round and translucent poached egg was cooked, and Cen Jin was amazed.

The two sat in front of the TV with bowls in their hands, "Siting, you are so virtuous", Cen Jin said while eating.

"Learn a bit, lest you will be clumsy and unable to marry in the future."

"It doesn't matter, the big deal is to become a monk."

"You should be a nun if you become a monk. Let's just say you're gender-misaligned!" Si Ting smiled and stared at her, the more familiar she became, the more naive and silly she felt. No wonder, living in such a big house and having such a good family, why should she rush to mature.

"Siting, what is your ideal?" Cen Jin asked.

"My ideal...you talk about yours first!" Siting said.

"I don't have any particular ideals, I just hope to live a happy life." Cen Jin said.

"Ha, isn't your ideal being realized every day?" Siting said.

"It's not." Cen Jin said.

"How come? How can you be happy if you have good grades, a good family background, a bright future, and do whatever you want?"

"It's all a matter of course, whether you're happy or not."

Siting sighed, "Hey, people are more angry than people, and it is obviously God's favor. How many people can't ask for it, it is a matter of course for you."

Cen Jin argued, "I didn't mean that. Of course people should cherish happiness. But when I say happiness, I don't mean having anything, but a sense of accomplishment, a feeling of doing something well. That feeling may be very short, very short. Rare, but wonderful."

"for example?"

"For example... For example, when running a race, you will be very happy if you use up your last bit of energy, cross the finish line, and get No. 1. But if you have a little bit of energy left, or get No. 2, you will not be so happy .”

Thinking of stopping to look at her, the corners of her mouth had the firmness of a teenager, and her brows were as innocent as a child.This is a person who focuses on himself and doesn't have to worry about dealing with the world. He seems to have inexhaustible energy throughout his body, but he is different.

"What about you, Siting? You haven't said your ideal yet."

"I hope to live a happy life." Siting lowered his eyes.

"Happiness? What is happiness?"

"I don't know either. Maybe it's your life. You have everything and don't worry about anything. When you open your eyes every day, you only worry about not having any worries."

Cen Jin pouted, "If this is happiness, then happiness is too boring."

Siting shook his head, "You don't understand. I remember when I was a child, every year and festival, I wondered why the neighbors were so noisy and whether they were fighting. Only when I grew up did I realize that not all families are like mine. No one came to the door, and there was no sound of bad things. Actually, I don’t know what happiness is, but I just envy others, the population is complete, noisy, there are relatives everywhere, and they will never be separated.”

Si Ting tilted his head slightly, looking out of the French window, as if caught in some distant thoughts, Cen Jin didn't dare to disturb him.

After a while, Siting came back to his senses, looked at Cen Jin and smiled, "People are very different, aren't they?"

Cen Jin suddenly had a heartache, and whispered, "I think, if it can make you happy, I'd like to give you everything I have."

Siting was startled, and smiled wryly, "Ajin, why are you so childish."

Cen Jin refused, "You don't believe it? Otherwise, you will be my sister, and you will have a share of everything I have."

"I'll be your sister, what are you going to do for me, Sister Monk?" Siting rolled his eyes lightly and smiled jokingly.

Cen Jin's face suddenly turned red.

After dinner, Siting and Cen Jin went back to school, seeing her walking in front of her with wind, couldn't help but twitch the corners of her lips.

She never talked to anyone about those deep thoughts, but to Cen Jin, she wanted to tell her whole heart.

One day at noon, the two were going to the cafeteria when they suddenly heard a girl calling from behind: "Cen Jin!"

Cen Jin turned his head, was stunned for a moment, then smiled, "Xiao Duzi!"

The girl jumped over and hit her, "I hate it, how many times have I told you, don't call me Xiao Duzi!"

"Haha, Xiao Duzi, why are you here?"

"Hmph, I won't look for you, you will never think of me!" The girl said and handed over the cake hidden behind her back, "Here, I made it myself, it's for the college bullies to fill their brains!"

"Wow, don't you want to be so touching! Let's go, treat you to dinner!" Cen Jin took the cake with a smile, and then remembered Siting, and said apologetically, "Siting, I won't go to the cafeteria today, a friend came .”

Siting nodded, seeing Cen Jin and "Little Belly" walk out of the school gate, he felt sore.

After lunch, Si Ting went off-campus to buy stationery with his classmates. He used the excuse that he couldn't find the pen he wanted, and walked from store to store. In fact, he just wanted to see which restaurant Cen Jin was in.

Finally found that Cen Jin and "Little Belly" were in a Taiwanese tea restaurant, Si Ting passed by the door, but unwilling, he turned his head and suggested a cup of milk tea to his classmates, everyone agreed, and a group of people entered the shop.

Siting pretended to glance at Cen Jin inadvertently, and just happened to dig a spoonful of cake and feed it to her with her "little belly", she opened her mouth and ate it with a smile on her face.

Siting looked back at the counter, pretending to wait in line for milk tea.For some reason, he looked in her direction again. The tea restaurant was so small that Cen Jin had already spotted her and nodded to her.Siting didn't seem to notice, took the milk tea and walked back to class.

Thinking how close they were, Cen Jin's nod was nothing more than the politeness of a stranger.The so-called "a friend came", that "little belly" was her friend, and she was just a new classmate.

When Cen Jin returned to work in the afternoon, she was still joking without saying a word, Siting ignored her.

"Hey, stop Lu Si, are you still awake?" Cen Jin stroked her hair.

Siting pushed her hand away, "Don't make trouble."

In class, some naughty boys deliberately made fun of it. The whole class laughed, and Cen Jin followed suit, while Siting remained expressionless.

"Siting, are you not feeling well?" Cen Jin asked with concern.

"If you don't say a few words, I will feel better." Siting's face was frosty.

Cen Jin was taken aback for a moment, not daring to say more.In the next physical education class, she leaned over excitedly again, "Sistop, let me stretch the rubber bands for you next class!"

The intention to please was obvious enough, but Ke Siting didn't appreciate it, "We are full."

Cen Jin pouted, but didn't take it seriously.Occasionally, Siting will be hot and cold, just coax him, it's more important to go to play at the moment.

In physical education class, Siting met Liu Shuang, Cen Jin's junior high school classmate, and asked nonchalantly, "Shuangshuang, was there a girl named Xiaodu in your class before?"

Liu Shuang thought for a while, "Oh, you mean Du Qiruo? She's not tall, she looks like a child?"

"Yeah, it should be her! How could she be called Little Belly, such a funny name."

"Haha, only Cen Jin can call her Xiao Duzi, and others call her anxious—eh, do you know her?" Liu Shuang asked.

"She came to see Cen Jin at noon today. I think she looks like a doll, very cute." Si Ting turned on the nonsense mode.

"She is very cute, but she transferred to another school in the third year of junior high school, and I haven't seen her for a long time." Liu Shuang stretched her rubber band while speaking.

At the end of the physical education class, Cen Jin caught up with Siting and patted her on the shoulder. When Siting turned around, she giggled, "Go, wash your hands with me!"

"I'm not going." Siting bypassed her and walked towards the class.

"Hey", Cen Jin stood in front of her, "What's wrong with you, are you unhappy?"

"I want you to take care of it." Siting still had a straight face.

"Then tell me, why are you unhappy, and how can you be happy?" Cen Jin's tone became serious.

Siting looked up, Cen Jin suddenly grabbed her hand and rubbed it wildly, "Haha, this time you have to wash it if you don't!"

"Hey, let go, your hands are so dirty!" Siting wanted to break free.

Cen Jin pinched her face again, "Wow, stop, your face is so dirty!" He laughed.

Siting's face turned red, and he grabbed Cen Jin and beat her up. Cen Jin hid and hugged her and walked towards the water room, "Hey, let's go wash your face, Lu Siting, who would dare to marry you after you are so violent... "

The sound of water rushing, Siting also felt that it was unreasonable.Could it be...she is jealous?