1984 days when she disappeared

As night fell, the woman who came and went in a hurry in the afternoon returned to the community, swiped her card skillfully to enter the door, and pressed the elevator to go upstairs.

903, this is the one, Siting hesitated for a moment before inserting the key, it's okay, Cen Jin is now on the plane, there is no one at home, so feel free to go boldly.

The door opened, and there was darkness in front of him. After touching for a long time, he turned on the porch light. Siting quietly took off his shoes and walked into the room.

She deliberately delayed going to the second bedroom and looked elsewhere.Cen Jin's living room is closer to the study room. There are two rows of management books on the bookcase, and the rest are all about literature, history and philosophy.

Siting glanced at Diao Zhanhua's thick book "Research on the Changes of Politics and Religion in the Tang and Five Dynasties", and she opened it. On the title page was written "For my little friend Cen Jin, I wish you happiness, well-being, and progress!"

I still remember Cen Jin's excited look when he got this book, and thoughtfully flipping through the detailed notes and layered notes in the book. It can be seen that a book is twice as thick, which shows that he has worked hard.

The quilt in the master bedroom was not folded, and the nightgown was hung at the foot of the bed, Siting bent over to smell the smell of the nightgown, the same Safeguard soap.

I didn't pay attention during the day, the master bedroom is connected to a large balcony, and there is a yoga mat inside, and the windy girl like Cen Jin has also practiced yoga, time flies by.

This is a three-bedroom, one of the bedrooms is converted into a cloakroom.Si Ting opened the closet, and the clothes, shoes and hats were neatly sorted.Xiaosha Cen's clothes are very good. After all, he has studied art and now has spending power.

There is actually a large row of pajamas, how much I love to sleep!Siting smiled and flipped through the pages, and saw the set of sunflowers and the set of little white rabbits.

Not too surprised, even that room was moved to her, let alone others.

These two sets of pajamas belonged to her. After the college entrance examination, Cen Jin was going to leave for Sunflower. He said that he felt she was by his side when he put it on. When he went to play in Jiangcheng in his freshman year, he took the set of little white rabbits with him, because he just bought her a set of silk pajamas. , I'm afraid she won't be willing to wear it.

The clothes from ten years ago are faded and pilled, but they are covered with transparent bags, which look more expensive than the Hermès next to them.

Siting immediately rushed into the second bedroom and looked carefully at the study desk. The mottled wood grain on the desk and the glue marks that could not be wiped off on the small bookshelf all proved that this was not a new one, it was her old desk!

There is also a bed, this kind of canopy bed welded by steel pipes can’t be bought even if you want to buy it. She once wrapped the long hair that falls every day on the third railing at the head of the bed. , at the bottom of the third railing, the hemp rope is still there.

Si stopped laughing, a tear rolled from the corner of his eye.

The house she lived in was rented back then, and the furniture was provided by the landlord.Not long after she went to college, her mother moved to grandma's house and returned the apartment.Cen Jin obviously bought it from the landlord and shipped it across China.

The sheets are like the Stars and Stripes of her year, the curtains are like the pink dandelions of that year, even the layout is the same, the head of the bed is against the corner, and the desk is under the window—outside the window!There is actually a layer of dried beans on the barbed wire outside the window!

Siting opened the window and looked carefully, yes, back then her room was sunny, and her mother always dried beans outside her window.

Here she sealed their teenage years.

Siting sits at the table, turns on the familiar desk lamp, draws a pen from the familiar pen holder, and time returns.

The girl Siting is not married, has no scars, her aunt is not dead, and her grandmother is still there. She stays up late to do her homework, looking forward to seeing Ah Jin the next day.

More than five years have passed, and there has never been a day like this moment.

Siting opened the drawers one by one, and each small compartment was filled with their gadgets, couple key chains, mobile phone cases, train tickets, air tickets, scenic spot tickets, captured dolls, trapped yellow ducks... and that platinum ring.

And these, she has long lost.

The bottom drawer is locked, what's the big deal?

Thinking about looking through the key chain, there is no such small key.

But this couldn't help her, after all, she had learned some sneaky tricks from Yang Kairui. She pulled out the upper drawer, pressed down the white buckles on both sides, and then removed the derailed drawer from the card slot, and opened it from the vacant drawer. In the hole, you can see what's under it!

It was a, no, a set of notes, and she hadn't seen it before.

Reason made her stop, but her fingers had already flipped through the note number 1. On the first page was the postcard she sent to Cen Jin before the college entrance examination, "Like the sun and stars, but you are more dazzling than them all."

Si stopped smiling, turned to the first page, and the blue pen wrote: "I will see you a hundred days from today. Day 1."

Then Day2, Day3... Occasionally remember the weather and write a few sentences about your mood.

It came to an abrupt end on Day100.

There was an empty stack of papers in the middle, estimated to be about a hundred pages, and then D198: "I walked through the gate of hell, but I didn't see you, which means you are still in the world. It's pretty good. I don't feel it anymore. It's strange. Now Seeing nothing and feeling nothing, yes, comfortablynumb.”

Her heart seemed to be pierced airtight by a very thin needle, Siting's fingertips trembled, and she flipped through the pages of the days when she disappeared.

【D271: Lu Sistop, I hate you. 】

【D272: Lu Si stops, I love you. 】

【D273: Lu Si stops nmlgb. 】

……

Oh, crazy, Si Ting bit his lip and touched the corners of his eyes.

【D321: Counting the time I spent looking for you before, today is the whole year since you disappeared.I'm graduating, and you're still on leave of absence.

I guess you must be sick, so disappearing is a great sacrifice?You're stupid, Luce stopped.Do you know, even if it is your ashes, I will wait.Waiting is not terrible, there is hope in waiting, this hope is my only food, I don't even want to hear about you, I am afraid that day will also be the day when I will run out of food. 】

Siting closed the diary, not daring to read any more.

These six books could not all be waiting. She remembered that Cen Jin never stopped. From the outstanding graduates on the Peking University website, to the outstanding makers in Haidian, to the first-phase seeds of the Shenzhen Youth Entrepreneurship Program, to the Southern Province Entrepreneurship Award, her Names appear on the Internet every year, getting louder and louder every year.

She put the diary back, fixed the drawer, and everything was restored.

Then she went back to the night when she was 17 years old, waiting for dawn in this cozy little room.

The morning sun shone in, Si Ting opened her eyes, forgetting what time she fell asleep, she was lying on this small bed with all her clothes on, without even drawing the curtains.

It's eight o'clock. I haven't slept so deeply in many years. Clean up and go to school.

Mr. Lu returned to the company, Wendy just planted today's flowers and sent them to the office.

"Thanks for your hard work," Siting said with a smile, "You don't need to order tea today, you should relax."

"Thank you Mr. Lu!" Wendy nodded and bowed, Cen Yaozi was not there, the atmosphere was so peaceful.

The company has long been betting on the relationship between Mr. Cen and this fairy sister. The odds of the new issue are 10:1. Wendy bets 1000 yuan. Assuming the two bosses form a CP, she can earn 1 yuan.

"When will Boss Cen come back?" Si Ting asked.

Wendy said, "Tomorrow afternoon."

"Are you sure?"

"Sure," Wendy said, "The flight ticket is booked."

Siting made a helpless expression, "Oh, happy times are always short."

Wendy smiled, shouldn't it be hopeless to separate from the passionate love period?Could it be that my family, Cen Papi, is in unrequited love?It's no wonder that people who think about it don't bet, or she would think about it again, 1000 yuan...

The office was extraordinarily quiet that day, and the hours were extraordinarily long. Finally, when it was time to get off work, Siting felt for the keys in his pocket, feeling like a cat scratching his heart.

Go again and read the diary. Anyway, if no one finds out, it's not considered peeping, so I decided so frankly.

This time, I knew the way and the way, and there was even a kind of warm and cozy feeling when I entered the door. It was only eight o'clock, and there was still a whole night. Siting took a shower, dried it with Cen Jin's towel, and went to the closet to take off her little rabbit pajamas , She didn't grow taller after she went to college, and she just wore it just right.Then put the bath towel to dry, carefully pick up the long hair on the ground, wipe off the water stains, and there will be no traces in the morning tomorrow.

The 17-year-old girl, Siting, is about to take a time machine and enter Ajin's world. She takes a deep breath, full of ritual sense.

This time she turned from the back to the front, the last page of the sixth notebook: [D6: She appeared. 】

It turned out that she disappeared for 1984 days.

And she remembered the whole 1984 days.

Seeing the disaster that he created is not easy, even more painful than experiencing it himself. Siting knows that he has no right to escape, so he can only witness page by page.

The days of waiting have been long, sometimes it is just a number, sometimes it is an empty exclamation, and sometimes it is a memory of the past.

Some handwriting is crooked, as if drunk.Some are irrelevant things, such as paying property fees and leaking upstairs.

Cen Jin seems to regard this place as a corner of her dwelling. She doesn't keep track of the date, and uses the number of days she disappeared as the only coordinate, as if waiting is the theme of her life, and life is just a footnote to waiting.

【D1640: Sister Siting, I am 25 years old, can you imagine it?old aunt.We said we got married at 25, remember?Cheers and happy wedding to me. 】

【D1314: Today is a good day, hehe, for the rest of my life.In fact, even if you are here, the relationship will fade, it is better to stay together until the old age, it is very good. 】

【D1121: Arrange your room, hehe.I bought this suite for this room, and there happens to be a big willow tree downstairs, where I always waited for you before. 】

【D1000: I want to have a child with you. I don't know why, but I think so for the first time today. 】

【D888: Hahaha, all the way.I have a strong feeling today that you are fine, neither sick nor disaster.You just don't love me anymore, you can't stop telling me, coward. 】

Tears dripped on the paper, three 8s formed a lump, Si Ting hurriedly wiped it with his sleeve, and the next tear fell down again.

She needs to take a break, it's only eleven o'clock, and she can finish reading.For some reason, although she felt distressed when she saw these diaries, she felt that after walking this journey with Cen Jin, the past was not so scary, and they were always together.

After reading a few more pages, there was a sudden "squeak" outside, and the door clicked.

Si Ting jumped up in fright, and there was no movement outside again. After a while, Cen Jin's tall and slender figure leaned out of the entrance, looking at each other.

Cen Jin narrowed her eyes, how can I describe her expression, it was indifferent, a little indifferent, a little mocking, not very human anyway.

"You... why are you back?" Si Ting bit his lip after speaking, as if he was offside.

Cen Jin nodded, "Aren't you asleep?"

Si Ting's face flushed, and he opened his mouth in the middle of the night wearing pajamas and rummaging through boxes and cabinets.

Cen Jin stood the box against the wall, took a few steps inside, and glanced at the second bedroom.

"The workmanship is good." She smiled half a smile.

Si Ting tugged at the hem of his clothes, forced a smile, "That... how did you get in?"

"Me", Cen Jin responded softly, looked at her for two seconds, "Scrub your face."

Oh yes, it's a smart lock. When she entered the door, she researched it and reported an error.

"You are busy with your work." Cen Jin threw the suit on the sofa and turned to the bathroom.

Are you angry that she invaded her privacy?You don't have to flirt like that!Si Ting couldn't hold back anymore, "I'll go first!"

Cen Jin came out with a bath towel to see her, "Shall I see you off?"

"I don't need to take a taxi!" Si Ting hid in the cloakroom, what the hell was taking a shower at someone else's house, she must have found out before the towels were dry!

She had just found her skirt when the door opened, and a black shadow held her in her arms, dragging her out like a whirlwind.

"It's disrespectful to deliver it to your door!" Before Cen Jin could finish his sentence, he lowered his body, Si Ting sank deep into the sponge mattress, trying to struggle but couldn't exert his strength.

"Don't!" She just took a breath, her mouth was sealed again, the light in the master bedroom hadn't been turned on yet, only a black shadow flitted around her - "No!" She pushed her hard, but she hugged her even tighter, Rubbing her palm against her back, she suddenly stopped moving.

I can't stop thinking, I can't hide it.

Cen Jin threw her over, saw the scar on her back, raised her hand to turn on the bedside lamp, and couldn't help but let out a low cry.

She took two steps back, the scar was still grinning ferociously, running obliquely from the shoulder blade all the way, across the spine, to the side waist, lined with uneven skin, like a twisted centipede.

Si Ting got up, got dressed, and ran to the cloakroom.

"What's going on?" Cen Jin's voice was as cold as ice, Siting was not sure whether she felt sorry for her or hated it, maybe she hated it, even she hated it.

"I asked you what happened." Cen Jin tried his best to control his emotions, but a nameless anger burned in her heart, which made her lose her mind.

This is the person she has been protecting since she was 17 years old. She is a fairy and a princess. She wants to give her the whole world, break up with her family for her, and give up her favorite major to earn money day and night. This person Disappear when you say disappear, appear when you want to appear, this person doesn't explain or explain, doesn't mention a word of emotion and just gives her a scar!

Siting changed back into his own clothes, leaned against the door calmly, "I'll tell you slowly."

"How slow?" Cen Jin walked into the second bedroom with a smile, pointing to a pile of diaries on the table, "I've waited for you for 1984 days, isn't it slow enough? From 21 to 27, wait and ask every day, repeat the same day 1000 For many days, every day, I have been cursing why this life is so slow, when can you give me an answer, even if you die tomorrow! It’s all up to now and you still talk to me slowly! I will let you slow down!"

She grabbed a diary and threw it against the wall, and the loose pages fell to the ground. Si Ting rushed to pick up the papers, her shoulders trembling uncontrollably.

"I'll tell you tomorrow," she whispered. "Let me prepare."

Cen Jin stepped on the paper and clasped her shoulders.

"Lu Si stop," she said with a sob, "I said, no matter what happens to you in this life, if I'm not the first to know, I will kill myself. If you have any affection for me, any Silk pity, you won't solve the problem by disappearing, you won't..."

Cen Jin couldn't continue, his eyes were red when he stared at her.

Si stopped for a while, then smiled, "Okay, let me say."