Jiang Qing

His entire back was soaked in cold sweat. Bai Bingchen woke up from the dream with his lips trembling. The white light in his mind had not dissipated, and he sat up from the bed all at once.

"Patriarch, what's the matter?" Jiang Yan knocked on the door twice, but Bai Bingchen was still immersed in the dazed and great sadness, and didn't hear anything.

Jiang Yan walked into the room, lit the lamp, and saw Bai Bingchen leaning on the head of the bed with absent-minded eyes, staring at something blankly.

Sweaty hair stuck to the forehead, and the water marks on the corners of Bai Bingchen's eyes hadn't been wiped off, Jiang Yan asked softly, "Is the Patriarch having a nightmare?"

Bai Bingchen raised his head in a daze and looked at Jiang Yan who appeared in the room, as if he couldn't understand why he appeared here.

It took a long time for Bai Bingchen to recover by himself, his hoarse voice seemed to be hoarse in a dream, "Is there still no letter from Chongjin?"

"No." Jiang Yan also figured out that something was wrong, "Master Mei has always been able to reply to two letters for one letter, but the Patriarch has already sent several letters recently, why... there is no response."

Bai Bingchen pressed his head with quite a headache, and then he put a coat on his body, and the chill that just stood up in the dream was suppressed a little bit.

"Our letter has been blocked." Bai Bingchen said hoarsely: "I can't receive his letter, and he naturally can't receive mine. We can't communicate with each other for a lot of news, and the people behind it can be more handy, but I don't know now. Whether the person who intercepted the letter was halfway or in the military tent. If the letter was lost on the way, if it was in the army, then the heavy brocade..."

Bai Bingchen thought of Mei Shao's tightly closed eyes and bloodshot eyes in the dream full of blue, and his chest was heavy and sore as if he had been hammered.

He arched weakly, covered his chest, and buried his head between his knees.

"Patriarch, are you okay?" Jiang Yan wanted to help him, but he stretched out his hand and didn't know where to put it. He said worriedly: "At this time, Master Ji Shaogu is not in Pingdu. Although you are in good health, you should find him Just take a look and rest assured."

"It's okay." Bai Bingchen coughed twice, "Perhaps it's because the charcoal fire was too hot at night, and the windows were opened too small, making it a bit stuffy."

Jiang Yan didn't know the real reason for his depression, but listening to his suppressed coughing, he reached out and pushed the half-open window, and said in relief: "They can intercept the letters, but they can't stop the news in the camp. I will send someone to investigate and see what is going on in the Northern Army."

Bai Bingchen nodded, lay down on the bed again, closed his eyes, but couldn't fall back asleep.

Jiang Yan went out, and the room became silent again. Bai Bingchen put on his clothes and walked to the window, looking north.

The drizzle fell without warning, dripping on the tiles and falling intermittently under the eaves. Bai Bingchen stared at the thick ink and sighed inaudibly.

Is it really necessary to get to that point, only when he dies, will the people behind him show their heads?

It seems that there is really only this road in front of him. It turns out that the road in the world sometimes does not run through the north, the south, and the east. There is only one dead end, and he is forced to go to the end.

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Less than half a month later, Bai Bingchen still did not receive any letter from Mei Shao.

The last time he took the blame for the crime, Bai Bingchen simply put on a decadent appearance outside, and stayed quietly in the mansion without seeing the courtiers.

When Jiang Yan came in, he saw Bai Bingchen dipped in gold juice and writing on the red paper, and there was a trace of unbearable in his eyes.

He was writing an invitation card for a banquet, with gold letters on a red background, the table was already full to dry, and when he finished writing the letter in his hand, the table would be full.There was a wooden box by Bai Bingchen's hand, and dozens of letters had been pressed tightly inside, and from Jiang Yan's angle, a red border could just be seen.

It was a wedding invitation that he planned to send out after Mei Shao came back from the expedition, and he wanted to keep his promise to Mei Shao.Originally, Bai Bingchen did this kind of thing quietly by himself by lighting the lamps at night, but since he admitted his relationship with Mei Shao in the court hall, he has nothing to hide, and he is also calm when doing this kind of thing in front of the servants of the mansion.

It was the first time Jiang Yan had the idea of ​​disobeying Bai Bingchen, at least when Bai Bingchen was writing the wedding invitation, he couldn't tell him the news cruelly.

"Is there any news from Beidi?" Jiang Yan came in from the corner of the eye, and Bai Bingchen asked him the questions he had to ask every day these days.

Jiang Yan hesitated for a moment, then said, "No...it's okay."

For a moment of hesitation, Bai Bingchen felt empty for a moment, and his face became serious. He raised his head, stared into Jiang Yan's eyes, and asked, "Is there any news?"

Jiang Yan is really not good at lying, so he didn't speak for a while, and couldn't make up any impromptu words.

Seeing him like this, Bai Bingchen's heart sank, his breathing became heavy, his face remained steady, and he said in a deep voice, "Did something happen to him?"

"No……"

"Jiang Yan!"

"Yes!" Jiang Yan closed his eyes, and confided all the news that tormented him, "Seven days ago, General Mei and Prince Sheng resisted the enemy outside the valley. Let's go, but there are so many soldiers outnumbered, they fell into the river after being hit by Qin Chengze's arrow, and died. Now the whole army is gone, and the emergency report from the front line is also on His Majesty's desk..."

Already dead...already...

There was a hum in Bai Bingchen's head, but Jiang Yan didn't hear a word of what Jiang Yan said later.He just felt like his whole body had fallen into an ice cave, and he was suddenly cold to the bottom, but his chest was beating extremely fast, and all the surging blood was rushing to his heart. It was so hot that his skin would be burned, and blood flowed out. .

"Death..." Bai Bingchen murmured a few words in a low voice, subconsciously denied: "This is impossible... this is absolutely..."

Could it be that he hasn't received Mei Shao's letter these days, not because someone intercepted him, but because Mei Shao had already encountered an accident, that's why he...

Thousands of thoughts floated in his mind like catkins, but he couldn't grasp any of them.

how could be?How did Mei Shao die?When he left, he promised well that he would marry him when he came back, but why...

The red that covered the table was dazzling and ironic, laughing at this lost soul.

Before, because of his health, Bai Bingchen always thought that he would be ahead of Mei Shao. He never thought of watching Mei Shao die while he was still alive.How could Mei Shao die, even though he has been sick and weak for many years and is alive and well?

He seemed to be trapped in an unanswerable circle, but inside he clearly heard a voice knocking on the door of his heart.

Why else?Isn't it all because of you?

If Bai Bingchen had been firmer at the beginning, hadn't been greedy for that warmth, and had been cruel enough not to let Mei Shao step into the court; if Bai Bingchen hadn't gone to appease him later, he would have been an enemy of the court; if he hadn't told him about Fudige The matter made him always think that the Cangshan incident was just the king's cold heart; if he hadn't agreed to him, Mei Shao, the capital of Wu, wouldn't have given his life to himself; ...to die on the battlefield...

In the past three years, more than 1000 days and nights, how many times Bai Bingchen had the opportunity to prevent today's tragedy, but he was addicted to temporary affection, selfishly thinking that it would be good to be with him for one more day before detoxification, After detoxification, they hoped to be able to stay together forever.

Just like this, step by step, step by step, until Mei Shao was pushed to death.

The shroud of horse leather is the highest honor for a soldier, but it is the fear that Bai Bingchen has always dared not think about or be tempted to think about.

Counting his various activities in the past 30 years, Bai Bingchen has carefully been the stepson of the Zhou family since the beginning of his memory, balancing his position in the Zhou mansion.After growing up, he was sent back to the Bai family, and he was admitted to the court according to his father's expectations, and became an official in the court.Afterwards, for Zhao Zhen, for Li Guo, and for inheriting the behest of his predecessors, Cangshan Change, he worked hard, always considered the overall situation, and never stingy with wronging himself.

Over the years, even if people around him were taken away, his reputation, his health, or even his life was taken away, Bai Bingchen never complained at all.

But now he really feels the resentment and resentment in his heart. He has served the country and family for many years, and he has always sacrificed himself for the public without hesitation.For so many years, he only had a little selfishness, and he only had this little extravagance - Mei Shao lived well, but he couldn't get what he wanted, and he was also tricked by fate, making him lose it again, which made him heartbroken.

Is this his destiny?

He has no father, no mother, no relatives, no relatives, and he already lives like a dead person. Isn't this considered public diligence?People in the world say that he has a heart of stone and has no human feelings at all, but he was not born with a heart of stone. After several years of blood, his heart has become more and more indifferent and cold. The spot on the skin was still soft and red, but now it has been gouged out.

As the world said, he has finally become a heartless person.

Clutching his clothes tightly, Bai Bingchen could no longer see the scene in front of him clearly, he felt a sudden burst of fishy sweetness in his throat, he was so angry that he spit out a mouthful of blood on the wedding invitations on the table, two spots of red mixed together, dazzling.

When he was so tortured by illness that he vomited blood, it was not as heart-piercing as it is now, as if what he vomited was not a mouthful of blood, but his whole heart.

He no longer swallowed the blood calmly as usual, but hammered his chest, wishing he could spit out all the hot blood in his chest.

After bleeding all over his body, can he go to see him sooner?

The worst thing in the world is waking up from a nightmare, and the nightmare comes true.

Blood spilled from the corner of his mouth, and landed on the table and body. Bai Bingchen grabbed the corner of the table in embarrassment, and let out a wailing cry.

"Chongjin... Ah Shao... I was wrong..."

If Mei Shao hadn't been involved in the court at the beginning, none of this would have happened.

Jiang Yan stepped forward silently, patted him on the back, and said in a deep voice: "Patriarch..."

"I just wanted him to live at first..." Bai Bingchen smiled wryly.

His rational judgment was not wrong at all, he shouldn't let Mei Shao get involved in the court, he couldn't protect Mei Shao at all.

It was because he was too greedy, so greedy that he couldn't even look down on God, so he sent such a punishment.

All because of him...all because of him...

"Patriarch, now General Mei has..." Jiang Yan couldn't bear to say that word directly, "The Shenyang Army has no leader, and those who want His Majesty to recall them in the court will have a better chance..."

Bai Bingchen managed to regain some clarity, raised his hand and slowly wiped away the blood from the corner of his mouth, and there was a slight ruthlessness in his originally dull eyes.

"Go and invite Doctor Yushi and Shaoqing of Dali Temple to come to your residence."

"Now?" Jiang Yan glanced at Bai Bingchen's appearance and asked worriedly.

"Right now!" Bai Bingchen gritted his teeth, forcing himself to cheer up and find a retreat for the Shenyang Army.

The Shenyang Army is Mei Shao's hard work, and he must keep it.

Since everything is due to the wrong decision I made at the beginning, then it is enough to go back to the old path.

He has nothing left to lose.

The author says:

Don't be afraid, don't cry, let's say silently three times hehehe