Jiang Qing

The scars of many years were peeled off by her alive, and looking back again, the guilt and regret that she thought had been forgotten had never been resolved, but were just waiting for a dormant opportunity, and at this moment, they drowned her silently.

There was silence in the room, except for Wu Chufu's uncontrollable panting after a low growl, she quietly calmed down her boiling heart, and said for a long time: "Although Senior Brother Liu is weak, he cannot fight on the battlefield like his father, but he originally She can spend her whole life in Pingdu safe and sound, not to mention, at that time, Mrs. Liu was already pregnant."

Bai Bingchen reacted belatedly, and said with difficulty: "The Liu family in Pingdu... which Liu family is it?"

"Is there a second military general Liu's family in Pingdu?" Wu Chufu asked with a chuckle.

Her eyes paused on Bai Bingchen's slightly trembling lips, and then fell on Mei Shao's astonished face.

"It was during the Cangshan Incident..." Bai Bingchen stared into her eyes, his heart hanging in the air, waiting for a verdict.

"Yes." Wu Chufu said the word lightly, but it overwhelmed Bai Bingchen's straight back.

Even though he had been kneeling for several hours without feeling any sensation under his knees, Bai Bingchen's kneeling posture was still upright, but at this moment, he seemed to be hit out of thin air, deflated, and his back was slightly bent.

The clenched palms were already painfully pinched by himself, and Bai Bingchen used almost all his mind to resist, so that he would not lose his composure at this time.

It's actually this Liu's family, why is it this Liu's family?

Bai Bingchen felt a powerless sense of absurdity in his heart, and the voice of questioning in his heart was about to break through his throat, but it fell silently to his lips.

Liu Yongsi...Liu Yongsi...that former classmate who was the most talented and academically talented and vowed not to step into an official career, often had a little sadness in his eyes, and often sat in the wine shop for a whole day.It is said in Pingdu that he is arrogant and unconventional. Otherwise, why is he so talented, but he doesn't become an official to display his ambitions?

Until now, he didn't understand the sluggish and sober contradiction in Liu Yongsi. He knew everything, he knew that he was the son of his father and enemy, but he still kept friends with him, and even taught him everything in the year he took the exam.

Such feuds between the Bai family and the Liu family should have kept them apart forever, so how did the Liu family get involved in the Cangshan matter?

Bai Bingchen's heart sank little by little, and he had to admit that it was most likely the work of his good father.

Ever since he could remember, Wu Chufu didn't like everything about Bai Jianye in him, or the similar facial features, or the temper that was revealed occasionally.Bai Bingchen also tried his best to maintain a different appearance from Bai Jianye.

Whether it was before or after he learned of these past events, he didn't want to step into Bai Jianye's footsteps. After he thought that he had finally got rid of his father's shackles and became the head of the Bai family with his own efforts, he discovered that he was not at all. Just didn't go out.

He once persuaded Mei Shao naively, saying that the path of the fathers is dead and they have no choice, but they still have, and they can follow their own wishes to get what they want.But at this moment, Bai Bingchen clearly realized that they had no choice.

A generation of emperors and courtiers, the emperor and courtiers are changing, only the Fudi Pavilion remains unchanged.It is the cause of all, and it should be the same throughout.The cause and effect of the parents did not end because of their death or their withdrawal, but continued to the next generation.This is like a long nightmare, as long as no one completely breaks it from the inside, it will be shrouded from generation to generation.

Bai Bingchen now finally understands the meaning of Mu Zhaodi's last words before his death.

A generation is born, and it is a matter of one day.

Destiny is endless, but life is limited.They use this most primitive method of passing on from generation to generation to try their best to make a good part of their own timeline, and then pass it on to the next generation. This kind of posture of mantising arms to resist the long destiny.

The resistance that the Fudi Pavilion faced was never a dynasty or a generation, but a copper wall forged by the monarchs and courtiers of each generation of the Li Kingdom. It will continue to prolong, endlessly.

Until God dies, or man dies.

Bai Bingchen's trembling heart gradually calmed down, all emotions were not revealed on his face, only he himself knew that in a short period of time, he was surprised, resentful, desolate, unwilling, and finally turned into a compromise, a silent compromise .

He can't escape the old ways of his father's generation, and he can't be like Bai Jianye.

"If I were someone like the little lady of the Xu family, Xiaojia Biyu, as long as I liked someone, I would ignore others, and I would be my husband with all my eyes, and I would bear everything for him and accept everything, then I wouldn't be sitting here today. Here." Wu Chufu breathed out lightly, until now, with some nostalgia for the past in her eyes, "Actually, your father and I are the same kind of people, and we both know exactly what we want. What, and will not shake his faith for other things. It’s just that we took a different path at the beginning. What he wants is power, and what I want is love. Therefore, for the sake of power, he will use all means to achieve his goal .And I can't tolerate half-hearted tricks and deceit, and I can't tolerate him giving up every living person for that cold official uniform."

"I used to think about why we didn't develop affection for each other until Jingzhou closed the city, even though we had met so many times before. Then I understood that those six months in Jingzhou City were exactly that scene. During the epidemic, I got a glimpse of his friendship in front of the people, and he saw my firmness and forbearance in the face of death. Perhaps at a certain moment when our eyes met, we saw our own beliefs in each other's eyes, and thought We are fellow travelers, but we don’t know that what we see is only a small corner of the isolated city. If there is no epidemic, we will not be together.”

Wu Chufu choked for a moment, and spoke slowly, her voice was rare and soft, "This is the first and last time I tell you these things..."

Bai Bingchen's fingers trembled, and he looked at Wu Chufu with mixed eyes, faintly sensing what she was going to say next.

"When I was pregnant with you, your father came to me several times, but I refused. Later, I took you and married into the Zhou family. Whether it was your Uncle Zhou or him, they all thought that I was trying to make Bai Jianye I did this because I gave up. I really did it for the sake of giving up, but I was the one who gave up. When I walked out of the White House with you in my arms, I didn't have the slightest affection for your father. Marrying Zhou Changming is I am willing."

Mei Shao watched her dissect the past bit by bit, only to realize that most of Bai Bingchen's determination and rationality came from his mother.There are very few people in the world who live soberly like her.

"The purple bamboo forest here was recorded in the White Mansion under the pretext of delivering goods when he went to Pingdu for business. He thought that I would not forget the old relationship, and he rebuilt this piece of purple bamboo because he was afraid that I would not live comfortably. Lin. In fact, I planted the purple bamboo forest in Baifu because I like it. I don’t like Bai Jianye anymore, but I won’t lose the things I always like because of him. This is me. Although few women can say , I really liked two men, but I really did. My feelings for Zhou Changming are no less than those for Bai Jianye, so it is impossible for me not to hate you after Zhou Yue's death..."

Wu Chufu changed the subject, and said again: "Whether it's to you or to Zhou Yue, I really can't be considered a good mother. Watching you grow up day by day, watching you and Bai Jianye getting more and more similar place, I can’t help being afraid that you will become like him, but you are my flesh and blood, I have no way to face you, I choose to treat you indifferently. After you go to Pingdu, under his teaching As you grow up, you become more like your father, and he has hinted many times that he wants me to go back. I walked out of that city with great difficulty. It is impossible for me to go back, and I don’t want to give him any Hope, so I broke contact with you. You are indeed my connection with the Bai family. Since I married into the Bai family, even if I have remarried, I haven't completely separated the relationship with the Bai family, but I... I really don't want to get involved with the Bai family any more...I'm such a layman, I can't digest so many involvements, I just want to live simply, do you understand? "

Even in the past when there was no communication, Bai Bingchen had never felt the insurmountable gap between him and Wu Chufu like now. Her rationality and sobriety were enough to support her through the difficult years, and even regained her senses. I have found someone I can entrust to my life, but it will also make her ruthlessly write off all external influences to protect the stability she has.

Bai Bingchen swallowed his bitterness, looked at Wu Chufu quietly for a while, finally smiled slightly, and said softly: "How can I prevent my mother from fulfilling her wish?"

Under Wu Chufu's tearful eyes, he supported the corner of the table with one hand and his knee with the other, and slowly stood up.

A simple stand up movement was extremely difficult for him, his figure was swaying, and he almost fell down several times.

The hand that Mei Shao just wanted to stretch out touched the firmness in his eyes and then retracted. He had already foreseen what Bai Bingchen was going to do, so he couldn't bear to look again, and turned his head slightly.

Bai Bingchen finally stood up with his own strength, and Wu Chufu followed him to stand up.

The two men made eye contact.

In an instant, Bai Bingchen had put away all his emotions, and smiled as he would deal with the officialdom, and said, "Thank you Mrs. Zhou for your hospitality, and I will leave."

Mei Shao couldn't bear to see the look of pretending to be relaxed on his face, her eyes moved down and fell on his already blue hands clenched into fists, feeling a dull pain in her heart.

Wu Chufu slightly turned her face away, hiding the tears in her eyes, saluted him like a woman, and said in a hoarse voice: "Zhou Wu's respectfully send off Mr. Bai. I hope your career will be bright and your future will be bright."

Bai Bingchen nodded slightly, and the moment he turned around, he could clearly feel his teeth fighting.

Mei Shao hurriedly walked a few steps, supported him and walked out the door.

No one explained when they severed the relationship, but they all knew in their hearts that they would never return by different routes.

From now on, he will be his right-hand minister, and she will be her merchant's wife. When they meet again, they will be no more than officials and civilians.

Seeing Bai Bingchen's pale face, Mei Shao's heart twitched.

With the help of Mei Shao, he gritted his teeth and ignored his knee injury, straightened his back, and walked out of Zhou Mansion step by step.

Mei Shao called him in a low voice, but he didn't seem to hear it. It wasn't until Bai Bingchen walked the whole street that Mei Shao felt something was wrong. He turned Bai Bingchen's body and said softly: "Yanfang, don't go, we It's out..."

Bai Bingchen's whole body was like a cold iron plate, extremely stiff, Mei Shao stopped, and he walked forward by himself.

"Yanfang!" Mei Shao anxiously stepped forward to support him again, trying to pull him into his arms, "We have already come out, you don't have to hold back, Yanfang..."

Bai Bingchen was still walking forward, and the two of them stumbled and stumbled until they walked back to their original courtyard and stepped on the threshold. When Bai Bingchen saw the lonely jujube tree in the courtyard, he suddenly woke up, and suddenly there was something in his eyes. brightened.

Seeing that he was showing signs of awakening, Mei Shao put one arm around him, and gently rubbed his back to comfort him, "It's okay, we're already home..."

"Home?" The clarity in Bai Bingchen's eyes became confused again, he lay powerlessly on Mei Shao's shoulder, murmured unconsciously, and repeated: "I don't even have a mother, what kind of home do I have... "

Mei Shao's heart trembled, and the hand that was holding him was about to tighten it, but Bai Bingchen suddenly pushed it away.

Bai Bingchen's waist bent lower and lower, and the coughing sound still overflowed from the palm of his tightly covering his mouth. Finally, he almost squatted on the ground, buried his whole head on his knees, and his body followed the coughing sound. shaking.

"Yanfang, what's wrong with you!" Mei Shao was startled, and hastily pulled him to cover her hand, but saw blood dripping from between his fingers, gathering on the ground drop by drop, it was shockingly bright red.

Mei Shao stared at the few drops of blood absent-mindedly, his eyes full of disbelief, and he forcefully broke Bai Bingchen's hand covering his mouth.

After several times of tugging, Bai Bingchen finally couldn't bear it, and spit out a mouthful of blood on the white ground, which made Mei Shao's eyes turn red.