The top idol is not a substitute

"I'll take you back first."

Yan Xuan withdrew her gaze, then stepped back, leaving Ji Yao's embrace.

Ji Yao nodded.

Until the two left, Song Xiangsi still stood there, her eyes were a little empty.

After a long time, she slowly lowered her head and pulled the corner of her mouth lightly.

It seems that there is really no chance.

When Ying Lian and Song Zhi left the box, they saw Song Xiangsi standing there alone, with no expression on her face, and she didn't know what she was thinking.

"Does Teacher Song want to go back together?" Ying Lian glanced at the direction she was looking at and asked aloud.

"No." After Song Xiangsi replied, she walked towards the elevator by herself.

Cheng Chen waited for a long time in the hall on the first floor, now seeing Song Xiangsi coming down, he hurried up to greet her.

"You go back first."

After saying this, Song Xiangsi left the Yunxiang club.

ST bar.

When Xie Qing arrived at the bar box, there were already two empty bottles on the table.

She was surprised for a few seconds, and then she looked at Song Xiangsi who was sitting on the sofa calmly and without the slightest hint of drunkenness.

I looked around again, did I drink it or did I not drink it?

Just as she was thinking this way, she saw Song Xiangsi open a bottle of wine again, and Xie Qing rushed up to stop her:

"What are you doing?"

The person who refused her invitation in the morning, but took the initiative to send her an application at night.

The location was still at her friend's bar.

"What are you doing? I finally took two days off and let me watch you drink away your worries?"

As soon as Xie Qing finished speaking, Song Xiangsi handed her the opened wine.

Xie Qing sighed and declined: "I only have two days off, and tomorrow will be gone if I get drunk, and I will definitely have to send you home later."

Song Xiangsi remained silent, saw that she didn't take the wine and didn't give her any more, but took a sip silently.

"No, what's the matter with you? If you don't tell me, how would I know what to do? You won't really let me watch you drink away your worries, will you?"

Xie Qing and Song Xiangsi have known each other since childhood. Although they didn't stay in the same school, they have a good relationship over the years and their personalities are very similar. The only difference is their sexual orientation.

After a long time, Song Xiangsi finally said slowly, "I think I really have no chance."

The loneliness and bitterness that cannot be concealed in the words.

She drooped her head, very despondent.

Xie Qing rarely saw Song Xiangsi like this.

The last time I saw her was when she had just broken up with Yan Xuan and suddenly had a high fever. After receiving a call from Jiang Wei, Xie Qing rushed over to help her see a doctor.

I heard Song Xiangsi repeating Yan Xuan's name vaguely over and over again when she had a high fever and was unconscious.

Song Xiangsi's appearance was too sad, Xie Qing didn't know how to comfort her.

I had no choice but to tell her that Yan Xuan came to see her, and stood by the floor-to-ceiling window and watched, and said that she hoped she would get better soon.

Song Xiangsi gradually calmed down.

After that, Xie Qing didn't mention that matter to Song Xiangsi, because she was busy with work, so she could only care a few words.

After the breakup, Song Xiangsi never took the initiative to talk to her about the two of them, and Xie Qing only cared occasionally.

She knew the pain of falling out of love and needed time to heal, and she also knew that Song Xiangsi was a strong person, so she didn't ask about the two of them many times.

Just caring about her body.

In her opinion, Song Xiangsi is not someone she can't let go of, and she will be fine after a while.

But unexpectedly, after more than five months, Song Xiangsi still did not come out.

"What do you mean?"

Xie Qing snatched the wine bottle from her hand, put it aside, and reminded her, "Drink less."

"She said that she only regarded me as an idol before. In fact, she was waiting for her first love. She never had any love for me. She just played a game with me in idleness."

"..."

Xie Qing was speechless for a few seconds before asking: "Did Yan Xuan really say that?"

Song Xiangsi hummed, then opened another bottle of wine.

Xie Qing had a big head, and asked cautiously: "Are you angry? Anyone with eyes can see how much she liked you before. I can still see her admiration and love."

When the two were in love before, Xie Qing met Yan Xuan a few times, and she could see that she was a very good girl, and her love and dependence on Song Xiangsi were beyond words.

I can't bear to say a serious word.

Now that Song Xiangsi told her that Yan Xuan had said this, Xie Qing couldn't believe it.

"I thought it was an angry word too."

"and then?"

"Today, her first love came back."

"What are you afraid of when you come back? Your first love happened hundreds of years ago. You have the advantage..."

Before Xie Qing could finish her comforting words, Song Xiangsi suddenly raised her eyes, twitched the corners of her mouth slightly, and smiled a little forcedly: "Then they hugged."

The voice continued: "I still said it's okay, don't blame her."

"But she hates me, hates me, and is reluctant to smile at me."

Xie Qing: "...how could it be, Yan Xuan has a pretty good personality, and breaking up won't make such an ugly mess."

Song Xiangsi reopened the bottle of wine, filled himself a glass, and answered her:

"Because I did something wrong, because I was not honest, and because I had bad intentions."

Xie Qing has known Song Xiangsi since she was a child, and knows how proud she is. Now she can't bear to blame herself like this.

But her words were so endless that she didn't know where to start to comfort her.

"What did you do wrong?" Xie Qing still asked.

The scene was quiet for a few seconds, and then Song Xiangsi said softly: "I can't get out of the previous relationship. I was close to Yan Xuan because of those eyes."

Xie Qing: "?"

"Don't tell me that you used Yan Xuan to forget Lin Yuan."

Song Xiangsi's silence answered Xie Qing.

That's what she thought.

"What are you thinking?" Xie Qing couldn't figure it out, Song Xiangsi should be a very rational person, how to do such a stupid thing.

"I don't understand your behavior, and I don't understand. Do you think those eyes look like Lin Yuan, so you approach her?"

Song Xiangsi was silent again.

She hasn't mentioned it to anyone during this time.

Because she herself would find it ridiculous when she thought about it.

Xie Qing was also silent, and took a sip of wine without holding back.

It took a while before he said: "Then you really deserve it."

Xie Qing could see Yan Xuan's love for Song Xiangsi, but she could also see that Yan Xuan was a proud person.

Song Xiangsi's actions not only hurt her emotionally, but also crushed her pride.

So it is normal not to admit this relationship.

"But to be honest, I'm curious," Xie Qing asked Song Xiangsi, "Where can't you forget your last relationship?"

Song Xiangsi was taken aback for a moment.

"I thought it was strange when you agreed to Lin Yuan, and the relationship between you is not that deep as far as I know, right?"

Xie Qing was puzzled, if Song Xiangsi hadn't said so, she would not have thought of Lin Yuan as the reason for their breakup.

And the reason why she thought that Song Xiangsi would be cured after a while was because she had seen her broken-hearted.

It's no different than usual.

"I don't understand, why did you like Lin Yuan back then? Beautiful? To be honest, it's not as good as the girls who were chasing you back then. They have a good personality? I don't think it's good. Hit? I asked you to quit the band and change careers to make quick money over and over again. I didn't think so. .”

Xie Qing wanted to say these things a long time ago, but because she is not a person who likes to speak ill of people behind their backs.

In addition, after the two broke up, Song Xiangsi never mentioned it again, so she kept saying this.

Song Xiangsi fell into deep thought because of her words.

"The most important thing is, I didn't think you loved her much during your relationship, and don't you think she wanted to suppress you mentally? Every time I told you that there was no future in music, and the lyrics you composed were worthless, someone Sell ​​it as soon as you like it, and whoever is chasing her today."

"What's even more outrageous is that she is always on your social account, posting everything to your space, showing this and that, making me think your account has been stolen."

When Xie Qing said this, she became a little angry. She emphasized countless times that she is straight, doesn't like girls, and has no interest in Song Xiangsi.

However, Lin Yuan still looked wary.

Song Xiangsi pursed her lips and raised her eyes: "Is there any?"

Xie Qing was discouraged, but thinking about the strong spirit of Song Xiangsi at that time, maybe she didn't take Lin Yuan's words to heart at all, otherwise she wouldn't have come to the present step by step.

"So, why did you agree to her?"

"In the first round, she saved me."

"that's it?"

Song Xiangsi recalled the past.

At that time, Lin Yuan was quite innocent, and she didn't care about what Xie Qing said before, because she was always busy with the band and other things, and she didn't have much time to accompany Lin Yuan, so she always responded to Lin Yuan's requests. answer.

Anything harmless is up to her, including things like social accounts.

"I..." Song Xiangsi paused before replying, "I thought she looked familiar at the time."

"What do you mean?"

"I feel like I've seen her somewhere, and I've been in contact with her for a while, and I feel more and more familiar, but I can't remember."

Xie Qing was stunned, she suddenly realized that she didn't know this friend at all emotionally.

"Seeing her makes me feel sad, and I want to protect her," Song Xiangsi finally said what she had thought at the beginning, "so I indulged a little."

Xie Qing finally understood.

"Then do you remember where you saw it?"

"No," Song Xiangsi suddenly smiled self-deprecatingly, "I may just be overwhelmed with sympathy."

When she first heard that the only elder in Lin Yuan's family was grandma, Song Xiangsi was moved with compassion.

At that time, she didn't immediately agree to Lin Yuan's three conditions, but only after being moved with compassion.

"How do you say it?" Xie Qing took another sip of his wine, leaning on the sofa to listen to her answer.

"This feeling is even worse after meeting Yan Xuan."

I want to be with her, and I want to take care of her.

But in her heart, there was always a feeling of uncertainty.

Song Xiangsi didn't understand why Lin Yuan would do that, and she was deeply in self-doubt. After meeting Yan Xuan, the previous feeling became even worse.

So Song Xiangsi always felt that maybe she transferred her previous affection for Lin Yuan to Yan Xuan.

In order to get rid of this feeling, Song Xiangsi spent a long time.

Xie Qing sighed.

In such a situation, she really didn't know how to advise Song Xiangsi.

"I have a simple question."

"Ah."

"It's said that love is sex|desire, have you ever done it with Lin Yuan?"

Song Xiangsi froze for a moment, then pursed her lips and replied, "...No."

Xie Qing laughed: "Who are you lying to, Song Xiangsi?"

"Not really."

"I mean, who were you lying to by pretending to be affectionate?"

……

It was almost zero o'clock when the two left the ST Bar.

Xie Qing looked helplessly at Song Xiangsi, who was beside him in a mess.

In the end, I called a substitute driver.

In the name of Song Xiangsi, Xie Qing was lucky enough to enter the mentor's dormitory once.

The only troublesome thing is——

Song Xiangsi refused to let her help, saying that she didn't want to be misunderstood.

"I'm straight and I'm not interested in you."

Xie Qing was tired of explaining.

"Besides, who cares about you now." Xie Qing muttered.

As soon as these words came out, Song Xiangsi, who was still stumbling just now, suddenly stood up straight, and leaned against the wall with an oh.

Xie Qing didn't want to embarrass a drunk, and planned to send him to the dormitory and then leave.

As soon as I got to the floor, I heard the sound of the elevator ding.

Xie Qing glanced subconsciously, and then seemed to see a savior.

"I'm leaving first." Xie Qing patted Song Xiangsi on the shoulder, and then walked towards the elevator.

When passing by Yan Xuan, she nodded and said hello.

Yan Xuan didn't have the temper to vent her anger, so she also nodded.

Then he planned to ignore Song Xiangsi, who was leaning against the wall and smelling of alcohol, and went straight back to the room.

The next moment, Song Xiangsi's voice was heard: "Yan Xuan."

Yan Xuan seldom heard Song Xiangsi call her by her full name, so she paused for a moment, then glanced at her.

It looked like he drank a lot, and his eyes were a little blurred.

Yan Xuan looked at her indifferently.

Song Xiangsi smiled and asked her, "Can you smile at me?"