The top idol is not a substitute

After breakfast, Yan Ruyu took a serious look at the house, and said to Yan Xuan, "When did you buy this suite? The decoration is pretty good."

The decoration style is very warm log style, the whole villa looks big but not empty, every room is filled with warm small objects.

Hearing this, Yan Xuan looked around the living room for a week, and replied, "Half a year ago."

“Very homey.”

"Ah."

Seeing that Yan Xuan didn't say much, Yan Ruyu, who has always been big-hearted, realized that Yan Xuan would never buy this house for no reason.

"I like this place." Yan Ruyu scratched her head and pointed to the corner of the living room, a place that was just exposed to sunlight, where there was a small round wooden table and two wicker chairs, apparently for resting.

Yan Xuan looked over, the sunlight reflected on the wooden table and rattan chair through the white screen window, it seemed that there was a sense of tranquility in the years.

This kind of atmosphere is more suitable for holding a guitar and singing songs. This place is very large and empty, and it is intended to be used as a piano and dance practice.

This room was the 29th birthday gift she planned to give to Song Xiangsi.

A home for her half.

"Xiaoxuan, are you okay?"

Seeing that Yan Xuan didn't answer, Yan Ruyu asked aloud.

"It's okay," Yan Xuan smiled, "I just thought of some unimportant things."

Yan Ruyu nodded, but still worried about her, and reminded: "If you have anything to do, you must tell me."

Before Yan Xuan liked Song Xiangsi a lot, Yan Ruyu saw it, when she first heard the news, she wished she could pull Song Xiangsi out and beat him up.

How did you say it at the beginning.

He also said that he would definitely treat Xiaoxuan well.

Thinking of Song Xiangsi, Yan Ruyu held back her anger: "There are people who are blind and don't know how to cherish treasures, Xiaoxuan, don't be angry with such people, it's not worth it."

Yan Ruyu interpreted Yan Xuan's silence just now as being saddened by Song Xiangsi.

"I know, don't worry about me." Yan Xuan thought that she could bear it quite well.

"Really, there are many people who like you and love you in this world. Don't feel sorry for such unworthy people."

I have known Yan Xuan for many years and grew up with her, so Yan Ruyu knows that she is a person who doesn't like to show her emotions and likes to hide everything in her heart.

When I was in junior high school, I went to the street to buy things. I clearly wanted it, but I said I didn’t want it. I obviously didn’t like being used by my parents as an example to compare with others, but every time I still smiled and replied that I would continue to work hard.

The craziest thing Yan Ruyu did in high school was to spend half a semester of pocket money to get two tickets to the music festival and drag Yan Xuan to skip class to watch the concert.

He obviously wanted to see it, but on the face he said he didn't want to go.

After graduating from high school, when he heard that Ji Yao had gone abroad to study, he was obviously very disappointed, so he pretended to be indifferent, and said that he hoped her future would be bright, and he was not angry at all.

While thinking, Yan Ruyu opened Weibo and found the Weibo that Yan Xuan posted a few days ago.

Opening the comment area, Yan Ruyu read the Weibo comments to her:

"When I first saw you on stage four years ago, you amazed me. At that time, I was thinking that such a girl should debut in the C position, because when you chased your dreams, you were dazzling and full of energy. Time, when I was walking on the campus and running to the library every morning before dawn, you were with me. I want to tell you that we are here no matter what, Xiaoxuan, we love you."

……

"When I was young, I also had a stage dream. Then I lost the ability to dance in a car accident, and my dream was shattered. Then I saw you and your love for the stage. I thought, my dream came back. It was you who gave me hope again, and made me stand up again when I felt inferior and sad. Xiaoxuan, we love you."

……

Yan Ruyu read several comments in a row, and the end of each comment was [Xiaoxuan, we love you], as if it was a big group building among fans, telling her that she still has them.

The fans didn't know what happened between the two, but they understood that their Xiaoxuan was wronged, so they came to tell her, don't be sad, don't be sad, they are still here.

Yan Ruyu suddenly fell silent.

When I watched it at the time, I felt moved, but I didn't expect that the mood swings would still be so great when I watched it again.

"Your fans love you very much."

Yan Ruyu knew that Yan Xuan was sensitive, and she kept everything she didn't say out loud.

However, if you put everything in your heart, you will be unable to bear it one day.

"I finally understand that sentence." Yan Xuan's eyes were a little moist because of Yan Ruyu's few comments, she lowered her head and smiled softly.

However, when Yan Ruyu asked, Yan Xuan didn't answer.

Love should not be the only light.

People don't have to pursue love. If you don't have love, you don't want love. If you don't have home, you don't want home.

If you don't want it, you won't be disappointed and sad.

Yan Xuan posted on Weibo that day, in fact, it was more because of the message Zhou Xiang sent her, asking her to restrain her fans as much as possible.

Never thought that fans would suddenly comfort her like this on Weibo.

Yan Xuan took the phone from Yan Ruyu and flipped through the comments.

After a while, Yan Xuan looked up at Yan Ruyu, and said in a low voice:

"There was a time when I was on the brink of death."

Yan Ruyu was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect Yan Xuan to say this to her suddenly, she didn't expect that she had this experience before, and she couldn't wait for her to ask, and heard her say:

"I was 9 years old at that time. At that time, I was thinking why the person who died was not her. Later, I also thought about pushing her down to let her feel my helplessness at that time."

Yan Ruyu said in a daze: "And then? Did you push it?"

"No, but I used other small methods to get revenge." Yan Xuan looked at her, as if reciting, "If you have a grudge, you have to get revenge, but you can't get your hands dirty."

At a certain moment, Yan Ruyu felt that she couldn't understand Yan Xuan.

When she said that sentence, her eyes were cold, and she even felt a gloomy wind.

"It's the same now."

Yan Xuan smiled, and became gentle again.

The same now?

Did you mean to take revenge on Song Xiangsi?

Yan Xuan didn't speak any more, but picked up the watering can next to her and poured some water into the potted plants.

"Then what are you going to do?" Although Yan Ruyu felt that this kind of Yan Xuan was very strange, she also knew that the culprit of all this was Song Xiangsi.

The resentment towards Song Xiangsi also deepened in my heart.

"I'll give it back twice as much, what can I do?" Yan Xuan said casually.

Seeing that she didn't intend to say anything, Yan Ruyu didn't ask any more questions, and took out a bottle of water from the refrigerator. As soon as she unscrewed the bottle cap, she saw a USB flash drive on the coffee table with a beautiful pendant hanging on it.

There is a computer on the sofa.

Yan Ruyu picked up the USB flash drive from the tea table, put it in her hand, glanced at it, and asked her, "What is this?"

Yan Xuan glanced at it and replied, "A reporter gave it to me."

Yan Ruyu originally wanted to ask what the pendant on it was, but Yan Xuan didn't expect to answer her with a USB flash drive.

Then he asked curiously again: "The reporter gave you this for no reason? He wouldn't want to harm you, would he?"

Subconsciously, Yan Ruyu felt that the reporters were all paparazzi who were squatting in the cracks outside the wall and secretly taking pictures. When she heard that this thing was given to her by the reporter, she felt that it was not a good thing.

"I spent a lot of money to buy it," Yan Xuan took the USB flash drive from her hand, "It's very good, at least let me know what to do to make the other party suffer."

Yan Ruyu:?

So this thing is about Song Xiangsi?

"Forget it, I don't understand, anyway, I'm always there when you need me."

"it is good."

After chatting for a while, Yan Ruyu rummaged through the suitcase, found a red purse, and handed it to Yan Xuan.

"Here, I prayed for you in the most efficacious temple in Linshi."

Yan Xuan opened it and saw a string of Buddhist beads bracelets inside.

"..."

"Don't think it's ugly, but it's effective and can keep you safe. It's said that the water is easy to retrograde in the year of birth, so wearing it can keep you safe."

Yan Xuan didn't refuse and took it, but she still lifted her sleeves so that Yan Ruyu could clearly see what she was wearing on her wrist.

A red string bracelet with three jade beads.

Yan Ruyu was speechless for a few seconds.

"You still wear this broken bracelet. It's been more than ten years, right? I thought you threw it away long ago. I haven't seen you wearing it in recent years."

Yan Xuan lowered her sleeves to cover the bracelet.

"I didn't throw it away. I didn't think it was necessary before, so I didn't wear it."

She thought that a new life had begun, so she didn't need to use this kind of thing to pray for peace.

Unexpectedly, one day she would wear it again.

"Okay, then can you hang your purse on your body, anyway, I climbed hundreds of stone stairs to ask you to get it."

"it is good."

In the evening, Yan Ruyu found that Yan Xuan was still drinking coffee before going to bed, so she couldn't help reminding her to drink less coffee so that she could not fall asleep.

Yan Xuan nodded to show that she understood, and drank coffee while answering.

Seeing this, Yan Ruyu curled her lips and told her to go to bed early.

"I'm going home tomorrow, do you think you're going back?"

The two are not far away, 2 minutes away.

Yan Ruyu, who had just talked with her parents on the phone and didn't intend to go home, heard this: "..."

"Forget it, I'll go back too, anyway, I told Yan Ruyuan, my mother must know sooner or later."

"Let her know that if I go back to Yuncheng, I will be scolded to death if I don't go home."

Yan Xuan listened to her complaint and smiled.

Thinking of her mother who had just talked with her on the phone, my heart warmed up a lot.

These days, the phone at home has never stopped.

Except after asking her what happened at the beginning, she never asked again.

But I would call her every day and night, telling her about the funny jokes recently, what happened to the students my father brought, and another flower bloomed in the garden at home...

Every sentence is concerned.

Let her come back when she gets homesick, and her parents are there.

At this moment, Yan Xuan suddenly felt that she had taken Song Xiangsi too seriously before.

In fact, without her, there are many people who love her in life.

Her fans, her family and friends.

Song Xiangsi is not her only light.