The top idol is not a substitute

"I'm here to tell you that your guesses are all wrong. Yan Xuan has never been someone else's substitute. I love her because of her, not because of anyone else."

In the corridor outside the lounge, Song Xiangsi said indifferently to Lin Yuan in front of him.

Song Xiangsi, who was waiting for Yan Xuan to get off work at the hotel, suddenly received a strange call.

Only after connecting did I realize it was Lin Yuan.

When she wanted to hang up, Lin Yuan made a call.

Even though they were all malicious speculations, they guessed part of her original thoughts.

However, what Lin Yuan said was wrong.

She loves Yan Xuan.

And this love is not because of those eyes.

She admitted that she used Yan Xuan to escape, but this love was not.

She didn't fall in love with Yan Xuan because of Lin Yuan.

No.

The place where Lin Yuan made an appointment was outside the No. [-] lounge in the backstage corridor.

No one here.

After saying this, Song Xiangsi was ready to leave.

Lin Yuan finally raised her drooping head, and stopped her with tears in her eyes: "Song Song."

"My grandma passed away."

Song Xiangsi was taken aback for a moment. She remembered that Grandma Lin came to school when she was in college, and she brought a big basket of eggs. She also said that eating more eggs was nutritious, and she was very kind. She helped the Lin sisters grow up.

While she was in a daze for a moment, Lin Yuan raised her hand and grabbed Song Xiangsi's sleeve, while she wanted to hug her with the other hand.

Want to seek comfort.

Song Xiangsi was just a little surprised that the usually healthy old man passed away suddenly.

He quickly realized that when Lin Yuan was about to hug her, Song Xiangsi pushed her away and took a few steps back.

"Self-respect."

"I don't understand why seven years will make people turn bad. I love Yan Xuan very much and have no old feelings for you. Please don't disturb my life anymore."

Time and time again, and now he even threatens her to tell Yan Xuan about these things if she doesn't come.

Why, the kind girl in college will become like this now.

Song Xiangsi didn't understand.

She rarely speaks cruelly to others, but now Lin Yuan has disturbed her life, which makes her very irritable.

She is a little scared.

Afraid that Lin Yuan would spout nonsense.

The message sent to Yan Xuan has not been answered yet.

She didn't know if Yan Xuan would be happy to see her here.

Thinking of Yan Xuan, Song Xiangsi's face softened a little.

I also understand that I can't be threatened all the time.

Lin Yuan saw Song Xiangsi's emotional change, and saw that she turned and left without saying a word, Lin Yuan bit her lips tightly, and put her clenched fist into her palm.

"But Yan Xuan doesn't love you. She has someone in her heart, someone who is much more important than you. As long as she comes back, she will throw you away."

Lin Yuan studied psychology with her roommate in college, and she knows how to plant seeds of doubt in a person's heart.

Even if you don't believe it now, one day you will inadvertently think of her words at some point, and it will definitely take root.

Will.

Song Xiangsi ignored her nonsense and walked towards the studio.

However, when she arrived at the studio, the staff told her that Yan Xuan just fainted and should be sent to the hospital right now.

"Which hospital are you in? Why did you faint?" Song Xiangsi asked nervously. Yan Xuan was always in good health, so it was impossible for her to faint for no reason.

There is also no diet these days, and I eat nutritious food every day.

There is no reason to suddenly faint.

The staff member shook his head and said he didn't know either.

Song Xiangsi asked several people, but they all got the same answer.

No one knows which hospital she went to.

No one answered Yan Xuan's calls, and no one answered Zhou Xiangyuanyuan's calls.

After asking many more people, Song Xiangsi finally got the answer——

"Yan Xuan seems to be fine, they got into the work car and seemed to be heading towards the hotel."

It's fine.

Song Xiangsi just breathed a sigh of relief, but realized it in the next second.

After so long, no one on Yan Xuan's side paid any attention to her.

on the work vehicle.

The cell phone rang continuously.

Different music keeps ringing like a baton.

Zhou Xiang looked at the pale Yan Xuan: "Xiao Xuan, what happened?"

Fortunately, Yuan Yuan just saw that Yan Xuan hadn't come back for a long time and ran to find someone who happened to see Yan Xuan who had fainted on the ground and brought her back.

The cell phone beside him was still ringing.

It showed that the caller was Song Xiangsi.

This is the seventh call Song Xiangsi has made to her.

Zhou Xiang subconsciously prepared to answer the phone when it rang for the first time, but was stopped by Yan Xuan and told her not to answer it.

She hadn't seen Yan Xuan's indifferent tone and cold eyes for a long time.

She had no doubt that if she had answered the phone at that time, whether her phone would still be alive now.

"Why did you faint suddenly?" Seeing that Yan Xuan ignored her, Zhou Xiang asked again.

"I'm sick." Yan Xuan rubbed her temples with her fingertips, feeling a little uncomfortable.

Thinking of the scene she saw just now, Yan Xuan felt a little nauseous.

She never thought that Song Xiangsi was such a person.

Not just nausea, but frustrations that she didn't want to admit.

Suddenly fainted after being out of breath for a while.

"What kind of food did you buy for Xiao Xuan at noon?" Zhou Xiang turned to ask Yuan Yuan who was also nervous on the other side.

"We all ate the crab pot rice from the restaurant downstairs, sister, did you eat something else?" Yuan Yuan thought about it carefully, but couldn't figure out why Yan Xuan suddenly felt nauseous.

I have eaten crabs before, and there is no such thing as eating crabs.

Yan Xuan felt not only chattering in her ears, but also the ringing of her mobile phone kept ringing.

The bottom of my heart became more and more irritable, and asked the two of them patiently:

"Can it be closed?"

No doubt she was talking about the cell phone.

It was only then that Zhou Xiang realized that Yan Xuan didn't let them answer Song Xiangsi's phone call. It was also strange.

"Are you and Song Xiangsi fighting again?"

Zhou Xiang had the final say in his heart, it must have only been five days.

Why are these two conflicting so frequently recently?

Yan Xuan leaned on the seat, closed her eyes slightly, and said, "Don't mention this person to me in the future."

Forget it.

Forget about this guy?

Zhou Xiang and Yuan Yuan glanced at each other and frowned at the same time.

Zhou Xiang asked: "What happened? It's so serious this time?"

Yan Xuan didn't want to answer, but when she closed her eyes, the picture just now would appear in her mind.

What Lin Yuan said.

Even the scene where they hug.

How can she, Yan Xuan, let someone waste four years on her.

When you are affectionate, you must be thinking about how this person can be so stupid.

What was Song Xiangsi doing when she was sulking?

Oh, the person she was waiting for came back, she should be busy coaxing the person she really likes.

Maybe even comfort the other party with a gentle voice: "Wait a minute, I'm about to break up with her."

And what was she thinking.

Why didn't Song Xiangsi tell her the truth.

Don't let others see that Song Xiangsi is not good.

Don't let Sister Ruyu misunderstand her.

Silly.

The love she thought was all fake.

Song Xiangsi also regards her as a substitute, doesn't she?

There is no need to ask anymore.

Yan Xuan is not stupid, those abnormalities she ignores, the past she doesn't want to talk about, and those bizarre coincidences.

Everything proved that what Lin Yuan said was true.

Everything proves that she is too naive.

Yan Xuan's mood at this moment was numb as if she was in an ice cellar.

"Sister, Teacher Song, did she do something excessive?"

As soon as Yuan Yuan spoke, she was glanced at by Yan Xuan, who felt chilly all over.

Yuan Yuan immediately shut up.

Only then did the two realize that what Yan Xuan said was serious.

Don't mention Song Xiangsi in front of her.

There was a moment of silence in the car.

Zhou Xiang's cell phone rang again.

This time it was an unknown number.

Because he was in contact with work, when he saw it was an unfamiliar number, Zhou Xiang picked it up without any doubts.

Two seconds after the connection, I quietly glanced at Yan Xuan.

Just met her eyes.

A little guilty, he replied to the other side: "It's okay."

Then hung up the phone.

Just as she was about to talk to Yan Xuan, she remembered that she had just said not to mention Song Xiangsi in front of her.

It was Song Xiangsi who called just now.

Ask her how Yan Xuan is doing and if there is anything wrong.

Yan Xuan didn't ask, and just looked away lightly.

"We're going back to Yuncheng just like that? Why don't we tell others?"

This other person refers to Song Xiangsi.

After all, Zhou Xiang remembered that in the morning, Yan Xuan was still excitedly telling her that her Song Song was waiting for her to return to Yuncheng together at the hotel after work.

Yan Xuan hummed lightly.

This means not to speak.

It's not that Zhou Xiang likes to meddle in other people's affairs, it's just that the relationship between the two was too good before, and Yan Xuan was angry during this time, but she didn't completely ignore Song Xiangsi.

Just like someone said a few words on Song Xiangsi in the show a few days ago, Yan Xuan reprimanded her.

So Zhou Xiang only thought that Yan Xuan lost her temper this time.

Yan Xuan closed her eyes for a while, then opened them suddenly, and turned on the phone after a while.

There are more than a dozen missed call reminders on it.

Yan Xuan didn't order anything, just skipped it and logged into Q|Q.

Song Xiangsi said that the social software they used most often seven years ago was Q|Q.

Yan Xuan has never logged into Song Xiangsi's social software.

But I know Song Xiangsi's WeChat Weibo password.

It is not difficult to imagine that Q｜Q should also be the same password.

Sure enough, I tried to log in successfully.

Yan Xuan opened her personal homepage.

Look at all the dynamics she has hidden under three days of visibility.

[Archives in Rongcheng town with A Yuan tour [picture]. 】

Inside are ten landscape pictures, very beautiful ancient towns.

The two standing inside are also a good match.

She has also been to this place, the first year she met Song Xiangsi.

"Do you know the ancient town of Rongcheng? The scenery there is very beautiful. After your work is over, I will take you to see it?"

"How do you know it looks good?"

"Went with friends."

Not bad.

Take her to revisit the places where she went with her ex-girlfriend.

There are several more comments below.

One of them is [Zhiyuan: Can you say something about love next time. 】

She replied: [OK. 】

Yan Xuan didn't know if she talked about love later, because this was the latest development.

Sliding down is an earlier dynamic.

[Who has a scarf knitted by a girlfriend. [picture]】

Zhiyuan: It's you.

This scarf looks familiar.

She knits.

Where did she know how to knit a scarf, it was just because Song Xiangsi asked her if she could knit a scarf and told her which scarf was the most beautiful.

Yan Xuan went to study.

Really good.

Make the best use of your stand-in.

Yan Xuan blankly looked at the earlier news.

The already numb heart seemed to be unable to feel the pain anymore, only to feel ridicule.

These things in the dynamics have been done more or less by the two of them in the past two years.

Things have long been clear.

It's a pity that she believed Song Xiangsi's words back then.

——You can trust me.

——I am your girlfriend, and I will stand by your side unconditionally.

She believed it.

That's why he lost so badly now.

Why would someone be so hypocritical.

why.

Yan Xuan closed her eyes and exited the program.

After letting go of her thoughts for a while, no one knew what she was thinking.

WeChat text messages and phone calls have been bombarded serially.

Yan Xuan clicked into WeChat.

Scrolling up, I saw the message Song Xiangsi sent her two hours ago.

[I have something to apply for. 】

[Can I pick you up from the studio? 】

[Maybe I need to see my ex-girlfriend. 】

[I promise it's just a meeting. 】

what's the point.

She didn't reply and Song Xiangsi met anyway.

Not only met, but also hugged.

Who the hell is deceiving himself.

Thinking of the scene, Yan Xuan felt nauseated in her heart.

She gave a lot of opportunities.

Why not tell the truth.

But so what to tell the truth.

Yan Xuan twitched the corner of her mouth lightly, as if mocking herself.

It seems that no matter what, the relationship between them will not end well.

Yan Xuan lowered her eyes, swiped her fingertips across the screen, and Song Xiangsi's name disappeared from her friend list.

All social software friends in the phone message were also blocked by her.

She didn't want to say a word to Song Xiangsi again.

Even the word "break up" felt superfluous to Yan Xuan.

After Yan Xuan stopped talking, the car also became quiet.

Zhou Xiang and Yuan Yuan were also secretly looking at Yan Xuan's situation.

After a long time, Yan Xuan suddenly raised her head and said to Zhou Xiang: "Sister Zhou has worked hard."

Zhou Xiang was stunned by the sudden words, thinking that Yan Xuan was caring about her, so he shook his head: "It's not hard."

Yan Xuan was the treasure she picked up. Many companies and agents tried to poach her, but they were all rejected.

It's too late for Zhou Xiang to be grateful.

Yan Xuan didn't say much, just hummed, and said to the driver in front, "Take me to Beishan Villa."

"Not going back to Nanyang Yulou?"

"Ah."

Song Xiangsi became flustered by the call that could be made through a different number.

Song Xiangsi took a taxi back to the hotel, but was told that she had already checked out.

Yan Xuan left.

Did not speak to her.

This made Song Xiangsi, who was already flustered, even more nervous, and stood outside the hotel trying to dial Yan Xuan's phone.

【Xiaoxuan, have you returned to Yuncheng yet? 】

[Are you still dizzy? 】

[I'm sorry Xiaoxuan, I shouldn't have gone to the studio, I shouldn't have met my ex-girlfriend without your consent. 】

……

All the messages she sent seemed to disappear, and Yan Xuan didn't reply.

Song Xiangsi felt even worse in her heart.

Thinking of Lin Yuan's words at that time.

Song Xiangsi pursed her lips tightly and kept chanting silently in her heart, hoping that Yan Xuan would reply.

【You justify me. 】

As soon as this news was sent, Song Xiangsi stared at the red exclamation mark on the screen, her eyes froze.

how……

When Song Xiangsi saw the red exclamation mark on the screen, her heart sank to the bottom and her fingers trembled uncontrollably.

Yan Xuan is not a person who likes to delete friends.

Even though Yan Xuan ignored her a few times before, she never deleted her friend.

Song Xiangsi clicked to re-add, but the application news disappeared.

An entertainment alert floated above the phone——

[Song Xiangsi and Yan Xuan canceled mutual relationship, suspected of breaking up?Click for details...]

When seeing that message, Song Xiangsi seemed to have stopped breathing.

I clicked in and looked through my watchlist several times.

I'm sure I can't find Yan Xuan's name.

Yan Xuan unfriended.

Even the homepage was blocked.

She got it.

That's why I made such a decision.

For a moment, Song Xiangsi seemed to be drained of strength, and her mind went blank.

Beishan Villa, late at night.

Yan Xuan had a dream.

I dreamed of myself more than ten years ago.

At that time, a man found her in the orphanage and asked her if she would like to go home with him.

The first time she saw the mistress of the Meng family, she was crazy and emotionally unstable.

She was very scared, but the man said it was her mother, and the dean also said that she would listen to her parents in the future.

She wants to make this woman happy.

Only in this way can she have a family and have parents.

Since the woman's daughter was lost, the woman became mentally disturbed and often fell ill for no reason.

Sometimes I hug her and cry: "Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao, you are finally back, mom has been looking for you for a long time."

Sometimes I get angry suddenly: "You are not Xiaoxiao, who are you, why are you at my house."

When I was a child, I had bruises and bruises on my arms and body.

When the woman wakes up, she will apologize to her again.

She lives in this family under the name of Meng Xiao.

At a young age, she doesn't know what to replace or not. She just wants a home and wants to survive.

When she was awake, her mother had a good personality, and her father would bring her some toys from time to time.

Then they would tell her that it was the real Meng Xiao's favorite toy.

Meng Xiao likes to eat mango and coriander.

I like to go to the amusement park in the city, and my favorite project is the carousel.

In those two years, she lived according to Meng Xiao's preferences.

The Meng family never gave up looking for their daughter, and even worried that her daughter's identity would be taken after her return, and never let her go to school.

Days passed by, and one day two years later, the real Meng Xiao came back.

That was the first time she saw bright smiles on her parents' faces.

Only then did she realize that perhaps they had never regarded themselves as daughters.

After Meng Xiao got lost, she was raised by a farmer. At first, she didn't want to help her find her parents, but wanted to raise her by herself. Later, she was found by the police and sent back.

At that time, she just envied Meng Xiao, and Meng Xiao who was loved by her parents.

Yan Xuan's memory of her biological parents is very vague, only endless quarrels and smashed electrical furniture are in her impression.

Even on the day of the car accident, the two were still arguing and pushing each other in the car.

Allocate ownership of this child with respect to her.

The two are planning a divorce.

Yan Xuan was not included in the plan.

She was just an unwanted child.

After the accidental death of her parents, her few properties were taken away by her relatives, and no one wanted to take care of her, so she was finally thrown into an orphanage.

She thought that the Meng family would be her future home.

After the real Meng Xiao came back, the eyes of Meng's parents never fell on her again.

Every time Yan Xuan called "Xiaoxiao", she would subconsciously answer, and a few people would look at her with strange eyes.

Only Meng's father comforted her: "My sister is back. From now on, I will give my sister whatever she wants. You can't compete with my sister, you know?"

At that time, Yan Xuan nodded with a half understanding.

She is an older sister, so she must be courteous to her younger sister.

She had nothing to give Meng Xiao, but gave her all the things that Meng's parents had given her in the past two years as gifts.

But was pushed to the ground by Meng Xiao: "These are mine in the first place, why are you sending them to me?"

"Get out of my house and stop calling me mom and dad."

Facing Meng Xiao with fierce eyes, Yan Xuan was too afraid to speak.

Because, she knew that this was really not her home.

Meng Xiao's attitude towards her has always been bad. Sometimes when the two of them were talking, Meng Xiao would go crazy and hit her with toys.

The Meng family's parents just comforted her, and no one cared about her being smashed.

Once she even heard Meng's mother comfort the crying Meng Xiao in the kitchen: "Xiaoxiao, have you heard of the game between the princess and the servant? Let's play the game together? Xiaoxiao is a princess, and it is not necessary to treat her sister as a housemate." How is your servant? The princess should be more generous."

Afterwards, Meng Xiao really restrained a lot, stopped beating and scolding her frequently, and even gave her the princess dress newly bought by her parents.

"This is a new one my parents bought for me, and it's for you."

It was rare for Meng Xiao to be so gentle to her. At that time, Yan Xuan was moved, thinking that her parents played a role in reconciling.

"Parents say you are my sister, so you will give me whatever I want."

Yan Xuan nodded without hesitation, as long as Meng Xiao could accept her, she would be fine.

"There is a Guiling Mountain nearby, and there is a colorful mushroom on it, I want it."

That day, while Meng's parents were going out, Yan Xuan put on the princess dress that Meng Xiao had given her, and followed Meng Xiao to the foot of Guiling Mountain.

Meng Xiao said she was waiting for her at the foot of the mountain and gave her a candy.

The weather was bad that day, and there was a lot of fog in the mountains.

But she agreed to Meng Xiao.

She had never heard of Guiling Mountain before, and she didn't know what was inside, so she thought it was just an ordinary mountain.

After going up the mountain, she began to belatedly realize that there was a problem.

By the time she reacted, it was too late.

She fell into a huge pit.

Later she learned that it was a trap made by hunters for hunting.

At first, she hoped that Meng Xiao would find out that she hadn't gone back to look for her.

It was only later that she realized that Meng Xiao did it on purpose.

She stayed there for two days and one night. There were worms and mice in it, and she dared not close her eyes.

After calling for help for a long time, no one came to save her.

When she was weak, she seemed to see her parents waving to her.

No.

She doesn't want to.

Perhaps it was this resistance that gave her strength, and someone passing by heard her faint cries for help.

Maybe she should be relieved that Meng's parents are at least looking for her.

There were many policemen sitting in the house, Meng Xiao hid behind the adult and looked at her timidly.

She was finally afraid.

After the police left, Yan Xuan told the Meng family's parents what had happened.

Before she could finish her sentence, Meng Xiao started to cry and make a fuss.

She was covered in scars in exchange for only one sentence: "If you make her unhappy like this again, we will send you back."

Only then did she realize that she had never had a home.

She is also just a substitute for Meng Xiao.

Parents were never her parents either.

As long as Meng Xiao comes back, she is a dispensable substitute that can be thrown away at any time.

Dreams began to blur.

Memories start to become distorted.

In the dream, Meng Xiao pointed to her nose and told her: "You are just my substitute. My parents never loved you, and this was never your home."

"No one loves you, and you will never be loved."

Will not.

She also has Song Xiangsi.

Song Xiangsi loves her.

Song Xiangsi...

Familiar figures began to appear in the smoky dreamland.

In the dream, she grabbed Song Xiangsi with all her might, as if grabbing the last straw.

But the man just gently pushed her fingers away and asked in her usual gentle voice: "Xiaoyuan, what's the matter."

No.

She is not Xiaoyuan.

Who is Xiaoyuan.

Why did Song Xiangsi call her by someone else's name.

The smoke began to dissipate, and Lin Yuan's figure began to appear beside Song Xiangsi.

They held hands, and Song Xiangsi looked at Lin Yuan affectionately.

It turned out that the person next to her had said that.

Why did Song Xiangsi hold someone else's arm?

Why are you so gentle with her.

"Miss Yan Xuan, I advise you to look at it more clearly. Substitutes can only be substitutes. It is impossible to keep occupying someone else's position and not return it."

Lin Yuan in the dream looked at her, speaking cruel words with a gentle face.

alternatives……

Who is the substitute.

Does she...?

"Song Song told me that she is using you as a stand-in, she is giving you face, and wants you to take the initiative to break up."

Is that right?

Yan Xuan in the dream could only look helplessly at Song Xiangsi.

But she pursed her lips with an apologetic expression: "I'm sorry Xiaoxuan."

Yes.

Song Xiangsi doesn't love her either.

Song Xiangsi just used her as a substitute.

"No one loves you, you will never be loved." Meng Xiao's voice came from the sky.

"Everyone just treats you as a substitute." Lin Yuan walked up to her and taunted her.

"You shouldn't be alive, child, come with us." The parents who had long passed away stretched out their hands to her.

no.

It shouldn't be like this.

In the dark night, Yan Xuan woke up from a nightmare.

She had this dream for three days in a row.

Even in reality she made a decision mercilessly.

But in the dream, he forgot everything that happened in reality, and had hope again.

Yan Xuan couldn't figure it out.

Why do people suffer so much.

Did she want too much, so she suffered retribution.