winter cloud

She has an impression of things like "Raksha".

That was something that often appeared in her dreams a long time ago.She used to feel scared because of the doctor's diagnosis result that her father told her. At night, she would dream that when she was only three years old, she would be stared at by that kind of monster and then brutally killed.

But after the age of three, this dream disappeared quietly, perhaps because she had passed the predicted age, so she felt that everything was worth it, and she felt relieved.

But the fear of that monster didn't disappear along with it, that snowy night, and that night too, because my mind went blank from fear, so I couldn't think of anything.

However, what should have been in her dream actually appeared in reality. The figure she saw from the blade seemed to be a combination of herself and the monster.

Dreams and the like, if they are too realistic, maybe they are reality——in that case, it is true that she will be killed by those monsters, right?

Why didn't you tell her earlier, my sister knew about it, and she knew all these things clearly.

But did not tell her.

"I'm sorry, because I'm worried, if Sora hears about it, I'll be involved in danger..."

"It's okay, sister is not wrong." Although he said so, Kong Yin didn't think so at all.

She knew that Qianhe was worried about her, wanted to protect her, and wanted to keep her from being hurt. She knew that Qianhe didn't mean to hide it deliberately, but she just couldn't help thinking about bad things.

Knowing that her sister was out of kindness, Kongyin just felt angry.

But she can't be angry, because her sister didn't do anything wrong in fact, she just cared about her sister, and it wasn't a mistake.

It seems that since then, bad things have happened one after another like collusion, and the thing called "changing like water", which seems to her like a slow poison, has become extremely popular. I thought it would be enough to have Mr. Shannan, but because Mr. Kondo was injured, Mr. Okita also drank that medicine.

It was terrible.But fortunately, Hirasuke is fine.

By January, the war had begun.

It didn't go well at the beginning, Qianhe kept trying to help, and in fact she did, unlike Kongyin who could only stay in the garrison all day and read books.

At the beginning of winter, Kong Yin's physical condition began to deteriorate rapidly, from low-grade fever and dizziness at the beginning, to sudden fainting, cold hands and feet, and throbbing heart, sometimes when she huddled her head under the quilt I would wonder if the previous prophecy of "I can only live to be three years old" finally began to come true after a delay of more than ten years.

Recently, she started to have nightmares again. In the past, the dreams would stop abruptly when she died, but these days, she found that after death, she would appear in the same place as before, like an endless cycle of reincarnation. Killed once.

Sometimes she would wake up suddenly when the blade fell, grabbed a book in a hurry, and just glanced absently in the dark center, in fact, she couldn't see what was written in the book at all, so she recalled At the same time, I was thinking about which book this would be, and if it was this book, what did it talk about on this page.

Then fell asleep again unconsciously.

Hirasuke went to war, and there was very little time to come back, but he would run over to see her immediately after he came back, which already made Sora very satisfied.

Although Chizuru could stay and take care of her, she couldn't just leave Mr. Hijikata alone. Soraon felt that she should be thankful that she could still stay here safely.

At least no one drove her away, at least they were willing to let this cumbersome guy follow behind.

She tries not to hold her back, so she doesn't want to go until she's completely immobilized.

Hearing the sound of the Japanese-style door being pulled open, Sorane rubbed his eyes, turned his head slightly, and saw the sneaky figure of Hirasuke at the door.

"Well... good morning."

"Ah, are you awake, Kong Yin." He didn't intend to pursue Kong Yin's serious disordered concept of time, and when he was discovered, Hirasuke scratched the back of his head, walked in and sat down with a face of embarrassment, "Sorry, I didn't intend to make a noise." wake you up."

"I wasn't asleep."

"Yes...is it?"

Then fell into silence, Kong Yin frowned, bent his arms and wanted to support his body to sit up.

Just when her upper body straightened up a little, a strong hand supported her back, and Hirasuke leaned over, holding her shoulder with one hand and her back with the other.

"Really, it's better for you to lie down." Hirasuke frowned worriedly, and before Soran could answer, he pushed her back into the bed without any explanation.

Really, she won't fall apart because of such a small movement.Some pouted his lips unhappily, but lay down obediently without any resistance.

"What's going on there?"

There and the like, probably refers to the battlefield?

"If you talk about the battlefield, the situation is not very good."

Hirasuke was about to report a series of recent situations one by one, but was interrupted in the middle: "No, I mean sister, what happened to her."

"..." That's right, Kong Yin wouldn't think of asking about the battle situation, and there were only a few things she cared about.

"As for Chizuru, I went to ask for reinforcements with Mr. Mina just now, and Mr. Hijikata said he was worried and left." Saying this, Hirasuke patted Sorane's hand, showing a comforting smile, "Don't Don't worry, I'll be back soon."

Mr. Harada's voice came from outside the house, and Hirasuke got up apologetically: "Ah, it seems that Mr. Hijikata is back, I'll come back later."

Walking to the door, Hirasuke seemed to have suddenly remembered something, turned his head and said to Kong Yin who covered half of his face with a quilt, "Speaking of which, we will be leaving here soon, and Kong Yin should also tidy up his books. "

After the door was closed and the footsteps could no longer be heard, Sorane turned over and retracted his head into the futon.

From Qianzuru's expression a few days ago, one could almost guess that this place could no longer stay. Although I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I heard from Qianzuru how terrifying the guns used by the enemy were.

It doesn’t need to touch your body, and it can penetrate the heart from a long distance. Even if the sound is loud enough to startle the birds in the woods, the speed of the bullet is beyond the reach of ordinary people.

It's really appalling. In that case, even if you hear the sound, you can't avoid it at all.

Not to mention that it was on a noisy battlefield.

Tch, Kong Yin curled her lips, that's why she hates noisy environments.

When the door was opened again, Sora was still not fully asleep, this time it was Chizuru who came in.

Chizuru's face looked more haggard than before.

"Did something happen?"

Qianhe smiled and shook her head, but Kongyin felt that she was about to cry: "Kongyin, I have to go."

"Where are you going?" Although she heard from Hirasuke that she was leaving here soon, she still had no idea where she was going.

"We... go to Edo."

Edo... As soon as the word came out of Chizuru's mouth, Soran's eyes widened in surprise.

"What, you want to go back."

On the boat, Kongyin finally understood what was going on with her sister's crying appearance.

Because she looked around and couldn't find the kind Mr. Inoue, but, probably, she could almost know where this gentleman went by looking at her sister.

She didn't have a deep impression of Inoue, but the only thing she remembered was that he was the first person she and her sister saw after they woke up in the Shinsengumi.

His smile sometimes resembled that of his father's.

The other is Yamazaki, who sent medicine to her when she had a cold, but he didn't say anything to care about her verbally, but since he would send medicine, he must also care about it in action.

Thinking about it now, Kong Yin really thinks that the Shinsengumi is full of good people, ah, of course most of them are boring, and if they care about others, they have to turn a corner and say it.

But, she knew it, and my sister must have noticed it, so she was willing to stay by their side.

I can no longer hear Yamazaki's voice, even if I get closer, even the sound of breathing is gone, only Chizuru's heart-piercing cry came from Sorane's ear, she closed her eyes silently—— A sweet dream, Yamazaki-kun.

"Nobody dies in vain... right?"

Hearing what Qianhe was talking to himself or telling her, Kong Yin felt confused.

She couldn't understand whether the sacrifice was in vain, but she didn't feel that Yamazaki-kun was in pain.

"Because there are still people who miss him, as long as he can leave the imprint of his hard work in this world, even if his soul is no longer in this world, he is still very happy."

As long as there are still people who miss themselves who are no longer there, then it is a valuable sacrifice.

After all, no one lives to die for nothing.

Although it was a bit strange logic, at least Sora thought so.