I'm not really a zombie

Yuan Ling mourned greatly.

It felt like boundless despair had taken hold of him.

That despair was like a gloomy and dark swamp, swallowing him inch by inch.

That despair was like a vine with poisonous thorns, dragging him into the abyss little by little.

That desperation is like a boundless deep sea, with no edge in sight, no shore in sight, the sky is far high, and the bottom of the sea is unfathomable.

Despair, boundless despair.

Mental pain is far more difficult to accept than physical pain.

Yuan Ling stood there blankly, not knowing how to react for a moment.

At this moment, he himself was desperate and confused.

He forced himself not to think about everything in front of him, trying to escape this boundless despair for a short time.

The despair brought about by a simple understanding made him almost unbearable, so what if he understood everything clearly?Crash right away?

Subconsciously, he didn't want to face all of this, even if he could only escape for a second.

In the confusion, Yuan Ling thought of many things aimlessly, and the memories of the past came to mind bit by bit.

Lin Fang when we met for the first time, Lin Fang who gave him candy unsuspectingly, Lin Fang who said seriously that he would go out with him, Lin Fang who was full of curiosity when searching the house, and who was scared and embarrassed by the mutant black rat Lin Fang, Lin Fang who took care of him carefully, Lin Fang who comforted him and bandaged his wound, Lin Fang who held him in his arms, Lin Fang who looked at him with reluctant eyes, Lin Fang who was gentle and warm...

Yuan Ling realized belatedly that Lin Fang had become so important to him at some point in time.

It was so important that he unknowingly temporarily forgot Yuan Jiu who had depended on each other for many years.

Yuan Jiu is his inseparable relative, but even when he was separated from Yuan Jiu, he never felt such despair.

At that time, he thought that the worst outcome would be to die there with Yuan Jiu.

Even then, he had never experienced such despair.

It turns out that in this world, there is really something more desperate than death.

Boundless despair completely submerged Yuan Ling like a tide...

The blood vessels on his body swelled up in an extreme state, and all parts of his body violently switched between animal and human shapes in an uncontrollable state.During the transition, his already scarred body continued to crumble, and blood gushed out from various wounds, staining the floor, himself, and Lin Fang's broken body red.

Everything is so hopeless.

At a certain moment, Yuan Ling thought, it would be great if he passed out now, no, he will always wake up after passing out, if only he could just sleep like this and never wake up...

In a trance, he thought so...

There is always someone who, at some point, makes you realize how important he is.

Before this, Yuan Ling had faintly felt that Lin Fang was special to him, but he kept excluding it and refused to admit it directly, as if as long as he didn't admit it, all of this would not exist.

Until now, he didn't know how wrong he was in the past.

Lin Fang is important to him, very important, so important that he is willing to give his life.

Lin Fang is different from the family-like Yuan Jiu, which is another important thing.

He didn't have family-like affection for Lin Fang, it was another kind of warm, throbbing, and joyful emotion, which he had never experienced before.

Unfortunately.

When he just understood this, everything was already on the verge of this uncontrollable collapse.

About recent updates

First of all, I would like to apologize to everyone here, for my latest update and weekly update for the next period of time.

Here the author guarantees that there will be absolutely no cheating, and it will be updated on a weekly basis for a while.

The author has also learned a lesson, and will save manuscripts seriously in the future to avoid this situation from happening.

In fact, this is an accident.

Because the author is about to graduate, and recently he is recruiting for spring, doing an internship, and the little fairy Bi She, as well as various documents and miscellaneous things, all rushed together, and the author really can't take care of it.

I really didn't expect the graduation season to be so busy, so I made a mistake.

Especially the author's internship, it's not just a tiring word, it's just tiring, it's okay if you don't have time.The key is to grind people, it's too grinding, it makes people collapse.

It’s that feeling of despair. This internship made me feel hopeless at the end of the world. I was desperately trying to convince myself to go to work every day, and I wanted to cry every day when I came back.

I really didn't expect that there is such a job in this world that people can't see a glimmer of hope.

There are pits everywhere.

This job is absolutely perfect.

It's a pity that the author needs this internship now, and graduation needs it, so it's too miserable.

If the author could earn a living by writing, he wouldn't do this kind of work. It's just terrible.

So desperate.