Accumulate feathers sink the boat

Is this the first time I have cried in public in my adult life?Lu Xiangzhou couldn't remember, but he hoped not, because he didn't want his year in Hong Kong to become like a joke.If this is unbearable, if this is unbearable, then how can he start the forgetfulness he longed for, the generosity he longed for, and the new life he has been waiting for?

So God is really unfair. On the one hand, he let some people not be stained by pollen even if they linger in the flowers, but on the other hand, he set Lu Xiangzhou and countless people like him to The bitterness that can no longer be overcome by itself.Why?Why?People who love a lot obviously have the qualifications to be loved and cherished by others!

The driver who arrived late finally took Lu Xiangzhou into the car from the land. He might never understand in his life why this big man could cry like this under the scorching sun just because he was only half an hour late and his phone just ran out of battery. .Just like Lu Xiangzhou couldn't understand whether it was Gong Yu's ruthlessness or Zhao Wei's sensationalism that made people more uncomfortable.

Those words... don't be afraid, what brother, what is on his side... what forever... why do you have to add forever?Where in this world is such an easy forever! !Love needs to turn a thousand times, and forgetting needs to be lonely for thousands of miles. Only pain can disappear from here and appear there immediately.

Only pain, lingering, protracted.

The teacher's apartment, which had not been lived in for a year, was full of dust. Even though Lu Xiangzhou had carefully covered all the large pieces of furniture with covers before leaving, the smell of smoke in the air and on the floor still made it hard to breathe.He stood outside the door in a daze for a few seconds, finally threw the suitcase inside, closed the door and walked towards the school's foreign affairs hotel.

It was an extraordinarily heavy and exhausting feeling. Lu Xiangzhou experienced one nightmare after another, flying off a cliff for a while, and getting lost in the jungle for a while. In his dream, he seemed to see many people, but in fact he didn't know any of them.The grotesque scene magnified his insignificance infinitely. Just when he was about to collapse and call for help, a phone call finally shattered the nightmare.

"Hello? Xiang Zhou? Are you sleeping? Have you put everything away?"

It was Chen Min. Lu Xiangzhou stretched his arms out of the quilt, turned his head and looked out the window slowly, and found that the sky was already completely dark.

"Ah."

"Why does it sound dull? Have you eaten yet?"

"No."

"Then hurry up and eat, it's already past seven o'clock, if you don't eat any more, your stomach will starve."

"Ah."

The completely perfunctory dialogue, no matter how big a heart is like Chen Min, he still has to ask one more question: "What's wrong with you?"

What's wrong?Yeah, what's wrong with me?Lu Xiangzhou felt that he might not have woken up yet, but he actually felt that Chen Min's voice on the phone sounded very gentle, as if he really cared about him.

"mom."

"Huh? You said."

"Do you like Gong Yu very much?"

"What do you mean?" Chen Min asked.

"I just like it very much, I like it very much, I like it countless times more than I like it, oh no...you don't like me...that's—"

"Xiang Zhou, what nonsense are you talking about, I'm your mother, how could I not like you?"

"Really? Do you actually like me?" Lu Xiangzhou smiled, "How much do you like me? Is it the kind of liking that you like to ask Shang Gong Yu to pick me up even though you know I don't like it?"

Oh, it turned out to be because of this.Chen Min sighed, in fact, it was not she who asked Gong Yu to pick up Lu Xiangzhou, it was Gong Yu who wanted to come, but he didn't dare to come alone, so Chen Min agreed to be him as a company after a long time.

"Listen to me, this matter is really due to my mother's lack of consideration. I think you will be sad if you go out for such a long time and have no one to pick you up when you finally come back. You are so—"

"So hypocritical one person, right?" So it's too difficult to deal with, and it takes two people to attack together to completely defeat it.

"No, you are not hypocritical, my mother apologizes to you."

This is really unexpected, Chen Min apologizes?Hey, if he didn't know that the weasel would still give chickens New Year's greetings, Chen Min's apology and Lu Xiangzhou might have really accepted it.

"I thought I'd been gone for a year, you could listen to me and say a few words... After all, we... right, we've never had so many phone calls in such a short period of time in our life."

This is true, since Lu Xiangzhou went to Hong Kong, the frequency of his calls with Chen Min was almost guaranteed to be twice a month, sometimes Chen Min called him, and sometimes he would take the initiative to call Chen Min.The two of them looked like a perfectly normal mother and son, they would talk about their daily life and their recent situation, sometimes when they were in a good mood, he would even chat with Chen Min about trivial matters in training.I thought that the relationship between mother and child had broken the ice, who would have thought...

"I can listen to you well, and I can listen to you well, but can you also listen to your mother?"

"What? Say you apologize? Say you were negligent? Then come back the same next time?" Lu Xiangzhou found that he didn't even have any interest in arguing with Chen Min. Back and forth, big and small, he was talking to Chen Min about Gong Yu's matter. How many times did you yell?is that useful?Fart useless.

"It's not these... hey," Chen Min sighed for the second time during the phone call, "Mom knows that Gong Yu didn't do well in the first place, and he ignored you a lot, so he told me Some, I guessed some myself, so if you want to divorce, you are angry, mother thinks it is normal."

"Normal? Normal and you brought him to the airport? What you think is normal is that he is normal and I am abnormal?"

"No... how is it possible? Mom means that I understand your feelings, respect your decision to divorce, and support you in not accepting his behavior and not forgiving him."

"then you--"

"But I just want... just think, if you still have him in your heart, maybe you can see how he has changed over the past year, he is really—"

"No more," Lu Xiangzhou's voice sounded extremely cold, "It's long gone, why do you think that I will always keep a person who has caused me so much harm in my heart? Do you really think I am my father? Is the Buddha alive?"

"Lu Xiangzhou!" Chen Min's emotions finally had some ups and downs, "Can you stop mentioning your dad in three and a half sentences, dad has been gone for so long, you should try to get out of his thinking mode!"

"What about him—" Forget it, if even Lao Lu wants to quarrel together, then the phone call will not hang up today, Lu Xiangzhou turned over and said again: "Okay, then don't talk about my dad, just Can you answer my question? Why do you think I will always keep that scum in my heart? Even if I can't forget him, it's only because I hate him, and I grit my teeth with hatred, and it has nothing to do with any other feelings!"

"Why are you so stubborn, kid? You can hate him, but what you hate is the old him, the him a year ago, Gong Yu has really changed now, I looked at him this year—"

"What are you looking at him for? Change your face and start a new life? So what? Who stipulated that as long as a person corrects his evil ways, all the people he has hurt before must line up to him and say 'It's okay, I forgive you'? !"

Anyway, it's impossible for me, Lu Xiangzhou thought, not only is it impossible for me to forgive him, but it's even impossible for me to believe that a person like him would really change anything because of me.Please, that's Gong Yu, how could Gong Yu fall in love with Lu Xiangzhou?

"It's not that you have to forgive, but you can at least take another look at him and give him a chance to explain, right?"

"Mom, Dr. Chen," Lu Xiangzhou wanted to laugh again, "You know, you have never said that for me since you were a child. When you made a mistake when you were young, you beat me up every time you didn't say anything, and you didn't care about my mistakes. Cause and effect. It's the same now that I'm older, have you ever given me so much patience, have you given me so many opportunities when you think I'm doing something wrong? No, you haven't once, so why do you want me Give Gong Yu another chance? Can't I learn from you!"

"I......"

Suddenly there was a long period of silence on Chen Min's side. There was no background sound or signal communication. Lu Xiangzhou waited for a while and felt that there would be no more to wait for, so he simply said, "Don't talk? Then I said, if If you can't think of a reason why you don't give me a chance, then don't ask me to give Gong Yu another chance. I have no obligation or willingness. No matter what he becomes now and what he will become in the future, it has nothing to do with me I also beg you, don't use some strange reasons to pull him in front of me every now and then, Zhao is not here today, so I will save face for you, and next time—”

"There will be no next time," Chen Min finally said, "Mom is sorry for you, Mom...will not get involved with the two of you anymore..."

"I hope, I hope you are really worthy of me calling you mother."

Lu Xiangzhou's phone was hung up at this moment. It's okay. He thinks it's really okay. Speaking of this, all the feelings that should be hurt and the skin that should be torn have been exhausted. I'm a little apprehensive, more or less I won't provoke him overtly anymore, and let's talk about the secret...in the dark, in life, who doesn't meet the Buddha and kill the Buddha, and meet the devil to kill the devil?

Feeling uncomfortable pain in his stomach, Lu Xiangzhou glanced at his phone, it was 07:30, he should be hungry, the beef noodle restaurant next to the school should still be open, if he walks from here...in 10 minutes, he can Eat a bowl of hot noodles that you have been thinking about for a year.

Lu Xiangzhou loves noodles, especially this beef noodle restaurant next to the school. Since he started working at the school, he has to eat there almost every class, and he knows the boss and the wife so well that before going to Hong Kong, he said goodbye to them and said he was leaving. One year, this year, I wish them a prosperous business, and they must be the first to find the taste of the hot spring when they come back.

In the end, it was really the first one. Lu Xiangzhou walked and pondered, and after a while, he strode into the small noodle shop.

"Yo! Teacher Lu is back?!"

"Hey boss, a bowl of beef noodles."

"Here we come. Alas, we miss you if Mr. Lu hasn't come for a year. Before your colleague came, we asked him about it. We didn't expect you to come back so soon."

The boss's enthusiasm made Lu Xiangzhou a little speechless, so he could only put on a smiling face and nodded: "Yes, I will come to see you soon after I get back, and I will miss you."

"Oh, Teacher Lu is so good at talking," the boss laughed so hard that he almost lost his eyesight, "I'll give you a portion of beef tendon and tripe, just to welcome you!"

"thank you boss."

When the hot beef noodles were served, Lu Xiangzhou ate it all with his head buried, his glasses were covered with mist and he didn't bother to wipe them off.But the feeling of fullness brought by food can't alleviate today's unhappiness and depression at all. The more you eat, the heavier your stomach feels.In the end he had to stop and rest, trying to make his stomach and intestines move faster by sitting still.

Zhao Wei's text message came in at this time.

"Shall we have dinner together next Wednesday, Lu Lu?"

"Why Wednesday?" Lu Xiangzhou replied with one hand.

"Because tomorrow I will have dinner with my father and mother, the day after tomorrow I will have dinner with my sister and husband, the day after tomorrow I will have dinner with my uncles and relatives at home, and the day after tomorrow I will have dinner with my ex who missed me too much, the time left for you is only Wednesday Already!"

... Lu Xiangzhou was speechless, and said, "Then it's very important for me to be the last one on your list."

"Of course, the finale is the main event!"

Heavy head... Lu Xiangzhou doesn't think his head is heavy, but it's true that his head is a bit big for Zhao Wei.

"Okay, what did you say to eat?"

"It's okay, let's discuss it on Tuesday, and see if I have any sudden inspiration."

You have a fart inspiration, Lu Xiangzhou was about to click send, Zhao Wei came in another text message: "Are you still angry?"

So I had no choice but to delete it and re-enter it: "It's okay, there's no need to get angry over this kind of person."

"That's right! It's no use! Little bastard throws him away!"

...Hey, Lu Xiangzhou put down his phone and started drinking soup subconsciously.Not long after, another message from Zhao Wei came in.

"Is Xiao Wang Bagui? I'm thinking about it now, so there's no need to spend money for my ex."

Cough, cough, cough!The upward airflow and the swallowing soup suddenly collided, and Lu Xiangzhou coughed uncontrollably.

"What's the matter, Mr. Lu, eat slowly!" The boss stuck his head out of the kitchen when he heard the sound.

Lu Xiangzhou hurriedly waved his hands, and said while coughing, "Ahem, it's okay...it's okay! Cough! Just...cough! I'm so happy...I'm choking! Cough cough!"

Isn't it just too happy? Zhao Wei's sincere question still stayed on the phone, Lu Xiangzhou squinted his eyes, and finally smiled.