Accumulate feathers sink the boat

People really can't devote themselves to their family and disregard their career, Lu Xiangzhou thinks so more and more recently.

Because since the divorce, his sleep problem has surpassed all other problems and has become the biggest obstacle to his health.I couldn't sleep at night, and I was so sleepy that I almost fainted the second before I went to bed, but as soon as my head rested on the pillow, all the trivial things that I seldom think of usually rushed in like an embankment.

Sometimes it's Gong Yu's seemingly inadvertent but hurtful words.For example, he once brought back a box of philosophical monographs published by Lu Wenchuan from Chen Min. Gong Yu was curious, so he picked a few books at random and asked, what was this one about, and what was that one about.Lu Xiangzhou patiently explained to him one by one. This is about Arendt. She denied that the Holocaust of Jews by the Nazis during World War II was a "banal evil", and believed that independent judgment of the individual was particularly important under the one-sided social tide.That said Popper, he believed that whether a theory is considered a scientific theory depends first not on whether it is right or wrong, but whether it can be tested by facts, that is, whether it can be "falsifiable", because no one can always Science that justifies itself.But Gong Yu listened for a long time, but the final conclusion was three consecutive questions: "So?"If you really don’t know, it means you really don’t understand. Gong Yu feels from the bottom of his heart that most of the liberal arts majors are playing tricks, especially in literature, history and philosophy.So he looked down on Lu Xiangzhou's subjects, and he didn't care about the meaning of Lu Xiangzhou's existence. In Lu Xiangzhou's view, this was a more hurtful thing than not loving or disliking.

In addition to these, he would also think of Gong Yu's many actions that he could not understand.For example, he was determined not to go on a honeymoon. He obviously didn't lack money, and the two of them didn't lack time at that time, but he just felt that going on a honeymoon was a trap of consumerism, and there was no need to expend energy for such a gimmick.He was willing to travel, go on vacation, and relax with Lu Xiangzhou. The two of them had indeed been there a few times, but none of those times were in the name of honeymoon.The honeymoon was completely obliterated by Gong Yu just because it was called a "honeymoon". Lu Xiangzhou felt angry and absurd when he thought about it many nights, as if what Gong Yu owed him was not a honeymoon, but a whole The promise of marriage.

There are also times, more times, he will repeatedly think of the scene when he and Gong Yu divorced.Gong Yu was wearing a white sweater and light-colored jeans that day, and he bought everything himself from head to toe.The sweater was purchased from France, and the trousers were from a cheap Japanese brand that focuses on comfort and leisure. Gong Yu liked it, so he bought a few more.Just like this, Gong Yu wore clothes that were completely full of his own style to go to the divorce.What does he think divorce is?Do you pay for a meal, or throw a garbage bag when you go out?Lu Xiangzhou has read many novels, in which the heartbroken lovers will more or less feel sad and repent when they completely lose their love, but Gong Yu does not. His resolute indifference makes his carefully planned farewell seem meaningless, even the child who died in the womb It also becomes funny together.Gong Yu has not lost it from the beginning to the end, this kind of cognition makes Lu Xiangzhou feel pain like bone erosion.

So he became panicked and vulnerable, afraid of sleepless nights, and afraid of sleepless days.Only the short one or two hours of class can make him forget everything. He can freely express some opinions that he thinks are right, and then share some words that have touched him.He will talk about literature with the students, because some of them really like literature, and he will also discuss life with the students, because there are really fragments of life in literature.

All these are things that family and love cannot give Lu Xiangzhou.He took the classroom as a refuge for his divorce, not only devoted himself to work with greater enthusiasm, but also took the initiative to take on the reading course that all teachers were unwilling to teach-because this course was boring and a waste of time, the key, Not counting class hours.As a result, Lu Xiangzhou's working hours changed from two days a week to four days a week.But he still felt that it was not enough. There should be more, and more, so much that he could replace life with work, and replace night with day, so that he would not suddenly feel suffocated and frightened every night when he was alone.

The cunning rabbit is supposed to have three caves, and the risks must be shared equally.The biggest truth taught to Lu Xiangzhou by the divorce lesson is probably the importance of work to an independent individual.

Now, Lu Xiangzhou, who had been grading students' reading notes after a long day, was walking listlessly to his apartment.Last week he shared The Handmaid's Tale with his students and asked everyone to read it and write a review.This is a very good feminist work in the past few years, with bold assumptions and profound meanings, and it is a bit gloomy and terrifying when you look carefully.He originally thought about the students, at least those Omegas who can write a lot of reading thoughts that make him shine, but the teacher will always underestimate the resistance of the students to the homework, and they may say every word to you in class. He is full of interest and full of enthusiasm, but after class, as soon as he leaves the classroom, he will throw the teacher, textbooks, and knowledge into the trash can——students’ youth is always willful, and wantonness is learning antonym.

Therefore, almost half of the more than 100 reading notes are the same. In order to be lazy, the first choice of students is to copy homework online.So the same paragraph appeared in different people's homework, and some of them were even the same as the whole text. This was just copied without changing it.

Why should learning knowledge be regarded as suffering?Is an empty brain the capital to show off?

Lu Xiangzhou really wanted to find out everyone who copied their homework and let them answer this question, but after so many years and so many similar encounters, he felt deeply tired of this kind of interrogation.Education is like this, it seems like a ferryman, ferrying the students who want to cross the river to the other side one after another.But in fact, those who really want to cross the river don’t need a teacher to cross the river at all, they can cross the river by themselves, and those who don’t want to cross the river, let alone a flat boat, even an aircraft carrier can’t pull it across, and people have to go after crossing the river Back tour.

Just like his marriage with Gong Yu, it was always reluctant, always reluctant.

"Lu Xiangzhou."

Suddenly being called by his full name made Lu Xiangzhou startled. Looking back, it was Chen Min.

"It's fine if you don't answer Gong Yu's call, why didn't you even answer Mom's call?"

"What's the difference between your phone and his phone? Can the words be different?"

"Of course it's different." Chen Min frowned and approached Lu Xiangzhou, "How do I know what he's going to say? He hasn't looked for me since you divorced."

"Oh, he didn't look for you before you came here to lecture? Don't you really need to check the blood relationship?"

"Impolite!" Chen Min wandered downstairs of Lu Xiangzhou's apartment for more than half an hour. If he hadn't heard from the teacher in the same building that he would come back later, he would have turned around and left. As a result, the man made strange noises as soon as he met him. Strangely, his blood pressure soared, "You are still a teacher, and now we are still in your school, so you are not afraid of your colleagues and students making jokes?!"

"What am I afraid of?" Lu Xiangzhou sneered, "Afraid that they will know that I am divorced? Or that they will know that I have a bad relationship with my own mother? Wouldn't that save trouble? I just don't know about these two things. How can I tell everyone that they will be able to guess if you come here, I really have to thank you very much."

These words are too ugly, and Lu Xiangzhou knows it himself, but now he just wants to say ugly words and be an ugly person, as long as Chen Min stops educating him about divorce, he can stop being a human being.

"I'm not here to argue with you, let's go upstairs, I want to ask you something." But Chen Min didn't answer, turned around and walked towards his apartment building.

"Hey, wait a minute, just ask here if you have anything, I—"

"What about you? Is there a golden house in your apartment? Your mother can't even go up and take a look? Or do you not only want to divorce Gong Yu, but also want to sever the mother-child relationship with me?"

...he really wanted to, but he didn't dare.There was no other way, Lu Xiangzhou could only bite the bullet and follow behind Chen Min, thinking about how to deal with it.

"It's pretty clean," Chen Min said while walking around like a leader conducting inspections, "It seems that the house is small and easy to take care of."

"What's the matter with you coming to see me?" Lu Xiangzhou asked impatiently.

"It's because of your divorce. The reason you said before is too far-fetched. I don't believe it. Now you tell me again that the marriage is divorced anyway, and I can't do anything to you."

What can you do to me?Alarm bells were ringing in Lu Xiangzhou's heart, Chen Min really couldn't do anything to him, at least he couldn't force him to remarry.But Chen Min can talk about him to death, although lip service is not Chen Min's strong point, but as long as Professor Chen is willing, what can't she do?

"I just can't go on, there is no particular reason."

"I'm just asking you, why, what, pass, no, go, go?"

"Is there any reason why I can't live on? Suddenly I don't like him, I think he is ugly, annoying, annoying, anyone can get a divorce!"

"But you're not that kind of person."

"what?!"

"Lu Xiangzhou," Chen Min sighed suddenly, "Although you have a lot of dissatisfaction with me, I am more or less the one who gave birth to you and raised you. I don't know your temper. Are you...have you been wronged? "

Bang!A loud bang like golden cymbals and gongs exploded in Lu Xiangzhou's mind. He stared at Chen Min in a daze, not knowing how to respond.

"At the beginning you begged me to let me match the two of you, and I didn't want to. You, you are a Chinese major, and you are swayed. You are too fanciful and unrealistic. You are actually not the same kind of person as Gong Yu."

"Then you still promise me?!"

"I'm not afraid of your sadness... After your father left, you've been languid all day long. I want to take care of you, but you won't let me take care of—"

"What do you call me? You don't—"

"Yes, I don't know you at all." The mother and son said each other, and neither of them was willing to let the other say the whole sentence.

"But have you let me get to know you? Lu Xiangzhou, didn't you only talk to your dad about everything since you were young?"

"Then I want to tell you that you must be at home!"

"Yes, yes, you are right, so all these years I have been thinking that if the opportunity is missed, there is nothing I can do. But I can't ignore the divorce. This is too big a matter. If I just let you leave in such a muddle-headed way, When I see your father in the future, he will strangle me to death."

"Are you still afraid of my father?"

"Afraid, why not. You father and son have always regarded me as an outsider. He has been king over there for so long, so he can't still think of me as an outsider, okay?"

"Don't talk nonsense, when did my dad treat you badly?" Lu Xiangzhou was a little angry, but somehow he felt guilty.

"Well, if he really treats me well, can he make the only son hate me so much?"

"Why do I hate you?"

"Where is it that I don't hate it? I'm afraid I'm the last to know about such a big divorce, right?"

... Lu Xiangzhou was at a loss for words. If he knew it earlier, he would not tell you, so that you would never know.

"So what's going on, Gong Yu is busy with work and neglected you?"

"No." Lu Xiangzhou answered quickly.

"That is. Then, is there anything else?"

"No! I said no!" Lu Xiangzhou suddenly got irritable and wanted to end the conversation quickly.

"Do you want me to talk to him?" But Chen Min was persistent.

"What to talk about? How to talk about it? Ask him if he treats me badly? How can I change it? Then I will give you a report like writing a medical advice?"

"But at least I can see if there is any room for maneuver? You have been married for so many years, if it is because of a misunderstanding—"

"It's not a misunderstanding! There's no misunderstanding! The two of us are doomed. We're so rotten that we can never be together again! Not to mention that it's impossible to be together in the future, even the years we were together in the past are all disgusting and uncomfortable! "Lu Xiangzhou roared at Chen Min.

after?He feels like vomiting when he hears these two words now.