Accumulate feathers sink the boat

Chapter 20

The advantage of a small house is that no matter how you live in it, you will never feel empty.

For example, in the living room, if all the furniture is removed, the net area is only 13 or 4 square meters. Add a sofa, put a coffee table, hang a TV, set up a shoe cabinet, and the remaining space is only 5 or 6 square meters, 5 or 6 square meters. What can I do?Only one Lu Xiangzhou could be put down.Yes, so it's fine, a bachelor in a small house, everything is arranged just right.

The bachelor is now sitting cross-legged in his space, away from the sofa, TV, and everything that makes people feel comfortable. He took out his mobile phone and called Chen Min.

"Hello? What's the matter?" The voice on the phone was a little anxious, but also a little deserted.

"Are you busy at the moment?"

"It's okay, what's the matter?"

"Oh, it's not a big deal, just to inform you that Gong Yu and I are divorced."

"What did you say?!" Chen Min probably overturned something, and there was the sound of a hard object breaking.

"I said that Gong Yu and I are divorced. I mentioned it. I have already received the certificate in the morning."

"Are you crazy Lu Xiangzhou?"

am I crazy?Lu Xiangzhou thought to himself, I want a divorce just because I'm not crazy.

"Of course not, I think clearly."

"What do you think clearly?" Chen Min's voice sounded a little trembling, probably angry, "Don't you need to discuss such a big matter with your mother?!"

"Would you agree to discuss with you?" Lu Xiangzhou asked.

The voice on the other side of the phone suddenly disappeared, replaced by a long silence.

"That's why I didn't discuss it with you." There is nothing to discuss about obvious things.

"The reason! At least there is a reason for the divorce!!"

"I can't go on anymore, I think he is not good enough for me."

"Gong Yu is not good enough for you?!" Lu Xiangzhou discovered that Chen Min also has the potential to be a soprano, "What are you talking about Lu Xiangzhou, if Gong Yu is not good enough for you, who is good enough for you?! Gods in the sky! !"

"That's not necessary," Chen Min got excited, but Lu Xiangzhou calmed down, "I'll just find an ordinary person, an ordinary person."

"I don't think you're normal! You and your dad are not normal! Just live a steady life, but doing all these things all day long has no sense of responsibility at all!"

"Dad can't live a stable life?" Lu Xiangzhou wondered if he had heard it wrong, "I heard that your marriage can last until my dad leaves, but you have been enduring it?"

"I--"

"It's my dad who's holding back! I'm begging you!" The draft wind whizzed past the balcony and slapped his face. It was cold and painful, Lu Xiangzhou stared at the unaesthetic student dormitory opposite, and suddenly felt out of breath, "Yes My dad is enduring! Those who love a lot will always endure, because those who don’t love only know how to find comfort in other people’s love, and you will not do anything! But I am not a father, I have endured enough, I don’t want to I have never been loved in my life until my death!"

Chen Min was shocked. She never thought that one day she would talk about her relationship with her son, so she could only subconsciously refute and deny: "How do you know that I don't love your father? How do you know that Gong Yu doesn't love you?"

"I just know, people who are not loved know everything!"

The last sentence was yelled out, Lu Xiangzhou lost control, his pretense of calm was broken by embarrassment, he was afraid of getting more embarrassing, so he simply cut off the phone and turned it off.Anyway, it doesn't matter to Chen Min, her son is just getting divorced, and she can get through such a big event as her husband's death calmly, her son... is almost an outsider.

So how did Lu Wenchuan survive?

For so many years, so many moments of not being loved and not recognized, why didn't he give up even once?Lu Xiangzhou never asked before, but now he wanted to ask, but he never heard the answer.

He suddenly missed Lu Wenchuan very much.That tall fat old man with a smile on his face always likes to put a lot of salt in his cooking. If he secretly hides his salt jar, he will pour soy sauce all over the place. All I know is that when Chen Min was working overtime, he happily said to his son, "Yeah! Today is another day of eating salt and freedom!"

The fat old man, because he is fat and old, never gets angry.At most, he would just pat Lu Xiangzhou on the buttocks when he was painting his precious calligraphy with colored pens, and say, "Destroy books when you are young, but you are uneducated when you grow up."This is a lie, Lu Xiangzhou thought, I am educated now, I have read all the books left by my father, and I have read many books that my father has not read, now I am the most educated person in my family .

But what's the use?Lao Lu didn't tell him that no matter how much knowledge there is in the book, it can't teach a person how to be loved.

The floor was too cold, Lu Xiangzhou walked out the door with a windbreaker in his hand from the sofa.It was almost Qingming, and he wanted to see how tall the grass on Lao Lu's grave had grown.

In fact, Lu Wenchuan was not always so fat. He was also a handsome guy when he was young. According to what he said, when he was studying, almost every girl in the philosophy department handed him love letters.

"Then why did you choose my mother in the end?" Lu Xiangzhou remembered asking this question countless times.

"Because a real man has to challenge the difficulty!" He also remembered that Lu Wenchuan had answered this question countless times.

But what's the challenge?Lu Wenchuan is an Alpha, more than eight feet tall and beautiful in appearance. As long as the pheromones don't smell like rotten eggs, it's not difficult to find an Omega who truly loves him. Is it worth fighting with Chen Min as a Beta?Lu Xiangzhou asked himself that he was more reliable than the old Lu in this respect, at least he could find real reasons for his liking for Gong Yu, and these reasons were so real that he would still like Gong Yu even if he did it all over again.Unlike Chen Min, I can't find a remarkable place all over my body. It's cold and hard, and it's not...well, it's still beautiful, but I dress up like an underground party every day. Without a pair of eyes that are extremely good at discovering beauty, it is really difficult to observe it.

So Lao Lu's spirit of bravely climbing the peak is really not admirable.When he was a child and didn't quite understand the truth, Lu Xiangzhou also thought about whether reading too many philosophy books would make people look abnormal.But now that he has grown up, he has also read a lot of philosophy books, and he is convinced that philosophy will not cause any damage to the human cerebral cortex, it can only be...

No, what Lu Xiangzhou meant was that his father loves Chen Min so much. There must be some profound reason for his liking for Chen Min, but his knowledge is too shallow to understand.

If the ginseng is not broken, it will always be worthless for Lao Lu.Such a good man, he can be busy with everything at home and outside the house, he is a full-time professor of the Philosophy Department of Quanlin University, he is a long-term guest guest on famous forums, and his books can fill a row of bookshelves at home. He is definitely not a bookworm like Lu Xiangzhou. Than.He has high knowledge and wide knowledge, but his housework is first-class, he can do everything from laundry to cooking, and he doesn't mind big jobs, and he doesn't care about small jobs.With his own strength, he can support a whole family.

But everything is so good, Chen Min still thinks it is not enough.I think he is long-winded, I think he is sensitive, I think he always has a lot of things to say to me every day, even this son who looks like him is also disgusted...

"Mr. Lu, the connecting battery car runs every half an hour. If your side ends early, you can call our property and ask them to send a car to pick you up."

Lu Wenchuan's tomb is in Songhu Cemetery, which is a relatively high-quality park in Quanlin City. It is backed by several mountains. The vegetation on the mountains is well protected and shaded by trees all year round.There is an independent worship area in front of each tombstone, and the size of the area varies according to the price of the cemetery.Old Lu's tomb was expensive, and Chen Min was too lazy to set up a mourning hall at the time, so he spent all the money he saved on the cemetery, so the area inside and outside was almost as large as the small living room in Lu Xiangzhou's teacher's apartment.

"Okay, thank you, I can go down the mountain by myself later, it's not far away."

Saying goodbye to the 1v1 service specialist in the noble cemetery, Lu Xiangzhou casually wiped the ash on the stone chair in the old Lu worship area, and sat down.

"Oh, Dad, it's better for you, such a big place, every day is enough to be happy."

The wind rustled and the birds chirped.The hearty laughter he was familiar with in his memories didn't sound, Lu Xiangzhou paused, pretending that his father had heard it.

"There are a lot of people in Qingming, I'm afraid you won't hear me, so I came to see you in advance...it's not a big deal, that's all, I'm divorced."

"Well," Lu Xiangzhou nodded as he said, "divorced, just this morning, mom also found out, she didn't agree, so I told her after I left. You won't be like this, right? What should I do? You must agree."

"Mom asked me why, and I said he wasn't good enough for me, but it wasn't. In fact, he didn't like me. He didn't like me all the time. I thought... hey, no, I might have known it all along, but I always feel, feel that I am not bad."

"Father, I don't think I'm bad. You always praised me, but I believed it. I always thought I was not bad."

Lu Xiangzhou grabbed the hem of the coat in his hands, the windbreaker was stiff, and it hurt his palms, as if his smooth words had been hurt.

"So I... I thought I don't like him either, I'll just live alone, so no one will bother me all day, right?"

The scarlet letter on the tombstone has faded, and the cemetery property said that people will be organized to color it on the eve of Qingming, but Lu Xiangzhou still feels aggrieved. Why can't they keep this monument beautiful and bright in such an expensive cemetery?

"How are you over there? They say that people who leave the door at night can come back often. I haven't closed the door to sleep in these years, but I don't know if you have come back, have you never come back?" ? You don't even bless me."

"If you don't bless me, I'll go for surgery. It's that kind of... sterilization. I don't want a child, I can't take care of it, it's too much trouble. I'm not like you, I have such good patience, I... .....so I......"

It was too cold on the mountain, the windbreaker could block the wind and the cold, so Lu Xiangzhou couldn't help but hugged his arms tightly and tucked his head into his neck.

"I vomited a lot that day. The doctor said there would be side effects, but I didn't know it would be so severe. The floor sheets were all dirty, but I went to the hospital by myself. It's amazing, isn't it?"

"dad......"

It was too cold, really too cold, his body couldn't help shivering, Lu Xiangzhou sniffed, feeling something flowing out.

"Dad...they treat me badly, no one takes care of me, you...you said back then that someone would treat me well...but no.. ...."

I didn't bring a tissue, so I could barely cover my mouth and nose with my sleeve, and the wet marks spread from the cuff all the way up, turning into a disgusting and ugly shape.

"No... you lied to me, I was only 19 years old... I was... I was not sensible, so you don't want me... Then I didn't know...I didn't know I picked the wrong person, Mom didn't tell me...She kept saying hello to him, so I thought..."

"dad!"

The tears that had been missing for a long time poured out uncontrollably, Lu Xiangzhou didn't know what to do, he could only paste all the dry cloth on his face, in order to slow down the trend of collapse a little.

"Dad! I don't know that I chose the wrong person! I don't know! You never told me this! You left so early! You didn't help me to take a look and left! You don't even know me Being bullied...you...you don't even know I've been bullied..."

"I...I'm alone...I miss you so much..."

Myself.

I miss you so much.

Desperate cries are blown away in the wind, where should the futile miss go?