Binh Duong Order

Jiaoyue rode all the way here, her body was full of chills, Ping An's father called Jiaoyue in, and asked him to wait for him in his room first, and went to get some firewood to make a fire to keep him warm. Father went to chop firewood and wanted to help, but just as he was about to step out of the house, he heard Father Pingan shout: "Don't come out."

Jiaoyue paused at his feet, Ping'an's face was filled with guilt and uneasiness, he walked over a few steps, without looking at him, pushed Jiaoyue into the room, and said while closing the door: "Go in, you will be here in a while." Alright." After closing the door, he went to fasten the door, and before he tied it, he took a special look to make sure that no one saw it before he went to light the brazier with confidence.

Father Pingan made a brazier, and carried the brazier into the house. Jiaoyue stood awkwardly in the corner. Seeing Father Pingan coming in, he immediately straightened his back and stood up. He wanted to help, but after thinking about it, he withdrew his hand. Dad put the brazier away, and called for Haoyue to come over and said, "Come and sit down."

Jiaoyue obediently went over and sat down, and the two of them sat in silence for a while.

"Have you eaten yet?" Father Ping An suddenly asked.

"Ah." Jiaoyue replied immediately like a frightened bird: "I'm not hungry."

Father Ping An didn't answer, just stood up, took out a basket of eggs from the basket on one side, and saw that there were about twenty eggs. They were laid by the hens in their family yesterday. The family money was gone. Take it to the town today to see if I can get some silver back.

Father Ping'an set up the pot on the brazier without saying a word, poured a ladle of water into the pot, waited for the water to boil, and cracked the eggs one by one, Jiaoyue looked a little distressed, and wanted to say that she couldn't eat There are so many, but the strangeness accumulated over the years is not so easy to dissipate. Jiaoyue dare not speak to stop her father, whom she has not seen for a long time, because she is afraid that she will make him unhappy and make him dislike herself, just like he dare not He opened his mouth to mention that he wanted to see his mother, besides, his father should also eat, Jiaoyue thought so.

Five eggs were beaten into the soup. Father Ping'an specially picked out a chopstick of lard, and put down a handful of vegetables. When the aroma came out, Father Ping'an took a large earthenware bowl and a pair of chopsticks, wiped After rubbing and rubbing, he poured a full bowl of soup to Jiaoyue and said: "There is no salt at home, you can just eat some."

Jiaoyue was flattered, and took it carefully, saying that it was soup, but the water had boiled a little dry, and now there were only eggs and sporadic vegetables in the bowl. Jiaoyue looked at her father with chopsticks, and looked at his dark and tired face. His face suddenly became sour and his eyes were sore. Father Ping'an was lifting the pot up so that the soup could be warmed with fire and would not dry out. He didn't see the bright moon, so he just casually said: "Eat quickly. , it will be cold in a while."

Jiaoyue buried her face in the bowl, she hadn't even eaten a bite, tears fell down suddenly, her throat seemed to be choked, her chest was blocked, tears and snot flowed all over her face, her breath flowed smoothly Uneven, but dare not make a sound, afraid of annoying people, so I just use a bowl to block it, and let the air flow smoothly, but the more smooth it is, the more panicked it becomes.

Father Pingan sat down, saw him trembling from eating, sighed and said, "Eat slowly, it's all yours."

"Yeah." Haoyue finally calmed down, wiped her face generously, put down the bowl, and took a bite under the watchful eyes of Ping'an's father. It was tasteless and smelled fishy, ​​Ping'an's father Asked: "How is it? Is it still appetizing?" Jiaoyue took two big bites and said: "It's delicious." It's better than anything he's ever eaten.

Father Pingan let go of his heart, and waited until Jiaoyue had finished eating, put down the bowl, and then asked, "How have you been these past few years?"

Jiaoyue's nose was sore, thinking of this moment, he suddenly felt that all these years of suffering were nothing. He didn't want to make his father sad, so he squeezed out a smile: "It's okay, I'm not hungry or cold."

"That's good." Father Pingan nodded, and said to him in the usual way: "After you disappeared, your mother and I looked for you for a long time, but you were never found, and the fields at home were abandoned. If you disappeared, you still have to eat, and the family tax can’t be paid, so we didn’t look for you again, you——you don’t blame us, do you?”

Father Ping'an has brought Little Ping'an all these years. He can't eat enough or wear warm clothes. His biggest wish is to let the child have a full meal. But he has no ability to let the baby suffer from cold and starvation. Now he looks at the bright moon , dressed well, with a round face, it doesn't look like they have suffered hardships, the people in these villages have been to the farthest place in their life, which is a town not far away, they can't read big characters, they only know how to farm, and they have nothing in their lives Pursuit, just to fill his stomach, now hearing what Jiaoyue said, and looking at his appearance, I feel that he has really lived a good life these years.

If you can eat enough, how can you suffer?

Jiao Yue hurriedly shook her head, how could it be?

Father Pingan continued: "Later, your mother gave birth to a baby girl, but it's a pity that I didn't make it through and just passed away."

Jiaoyue listened to her father talking about these things and felt very complicated. She was very happy to hear that she had an extra sister, but she couldn't help but feel sad when she thought that she hadn't seen her mother for the last time.

"Although your sister is young, she can help now, and we didn't hide it from her. She knows that she has an older brother, and the folks in the village also know that our family has lost a boy." The more Ping'an said, the more Jiaoyue felt Something was wrong, and he started to feel flustered and beat his drums. He heard his father say: "You said that if a baby girl suddenly appeared in the family, what do you want the villagers to think? Your sister will grow up in the future, and people will talk about it." Her brother, how do you want her to behave?"

He heard Jiaoyue say that he had a good life, and he comforted himself. He deliberately didn't ask Jiaoyue what he had experienced in these years, deceiving himself that as long as he had enough food and clothing, he would not suffer a serious crime. He wasted half of his life. He thought his son had died a long time ago, but not only did his son not die, but he came back as a girl?He is still unwilling to admit that this is his son. With such a ghostly appearance, he might as well be dead.

His little Ping'an is still young. A girl is a family member, and she hasn't been married yet. What if the in-laws in the future dislike her for having such a brother and bully her?Besides, now that my son has come back with such virtue, what will others think?When next spring begins, will the folks in the village be unwilling to help themselves plow the land because of disgust and nausea?If you can't borrow cattle and pay taxes, your family will starve to death.

A fluttering sentence fell into Jiaoyue's ears and exploded in his heart. He couldn't hear what Father Pingan said later, and his mind was blank, only a "buzzing" sound, and the world was spinning in front of his eyes, white and black for a while. Alternately flashed before the eyes.

"Before it dawns, you should go quickly, and don't let the people in the village see you."

Jiaoyue came back to her senses and only heard this sentence. Jiaoyue's mouth was faster than her brain, and she whispered softly, with the last sliver of hope, and asked humblely like begging: "Do you want me?"

Father Ping'an didn't dare to look at him, rubbed his hands, and sniffed heavily: "Our family lost a boy doll."

Since he has been living well these years, he will always be able to live well in the future, but when he comes back, he and Xiaoping can't live anymore.

Jiaoyue thought that she would scream and roar, but no, he was very calm, as if the person who was abandoned was not him, but he could clearly feel that something seemed to be broken in him, and he suddenly understood , I seem to have died a long time ago, the day I was abducted at the age of six, and now I am just a lonely ghost, suddenly remembered that there is such a home here, so I floated over to have a look , but he is just a ghost. This family no longer needs him, let alone welcomes him.

He understood that there is no bright moon in this world, only the peace of death, only the peace of death when he was six years old.

He forgot how he got out of the house. He only remembered that when he left, his father gave him the leftover soup and asked him to eat it on the way. He just held the bowl and went out as if lost, and walked out of the house. , walked out of the village, and when he came back to his senses, he had already walked to the small road outside the entrance of the village, and the soup in his hand was already cold.

The sky began to light up, and everything around him was foggy, and he couldn't see it clearly. He looked at everything he was familiar with before he was six years old, but now he was unfamiliar with the scene, and finally collapsed on the ground as if all the strength had been taken away from him. .

Holding the bowl in his arms, he laughed loudly, tears streaming down unconsciously while laughing.

It's because of his whims, a person like him, no, does he deserve to be a human being?He, who is so dirty and neither human nor ghost, actually wants to write off the past?Want to reunite with the family?What are you thinking?He is already unworthy!

He even disgusted himself, so delusional to let his family accept him?It's ridiculous!He is so filthy, what qualifications does he have to stand between heaven and earth?

Laughing and laughing, he finally couldn't help crying bitterly, his voice was hoarse but he couldn't shed any tears.

Yuan Man said that she doesn't know how to ride a horse, but the carriage is too slow. In the end, Li Boyan came with Yuan Man on the horse. Now the sky has become white. Ye Shulin, Li Boyan, Yuan Man, Luo Xiaoxiao, Gu Xiujin and Yu Xiaozhen drove the horse all the way to Liuyu Village. The villagers who got up early to work and were about to leave the village saw these people approaching aggressively. Some went to call for help, and some stood at the door to stop them.

But Ye Shulin and the others drove their horses on a rampage, and the villagers couldn't stop them at all. Ye Shulin took them to Ping'an's house based on his memory, and found that Jiaoyue's horse was still tied to the door. Alarmist talk, in order to prove his point of view, when he arrived, he got off the horse without tying it, and rushed to knock on the door.

At this time, the villagers who came to stop them rushed over with agricultural tools, surrounded them, and asked loudly, "What are you doing? What are you doing in our village?"

Before they could answer, Father Ping An who opened the door said, "Misunderstanding, these few people have saved our family's safety, and they are good people."

After everyone heard what he said, they put down their farm tools. Ye Shulin asked directly: "Old man, where is the girl who came with me just now? Tell her to come out." After speaking, he still didn't forget to glance at Yuan Man.

Father Pingan looked at the villagers outside the door and said, "You guys come in first, come in and talk."

Gu Xiujin noticed something was wrong, and immediately asked, "Did she leave?"

Father Ping'an hesitated and said nothing, Gu Xiujin continued to ask: "Where did she go?" After finally finding a witness, Gu Xiujin didn't want to just let it go.

"Where did you go?" Yuan Man's tone became more threatening, "You don't want to see him again. What you saw was just a corpse, right?"

Father Ping'an was taken aback for a moment, Ye Shulin couldn't stand it anymore, and gave Yuan Man a hand: "Don't scare people, it's not so serious, we can always find Miss Jiaoyue if we look hard."

Yuan Man knocked off Ye Shulin's hand, took a deep breath, gathered enough strength, and sneered: "Girl? Jiaoyue is a man, he is 'Lianzi'."

"What?" Ye Shulin didn't think of this, not only Ye Shulin, but no one except Yuan Man.

"Hey! What are you doing here! Come and see with me! Someone is dead over the dry well!" A shout from a distance attracted everyone's attention, and a villager ran over and said out of breath : "Dead—dead, come and see with me."

Ye Shulin was stunned, and the others followed the villager to the other side. Yuan Man slapped Li Boyan and said, "Carry me on your back." Li Boyan didn't hesitate, and directly embraced Yuan Man with his arms like holding a child. Just hold her and run away.

The sun finally came out, cocks crowed and dogs barked one after another, and some villagers who did not come to good things lit fires, and the smoke rose up, and everyone stepped over the dry grass covered with dew to the dry well where Yuanman and the others had saved people. Bunches of sunlight fell through the cracks in the trees, shone on the scattered stones, and hit Ping An. Body, with his hands hanging on both sides of his body, his head drooping, his expression is serene and even with a smile on his lips, the golden sunlight radiates from behind him, as if he has soared, but he hangs himself on it with a belt.

Yu Xiaozhen jumped up and cut off the belt, Li Boyan caught him from below and put him away, Luo Xiaoxiao went up to check her breath and pulse, and finally she could only helplessly shake her head at Yuanman.

Ping An died, in the same place as six years ago.

"Ah—!" Father Ping rushed over, fell down on the ground and cried loudly, "Ping An! My peace!" Father Ping couldn't figure it out, wasn't he fine when he left?Why did people disappear after such a short time?He obviously eats and drinks well so he can live a good life?why?

remorse?pain?guilt?Father Ping'an didn't know how he was feeling now, he just lay on the ground crying and suddenly remembered what happened before Ping'an.

Ping An was in his mother's womb for a day and a night before he finally landed. The crying was loud and powerful. The people who helped deliver the baby all congratulated him and said that his child had a good voice and would be promising in the future. He was so happy at that time that he even killed He bought a pig to celebrate his becoming a father, and later when Ping An called him father, he was so excited that he bought him a candy.

He could no longer hear Ping An calling him dad.

Ping'an's father was crying heartbreakingly. The villagers didn't know what happened, and they didn't know what to say, so they could only pull Ping'an's father to persuade him to mourn. , put a big pottery bowl, clean, nothing.

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The author has something to say:

I wrote and deleted, deleted and wrote, and struggled for a long time whether to write the dialogue between Ping An and his father. It always felt a bit too cruel, but in the end I decided to post it.