lonely patient

When the last chemotherapy was over, winter had just passed.

After more than four months of treatment, I seemed to have lost half of my life. I thought of giving up countless times during the treatment, but it was because of Wen Luming that I gritted my teeth and persisted.

My physique has become very poor. In early spring, when everyone wears long-sleeved T-shirts and jeans, I will still be ordered to wear a coat and a woolen hat when I go out.

"Don't stay in the store for too long, you can't stand the dust." Wen Luming said as he helped me put on the mask.

I bought a store near his school, and I plan to open a bookstore to pass the time. The store has recently been renovated, and I will visit it occasionally when I find time.

"Understood." I opened the car door, "Goodbye, Teacher Wen."

Wen Luming went to work, so I went next door to buy a cup of hot milk without haste, and then took it to the store.As soon as I entered the door, I saw several half-person-high wooden boxes piled up on the ground. Qin Nan sat on one of the boxes with his back to me, not knowing what to say to the worker next to him.

"Why are you here again, don't you have to go to class?" I went over and patted him on the shoulder.

"Brother Yan!" Qin Nan jumped down and smiled at me brightly, "No class this morning."

I tapped the box on the ground with my chin, "What is this?"

"The books my brother sent you are all limited editions and rare editions that cannot be bought in the market. It seems that there are still a few antiques. You can take a look later." Qin Nan said.

"Well," I nodded, "Thank you brother for me."

When I went upstairs, Qin Nan followed me and asked, "Brother, will you go back when my brother gets married?"

"Of course." I said as I walked, "Teacher Wen has already asked for leave, and we will go back together then."

"Oh……"

He was quiet for a while, then continued to ask: "Then you and Teacher Wen..."

I stopped, touched the ring on my ring finger unconsciously, and said, "Let it be."

One day before I left, I found the other half of the ring on Wen Luming's hand in the drawer of his study. His name was engraved on the inner ring, which was the model of my ring finger.

On the plane that day, I took the ring out of his suitcase ahead of time and quietly told him that I had already discovered this secret.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I leaned closer to him and whispered.

"I don't want to put pressure on you..." Wen Luming rarely showed a trace of embarrassment, like a child who was caught doing something bad, "And this kind of thing is always too embarrassing to say it."

"Then are you going to keep hiding?"

"No. I want to wait until you recover from your illness and stabilize your mood before I tell you."

I looked at his red ears and dodging eyes, and said with an itchy heart, "Teacher Wen, I don't want to wait any longer."

After finishing speaking, I got up and knelt down on one knee, held the ring up to Wen Luming's eyes, and asked, "Will you help me put it on?"

Wen Luming probably didn't expect me to be like this all of a sudden, and wanted to help me up in a panic, but I refused to move, and said roguely, "I won't get up unless you put it on for me."

"Yan Qiao..." Wen Luming took the ring with a hesitant expression on his face.After a long while, he squatted down, looked at me seriously and asked, "Have you thought about it, you are not allowed to take it off after you put it on."

I shook my head and said, "No more."

Finally, Wen Luming held my hand, looked down for a long time, and solemnly put the ring on my ring finger.I opened my fingers and saw the extra silver ring on my hand. I suddenly felt a kind of sweet shackles imprisoning my body and soul. From then on, I declared that I would be tenderly supported by someone, and I could no longer fly willfully.

I don't know if this counts as a marriage proposal, no fireworks, no candles, no roses, everything is sloppy, but everything is planned and traceable.

When he came back to his senses, Qin Nan looked at the messy decoration materials on the floor and asked, "Brother Yan, are you really going to be a small boss here, regardless of your own company?"

"What do you know, the little boss is the happiest." I snorted lightly, "And the company has my brother and Luna, so I can't help much when I go back."

Qin Nan opened his mouth, hesitated to speak, sighed for a while and said, "You just want to be happy."

When get out of class was almost over, I took Qin Nan's ride back to school. He went to find his classmates for dinner. I sat by the pool in the middle of the square and waited for Wen Luming.

The weather is fine today, a few white pigeons slowly landed at my feet, I took out half a slice of bread that I ate in the morning, tore it into small pieces and sprinkled it on the ground to feed them, a bold pigeon flew up and landed in my hand Go up, lower your head and peck at the remaining bread crumbs in my palm.

I was teasing the pigeon, and accidentally raised my eyes, and saw Wen Luming walking towards here with a lesson plan.

His shirt was rolled up to his forearm, and the windbreaker he wore when he went out in the morning was over his hand. He lowered his head and pushed his glasses while talking to the student next to him.

The early spring sun shone on him, coating his skin and hair with a layer of warm soft light. I vaguely remembered the first time I met a long time ago. He was also walking in the shadows of trees and sunshine amidst the hustle and bustle of youth around him. come to me.

As if feeling something, Wen Luming looked in my direction, the cold expression on his face gradually melted, and a faint smile emerged.

I jumped into the pool to slap the crumbs off my hands, and waved to him.

"Why are you waiting outside?" Wen Luming walked over and took my hand naturally.

"It's not cold today." I touched him with my shoulder and asked, "We agreed to go out to play in the afternoon, so you can't lie to me this time, right?"

"I didn't take you there because you had a cold. How could it be a lie to you?" Wen Luming said helplessly, "Let's go home and pick up Belle first."

Wen Luming has some hobbies that kill time, such as playing chess, reading, and fishing.The weather has gotten warmer recently, and more people are fishing in the park. He said he would take me there last week, but I accidentally caught a cold, so I couldn't wait till today.

I baked cakes and biscuits with him before going to bed last night, and this morning he prepared a lot of other snacks before I got up. He said that I must not sit still, so I need to prepare more things to pass the time. I don’t agree. Said that he looked down on the determination of a mature beta in his thirties.

"Mature?" Wen Luming couldn't help laughing, pinched my face and asked, "Do you have anything to do with these two words?"

Now he likes to expose my shortcomings more and more. I turned my head and bit his hand, and gave him a vicious look.

Seeing me biting him, Belle thought there was a conflict between the two of us, so he ran over and squeezed between the two of us, kicking my legs with his head, and meowing as he did so.

"Cats are better at coaxing people than you." I let go and Wen Luming said.

He snorted and rubbed my head, "Why don't you say that cats are more sensible than you."

I figured it out. If there is any difference between Wen Luming now and before, it is that he no longer has to worry about whether I will leave. After that, he gradually revealed his true nature. He not only likes to control me, but also likes to tease cats tease me.

It's also my fault that I'm worthless, one second I was sulking, and the next second he waved and called me baby, and I forgot everything.

"Baby, put the blanket on when you sleep." I lay on the deck chair basking in the sun, and when I was drowsy, I heard Wen Luming's voice.

When I opened my eyes and saw him looking at the water seriously, I rubbed my eyes and asked, "Did you catch any fish?"

"Not yet, it's only been a while." As soon as the words fell, the fish float on the water swayed, spreading out a circle of small ripples, I quickly patted Wen Luming, and said in a low voice, "It's moving!"

"Hush——" Wen Luming made a silent movement to me, his eyes were fixed on the position of the float, after a while, before I had time to see how it moved, he suddenly raised his pole, a two palm long The silver crucian carp was hooked out of the water.

I couldn't help but let out a "wow".

Belle, who was sleeping at my feet, was startled awake, stood up and turned around twice, and then saw Wen Luming put something alive and kicking into the bucket, and quickly backed away a few steps in fright.

"Coward." I picked it up and patted its head, then moved to the bucket and said, "Look what Dad caught you."

Belle had never seen such a big live fish. After meowing in a bravado, she shrank into my arms.Wen Luming looked at one person and one cat, smiled and shook his head, "Grilled fish for you tonight."

The afternoon passed quickly. Wen Luming was fishing. I spread out the tablecloth on the lawn and played with the cat while eating snacks. When the sun set, a large sunset glow appeared in the sky. I lay on the lawn with my arms pillowed on my head and watched God, I thought, when summer comes, I must go to the beach with Wen Luming.

Thinking about two drops of cold liquid suddenly falling on my face, I turned my head and saw a dark cloud slowly drifting over.

No way... I haven't gone out for a long time, why is it raining today.

Wen Luming also saw the dark clouds, walked over and said, "It's going to rain, go back to the car first."

I flattened my mouth: "I haven't played enough yet, I don't want to go home."

He looked up and said: "It doesn't look like it will rain for a long time, we will come out when the rain stops."

Wen Luming drove a very spacious jeep today in order to bring reclining chairs and fishing tackle. I just sat in with Belle in my arms when the rain outside suddenly picked up. When Wen Luming came in again, his hair and clothes had already A large piece was soaked.

He took off his coat, took off his glasses and shook off the drops of water on his forehead, took the towel I handed over and wiped his hair casually, and asked, "You didn't get drenched, did you?"

I shook my head, "No."

He habitually leaned over and kissed me, and said, "It's fine if you don't have one."

I don't know when it started, kissing became a daily thing between me and Wen Luming like eating and drinking. In the relaxed environment abroad, even at school, he would often kiss me without any scruples.

I lay on the car window and looked up at the sky. It was sunny in the distance, but the top of my head was gray.

"Will it really stop?" I asked sadly.

Wen Luming wrapped his arms around my waist from behind, pressed his chest against my back, rubbed my stomach and asked, "Are you hungry?"

"Not hungry, I ate a lot of snacks."

"But I'm hungry." He pushed me over and lightly pecked my lips. With my back against the car door and nowhere to retreat, I could only raise my head slightly to accept his gentle and slow kiss.

"Wen Luming... um..."

I have always felt that Wen Luming who does not wear glasses is sharper in both temperament and appearance, as if the glasses are a kind of seal, which locks the strength and coldness that belong to alpha in the body, and only shows a more gentle side to the outside world.

And after taking off his glasses, he always releases his desire to control.The cramped environment and the palms tightly clasped around my waist made me feel a little uncomfortable. I wanted to hide, but he pinched his chin and kissed him deeper.

"I just spent the afternoon eating snacks and teasing the cat..." He complained first, without mentioning that he was obsessed with fishing, "The doctor said you can't eat too many snacks, forgot?"

"I haven't forgotten..." I was breathlessly kissed by him, and whispered, "I only ate a piece of cake and a few slices of biscuits..."

"But I haven't eaten anything." He held my hand and put it on his stomach, "I'm so hungry."

I touched his well-defined abdominal muscles through the thin fabric, and my throat rolled unconsciously. In contrast, my abdominal muscles have almost disappeared due to recuperating for too long, and only my waist is left. The next layer is soft meat that is harmless to humans and animals.

The raindrops slapped on the car window, making a crackling sound.I half pushed and half pressed against Wen Luming's shoulder, looked into his eyes in the dim light, and asked, "Can kissing satisfy hunger?"

"No." He shook his head and said slowly, "It can only quench your thirst."

The cabin of the jeep was spacious enough, but it was still crowded for Wen Luming's height.He picked me up with one hand and put me on the back seat, propped it on top of my body, and asked, "Did you hear it's raining?"

His voice was deep, with a cello-like texture amidst the noisy rain, I felt itchy in my heart, and unconsciously raised my head to ask for a kiss.

"I heard it, as fast as my heartbeat." I said softly.

I got a fiery kiss as I wished, and Wen Luming pressed his hand on my chest, as if to verify the truth of what I said.

Breathing intertwined, the temperature in the car gradually increased, I chased his lips and tongue, and heard him say in a low voice: "Baby."

Such a title at this time is so straightforward that I can't ignore the lust in his voice.During this time of catching a cold, I endured neither kissing him nor provoking him. Wen Luming seemed indifferent on the surface, but in reality he might have planned this day long ago.

There is no one in the wilderness, and the spring tide brings rain.

There is nothing more urgent than rain.

I hooked Wen Luming's neck, unbuttoned him, pulled out the safety cover I just touched from the seat gap, shook it in front of his eyes, and asked slowly: "Professor Wen, why is there such a thing in your car?" grow something?"

He took it and said without changing his face: "Be prepared."

When he spoke, he pushed my clothes to my chest, and the places where his palms rested seemed to be on fire.My skin was burning hot, and my breathing was getting hotter and hotter.

The space was so narrow that we had to get very close. I raised my knee and rubbed against his leg, and whispered in his ear: "Come_me."

It rained for a long time.

The car also bumped for a long time.

Wen Luming turned on the stereo, the sound of rain and music was mixed with his deep panting, and I couldn't tell whether it was pain or joy softly.

At a certain moment, my soul seemed to rise into the air, looking down at the messy figures below, watching them indulge in shallow desires, but love each other with the cleanest and most passionate soul.

They are still in love.

Unknowingly, the setting sun in the distance fell into the horizon, and the last glimmer of light at the turn of day and night fell into Wen Luming's eyes and became his whisper of loving me.

No matter how many times, I will be moved to tears because of the "I love you" that I said from his mouth. It was just for me in exchange for my love while I was running hard to him Falling moon.

Wen Luming gave me all the love and being loved in my life.

"I love you too," I said, "I will always love you."

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