One Piece Redemption

"What the hell do you know, you think you have the right to say that about me?!" Ah Xiu felt that his body was about to be pierced by that cold voice, which made her unable to resist loudly refuting the Queen's words.

"I can only live in the dark castle every day. I don't have any playmates, and I don't have any freedom. Before the bloodline awakens, all I have every day is to protect myself as the sister of the great queen who has been on the throne for many years. Working hard for the identity: not being able to have things you like, not being able to have things you hate, not being able to focus on a beautiful flower, not being able to yearn for life outside the castle, not being able to like freedom, I can’t hate being imprisoned. Every day I have to force myself to put on that hypocritical, noble mask to face all the servants in the castle. Indifferent eyes, I have to endure the neglect of everyone, just because I have a sister who has become a queen above me, just because I like the scenery outside the castle very much, offending the identity I have now, everyone Reject all! And I can only tell myself over and over again, you can't like those things, you can't hate those things, you have to do everything you can to maintain the identity you have now, be a What the great queen's sister should do..."

[…]… The concubine knows.

"I have always liked the sun so much. Before the bloodline awakened, I could happily walk under the sun... But I never imagined that after the bloodline awakened, even the sun would no longer accept me..." Axiu held his hand in pain It seems that the face still has the terrible scars when it was exposed to the sun: "...I never imagined that the body exposed to the sun would be so painful... My flesh and blood were devoured by the sun and turned into a scar." Turned into pieces of coke, I just rolled around in the sun, my whole body was ignited with flames that devoured my life... In the end, I finally curled up back into a shadow, and dared not let anyone see it I am now in a state of distress, I can only cut off all the charred flesh and blood bit by bit, and my whole body twitches in pain... How sad, at this moment I finally understand that I have become a monster... It has become a monster that can only exist in the admiration of all blood races and in the eyes of fear..."

[…]… Oh, of course my concubine knows.

The queen couldn't help but sneered. When the queen seldom smiled, there were only two kinds of smiles on the queen's face, one kind was mild and the other kind was sarcastic.And now, what the Queen showed to Axiu was that sarcastic smile.

"...What..." Axiu, who was suddenly awakened by the sneer, looked at the queen who was mocking him, and felt insulted in his heart: "...what right do you have to laugh at me? Aren't you the same? You are just a poor and pathetic monster! I just can't stand it for half a year, not to mention you have endured it for more than 1500 years!! You are more pathetic than me, more pathetic, have What's so funny?! Listening to your old self here telling her sad and hopeless experience, it makes you feel ridiculous, doesn't it?"

[It's really ridiculous.As a defective product, you are quite self-aware. ] The queen was lazy and perfunctory: [Don't understand yet, this is the biggest gap between you and my concubine...]

"……gap?"

[...You only feel sadness and pain about your past.But the concubine did not. ]

[How much ability you have, you have to take on as much responsibility, and as much as you have, you have to lose as much. ]

[Every blood queen has grown up in this way, no one owes you anything, and no one tells you what you should endure.You are just too weak, so there is no way to get rid of the shackles on your body. ]

[As long as you are strong enough, not only physically but also mentally, you will not feel that the so-called sad past is such a sad thing, it is just what you have to go through before you become strong Some of the things that must be experienced.No one told you to be patient, you told you that you must be patient, because if you don't, you will be hurt. ]

[The concubine does not feel that someone has imprisoned the concubine's freedom. After possessing strong strength, the concubine is very free.No one asks concubines to do anything, as long as they are under the rule of concubines, they are all people of concubines. They admire and respect concubines, and leave everything in the hands of concubines. Concubines protect them and rule them. , but fulfilled the concubine's due obligations.But as long as the concubine doesn't want to, no one can force the concubine to do these things. ]

[You think that the things you have experienced before are all tragic things, but in the eyes of the concubine, they are nothing.After half a year, you feel that you can't take it anymore, and after half a year, you become so cowardly, timid, and useless.But standing in front of you is someone who has been through the same thing for over 1500 years, and to a concubine, that sort of thing doesn't matter at all.It's just that you are too weak. ]

"...What..." Ah Xiu listened to the Queen's words in a daze, and lowered his brows with some disappointment: "...It seems that I am very cowardly...it is obviously me You...you can say such things..."

"...I still have no way to hate you." Axiu slowly curled up his body: "...Actually, for the first time, I realized that maybe because you have no way to come back, I will live instead of you When I got down on this matter, I really had an ugly mentality in my heart to feel happy..."

"...But just like you said, this kind of self is too despicable... I haven't tried hard at all, I haven't tried at all, just enjoy what another person can get after so many years of hard work, it's simply It's mean, isn't it?"

"...I'm still very dark, right? Because I really became very jealous of you... But what I'm jealous of is not because Mr. Shanks is so special to you, but because I think it's all about me, Why can you have it, but I can only look at it? That feeling is really terrible..."

"I am very envious that you can freely take risks in this brand new world where no one knows you. I also envy you that you have so many companions who care about you, take care of you, and love you. Look, even if I am using your body now, but when I come downstairs to dine with them, they will always address me as Axiu instead of Kong, which means that in their hearts you are not can be replaced by me."

"...I don't have any bad thoughts about Mr. Shanks, I'm just jealous of you, I'm really alone in the castle... No one is willing to understand me and tolerate my feelings , It's really terrible. Before the bloodline awakened, in order to maintain the image of the queen's sister, I couldn't be friends with others. After the bloodline awakened, everyone was afraid of me, so no one wanted to be with me. Stay together. Usually there is no one to talk to, even Sunshine is unwilling to accept me anymore... Really... I can't stand it anymore..."

"I also hope that there is someone who can accompany me like this, like me, tolerate me, treat me gently, and never blame me. I also hope that I can be like you, who can freely outside the castle , do whatever you want. So I'm jealous of you. I don't feel ashamed to feel this way, I just feel jealous of you."

"Maybe if I say these things to you now, I will regret it when I grow up, but at least now, I must say it! Because if I don't say it, I will regret it even more when I grow up!"

"Hey, Kong, let me ask you, will I become a person like you in the future? Become like this, arrogant, arrogant, indifferent, arrogant...become completely different from now..." Axiu suddenly raised his head , looked at the queen with a somewhat puzzled and frustrated expression: "...it became that I didn't even know myself when I saw another me for the first time."

[This is not called change.This is called growing up. ] The queen's calm voice sounded in her mind: [Because she wanted to grow up to be a real queen, the concubine gave up many things, such as giving up the so-called friendliness, the so-called humility, and the so-called kindness, in exchange for, As a king, you must be decisive in killing, firm in your beliefs, and noble and glorious.These are all the growth that must be done after becoming a king.The king is the most important and representative person in a country. The dignity of the king means the dignity of the entire empire. The order of the king represents the direction of the entire empire. The belief of the king represents the common belief of the entire empire. The king cannot be shaken. Once shaken, once he denies himself, he denies the entire country, the history of the entire blood race, and his own existence.Once shaken, no matter how powerful the entire empire is, it will fall into chaos or even collapse. ]

[You have to give up what you have. This is the truth that I learned when my blood was awakened at the age of 12, but obviously you haven't understood what it means. The past self is also two people who are completely different from my concubine. , you don’t need to feel anxious because you will grow into a concubine in the future. What you are experiencing now is something that a concubine has never encountered before. This thing is completely different from the beginning Yes, you have your life, and the concubine has the future of the concubine.You don't need to feel confused, you just need to know that your destiny, your life, can only be decided by yourself, no one can force everything to stop you, there is no past, no present, and there will be no future. ]

"...I feel like you have instilled a lot of inexplicable truths..." Ah Xiu, who is only 13 years old now, can't understand what Kong said, but the general meaning is still clear. After a long silence, Axiu suddenly said: "...Although this place is very good, I still want to go back to where I was before... After all, this is your life, isn't it? If I am the one who becomes a snail now, I I also hate the person who is occupying my body now, there is only superficial truth, I still understand."

[Hmph, even if it's just a defective product, but if you can't understand this kind of thing, I will really feel sad for the blood clans who will be led by you in the future and continue to move forward...] The queen narrowed her eyes and said yes Ah Xiu, who was sitting on the bed, repaid the king's contempt.

"...Sure enough, I still can't fall in love with you..." Axiu couldn't help but rolled his eyes at the queen: "It's a pity that I always think you are very kind!"

[...Let me advise you on one thing, defective product. ] The queen said lightly: [Don't have expectations for anyone, don't have nostalgia for anyone, in your long life, there will never be anyone who can leave a mark on your pale and boring years If you don't have expectations, you won't get hurt.Even if you go back to the past and meet the red-haired bug after more than 1500 years, there will still be no one who will be able to engrave traces in your memory during these 1500 years. ]

After the queen said this sentence, she didn't wait for Axiu to respond to her again. The snail's body was very fragile and lazy, because she was physically sleepy because she hadn't moved all the time, which made the queen involuntarily distracted.

Just when the queen was about to fall asleep, the queen heard Axiu ask her in a choked voice: "... 1500 years... will it pass very slowly?"

[... just turn around and disappear. ] The queen retracted into the shell tiredly, no longer caring about the sobbing sound that could be heard from time to time, and fell into a deep sleep.

But without the queen's knowledge, Ah Xiu suddenly spoke.

"Actually, I have always known the way to release this ability... But I still didn't make up my mind to use it to go back... 1500 years, after all, it is still too lonely... Just thinking about it, the whole person will feel that it is rising from the bones Come coldly..."

"Mr. Shanks is a very good person. He treats you very well and loves you very much. If it is him, there is nothing dissatisfied."

"Everyone on this ship also likes you very much. If it was them, they would be very happy, right?"

"...Is this what you finally waited for after 1500 years of enduring?"

"...If that's the case... Maybe I'm willing to wait 1500 years, maybe..."

"...Even if it's different, the two of us are still one person after all...you can survive those 1500 years, how could I not?"

"...I don't want to be a thief. The happiness I steal will not be my own happiness after all."

"...Hey, Sora. I'm going back."

"...If it was the same as when that person used the ability before, if you didn't appear by my side and didn't talk to me, maybe I would make the same choice like that person, secretly, Enjoy the happiness I stole. But when I see you, I feel an unconscious sense of guilt and inferiority. Is this human nature? If you can’t see it, you won’t feel sad, but if you see it, you will Feeling sad... Then in the end, I chose to leave here in order to get rid of my low self-esteem and guilty conscience. Is it human nature?... I really don't understand... Before I came here, I never I have never seen a human being before... But, I just stayed on this boat for half a day, and I feel that human beings are so warm... Even though life is so short, they can bloom dazzling things that blood races can't bloom in their entire lives. light..."

"...But no matter how dazzling and warm, it is yours after all... How much did you pay to get such a return? What kind of experience is it that makes you say such things to me? Is there a reason? How lonely can I make myself, never have expectations for anything?... I don't know, but just listening to you say that, I feel like I can cry...It's too cunning...It's actually done in this way let me go back..."

"...Goodbye, Sora. Maybe we will never see each other again. Good night, have a good dream."

The author has something to say:

Axiu is just a child who doesn't understand anything, she didn't like Shanks, she just yearned for his warmth, envied Sora's freedom, and felt that she was also herself, why the other self could get what she wanted everything, but you have nothing?So she was outright jealous.

But she is also a very kind child, because she knows how painful it is to be lonely and lose her freedom, so when she sees Kong, she tries hard to convince herself to stay here, but she can't help but feel guilty , I still feel like I did something wrong.

After Kong Kong advised her never to have any expectations, she felt very sad. She finally understood that the stolen happiness would never belong to her, so she made up her mind to leave this world and find what she could have by herself. happiness.

Axiu is a very well-behaved and cute child, but due to the education of the blood race, she has no sense of right and wrong since she was a child, so freedom and warmth have become her obsession, and only then will she meet Shanks and the replacement from Sora will only be shaken like that when he becomes the temptation of a true free man.This is understandable, but even though she knew that the queen was just a weak snail and she could hurt the queen at any time, she still chose to give up. This is where her true kindness lies.

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