Tocheng

"Did you dream about Fat Brother?" the man said softly.

He glanced at the man sitting by the bed, "Yeah."

"What did you dream about?"

"He stood under the big tree in his hometown, smiling at me." He said hoarsely, with pain in his throat.

The man glanced at him, wiped the sweat off his forehead, and said, "This shows that he is finally at ease."

"Ah."

I don't know why, but I feel a little relieved. Fat Brother's smile seems to tell him that it's good to be back.

"After a while, I'll take you back to see him."

"..."

Ah Hai didn't speak, and wanted to go very much, but in his current state, he didn't have the courage to set foot on the land of his hometown, and his family, and he didn't have the face to meet them.

A'Du didn't continue talking, and understood what he was thinking.

"Cough cough."

A sudden cough interrupted the second of silence.

A'Du took a lozenge and put it near his mouth, "Suck it first."

Ah Hai obediently put it in his mouth, and A'Du ate one too.

One was sitting under the quilt, the other was sitting on the edge of the bed, taking throat lozenges. No one spoke for a while, but they didn't feel embarrassed either.

A'Du finished eating the lozenge, and asked him after a while, "Have you finished eating?"

It's as if he ate first, and he just calculated the time when he finished eating.

Of course, such a small and careless person didn't realize it at all, so he just nodded.

A'Du put the porridge on the table, and he also leaned against the bed, took the soup spoon and ate it naturally, but after a few mouthfuls he couldn't take it anymore, he had a headache, dizziness, and a sore throat.

"I want to sleep and eat again..."

"Well, then you go to bed first." The other party said and went out with his things.

He couldn't sleep with his eyes closed, not only because of Fat Brother, but also because of the big bug, who committed such a thing despite being fine, of course, it was also his own fault.

and also

this man.

Too gentle, it seems that he is about to fall into his gentle hometown again, the previous decision seems to have become illusory, a kind of restlessness keeps swelling in my heart, I don't know what to do?

Just thinking about it gave him a headache, and he shrank into the quilt, not thinking about it.

At some point, someone called his name, "Ah Cheng, get up and take some medicine before going to sleep."

He opened his eyes in a daze, and closed them again, feeling sleepy, sleepy, and lacking strength, he put something in his mouth, his soft lips touched his lips, warm breath spread in his mouth, and he closed his eyes. The wet fluid pushed and swallowed.

With a twitch of his foot, he woke up.

Is it a dream?

It may be due to being sick and prone to dreaming.

He looked at the digital clock on the table. It was already eight o'clock in the evening. He lifted the quilt, got up, and opened the curtain by the window. The night sky was attacked by darkness, but the city under the night sky was colorful.

He opened the door, and the man in the living room was on the phone.

"How is the mosquito?"

"Not yet."

"Let's talk about Ah Cheng when he's in a better mood."

"You persuade him too."

Seeing the person standing by the door, he said to Lin Ao on the phone again, "Let's talk about it next time."

He hung up the phone and asked, "How is your body?"

"fine……"

Even so, the man came over to confirm and touched his forehead.

The fever has subsided.

"Is your throat still sore?"

He shook his head, leaned back slightly, and left the warm hand.

Men don't care either.

"I'm going to cook something for you."

"No need, I'm not hungry."

As he spoke, he walked towards the balcony, but the man didn't stop him. He went to the kitchen and cooked some food casually and put it on the balcony table, urging him to eat.

He also reluctantly swallowed a few mouthfuls, the man's fiery gaze made him a little embarrassed, and he raised his head and just looked at each other, making him even more embarrassed.

"Aren't you going to work?" He stopped and said while scooping up the porridge.

"I asked for a few days off." To accompany you.

"Oh."

No one spoke for a while, and the atmosphere seemed a little awkward. Seeing him bowing his head, A'Du also looked away, lying on the recliner, with his hands on his stomach, and the scars on his wrists were also exposed.

The porridge drinker lowered his head and said something in a low voice for a long time.

"sorry."

The man looked at him inexplicably, "What's wrong?" He said this suddenly.

"Wrist injury."

It turned out that it was because of this, the man smiled and looked at the scar, and said, "You also have one on your neck, it's just a pair."

A Hai's hand reflexively covered the scar on his neck, and lowered his head even lower.

Seeing this, the man said, "I also have something to apologize to you."

"En?" He slightly raised his head and glanced at the man.

"Before I lost my temper with you and said that I would lock you up, I was angry. I'm sorry, I seem to have frightened you." Although his words were quite irritating, he felt too irrational afterwards.

"..." He was frightened, but as long as he was a little gentler, these things would naturally be taken over.

Seeing that he was silent, the man said, "Don't you accept my apology?"

"No."

"Does this mean you don't accept it?" the man asked knowingly.

"No." He whispered.

The man sat up with a light smile, rubbing his hair with his hands, "I'm just kidding you."

He raised his head quickly, and leaned back in response. The moment the two people's eyes met, it was telling the countless thoughts and love in the past.

The next second, someone looked away, sat up hastily, and stammered, "It's a bit cold, I'll go in first."

"Ah Cheng." The man called to stop the person standing by the glass door.

When the eyes met again, the man spoke sincerely.

"Stay with me."

A'Du looked at the stunned man, and continued talking.

"I was serious."

"..." Ah Hai looked away, not knowing what to say.

The man spoke to him seriously.

"You are helpless outside now, and Fang Jing also..." He was already dead, and he didn't continue, because the woman was already dead, and it was meaningless to say anything else.

"..."

"Sorry, I mentioned her..." This should be a sad thing he can't mention.

"fine."

The man glanced at the man who was biting his lip, hesitated for a while, and then spoke slowly.

"Actually, I regret what happened in the past. It should be said that I regret it every day..."

His words made the people leaning against the door raise their heads and look at each other.

The man also looked at him and said, "I regret breaking up, I regret giving you to other people, to her casually, but when I come to my senses, I have already lost you, I really I regret..."

The person who looked at each other did not speak, but listened quietly.

"I thought I'd never see you again..."

The man covered his face with his hands, trying to cover up his past sadness.

Immediately afterwards, he showed a light expression, "Fortunately, you are still alive, I have not lost you..."

Ah Hai looked at this man with wet eyes, he couldn't speak his words, he was sad, and his heart was extremely sad. He really wanted to say sorry, but he couldn't tell you that I was still alive.

"So, I want to cherish this opportunity and I want to make up for our past."

"I will take good care of you, love you, cherish you, and I will not let you suffer any more harm..."

"I……"

"Can you give me a chance?" the man said solemnly.

"..." He turned around and turned his back. The man was so sincere that he didn't know what to say for a moment.

"I know that what I said will cause you trouble, and I also know that saying these words at this time is a bit of an advantage. I just hope that you can understand my heart and give me a legitimate reason to hug you. I hope you understand that no matter what you become, I love you."

"So, give me a chance, and give yourself a chance."

The person standing by the door moved a little into the room, kept tugging at his pants, and said three words softly after a long time. I don't know what it meant, maybe it was a rejection or a simple thank you.

"Thank you……"

He leaned against the wall of the room and lowered his head and said, "I didn't think of such a thing, I'm sorry..."

"It's okay, you can think about it slowly in the future..." The man also said generously.

"I really don't plan to date anyone anymore. You, it's better not to spend time on me." He refused from the side, because he is not qualified to date anyone again.

"Don't reply so quickly, I know you can't accept me now, I can understand, it's okay, I will give you time, I will wait for you, until you promise me." The man is very stubborn, as if if he If you don't agree, you will haunt him for the rest of your life.

"Why are you so stubborn."

"Didn't you always know I was stubborn?"

This man is too stubborn, helpless and at a loss, "You, you are so good, there should be no shortage of women around you, people like me..."

"I don't need other people. I just want you, love you, and I just want to live with you in the future. I really love you."

"But, I'm disabled, I'm very old, and I'm dirty everywhere, I..."

"Don't say that about yourself. These are all superficial. Superficial things can replace the past. I love you on a deeper level. I like this low self-esteem and cowardice. I also like being easily led by the nose. Sometimes Silly, I also like..."

"I don't understand, these are obviously shortcomings, what do you like?" He said hoarsely, these words are too easy to lose direction.

"Even I think it's amazing." The man got up and walked in.

"You only need to say a word or a word to me, and I will fall in love with you. As long as you stand there and do nothing, I want to hug you tightly. As long as you look at me, everything to me is you Yes, as long as you say you love me, I will promise you everything and listen to you, all my people are yours."

The man's voice told the man to look away.

Looking at this pair of sincere eyes, something that had been silent for a long time ran out, wantonly eroding his heart, his heart was pounding, and his head was in a mess, he turned his eyes quickly, unable to say a word exit.

"..."

No, even if his words are very pleasant, it will not work.

Because I don’t want the painful decision ten years ago to become a joke. This kind of person will only drag you back, will only become an obstacle in your life, will only bring you trouble, and will only make you lose face. If you lose, it will only cause you to be criticized, and you don't want to continue entanglement, and you don't want to let yourself ruin this man.

Even if he just stood by his side, he would feel ashamed. How could such a dirty and incomplete person have the courage to accept this love. "sorry……"

"I'm not the same now, even more..."

"Then give me time, let me understand you now, and let me continue to love you."

"After you understand it, you will regret what you said now." After understanding that he killed and sold drugs, he will be completely disappointed and completely disgusted.

The man looked at him squarely, and said seriously, "I won't, I've already identified you in my life, and I won't change."

"I really love you, A-cheng."

"I, now I really..."

"I'll love you no matter what you become..."

"you……"

Because of such a sentence, the heart twitched non-stop following his words, the will of the person seemed to become weak, and the eyes did not dare to move randomly.

The man held his hand slowly, and as he spoke, he pulled it away a little, but the man didn't care, and clenched it tightly, hoping to send some warmth to him, "Ah Cheng."

The man's warm and mellow voice reached his heart. Ten years ago, he called him that way, and he had such a familiar aura, but it was because he was so familiar that he kept moving aside.

He whispered, "Let go quickly, my hand is very..."

The man stepped forward to hug him without any scruples, very gentle and light, and he didn't hide anymore, letting him hug him, the man whispered in his ear.

"I love you."

"You..." He was completely speechless, this person is serious, no matter how dirty he becomes, but is it really possible?

"baby I love you."

The man kissed his hair, and spoke affectionately in his ear the words of the lover. The heart of the person who heard it was beating wildly, and many concerns and questions were covered by the heartbeat at this moment.

The stiff back followed by the softening of the heart, the hand on the back was big, and the place where it was touched gave waves of peace of mind. There was a fragrance on this person, which was different from the previous ones, but it was also easy to touch the softest part of the heart. One corner seems to be overflowing with sunshine, which makes people feel relieved.

He calmed down from the bottom of his heart, and the gentle words in his ears warmed his heart even more, so he didn't push away, didn't resist, but let him quietly enjoy this person's embrace without resisting.

The corner of A'Du's mouth changed into a smile, and a light kiss was placed on the forehead of the person in front of him. He was very excited. Although he didn't respond to his expectations, at least he didn't push away. That's enough. Everything is going to be okay, it's going to be good, take your time...

At this moment, enjoy the happiness of being hugged in your arms...