Chen Jue

After locking the bedroom door behind her, Chen Jue lay on the bed, covered her face with one hand, and beat the bed under her body twice with the other, seemingly venting her anger and erupting after depression.The deformed relationship between him and Duanmu Lei is due to Duanmu Lei's strength and Chen Jue's reluctance to bear the burden of humiliation until now. Suppressing her true temperament, what was distorted was not only the relationship that Chen Jue didn't agree with, but also Chen Jue's heart.

The original intention of leaving Yunnan was not only to avoid Duanmu Lei, but also because Chen Jue couldn't let go of his cowardice in the face of power.While he hated Duanmu Lei, he didn't hate himself for compromising and even falling again and again.Even though he never embezzled a penny of Duanmu Lei's gift to his family, the original capital of his stocks, this house with the meaning of compensation, his internship in a military hospital, and the first deposit after opening an online store are all worthless. Which one is there no excuse for the light?And which one came only by his own efforts?

The more Chen Jue thought about it, the more upset he became. The more he thought about it, the more he felt that he was hypocritical and despicable.Chen Jue turned over and pulled the quilt to cover his whole body, lay on the bed, gritted his teeth, and resisted the intensifying tears, letting the grievance of avoidance and all-seeing reason confront each other, interfering with the decision of the brain.

It's time for a proper change!

Regardless of the spiritual level or mentality, one should not indulge in the past, the past is just the past, and only the present can determine the future.Sucking his nose to hide the water in his nasal cavity, Chen Jue thought to himself.After the tense emotions are relaxed, the body's tiredness gradually invades, and the drowsiness gradually fades away.

The bedroom was pitch black, the curtains were not opened, and they were bundled into a bunch, quietly leaning against the window, and a lone moon outside the window adorned the night sky with a few sparse stars.With a click, the locked bedroom door was opened, and someone came to the bed without a sound. With the light from the window, he could vaguely see someone curled up in a ball, with depression behind his deep sleep.

He stood quietly by the bed, looked at Chen Jue's sleeping face for a long while, his eyes were full of tenderness and a touch of helplessness.Chen Jue's pride was engraved in his bones and melted into his blood.He may bow his head for a momentary disadvantage, but he will not bow his head permanently. This is his favorite and most troublesome.Sometimes, he even thought that it would be better to completely break Chen Jue's wings, smash his proud bones, and keep him close to him, so he can't go anywhere. His body, his heart, and his eyes only have myself and nothing else.

But as soon as he thought of Chen Jue's phoenix eyes, which were no longer standing proudly and graceful, there was a dead silence and gloomyness, he endured the cruel thought of being invisible.Is Chen Jue like that still the Chen Jue he likes and misses so much?He didn't even dare to imagine that such a Chen Jue would choose jade pieces instead of living with nothing.

Brushing his fingers over the facial features on the bed, which were especially elegant due to being immersed in sleep, he sighed softly, what else can he do?The one who says love first loses first, even if he didn't say love, he has already lost.He has always been a winner, and he is neither prepared nor intends to continue to lose, so he can only press forward step by step, holding Chen Jue in his arms and soaking together, even though Chen Jue is full of reluctance.

That's it, that's all.He leaned over and kissed the sleeping man's lips lightly for a moment.In the future, he can't guarantee it, but now he has, the emotions and material things he can give, and he will hold them in front of Chen Jue one by one in exchange for his smile and his bland almost nothing emotion.

The solitary moon hanging in the night sky outside the window is hidden in the clouds, and people come and go quietly, leaving only the bed - the Master sleeps soundly.

In the early morning, the sun was rising, and there was no cloud in the blue sky. Awakened by the dazzling light, Chen Jue slowly opened his sleepy eyes, staring blankly at the blue sky and morning sun outside the window.

After a while, he was startled by some noise outside the door, closed his eyes and rolled his tired eyes, stretched his legs under the quilt for a while, feeling the slightly sore comfort of the stretched muscles, bones and muscles, Chen Jue lifted the quilt out of bed.

With a messy hairstyle, Chen Jue changed out of the underwear that he had worn all day and hadn't taken off while sleeping, put on cotton slippers, unlocked the door, and went straight to the bathroom.

Hearing the sound of the door lock, Jin Yi, who was sitting in the living room reading the newspaper, turned his head, and smiled slightly at Chen Jue, who woke up with messy hair and slightly scruffy hair.With Jin Yi's smile on his face, Chen Jue calmly walked into the washroom without blinking his eyes or changing his face.

How many of those who just crawled out of the bed are radiant and perfect?

Watching Chen Jue walk into the bathroom, Jin Yi smiled, shook his head and turned his attention back to the newspaper in his hand.

After washing up and having a simple breakfast, Chen Jue, accompanied by Jin Yi, brought a few packs of mountain delicacies specially packaged by Chen's mother and a luggage bag containing a change of clothes, toiletries, and bits and pieces of practical items. Military hospital.

While exchanging brief greetings with the doctors and directors of the same department who had been away for a few days, Chen Jue gave small packages of mountain treasures one by one, which not only drew the other party's thanks, but also brought the relationship closer to each other.Although Chen Jue, who has experienced strong interpersonal relationships in the workplace and office, is not a veteran, he is not that fledgling rookie either.For some things, when you can't resist and oppose it, following the Romans is the best way to act.

Jin Yi looked at Chen Jue, who had become like a fish in water since entering the hospital department, smiled and ran away quietly.If there is no accident, Chen Jue will not be able to go home for another ten and a half months this time. He is not a hospital medical staff, and he has no relevant certificates to allow him to stay in the hospital for a long time. He can only send him to the hospital safely and then leave.What's more, it is always much safer to be in a military hospital than in other places, which is one of the reasons why Third Young Master arranged for Chen Jue to go to the hospital for an internship.

Rounding up the ward, writing medical records, preparing surgery... The busy internship life made Chen Jue exhausted, and he had no time to think about what he had and what he didn't have. Finally, he called home to ask about the Ganoderma lucidum plant.When he saw the Ganoderma lucidum, he had a hunch that it was specially given to him by his parents as a "gift" that he could take out when necessary, but he really heard it from his parents and confirmed his conjecture , Chen Jue's nasal cavity gradually became sour, and his eyes were astringent.

On the other end of the phone, Mother Chen was still talking earnestly about some of the interpersonal experience accumulated by the older generation for decades, as well as some occasional warnings from Father Chen. Mixed feelings.

Wishing their children to become dragons and their daughters to become phoenixes, every parent hopes that their children will have a smooth and happy life, and they are willing to dedicate everything to this.Poor parents all over the world!

After Chen Jue hung up the phone, he closed his eyes and wiped his face vigorously, forcing the water that was about to overflow back into his body before he walked back to the department with heavy steps.Back then, when he was admitted to Peking University, his parents were extremely proud and proud to tell every relative about the excellence of their son, and every note that blurted out carried the glory hidden in the narrator's heart.When they learned that he could be an intern in a military hospital in Beijing, his parents were happy but also worried. But in order for him to develop and live in a big city, his parents chose to support him, affirm him, and encourage him.He felt these in his heart, but he didn't think deeply about them.

If it wasn't for that Ganoderma lucidum, if it wasn't for this phone call, Chen Jue, would you still be immersed in your own self-pity and unable to break free?To magnify one's own pain, let the depression be shackles, and not be happy?

Chen Jue, where is that proud and confident you?Where did the positive, hopeful you go?After embarking on the medical career, where are you who uphold the benevolence and morality of doctors and strive to achieve your own value?

Are you now the same you as before?

What lingers in the nostrils is the familiar smell of disinfectant that can no longer be familiar. He wears a white robe that can be used as ordinary clothes. Noun term for mouth.In his more than [-] years of life, he spent one-third of his time touching the door of medicine, with one foot in the door and one foot hanging outside, stumbling through this section after section, which may be difficult and unbearable. Or rejoice in the journey.All of this is no longer a choice made by ignorance and ignorance because of survival, but a habit engraved in the bones, and it is a natural derivation after getting used to it.

There is a saying in an ancient poem: "Mountains are heavy and rivers are full of doubts, and there is no way out, and the willows are dark and the flowers are bright, and there is another village."Listen to and implement the words of the sages, why can't you go to the blue sky and fail?Chen Jue, who had figured out the key points, suddenly became enlightened from top to bottom, from heart to outside, as if eating ginseng fruit.

After working hard for half a month, Section Chief Wu, who was in charge of interns in the medical department, called Chen Jue to inform him of his upcoming transfer.Generally, the routine rotation of departments starts with major internal medicine and major surgery, and then selects the next rotation department based on the daily performance of the interns and the judgment given by the teaching teacher.But Chen Jue is different from ordinary interns in that he doesn't have a so-called teacher.In the department he is in now, every doctor can be counted as his "teacher", but none of them are.In view of the friendship between him and the son of the dean of the Shangguan, Section Chief Wu had no choice but to notify him in person.

Pressing the swollen eye sockets, Chen Jue secretly thought about which department he should go to next.In the few years before he was admitted to Peking University, Chen Jue had been working in surgery. Even if he worked part-time in Shangguanjin's nursing home, he was still working as a surgeon.Counting it piecemeal, he had been in surgery for nearly three years, and it was time for him to study in other departments.

surgery... internal medicine...

For some reason, Chen Jue suddenly remembered the old man who gave first aid on the train.From the point of view of a quasi-surgeon holding a physician assistant certificate, there were too many things missing on the train at that time, no defibrillator, no ECG monitoring, no corresponding emergency medicine,

Not even the conductor, including the train conductor, has even the slightest medical knowledge.

Looking back now, to be able to pull the old man back from a coma, I can only say that the old man's life should not die. My luck is really good. The combination of the two will lead to a successful retirement similar to the Dzogchen ending.If not, he would have been revoked his doctor's license by the health department at this moment, drinking tea in the police station, how can he think about transferring to another department here?

The author has something to say: It was the first time I had to code words so hard - the writing was not smooth, the thinking was not clear, and I had to draw and rewrite on the notebook while typing on the keyboard. A chapter.

The author's writing skills are limited, and he thinks he can't control the sensational vocabulary and sentences. After all, the author is familiar with a bunch of academic terms that are convoluted, so if the readers feel that the writing of this chapter is not satisfactory, please forgive me!