I really didn't want to be popular [entertainment circle]

Su Zibo stood inside the door close to the door, his mind was full of Shen Youlan standing in the corridor.From neck clavicle to chest, abs and pants chain, instep...

Su Zibo swallowed, closed his eyes with guilt.

"咚咚-"

Su Zibo was startled, turned around and said, "Huh?"

"Why did you see me running?" Shen Youlan said, "Have you finished your homework?"

"Hmm..." Su Zibo said, "It's finished..."

"Want to watch a movie?" Shen Youlan asked.

Su Zibo remembered that this weekend, Shen Yulan's movie day, in the past few months, Su Zibo, a future filmmaker, would watch it with him as a matter of course. Shen Youlan's tastes are very mixed. He likes all kinds of literature, art, business, science fiction documentaries, sometimes he is bored, and sometimes Can watch an entire epic series without moving.

"Hot chocolate?" Shen Youlan asked.

"What are you drinking?" Su Zibo said.

"Same as you." Shen Youlan said.

Shen Youlan sometimes drank, red wine, whiskey and various wines that he hid in the wine cabinet came in rotation, but not these few times.

"Don't you drink?" Su Zibo asked.

Shen Youlan shook her head, poured him a glass, and prepared a plate of fruit.

"I can accompany you." Su Zibo said, "I'll be fine tomorrow."

"You?" Shen Youlan held the cup, unbuttoned her shirt to her collarbone, put one hand on the sofa and smiled, "Forget it."

"Huh? Look down on people." Su Zibo said angrily, "It was an accident last time... and you didn't pour a glass, right?"

Shen Youlan didn't speak, just silently refused.He felt that between Shen Youlan and him, there was always a gully left by the other party.

He always classifies himself as a child.

It's like he didn't go to bed at eleven o'clock... Of course he didn't go to bed, why did he go to bed at eleven o'clock?But Shen Yulan thought it was the sleep time for teenagers, and every time he saw him wandering in the living room, he would be reminded to sleep.

Obviously sitting in the living room drinking whiskey, why do you care if he sleeps or not?

Shen Youlan ignored him, lowered her eyes and hooked her hands, pinched the rim of the cup, and put the cup in front of him.

Su Zibo could only obediently drink hot chocolate.

Not to mention, it's quite delicious...

"I made it for half an hour." Shen Youlan said, "Does it taste good?"

"...Yes." Su Zibo nodded.

"Choose a movie to watch." Shen Youlan gave him the remote control.

Su Zibo flicked on the screen, the list of movies scrolled, each cover framed a story, there were quite a few movies in foreign languages ​​and Chinese, scrolled through one by one.Soon, he paused on a close-up of the back.

The skinny and sickly back has a tattoo of the letter "dawn" on the waist, and in the shadow beside it is a dark yellow bathtub.

The title of the movie is "Can't Be Saved".

"Have you seen it?" Su Zibo suddenly said.

Shen Youlan held his head in his hands, and didn't seem to understand what it was: "A literary film?"

"...Well...not counting." Su Zibo said.

The actor's face couldn't be seen clearly from his back, and of course Shen Youlan didn't see who it was.

Su Zibo then said: "This is Teacher Xu's award-winning film."

"...Xu Yiqing." Shen Youlan muttered, but she didn't seem to reject his proposal.

Su Zibo swallowed his saliva.

He has seen this movie, and he has watched it countless times, and of course it is not just because it is his boss' award-winning movie.

This is a film about homosexuality.

It was Su Zibo's first time watching this film, the plot was mediocre and easy to guess, but he was immersed in this depressing atmosphere and couldn't extricate himself.Xu Yiqing's acting skills are tense and natural, and can lead you to immerse yourself in the character.

Su Zibo still had a little bit of careful thought in it, after all, Shen Youlan hadn't read it, so he wouldn't answer unless asked, and there was a distance between the two of them, each with a drink.

The screen switches to Su Zibo's familiar buzzing sound of flies entering the camera, and a close-up of Xu Yi's hand that looks like dry wood at the beginning of each title.

Seeing familiar people appear on the scene, most of the time it will actually be easy to lose the sense of substitution.

Besides, the first half of the film is really youthful campus...Shen Youlan stood up, went to get a half bottle of wine, and mixed some into the hot chocolate by herself.

Su Zibo said: "The front is a bit boring."

"It's okay." Shen Youlan said.

When the plot gradually entered the stage where the two people began to misunderstand, Shen Youlan had already read it completely.Tapping the beat with his fingers, he asked, "What's the ending like?"

"You'll know it after reading it." Su Zibo said.

As soon as he finished speaking, a picture of two people hugging and kissing suddenly appeared on the screen.

This is the only intense emotional collision in the movie. Hormones burst out of the screen, and there is also the sound of sticky kisses that entered his ears unexpectedly from the surround sound.

Shen Youlan raised her hand to drink water from the cup, her eyes were still on the screen, and she was watching seriously.

So it's too shameful to avoid it now, Su Zibo is an adult, let's see what's wrong with this kind of video!

The director's shooting technique is actually not revealing//bone, and more is to use other figurative techniques and surround sound to express the intensity.

In just 2 minutes, the two of them didn't say a word, no one commented, and they both stared at the screen motionlessly.

until the end.

Su Zibo obviously leaned back, looking relieved.

Shen Youlan put the cup away, cleared her throat, and said, "Why are you nervous?"

"You're nervous!" Su Zibo hit him back, and heard Shen Youlan's laughter after the beating, he was embarrassed and whispered, "Aren't you embarrassed..."

"Embarrassing?" Shen Youlan said, "Normal literary and artistic films, romance is a part of the film, you will also go to drama school in the future, don't you know?"

"It's embarrassing to see you!" Su Zibo said, "Stop! Don't discuss this!"

Shen Youlan stopped laughing at him and continued to concentrate on watching the movie.

No matter how many times Su Zibo watched it, he would still have a heart attack for a long time because of the final ending, and there were many things he wanted to say but couldn't say.Even he had discussed the ending of this story with Xu Yiqing before.

Xu Yiqing's character finally got AIDS, and his lover died unexpectedly.His native family ordered him to get married, his job was lost, and his life was desolate...

He can be said to be hopeless, and finally chose to commit suicide.

But the ending that the director arranged for him was that he didn't die.

The lover is gone, life is not bright, and the ultimate suicide attempt is the most uncomfortable. Compared with making a quick decision, those who survive in the end can only enter a more painful cycle.

Every time here, Su Zibo can really feel Qi Zhi's despair.

"Hey..." Su Zibo hugged his knees and pressed them against them, "It's hard for me to break away from this emotion every time I finish watching."

"Xu Yiqing acted very touchingly." Shen Youlan commented.

"If..." Su Zibo looked at him with one eye, "If you were Qi Zhi, how would you choose?"

"I won't forgive him." Shen Youlan didn't want to say, "After he cheated, he no longer exists in my world."

Shen Youlan didn't reject this question...

"In the final analysis, the biggest problem between the two is the disparity in identities and different perspectives of thinking." Shen Youlan actually analyzed it seriously, "If these problems are not resolved, they will have no future even if they are together."

"But I think that if you really love each other, as long as you face all kinds of problems together, you will be able to solve them easily." Su Zibo said.

Shen Youlan held the cup and propped it up on one long leg.Seeing that he didn't speak, Su Zibo boldly said, "Isn't it?"

"If I had watched this film back then, I might have thought the same way." Shen Youlan said, "The reality is that love is not enough to be in love, this is just a premise."

Su Zibo: "..."

Here we go again, treating him like a child.

Shen Youlan obviously had a completely different impression from him.Moreover, Shen Youlan placed a long river between them.

However, it is somewhat weird to discuss relationship issues with Shen Youlan in a serious manner.

"Are you hungry?" Shen Youlan said, "I'll get some..."

"I went to read." Su Zibo interrupted him and stood up.

Shen Youlan stared at him, as if feeling his sudden depressed temper.

Su Zibo wore slippers with his head down.

The other party didn't say a word, and didn't ask him where his emotions came from.Either don't care, or don't expose.

When Su Zibo went up the stairs, Shen Youlan suddenly called him.

Su Zibo looked back at him: "..."

"You still have more than 20 days for the college entrance examination." Shen Youlan said, "If you need anything, you can tell me. Other than that, let's wait until the college entrance examination is over."

"...Yeah." Su Zibo said, "Understood."

The college entrance examination is a thing that he has to face in the end. Even if he can be said to be at peace with his professional score of second, he still has to work hard to challenge and do better.This is the life he needs to show to the outside world, and to satisfy the public's fantasy.

In the last 20 days or so of Su Zibo, Li Silu did not bother him. His mother said that in the last few days, he would book a nearby hotel to pick him up for the exam. Su Zibo wanted to refuse, saying that his agent would arrange it.

The two argued for 10 minutes.

"You have to take care of you when you come, and some fans will even harass you." Su Zibo said, "Don't come."

Mom said: "Okay, do you have someone to take care of you?"

"Well, yes..." Su Zibo said.

Mom: "No, no, I'm still worried..."

Su Zibo sat cross-legged on one side of the sofa, talking on the phone with his mother, while Shen Youlan was on the other side of the sofa.Perhaps hearing Su Zibo's words, Shen Youlan leaned over and motioned for him to give him the phone.

Knowing that he heard it, Su Zibo silently handed the phone to Shen Youlan.

"Hello, Auntie." Shen Youlan said.

I don't know what I'm talking about with my mother, but the general idea is that the agency and I will take care of his life and safety during the exam.

In the end, Shen Youlan said "don't worry" several times, and returned the phone to Su Zibo.

"Then take care of yourself and don't bother others too much." Mom said.

"Okay." Su Zibo said.

After hanging up the phone, Su Zibo sighed.

"You still want her to come." Shen Youlan squeezed the electronic cigarette, "How long have you not seen each other?"

"It's been more than a year." Su Zibo said, "As soon as I meet her, many fans will harass her. Before, she would also be harassed at home, and she has moved twice since then."

Shen Youlan said: "I will see you when the college entrance examination is over."

Su Zibo hugged his knees and smiled: "Thank you."

"Thank you." Shen Youlan said.

"At least it made my mother feel at ease." Su Zibo said, "Take care of me during the college entrance examination..."

Shen Youlan squinted at him for a while behind the smoke, and said, "I'm serious."

Su Zibo: "?"

"The whole world knows about our relationship, so it doesn't matter now." Shen Youlan picked up her phone, "Book a nearby hotel, we'll stay there for a few days."

Su Zibo: "!!!"

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