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The press conference was arranged in the morning, and I didn't go with Jiang Chen. I was supposed to go there with both of them to explain it, but I used some bad tricks to avoid suspicion.

I am sitting alone in a coffee shop not far away, the air conditioner is so strong that I am shivering. When I am alone, it is always easy to think a lot, such as everything in the past, and those beautiful and warm things are so easy Break people down.

Life has never been so dramatic. I suddenly feel so tired after ups and downs in the melting pot of Shanghai.It is sensual, sugar-coated and candied, but no one knows what is hidden in the mottled rust.I feel so messed up, my mind is full of chaos, and I suddenly feel homesick. I know that these days I should stand firmly with Jiang Chen, but... I sighed and buried my head in my arms.

However, if I can foresee the future and those more cruel and dramatic stories, maybe I won't have time to mourn the spring and autumn here at all, and I will hold Jiang Chen's hand desperately.

"Mom, what's the matter?" The phone rang, and I cleared my throat and asked.

There was something wrong with Mom's voice: "Su Man, Mom is sick and is in the hospital now... When are you free to come back?"

"What?" I looked up at the time, and the press conference would be over in 10 minutes, "Mom, what's wrong with you? Is it important? I...I've been very busy these two days..."

Mom coughed for a long time on the other end of the phone, and said in a hoarse voice: "It's okay...then you can be busy."

"Mom, what's the matter with you?" This is the most worrying part of the conversation.

After pressing for a long time, my mother hesitated for a long time before slowly saying: "Mom's liver cancer is terminal."

After I hung up the phone, I froze on the spot for a long time before I recovered from it. All I could think about was that when I was a child, my mother was busy, but she always brought toys and snacks when I went home. After my parents divorced, she cried in the middle of the night and her eyes were red. , but still as strong as if nothing happened, these years have become more and more nagging, but now these words are like a will... After thinking about it, Jiang Chen actually appeared in my mind, she said to me lightly Laughing is like a mirror image.

"Su Man, where are you?" The phone rang for a long time before I realized it was Jiang Chen.

I stabilized my voice before saying, "It's over? How was the press conference?"

"It's okay, where are you? Are you coming to pick you up?" Jiang Chen's voice was very noisy, with various reporters asking questions with high-pitched voices mixed with the sound of camera shutters.

"That's good, I'm fine, you go back first. I..." I paused, but decided not to tell her, after all, she has too much to do now.

"What's the matter? Are you in a bad mood?" Even though I can make myself sound happy, Jiang Chen seems to have discovered the clue.

"It's okay! Did you hear me wrong...I'll take the subway back now, half an hour!" I said while drinking coffee.

"Well, that's good. I have something to do later, you go back first, and be careful on the way."

I can even imagine Jiang Chen's impatient expression in the face of those crowded reporters, thinking about it, my nose suddenly became sore again.

After sneezing, I bravely went to the bathroom to wash off all the ugly makeup, and walked out of the cafe with my head held high and my chest held high amidst the eyes of those who had been watching me with tears streaming down my face.

After I went back, I was in a daze for 10 minutes, engraving these appearances in my mind as if I would never come back again. After I was in a daze, I laughed at myself again. I'm going to die. Anyway, I will come when my mother is better.

But, what if the illness doesn't get better?

If Jiang Chen didn't have me during this time, would there be a third party... Sub-Ao!Is this something to think about now? !

After arranging some belongings casually, I thought about it and left a note for Jiang Chen in the living room.

Ah Chen, I'm leaving. My mother is sick. I'll go back to take care of her first.You have to work hard by yourself, be good, and don’t do anything to be sorry for me haha.Wait for me for two or three days!mwah.

When the elevator doors closed, I had the illusion again, as if I was cut off from here forever, and this feeling was so familiar.

Sitting in the bullet train, I still couldn’t accept everything—my mother’s sudden terminal cancer, I secretly packed my bags and left Jiangchen.All these stormy changes probably made me lose my ability to think. Without Jiang Chen, there is no need to hide my cowardice and pessimism.I lay on the table crying out of breath.Fortunately, there are few people on this bus, otherwise it must be regarded as crazy...

I went home first, ready to pack my things, and then went to the hospital to see my mother.

But what I never expected was that just as I dragged the box into the room in distraught, Mom came out of her room with a serious face of murder.

I was so frightened that I almost sat on the box: "Mom?! You...you are not that cancer...then what period..."

"If you don't say that, would you go home?" Mom snorted coldly, gnashing her teeth and feeling like she wanted to eat me alive.

"Damn it..." It was like a bolt from the blue, "You...why did you bring me back?" I couldn't even react to the blow.

"Hmph, think about the good deeds you have done yourself. If you want people not to know, you have to do nothing yourself."

"You..." I still didn't respond.

I guess my mother couldn't stand the dementia on my face, so she calmly said angrily: "Okay, I know, I finally watched TV and posted on Weibo, all of which were swiped by you and your book writer." What a good job and good internship. It turns out that I hang out with these cronies. Hurry up and come back to me to go to work and do business in a proper way. Finding a boyfriend and dating is the real thing. What kind of mess is this. My mother is also old. Now, if you can't stand the toss anymore, can't you save me some snacks?"

"What kind of fox friends, mom, you don't know anything, don't talk nonsense, okay?" I still have the ability to respond to Jiang Chen's slander, and I immediately refuted it.

Mom gave me a hard look, and said: "Okay, anyway, you have to reflect on me these few days, and I will make you whatever you want to eat." Then, she went out and locked the door.

This is the rhythm of putting me in confinement!I know her personality. Although she is open-minded, it must be unacceptable for homosexuality to happen to her daughter, so she realized it, but didn't mention it.I had a terrible headache and fell asleep on the bed after a while...

When I woke up, it was nearly ten o'clock, and there was a cold meal on the bedside. I was obviously very hungry, but I didn't have any appetite at all, and I even felt a little nauseous.I wanted to find my mobile phone, but found that my mobile phone was also mysteriously missing.

Second Olympic!How can I contact Jiang Chen... Ah Chen must be very worried now, I buried my head in the quilt in distress, I'm going crazy.

I'm such an idiot, I actually left her at this time, but what can I do, who knew that my mother would actually use such a dirty trick to trick me.

I lost sleep all night, so when I woke up in the morning, I found that my skin was like the surface of the moon, and my hair was messed up like a refugee.I looked at myself in the mirror, took a deep breath, and decided to have a good talk with my mother, maybe there is still room for turning around.

"Mom..." I slowly sipped the soy milk, thinking about how to speak.

"Huh? Eat more, I didn't eat what I gave you yesterday." My mother looked so attentive, and I felt a little guilty.

I shook my head and thought for a long time before I said, "Did you take my phone away?!"

My mother nodded calmly: "You're just too impetuous, take a good rest for a few days, and then I'll get in touch with you, and then go on a beautiful blind date, and bring back a rich husband for Mom."

"Mom!" I felt a little nauseous when I heard about the blind date, and looked at her with a frown.

"What's the matter? Can you fall in love without a blind date? You don't want to get married and I want to hold a grandson before I die..."

Before she could finish her babbling, my heart skipped a beat, and I closed my eyes and roared out: "What kind of a blind date, what kind of marriage, let me tell you, I am gay, I like women, and I only love Jiang in my life... "

Before I finished speaking, there was a "snap", and my whole brain began to fly with little bees, or the kind of demons dancing wildly.

I knocked my head on the corner of the table and broke my skin. I was stunned for a long time, and my mother didn't speak.I just stared blankly at her, sighed, cleared the table, and entered the room.

I reacted quickly to open the door, but it turned out that the door couldn't be opened from the inside. The lock must have been changed a long time ago. Mom, what the hell are you doing to prevent thieves, burglars, and daughters...

So I was completely disconnected, no mobile phone, no internet, and no TV to watch...

I lie on the bed all day and all night, sometimes I think a lot, I want to see Jiang Chen for the first time, she is as calm as water, when her long hair is loose, she is like an ancient person who has traveled through time and does not know the world, and I want her to make me happy On my birthday, which I myself have forgotten, that kind of pleasant surprise is probably ridiculous in the eyes of others, and I even kissed her that day, yes, all my concerns about gains and losses, my worries and all my emotions are only around this one person.

After that, after being together, I couldn't remember many beautiful details. I only remembered that life was sweet and simple but never seemed to get tired.and after that...

I don't know if the relationship with her will be wiped out by time and those things. I'm just worried that one day, I will be the same Chen Gu as before, and I can only walk away with no choice but to regret.And a new Su Man appeared in Jiang Chen's life, clean and transparent without any stains.

Yes, I'm just timid and useless, I can only die paralyzed on the bed and strangled to death by my own thoughts, but there is nothing I can do.

Three days passed, and Mom never mentioned what happened that morning again, nor did I, as if it never happened.Sleeping, eating, sleeping, I'm too lazy to wash my hair, I'm too lazy to take a shower, I'm too lazy to take care of everything, I don't know what's the use of being groggy here, can I change my sexual orientation if I'm so exhausted?Can I stop loving Jiang Chen?I don't know, maybe my mother can't think of a better way.

In Shanghai, when the river was in dire straits and the war was in turmoil, I actually... repeated eating, sleeping, and being in a daze here over and over again...

In the past two days, the typhoon and heavy rain in Hangzhou seemed to wash away all the dirt.But what's the use?What should exist still exists, and some are inherently unchangeable.

Like a tough grass, it is bent, but it will stand up anyway.

I stood in front of the window, thinking, Jiang Chen, have all those messy things been resolved?I just knew that everything is not a problem in your hands.

Also, Shanghai...is it raining now?Maybe in the near future, this cloud will float to Shanghai, will you think of me then?

Qixi Festival

On the night of Qixi Festival, I never thought that I would dream of Lu Jingjing, let alone when I was still in Jiang Chen's arms.I opened my eyes and looked at Jiang Chen by the dim light of the street lamp outside the window. She was a little tired, and there was still some thin sweat left after the passion. In short, she was still very handsome.

But what I was a little confused about was why I dreamed about Lu Jingjing, and the content was so weird that Jiang Chen looked at Lu Jingjing strangling me to death indifferently at the end.The feeling of suffocation was so real that I unconsciously opened my mouth slightly to breathe after waking up.

I didn't feel scared, but my mouth was a little dry, so I put on my pajamas carefully, got up and went to the kitchen to pour a glass of water.When I passed the living room after drinking the water, the wind outside the window suddenly blew in and moved the curtains. I thought for a while and walked over to stand by the window.

Maybe the reason I'm not afraid of heights at night is because I can't see below?The dim light from the street lamps made me not see the distance from the ground as clearly as I did during the day.But... I tilted my head and thought, when did the fear of heights start?

Then I thought of Lu Jingjing again, this woman appeared too much in my life, and many things happened to her.For example, when Lu Jingjing was still dating me.At that time, I was cooking in the rented room, and when I heard the door slam, I thought it was Lu Jingjing who had come back, so I didn't pay much attention and told her to wait.

And it wasn't until the familiar fruit knife rested on my neck that I realized something was wrong after a while.Later, the excited woman forced me to the window and asked me to jump. I definitely didn't want to jump, but I couldn't resist the fact that someone had a knife in his hand.Outside the window is the external unit of the air conditioner. I stepped out calmly and put half of my feet on the external unit, then suddenly turned my body and bumped my head directly at the woman.

The result was very surprising. The woman was staggered almost unpreparedly by me, and I took advantage of the opportunity to roll in gracefully.After that... I don't remember how I accidentally let her fall out of the window during the fight with her. The only thing that left a deep impression on me was the feeling of holding the handle of the knife - that feeling was too painful, I just After holding it for a while, I watched the woman fall down.

Of course the woman didn't die, and the broken leg returned to normal with the help of the rehabilitation therapist Lu Jingjing called.Lu Jingjing asked me if I was afraid. I didn't say a word to her, but I was thinking in my heart, how can I feel afraid when I love you?It's just that at the time I felt that Lu Jingjing would be too complacent to say it, but later, of course, I didn't have the chance.

Thinking about it, I couldn't help but sighed a long time, leaned softly against the wall by the window, and opened my mouth to say, "Baoyu, you are so ruthless...".While singing, I could still hold back a few tears, and suddenly felt that I was really wasting my talent if I didn't take the Chinese opera exam.

The singing was on the rise, and when I was about to cough a few more times, I suddenly found a dark figure standing over the bedroom, and my heart skipped a beat.When did Jiang Chen come here? Emma Jiang Chen won't think I'm crazy if I look like this.

After coughing a few times, I embarrassedly smiled at Jiang Chen and said. "How did you come out?"

"En." Jiang Chen replied simply, and walked towards me directly.

"Hey, why are you here? I'm going back to sleep too, let's go back together..." Getting up to sing in the middle of the night was too weird, my face was a little hot, and I was about to drag Jiang Chen who came over, and went back to the bedroom.

Jiang Chen held me back, and touched my face with the other hand. The warm touch made me shiver uncontrollably—it was comfortable.I looked at Jiang Chen cautiously from the outside light, and saw her hair was still half curled, her eyes were half-closed sleepily, she was as harmless as a kitten, which directly fueled my courage.

"Let's go, let's go to bed." I hurriedly teased Jiang Chen, but I couldn't tease her no matter what.

Then I heard a faint chuckle, followed by the feeling of the earlobe being gently sucked and rubbed.As soon as my legs were weak, I hurriedly begged for mercy. "I've done it twice just now, please forgive me."

"No hurry." Jiang Chen's hand slipped into the hem of my pajamas, and he ignited the fire that had not been extinguished in my body without haste. "It's only three things, and there's one more time."

"I..." I still wanted to say something, but I felt Jiang Chen biting his earlobe with his teeth and pressing it lightly.Immediately, I couldn't say anything, I just kept a standing posture, not letting my sore legs go weak.

"Sister Daiyu, why are you so weak, how about sister Baochai take a look at it for you?" Jiang Chen said with a chuckle and then stroked down from the earlobe, leaving scars on my neck that made me shudder. kiss.

"You...don't talk nonsense...what Daiyu, Baochai's...huh...ah...don't bite." I screamed, completely losing strength and about to fall down.

Jiang Chen resisted me, pushed me against the side with the window, and pulled off my pajamas.As soon as the night wind blew, I shivered and became a little sober, remembering where I was hurrying to stop Jiang Chen.

"You...you don't do this...let's go in, I, I don't want to."

"I think you like it very much, otherwise what are you doing here in the middle of the night?" Jiang Chen took the little red dot on my left in his mouth unhurriedly, and fiddled with the other one with his right hand. Wei Wei wondered why she had to do so much foreplay for the third time.

"Ah... well... take it easy, it must be swollen... um... take it easy... ah~" I leaned tightly against the window, and I couldn't help panting.As for the possibility of being seen?This special glass is impossible to see from the outside, I am very relieved.

The crisp and numb feeling made me almost unable to breathe, I kept frowning and didn't dare to relax my body, until Jiang Chen suddenly pinched my right side.

"Ah! You... What are you doing?!" I glared at her, relying on Jiang Chen's indulgence to me recently, and said. "It hurts!"

"I didn't fall asleep just now." Jiang Chen stared at me, the focused eyes made me a little silly. "After doing it with me, you still call another woman's name? Huh?"

In the end, this uplifting tone successfully made my body tremble, so I hurriedly told the dream I had just had, and looked at Jiang Chen anxiously.Jiang Chen was also a little dazed after hearing this, but immediately reacted and patted my head. "It is said that dreams are reversed. Don't believe it. Besides, I won't do that to you."

"Pfft!" I suddenly couldn't help laughing out loud, how should I tell Jiang Chen that Lu Jingjing also told me what was only a few words away?In that case, Jiang Chen won't let me go to bed recently, right?

"what are you laughing at?!"

"Don't... um..." Seeing Jiang Chen's face darken, I tried to stop him vigilantly, but I was still pinched. "Why are you pinching again, it hurts!"

"Then what are you laughing at?" Jiang Chen let go of his hand and looked at the red and swollen little red dot and frowned. Before he got my answer, he bent down and gently hugged the little red dot, calming her patiently and gently.

I couldn't help but trembled, and the lie I planned in my heart was swallowed. "It's nothing, you just poked my itchy flesh."

Jiang Chen took a look at me and didn't care about it. I smiled smugly, thinking that it was because of this that I became more and more confident.It's just that when Jiang Chen's hand was stretched down to fiddle with it, I couldn't laugh anymore, because Jiang Chen was just circling and rubbing outside, but didn't go in, which made me weak all over, but I couldn't move over to let Jiang Chen in.

"What were you laughing at just now?" Although Jiang Chen's voice was a little hoarse, it still remained stable.

I whimpered and shook my head, not daring to hide anything further.Hurry up. "Lu Jingjing said something like this before, I just think it's a little funny, ah! You... um... don't move, um..."

Before I could speak, Jiang Chen's finger suddenly slipped in and poked the most sensitive part of me skillfully and nimbly, and then stopped moving.The ups and downs below are so clear, especially when Jiang Chen stops, I can feel every detail of Jiang Chen's fingers.In the past, Jiang Chen would always exercise slowly or quickly when he came in, but today, I feel more and more eager, and my body can't help trembling and twisting.

"Slap!" Jiang Chen suddenly slapped my butt with his other hand, and the fingers placed inside made me blush and almost cry.

"Jiang Chen...Jiang Chen...I was wrong...Don't be like this...It's so uncomfortable, woohoo, move, move." I finally couldn't help it, and begged Jiang Chen for forgiveness after two tears Hope she let me go.

"Where did you go wrong?" Jiang Chen asked me, and I quickly replied. "I shouldn't mention other women's names at this time, please forgive me, me, I dare not again."

Jiang Chen shook his head, but his fingers moved slowly, which made my heart skip a beat.

"You are wrong to compare me with that woman, Su Man, I will not break my word. Trust me."

I looked into Jiang Chen's eyes, her eyes were as bright and serious as before, I could almost see my reflection in such a dim light.The speed inside the body of the finger is getting faster and faster, I can't bear to cling to Jiang Chen's body, moaning and groaning uncontrollably.

After doing it, I can almost sleep standing up, and the comfortable feeling in my body spreads like a tide.I was leaning on Jiang Chen's not-so-broad shoulders in a daze, smelling the faint fragrance that belonged to Jiang Chen, and suddenly thought of 'scent to know a woman'.It is said that a light-smelling woman like Jiang Chen has very cold feelings.I sneered silently in my heart, missing my waist that hadn't been sore for a long time before.

Feeling Jiang Chen gently and firmly stroking my back, I yawned and closed my eyes completely.

Jiang Chen, I am willing to believe in you.I believe you will never go back on your word like Lu Jingjing and bring me any harm.