What to do if you have a crush on Party A

He changed his major in university and went to the School of Computer Science. After graduation, he became a member of the army of code farmers.At that time, he was very lucky to have a master of programming as a master.Great God, what other people can do in a week, he can do in three days.On Ming Zhen's first day at work, she followed the master until 10 o'clock in the evening - or the master thought that he had just left school and asked him to "leave work early".

Later, the master took on a project with a two-month deadline and stayed up for more than a dozen nights. A few days before the launch, due to overwork, he drove a small electric car and fell to the side of the road, breaking his right hand.In the end, the project failed to go online as scheduled.

There was an explosion in the company, and all kinds of criticisms came one after another. No one cared how urgent this project was at the beginning, and how the great master accepted the order under tremendous pressure.

The entire project cycle is obviously half a year. It took a month to discuss in the previous meeting, change the process and change the UI (interface design) for a month, overthrow and start again for another month, and the project approval schedule has gone for a month... Layer by layer Under the pressure, the small code farmers at the bottom bear the risk of delaying the entire project.

When Ming Zhen, who was new to the workplace, was struggling at work, a big event happened at home.His grandma was diagnosed with lung cancer, which was in the middle and advanced stages, and she had both left and right lungs, which could not be removed.

The four adults in the family are in a tangle.Grandma felt that she was in her 4s and almost 60, and half of her body was buried in the ground. She didn't want to bring down her family, so she chose to respond negatively.But Ming's father is very filial, so he naturally wants to heal and doesn't want to give up. Even if he gives up after trying, at least he can't leave a lifetime of regrets.

Ming's family is an ordinary family. Ming's father inquired about the expenses, calculated the funds at hand, and found that he couldn't last long, so he thought about selling the house he lives in now-this big four-bedroom house was It was bought with all the savings of my grandparents, and it is currently the most valuable asset.

Grandma naturally disagreed, saying that this house must be reserved for the grandson to marry a wife, so naturally it cannot be sold.Father Ming felt that the house was originally the money of the parents, and it had to be spent on the parents. Money was naturally not as important as life.In short, many parties have been unable to unify their opinions for a long time.

At that time, Mingzhen often received calls from her mother, and she heard the other party crying without saying a word.Ming's mother is a housewife with no opinions. She has no opinion on her husband's solution, but her ability to withstand stress is weak. She dare not complain to her husband at home for fear of putting him under greater pressure. She can only seek some comfort from her son.

In those two months, I was fine when I was working in a highly concentrated company. When I returned to the company dormitory, I looked at the four bare white walls and my mind was empty, and my thoughts were always turbulent.Thinking about all kinds of things, thinking about the imminent deadline, thinking about grandma always calling him to bring a girl back to have a look, and then thinking about Mai Wenche guiltily.

It started to be a constant nightmare, dreaming that Mai Wenche hugged him for a while and coaxed him, "We are all drunk, I don't blame you", and then pointed at him and scolded "I call you brother, you want to sleep with me?", and suddenly raised his hand again. Hold the knife and say sadly, "I will chop off the root of all your evils"......

Later, I began to suffer from insomnia all night long, lying on the bed tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.

There are always news of various sudden deaths in the Internet industry, and Ming Zhen is also afraid of his own sudden death, but he just can't fall asleep.

Only during the lunch break in the company at noon during the day, amidst the uninterrupted sound of keyboards and the haggard snoring of the team members, can he sleep peacefully for an hour.

Then it starts to get uncomfortable.

Chest tightness, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea.

There is still an old man who has not recovered from a serious illness at home, and now he seems to have something wrong with his body, and he is terrified.He asked for leave to see a doctor, and the doctor said that no problem could be found, it was ordinary acute gastroenteritis. He didn't believe it, and insisted on taking gastroscopy, colonoscopy, electrocardiogram, CT... After a series of examinations, there was still no problem.

Finally, I registered a comprehensive expert account, and the consultation opinions given were "nervous stomach pain", emotional illness, and stress response caused by excessive mental stress.After the expert prescribed some pain-relief drugs, he wrote the consultation opinion "recommended to see a psychologist" in the medical record.

He went back to the office with the medicine and saw that the master was debugging (diagnosing faults) with one hand while applying the ointment.

Since it is a psychological problem, it is always necessary to solve the psychological barrier.

Work—it’s a big deal not to do it.

McWenche—then don’t think about it.

Grandma - go back and talk!

After taking two days off, the family of five sat down to have a candid chat when they returned home. Ming Zhen put forward his own opinion——the house still has to be sold, and after the sale, it will be replaced with a second-hand small-area one, and the difference in price will be used for medical treatment.In terms of treatment expenses, a total amount is set that will not affect the follow-up life of other family members. If the money is spent and the cure is not cured, no further investment will be made, and the rest of the day will be left to fate.But before this figure is spent, grandma must actively cooperate with the treatment to make every penny worthwhile.

Ming Zhen's plan not only ensured that Ming's father would be filial without any regrets, but also solved grandma's fear that she would bring down the family. Everyone discussed and discussed, and finally agreed.After coming to this conclusion, it was obvious that grandma was also happy, and she said that she would take medicine and cooperate well, and strive to see Ming Zhen marry her granddaughter-in-law and hold her eldest grandson.

After returning to the company, he devoted himself wholeheartedly to the project, and planned to resign after the project was completed. .The important thing is that he has firmly established a belief that he should never run away from anything again, at least be cautious in the beginning and end well.

After the project was officially launched and accepted, Ming Zhen resigned.In the fitness group I just joined, someone was talking about Internet trends. With the mentality of trying different industries while he was young, he turned around and plunged into MCN Media.

His emotional experience in the past 4 years is simply lacklustre.At the beginning, I still miss Mak Wenche, and I miss others so much that I can't bear others, and I also dream about him, and the same dreams as before.

Fortunately, although there are occasional nightmares, I have never had nervous stomach pain again, and I can barely support it.

Later, after learning from the painful experience, he could no longer focus on Mai Wenche, so he paralyzed himself and devoted himself to his work.When many people first enter the workplace, because of too little social experience, the first job is often not necessarily the best choice in life.Everyone's career basically goes through some stages: don't know what you want to do, know what you don't want to do, and know what you want to do.As for Ming Zhen's career, she was relatively lucky, and went through these three stages very quickly.

The hard work he put in did not betray him. Mingzhen grew up very fast in those two years. He has good data analysis ability, flexible and smart mind, and planning in doing things. Be a project leader.Started to receive praise from Party A's father for being reliable, and even a little famous in the industry.

In the workplace, especially the MCN media company, which has a lot of leather bag companies, it can be said that it is a very high evaluation to be commented as "reliable in doing things".

At that time, when he received his salary every month, he would send half of it back to his dad to reduce the burden on his parents.Two years later, grandma passed away in the end, but it was considered a stable life, and she walked with dignity.It's just that in the remaining few days, Ming Zhen went home and sat on the head of the dry old man's bed. The other party kept regretting that he could not see his grandson-in-law, which made Ming Zhen very sad.

The old man who was having a hard time holding a box in his hand was a pair of gold bracelets and a gold necklace. He said that these were her newly made gold ornaments, which were left for his granddaughter-in-law in the future. They were not expensive things, but he just wanted to save some Give her valuable possessions, "If a girl from another family marries our Ming family to carry on the family line, we can't treat her badly."

The old man's thoughts are still traditional and outdated, and his wishes are simple and simple, and there is nothing worthy of criticism.However, it was these few words that caused Ming Zhen to cry until his vision blurred.

But I, in this life, will not be able to succeed the Ming family.

And this gold jewellery, probably no one will be able to give it away again.

However, he can only hide all the words in his heart, not revealing even a single word.

He couldn't break an old man's beautiful vision when she was dying, but he felt extremely guilty because of his concealment.

That night Ming Zhen hid in her room and cried until she couldn't help herself.

Then, he began to miss McWenche crazily.He had deleted Mai Wenche's contact information a long time ago, but because of his damned excellent number memory ability, he knew the string of numbers by heart.

He pressed the 11-digit number with trembling hands, and after a few seconds of waiting for the tone, he heard a familiar voice on the phone that he had been dreaming about for a long time: "Hello——"

He held the mobile phone motionless, and the cold mobile phone was pressed against his ear.He didn't say a word until he checked "Can you hear me?" "Who is it?" "Is the signal so bad?" After that, he finally hung up.

On the day he left City A, he was in a calm mood, but now he was in so much pain that he regretted it unceasingly. Why...why did he take advantage of other people's danger and do such a stupid thing.

After her grandma was buried, Ming Zhen drew up the wording and materials, and prepared to find an opportunity to come out to her family.He knows that this will bring about earth-shaking changes in the family, but he knows that this kind of thing cannot be hidden for a lifetime.He can take his time and let the family slowly accept it.

That night Ming's father was drinking alone in the middle of the night, Ming's mother was worried, so she had to let Ming Zhen sit by him and let him watch.

After a few glasses of alcohol, Ming's father suddenly said with red eyes, "People say that there are no filial sons in front of the long-term hospital bed. I only stayed there for two years. When your grandma died, I was actually relieved."

Everyone carries different bags when they live in the world, some are light, some are heavy, some are big, some are small.Ming Zhen watched her father put down his luggage, and suddenly wanted to put down hers too.

So, at this time, he confessed the secret of his liking for men, and also bluntly said that he would live up to his grandma's beautiful vision of inheriting the family.

Father Ming may be really sad, he no longer has the strength to be angry, and he accepts this incident quite peacefully.

The whole room was so quiet that a needle could be heard falling, and finally it was enveloped in the smoke of Father Ming's silence.After a long time, he put out his cigarette and said in a hoarse voice, "That's fine, you don't have to think about getting married or not."

After speaking, he got up and prepared to leave.

Just walking away for two steps, he turned around and said, "Don't talk about your grandfather, the old man can't accept it. Don't talk about your mother, women don't understand farts, and they just know how to cry all day long."

The Ming family is a typical family with strong men and weak women. He always felt that his father was usually unsmiling, not close enough, and too masculine. At that moment, he felt even more guilty. This taciturn man was the pillar of the family. It was easy, but my father took all the pressure alone.

He came out of the closet without any warning or foreshadowing. The way he did it was wrong. It should be gradual and infiltrated slowly.He really shouldn't pass all the pressure on to his father for his own peace of mind.In the final analysis, he was too irresponsible.

Ming Zhen grew up suddenly at this moment, because he understood what "responsibility" means.

That night, lying on his bed, he felt unprecedentedly relaxed.Then, on a sudden whim, I turned on the phone and entered "how many years in prison for raping a man".

After seeing that raping a man is not counted as "rape", it is only counted as the crime of forced indecency or intentional injury, and the sentence is lighter than "rape", Mingzhen breathed a sigh of relief.

Then he was ashamed of himself for being so relieved.

How can I be so despicable?

However, the sound sleep that night let him know that he let go of the fear of walking on thin ice, and let go of the knots that have entangled him for many years. ///