What to do if you have a crush on Party A

Four years ago, he was very reconciled. Even if he convinced himself that "disloyalty" would cost him 200 points, and when he was occasionally vulnerable in the dead of night, he still wanted to call and wanted a reasonable explanation.

However, no one will ever reply to WeChat, and no one will ever answer the phone.In modern society, the bond between people is so fragile that you only need to turn off your mobile phone to lose contact.Three months later, when he called again, it showed that the phone had been shut down, and Mai Wenche finally admitted the fact that Ming Zhen had disappeared from his life.

Going around all these years, Mai Wenche's love luck is actually not very smooth.

He had wondered several times whether it was because of his lack of fatherly love and somewhat Electra complex that he was particularly dependent on this kind of person who could take care of him, and that's why he liked Ming Zhen.

So, after Ming Zhen died without a problem, he met a mature, stable, uncle-type successful mature man ten years older than him.I still met through Wen Xian, but Wen Xian introduced him to him purely out of the idea of ​​expanding the circle.

The uncle is gentle and considerate in life, and takes care of others in every possible way; in the workplace, he can give advice and teach the rules of the workplace.In addition, it was another period of emotional fragility, and Mai Wenche soon fell in love with the silent tenderness of the other party.

However, he frantically discovered that the other party was not only married and had children, but also had other lovers besides himself.This made him very angry and pulled away decisively, and then he realized that he was not looking for a substitute for fatherly love, what he longed for was an equal, loyal, mutual love.

So after being spotted by Wen Xian, Mai Wenche confessed his sexual orientation.When Wen Xian heard that this man was actually a scumbag to his brother, no matter what partner he was with, he made a phone call and yelled at that man, and finally blocked him directly - of course, this was also because Wen Xian was young at that time , the blood is young, it won't be handled like this now.

Later, Mai Wenche met Ding Yuze.

He and Ding Yuze seem to be evenly matched, but in fact he is not the one who can handle tasks with ease.

Ding Yuze is very interesting. He is a person with a rich spiritual world. It seems that Mai Wenche will never be able to enter his world.He was happy all the time, never lonely, didn't need cuddles, and seemed to be able to do everything by himself except sex.

Ding Yuze loves freedom more than love.After Ding Yuze once again said which country he was going to travel and would leave for more than four months, Mai Wenche finally broke up.

He just wants the kind of love that is valued and cared about by others. He just wants a stable and simple life.

Wen Xian seldom intervened in his feelings, but he couldn't help but put his arms around him after drinking and persuaded him earnestly, saying buddy, everyone is a man, and we all know that a man is not a good thing, so we can't find a woman Are you having a good time?Why do you like men?Men don't even have a heart, so what can we do when we get old?

But Mai Wenche...doesn't know what to do.Let’s talk about old things when you are old. When you are young...it is definitely right to make more money.

He went through the information, and some psychologists believed that an overly strong mother would easily raise the boys in the family to be gay.There are some opinions in the society that too much contact with the fashion, film and entertainment industry will lower the bottom line of acceptance, and it is easy to turn a man into a gay.Life, environment, and experience can all change a person's aesthetics.

Mai Wenche couldn't decide whether he was born or changed after all.

After the breakup, he was depressed by himself for a while. At a certain moment in the dead of night, as if he was blessed to his soul, he finally realized that the previous self attributed all the troubles and pains to the original family, which was actually an excuse for his own inaction.

If he is still a child, he can blame and complain, after all, he has no ability; but he is an adult, an adult with independent financial and independent personality, he can analyze himself, heal himself, and tear the net that traps him by himself. Come out instead of expecting someone to save you.

He has always been emotionally passive and likes others to treat him well.In psychology, there is a saying called the love compensation effect, which means that if people find that someone likes them, they will also unconsciously develop a good impression of the other person.Looking back at the previous few paragraphs of ambiguity, it was because the other party was chasing closely, and I fell into it.

The more you talk about love to get rid of loneliness, the less you can give the warmth of love; the more emotionally empty you want to be loved, the less you can meet the right person.

After realizing this point clearly, he finally walked out of two failed love affairs.

When he met Ming Zhen again, he felt a little resentment at first. He hated leaving without saying goodbye, and even despised the other party's disloyalty.

Now, he heard a puzzling statement from Du Pei.

First time at home?

Didn't Ming Zhen and Tao Lirui go to have a room that day—maybe it's not the first time he and Tao Lirui went to have a room?Or... is it the first time with yourself?

like an angel?

Why do you feel like this description is talking about yourself? ——Uh, could he have said the same thing to Tao Lirui?

But... the one you like?Seniors from the same school?Mai Wenche couldn't help but take a seat.

However, after self-substitution, doubts abounded, I would not pretend to be sentimental.

Mai Wenche stood at the door with a cigarette between his hands, while Ming Zhen was playing games with someone inside, his eyes glanced out casually, quickly stayed on him for a while, and then moved away.

How can those concerned eyes be faked?

McWenche didn't believe it.

It's decided, he's going to ask.

After pinching the cigarette, Mai Wenche turned and walked towards the box.

Mai Wenche is well versed in the little tricks of provoking people, relying on innocent and interested eyes and eyes, and secondly relying on seemingly inadvertent physical contact.There were people sitting on both sides of Ming Zhen, so he picked a seat opposite Ming Zhen, and looked at him with a smile on purpose, but the latter turned his eyes away under his straightforward gaze.

They were playing poker, when Mai Wenche suddenly asked, "Is Manager Ming calling for a driver? Where do you live, can you give me a ride?"

Ming Zhen replied that it was Chunhui Garden.

"What? I can't hear you clearly?" Not only did Mai Wenche hear it clearly, but he had already followed the car to that old community, but he pretended not to hear it.

The people next to him repeated "Chunhui Garden" loudly, Mai Wenche pointed to his ears, and said with a smile: "The sound outside is too loud, my ears are ringing—" He stood up very naturally while speaking Turn around, and walk towards the opposite Ming Zhen.Originally he was the leader of the two companies, and it was natural for him to move in one go. The person sitting next to Ming Zhen saw him coming and tactfully gave up some space, and Mai Wenche sat next to Ming Zhen.

He pretended to ask the answer, and after listening, he said: "Chunhui Garden, it's not too far from where I live. Then let me go."

Sitting like that, Mai Wenche naturally joined the game next to Ming Zhen.

After playing a few rounds of card games, Ming Zhen said that he needed to go to the bathroom, and Mai Wenche excused himself to smoke a cigarette, and the two left the box one after another.

When Ming Zhen came out of the toilet, he saw Mai Wenche leaning against the door smoking a cigarette. The other party knocked off the ash familiarly and asked him, "Do you smoke?"

Ming Zhen shook her head, then hesitated a bit, whether to continue standing here or go back to the box directly.However, before he continued to hesitate, Mai Wenche said again: "Shall we chat for a while? I just drank too much, and I feel a little dizzy."

Naturally, Ming Zhen wouldn't let the drunk Mai Wenche stand here alone, and stood up without saying a word.

"You don't smoke or drink, how do you do business?" Mai Wenche slowly took a breath.

On the stage, the male lead singer of the band was singing Eason Chan's "It's Better Not to See". It was a relatively soft song, not too noisy, but Mingzhen kept a strict social distance, and Mak Wenche didn't deliberately raise the volume, so he was "ah" in a daze After a while, I didn't hear clearly.

Mai Wenche had to get closer, the hand holding the cigarette almost touched Ming Zhen's arm on the railing, and then asked again.

Ming Zhen replied: "I'm not used to it."

"Didn't you drink well before? Why are you allergic to alcohol?" Mai Wenche continued to ask casually, as if a little drunk, with a trace of sleepy laziness in his whole body.

"I'm not allergic to alcohol, I just don't want to drink anymore."

"why?"

"Yeah... not in good health." Ming Zhen answered with a straight face, like a primary school student answering a teacher's question.

The band on the stage sang: [The more I long to meet and then find out/The ten years in between]

Mai Wenche hooked half of the corner of his mouth, was distracted by the lyrics, and suddenly asked: "Why didn't you tell me when you went to City B?"

This is the two months since the two reunited, the first time they mentioned their separation from four years ago.Ever since we met, Ming Zhen has been worried and afraid to touch any questions related to the past. However, two months is long enough, so long that he has rehearsed the answer many times in his heart. Answer directly: "City B has an offer."

"Then you can also tell me, why didn't you tell me after the offer passed." Mai Wenche continued to ask without hesitation.

【The smiling face I want to see / I only miss / I don’t know how to chat again】

After finally waiting for this question, Ming Zhen answered impeccably: "At that time, I hadn't joined the job yet and was not stable. I thought I would tell others when I was stable. Friends, is it normal to separate after graduation? The people in our dormitory graduated Afterwards, all over the world—"

"Friend?" Mai Wenche picked out the word emphatically, and asked with a smile, "So you still consider me a friend?"

Ming Zhen automatically translated this rhetorical question into a question like "You treat me as a friend and dare to take off my pants".

Even though he had planned the answer long ago, his throat moved for a long while, but he was still nervous: "I..." Mai Wenche could break his psychological defense line with a word, and let him throw away his armor with a single expression.

The cigarette butts on the fingertips finally burned out, and there was no light. Mai Wenche looked at him with melancholy: "I have known him for so many years, and such a good friend suddenly left without saying goodbye. I am still very sad."

【Like I didn't smoke in the past / I don't know how you changed】

The light in the bar was dim, even if the two of them stood close, Mai Wenche's expression was still unclear, but Mingzhen grasped the delicate and subtle emotions in the conversation—this tone didn't seem to be asking questions.

Did Mai Wenche get drunk and forget?Or did he simply not know?A glimmer of hope rose from the bottom of my heart.

【Like waiting for 100 years/Suddenly understood】

Because he was too nervous, he didn't know what to say, and quickly said the excuse that had been brewing for several years: "I was drunk that night, and I don't remember anything."

Finally uttering these words, Ming Zhen's nerves were so tense that his palms seemed to be sweating, and he gently clenched his fists.

"Drunk" is a man's fig leaf, and all mistakes can be attributed to alcohol.

[Even if we meet again/perform maturely/it’s better not to see each other]

Before he even asked, the other party insisted that he didn't remember - so Ming Zhen didn't want to admit what happened that night?

Mai Wenche is also a man himself, and he hears too many excuses for being drunk and having sex.All the people who claim to be drunk and have sex are not really drunk. A small amount of alcohol can help sex, but if a large amount of alcohol gets drunk, they can't even raise their weapons, but they can't mess with sex.He really wanted to sneer and say "You're fucking drunk and show me", but in the end he kept silent and laughed in his heart.

It is true that he and Ming Zhen haven't seen each other for several years, and they don't know what everyone has experienced in these years. The two of them are just like the song sang, and the years between them have made each other do not know how to chat. Even if they meet again, they are performing maturely.Time and distance have created various barriers between people. If you ask shallow questions, you will not get answers, and if you ask deep questions, you may lose the relationship.

But no matter what, Mak Wenche couldn't conclude that "it's better not to see".

He slowly pressed the cigarette butt on the wall-mounted ashtray on the wall of the bar, comforting himself, whether it is urgent or not, maybe now is not the right time to talk.So he continued, "I also drank too much that night. When I woke up the next day, I thought you had gone back to school. I didn't expect to hear that you went to City B."

Ming Zhen didn't dare to ask him who told him that he went to City B, but he felt his heart beating fast after hearing Mai Wenche say "I drank too much that night".So what does it mean?Was he really drunk?

This side is still going through the ups and downs of thoughts, and the other side continues to ask: "Didn't you say that after graduation, you will be everywhere, and where are your roommates?"

Ming Zhen quickly put away her subtle joy, and went back to whoever returned to her hometown, whoever stayed in City A, and whoever lost contact.

Mai Wenche seemed to be listening seriously, and after listening, he seemed to ask casually: "Didn't you have a friend before, what was his name, Tao, Tao Lirui? Yes, where does Tao Lirui work?"

He saw that Ming Zhen was obviously startled when he heard this name, and then replied: "I...don't know."

"No contact either?"

"En." Ming Zhen lowered her head in response.

Mai Wenche couldn't ask further questions, so he changed the subject: "The spirit bird is in the probation stage, you and I have been classmates for so many years, I have to avoid suspicion and be strict with you, so as to avoid people in the company saying that I am favoritism .Now that the contract has been signed, everyone will work together in the future.” After speaking, he laughed, “Many businessmen, the more familiar they are, the more ruthless they are. I believe you will not cheat me, right?”

Ming Zhen was stunned at first, then ecstatic, so he was deliberately avoiding suspicion before?As if making a guarantee, I wish I could swear with three fingers: "No way!"

"What are you doing with such a serious expression? It feels like I'm lecturing."

"You—" Ming Zhen said a rare joke, "You are Party A's father!"

"Sure! Remember to send Party A's father home tonight!" Mai Wenche also relaxed rarely, with a smile on his brows and eyes, and said, "I'm tired, let's go back, go around!"

Ming Zhen looked at him with dark eyes, which seemed to be pulsing with light, and replied neatly: "Mm!"