what are you blushing

95

Ever since Jiang Yuan could remember, he had been living in that small world.It was a small house, and he lived with a good-looking person, who had soft ears and tail like him, and had a faint, bitter smell on his body.

The man said his name was Big Rabbit.

"Then I'll be called Little Rabbit!" Jiang Yuan said with a smile.

"Your name is not Little Rabbit," Big Rabbit smiled softly, with gentle eyes, "Your name is Jiang Yuan, this is your name."

"Jiang Yuan—" Jiang Yuan repeated with a dragging voice.

"Well, Jiang Yuan." The big rabbit took a pen and wrote his name on the paper, "Look, Jiang—Yuan—, your name is written like this, do you want to try?"

Jiang Yuan took his pen and held it in his hand.

"That's not how the pen is held." Big Rabbit still smiled, held his hand, and corrected him patiently.Then Jiang Yuan traced his strokes in a decent manner, and wrote the two characters that were light and crooked.

"Why is my writing not as good-looking as yours?" Jiang Yuan compared the writing of the two people.

"I'm not used to writing at the beginning, but if you write a lot, you will develop your own style." The big rabbit rubbed his head.

Jiang Yuan wrote it again, and said happily: "What about your name? I want to write your name too!"

"My name..." Big Rabbit smiled, and wrote three more words on the paper: Big Rabbit.

Jiang Yuan wrote these three characters like a cat drawing a tiger.

The big rabbit wrote a few more words on the paper, and said softly: "These two words are Dad."

"Dad—Dad—" Jiang Yuan followed up softly.

"Yeah." The big rabbit smiled softly, and pointed to the next one, "This is uncle."

"uncle--"

"This is brother."

"elder brother--"

Every time he said one, Jiang Yuan slowly wrote down those two words on the paper.

"Speaking of which, Yuanyuan still has an older brother." The big rabbit said with his eyes bent, as if recalling some good memories, and smiled extraordinarily softly.

"Is Yuanyuan older brother?" Jiang Yuan raised his head and asked him.

"Well, yes." Big Rabbit rubbed his head, "If there is a chance for you to meet, he will definitely like you very much."

"Really?" Jiang Yuan leaned back, hugged him and said happily, "Then I will like him as much as I like you!"

Big Rabbit taught him how to write and read, and told him stories, so Jiang Yuan liked him very much.

The big rabbit told him that the place where they lived was a laboratory, and occasionally other children would live in, but they were quickly picked up. In this small laboratory, there were only the two of them all year round.But there was a young man who came to visit them every few days. Jiang Yuan didn't know him, and the big rabbit told him to stay away from that man.

Although the big rabbit has been living with him, but the big rabbit is not always by his side.Sometimes the bitter herbal smell on the big rabbit's body will suddenly become stronger, the body will become very hot, and the face will turn red.Jiang Yuan would touch his hot forehead and ask him if he was sick, but Big Rabbit just shook his head.

Every time this happened, that man would appear and take the big rabbit away.When he came back again, Big Rabbit was always very weak, with red marks all over his body.

"Does it hurt?" Jiang Yuan asked, "I'll blow it on you." As he spoke, Jiang Yuan gently blew on the red mark on his hand.

"It doesn't hurt, don't worry." The big rabbit smiled and rubbed his head lightly.

That man also often sent some things, sometimes flowers, sometimes cakes, sometimes story books... But the big rabbit just smiled lightly, not particularly happy.However, these things are novel to Jiang Yuan, and he can be happy with these novel things for several days every time.

One day the man brought a large bouquet of flowers, bright red and delicate, and very fragrant.

"Do you like it?" Big Rabbit asked him.

"I like it! Huahua is very beautiful!"

"It's called a rose." The big rabbit smiled softly, took out a few roses from the big bouquet, took a pair of scissors to scrape off the thorns on the roses, and handed the flowers to him.

"Rose—rose—" Jiang Yuan held the rose with both hands, put it to the tip of his nose and smelled it, it was very fragrant and sweet.

He was full of joy and carefully cared for these roses.But the big rabbit just put the big bouquet of roses on the ground beside the bed, and sometimes stared at the roses blankly, with a hint of sadness in his eyes.

"Aren't you happy?" Jiang Yuan hugged him and buried his head in his arms, "You seem to be unhappy all the time, I'll hug you and be happy soon!"

The big rabbit also hugged him, and said softly: "I'm not unhappy... It should be a pity. It's a pity that such a beautiful rose is placed here, silently waiting to wither."

"Is it a pity? What is a pity?" Jiang Yuan raised his head and asked seriously, "I don't know, but I have seen a rose! It is really beautiful, I am very happy!"

The big rabbit touched his head and smiled, and said: "Seeing you happy makes me happy too."

At that time, Jiang Yuan didn't understand, how can a person who belongs to freedom be happy when he is imprisoned in a small world?

He took care of those roses carefully every day, but the roses without roots still withered slowly day after day.

But the big rabbit seemed to be getting more and more sleepy, and he talked less and less day by day. Most of the time, he just sat quietly in a daze.

At that age, Jiang Yuan couldn't read his eyes.The eyes of the big rabbit were very clean, as if filled with a vast sea, but these eyes gradually lost their spirit and gentle smile, gradually lost their emotions, and became quiet, like a calm pool of water in autumn - at that time Jiang Yuan didn't understand, but later he understood that the calmness like stagnant water was quietly and silently waiting for death.

The day he left was just the most ordinary night, Jiang Yuan lay beside him and buried his head in his arms.

Until late at night, Jiang Yuan was awakened by his calling.

"Yuanyuan..."

Jiang Yuan opened his eyes in a daze, and with the help of the night light, he saw the big rabbit frowning, his lips were pale, and he seemed to be in pain.

"Yuanyuan..." He called again.

"I'm here." Jiang Yuan responded softly, "Did you have a nightmare?"

"Yuanyuan...my child, what should I do..." The big rabbit choked up, and Jiang Yuan saw some liquid flowing from his confinement eyes.

"Don't cry, don't cry." Jiang Yuan said softly, reached out to hug him, and gently followed his back again and again, "The nightmare will pass soon!"

Children don't understand what pain is, they only know that it may be better to sleep and wake up.

But when he woke up, the person lying beside him was still lying beside him, but his face was terribly pale.Jiang Yuan touched his hand, it was cold.

"Your hands are so cold." Jiang Yuan pulled up the quilt, covered his hands, trying to warm him with his own body temperature.

But no matter how you covered it, it was cold. Jiang Yuan felt a little flustered for no reason. While covering his hand, he asked, "Are you asleep? It's dawn, it's time to get up!"

But no matter how he called, the big rabbit was still lying on the bed quietly.He had no choice but to get out of bed by himself, ate a dry piece of bread, and then lay back on the bed, hugging the big rabbit.

Until the long-haired man took him away, Jiang Yuan didn't realize that it was the last time they saw each other.

When he was young, he didn't know how to say goodbye. He thought that the big rabbit was just taken away by that man like before, and would come back to accompany him in a few days.So even if he was alone, he still ate and slept obediently as usual, thinking that when the big rabbit came back, he must praise himself.

But the big rabbit never came back.

The days suddenly became quiet and slowed down, as if time had been stopped and stood still.In this closed space, he was alone most of the time, and no one talked to him. Jiang Yuan took the storybook left by the big rabbit and read it to himself over and over again every day.

He also practiced the words that the big rabbit taught him to write every day, and sometimes copied the words in the book. He could write a lot of words, but they were still crooked and not in shape, but there were a few words that he wrote the best. Well, that's "Big Rabbit."

Sometimes other people come here too, kids around his age.Jiang Yuan didn't know why they appeared here, he just felt very happy because someone could talk to him, and he could sit beside them and tell them stories in a decent manner.

One day a strange child came to the laboratory, no matter how Jiang Yuan talked to him, he just looked at him quietly with those dark and deep eyes, without responding a word.

"You are so strange, how can someone not like to talk?" Jiang Yuan couldn't figure it out, but he didn't mind, "Then listen to me! I'll tell you a story!"

Jiang Yuan wondered that the child didn't like to talk, and even wondered that he didn't eat. Jiang Yuan gave him half of his own food, but he remained indifferent from the beginning to the end.

"Aren't you hungry? This is a cake. It's delicious. It's my favorite food! I rarely get it. Try it. It's really delicious. I won't lie to you." Jiang Yuan said The cake was handed to him, but he just glanced at it, then turned his back to Jiang Yuan.

"Okay." Jiang Yuan put the cake away, "Are you going to take a nap?" Jiang Yuan covered him with a quilt, and lay down beside him, "Good afternoon."

But as soon as he fell asleep, he slept for most of the day. Jiang Yuan divided half of his dinner, and he couldn't wake him up no matter how much he yelled.Jiang Yuan raised his hand to pat him gently, but touched his cold skin.

——The body temperature is the same as that of a big rabbit, and the face is as pale as a big rabbit.

Jiang Yuan's heart suddenly "thumped", and he went over to cover his hand, and wrapped the quilt tightly around his body.

"Aren't you awake yet?" Jiang Yuan lay beside him, looking at him with perfect eyes.

"It will be dark soon, if you don't wake up, you will sleep for a whole day!" Jiang Yuan said with a calm voice.

But the people around him still didn't respond. Jiang Yuan hugged him, and the picture of living with the big rabbit was played back frame by frame in his mind. down.

"Are you leaving too? Are you leaving me too?" Even though they had only been together for two days, even though he hadn't said a word to him, Jiang Yuan still felt sad from the bottom of his heart, and there was a deep feeling sense of powerlessness.

When he was taken away, Jiang Yuan stuffed the unopened cake into his arms.

Jiang Yuan returned to the days when he ate alone and slept alone.He originally thought that a person's life might not be too difficult for him, as long as he got used to it, but whenever he talked to himself in the air alone, his nose still couldn't help panting.

How hard must a human heart be to remain unmoved in endless loneliness?

Jiang Yuan didn't know, he seemed to have been in this place for a long, long time, so long that he seemed unable to perceive the passage of time, so long that he couldn't remember what the big rabbit looked like.

The person who would rub his head with a gentle smile is slowly disappearing from his mind bit by bit.

Jiang Yuan wrote the words "Big Rabbit" all over the white paper, and tried desperately to recall, but he could only remember his vague outline.

Just when he thought he might spend his whole life in the lab, the long-haired man appeared.Since Big Rabbit left, Jiang Yuan rarely saw him again.

Before losing consciousness, he seemed to hear the person whispering: "This should be the last time, and you will be able to go out soon..."

When he woke up again, his world became pitch black.At first he thought it was just dark, and after repeatedly pressing the light switch, he told himself that it was just a power outage. It wasn't until after waiting for a long time, when someone brought him breakfast, that he realized that he really couldn't see. .

But he's been here for too long, and everything in the lab has been imprinted in his heart, so he just rubbed his wet eyes and told himself to accept the fact.

But soon, someone opened the door of the laboratory, and Jiang Yuan realized that the words he heard were not illusions.

He was taken to a place, but he didn't know where it was because he couldn't see it.Someone who claimed to be his uncle took him home.

In that home, he smelled the familiar smell again, it was the smell of the person who told him stories many years ago and would rub his head with a gentle smile.

So he got into the small closet, groped to tear off all the clothes on the hangers, and wrapped them around himself, letting the faint pheromone wrap himself, as if that person was still there, still by his side .

He didn't know how long he sat in the closet until he heard the soft opening of the door and someone entered the room.

After a moment of silence, someone called softly: "Jiang Yuan?"

Then the closet was opened, and that pleasant voice called again: "Jiang Yuan."

who is it?

Not uncle, not aunt, not a voice I've heard before.

Jiang Yuan shrank back subconsciously.

"Yuanyuan?" A gentle and friendly voice came in. It was the voice of Aunt Meng that he had heard before.

"Xiao Chuan is here too." Bu Mengchuan picked him up and patted his back lightly, "Why did you hide in the closet? Did you want to play hide-and-seek with your aunt? It was my brother just now, don't be afraid Yuan Yuan , Brother is not fierce at all."

It's brother.

Jiang Yuan said in his heart.

——"Speaking of which, Yuanyuan still has an older brother."

He remembered what Big Rabbit said.

—— "Is Yuanyuan your older brother?"

——"Well, yes. If there is a chance for you to meet, he will definitely like you very much."

——"Really? Then I will like him as much as I like you!"

It's brother.

After so many years, they finally met, but the person who said he would take him to see his brother one day was gone forever.