what are you blushing

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For many years after that, I missed that summer very much, that simple, warm and bright summer.What would it be like now if we hadn't been separated in those years?I don't know, but I know that if we have not separated, my youth must be perfect without regret.

The years I missed with him are the biggest regrets of my life.

In the freshman year of high school, Aunt Wei was diagnosed with cancer and had a tumor in his brain, and he became haggard all of a sudden. After hearing the news, when I saw him, his clean eyes could not hide the exhaustion , the eye sockets are red, and there are faint dark circles under the eyes.

When I held him, I found that he had lost weight again. He must have not eaten well.He buried his head on my shoulder, and I could feel him trembling slightly.

But I don't know how to comfort him. I don't have any position to say what he wants to hear most now-"It's okay, Aunt Wei will be fine", because I am not a doctor, and I dare not say such words Hope.

So I can only hug him and touch his back gently.

After that day, he ran back and forth between the school and the hospital every day, and I would follow him.Aunt Wei should have seen our relationship. One day, Aunt Wei paid him out and asked him to buy some fruit near the downstairs of the hospital.

After he left, Aunt Wei smiled kindly at me and said, "You two are together now."

Not a question, but a statement of affirmation.

I nodded, she smiled again, then looked out of the window, and said after a while: "Maybe the time I can spend with them is running out, I know you really like Luming too. Although a bit selfish and abrupt, but I still hope that after I leave, you can spend more time with him, comfort him more, and don't make him so sad..."

Aunt Wei talked a lot, until he came back with a bag of fruit, I was still in a daze.He sat on the edge of the bed and quietly peeled an apple, his hands seemed to be shaking.

"Go and rest for a while." Uncle Xie came in with a rice insulated bucket and asked me to rest with him.He stubbornly refused to go, I looked at his dark circles, and gently squeezed his hand, "Rest first, don't tire yourself out, and finally Uncle Xie will be distracted to take care of you."

He just nodded and walked out of the ward with me.But he refused to leave, so we sat on the public chairs in the corridor outside the ward.

He leaned on my shoulder, closed his eyes, and said with some sobs: "I'm so scared..."

I held his shoulders, and interlocked his fingers with the other hand. His hand was cold, and I could only comfort him over and over again. Other than that, I seemed to be unable to do anything.

You see, everyone thinks that alpha is excellent, alpha is omnipotent, everyone hopes to be a high-quality alpha, but alpha is not omnipotent, and I can't even play a role at this time.

Maybe it was too tired, he fell asleep on my shoulder soon, I touched his head, and then kissed his forehead, I caught a glimpse of a familiar figure from the corner of my eye, when I looked up again, But there was no one there.

I thought I was wrong - in fact, I really hope I was wrong.

After I got home, the whole family sat neatly in the living room to welcome me. As soon as I entered the door, they all looked at me with serious expressions, and I suddenly had a bad consciousness.

"Tell me, are you with that beta who often plays with you?" the old man said with a cold face.

"Don't deny it, Jiaming saw it with his own eyes, otherwise how long do you want to keep it from us?"

"It has nothing to do with my aunt, right?" I glanced at her.I didn’t like my aunt very much since I was a child. Once when I was young, I took Kong Jiaming out to play and bought some snacks for him on the way. When I turned around, I found that this brat was bullying a little girl. I taught him a lesson. This brat went home to complain, and she gave me a scolding indiscriminately.

"Oh, what are you talking about, kid? What do you mean it has nothing to do with me? I'm thinking of you too! We're not concerned about your puppy love right now. If you're with an omega, we won't What will you say, but the problem is, he is a beta! What can you do if you are with him!? You won’t even have children!”

"Isn't it just what my aunt wants to have no children?" I said coldly.

I saw Kong Jiaming standing on the stairs, one side of his face was blushing, and there was a faint slap mark, staring at me full of resentment.

It seems that the familiar figure I caught a glimpse of in the hospital was indeed his fault, and he probably thought he could use this to get me out of the way, and told the old man about it directly, but his aunt found out afterwards, He was slapped in the face—because if he didn't say it, what Auntie said was correct, Alpha and Beta would not have children, so maybe the inheritance of the Kong family would eventually fall into his hands.

But Kong Jiaming never seemed to think that much. He only thought of taking down me if he got the chance, and he didn't know why he was so malicious towards me.

"Okay, don't say a few words!" The smelly old man motioned her to stop talking, then looked at me again, and said with a serious face: "But what your aunt said is not wrong, if you are with an omega, we will I won’t interfere too much, but you are with a beta, what’s the matter with you? I know you are close to him, but a friend is a friend, you can’t fall in love impulsively just because you think you have a good relationship with him? You Let’s be honest, if you’re just playing around, I don’t care about you!”

"I'm serious with him, even if he's a beta, I'll recognize him." That's all I said.I think differently from them. They think that alpha should be with omega. They think that family inheritance is the first priority of marriage, followed by happiness.

That's what they identify with, and that's who I identify with.In the worst case, they will stand in a stalemate with each other without giving in.

I thought that as long as Yoyo and I did not compromise, they would have nothing to do with us, but in the end I overestimated myself and our relationship which was still too young.

I didn't expect that my aunt would go to Yoyo, she said, he is not good enough for me, she said my future is bright and promising, that I will meet someone better, she said that alpha and beta are together , is itself an error.

If she had been at any other time, perhaps this result would not have been the case, but it happened when Aunt Wei was seriously ill.I know that he is already very tired, and he is also suffering from heavy sadness in his heart. If it were me, I might not be able to accept such a blow.

So when he told me to separate, I was not surprised, but I was still very sad, why two people who obviously like each other can't always be together as they wish.And he was cruel enough to leave without any hesitation.

During the period after he left, I was in a trance, as if he hadn't left, as if he was still by my side-I think I should be in a daze, otherwise why would I be so confused when buying soda? I bought a bottle of strawberry-flavored soda; when I encountered a difficult problem, I would subconsciously take detailed notes; on a rainy day, I couldn’t resist walking to another classroom with an umbrella...

We almost grew up together, he left too many traces in my life, is the most intense color in my life, no one can replace him.

In the past, I thought that as long as the two of us stayed together, we would have endless conversations and quarrels. Linchuan always thought the two of us were noisy, but now there is only wordless silence left.

We were separated for one year, two years, three years... a total of six years, when I thought about it carefully, I suddenly found that I couldn't remember what I did in the past few years, it was obviously a life that was repeated every day, But there is no impression.

My memory, my life, is the most vivid only when he is around.