what are you blushing

16

"Compared with expensive tutoring, Yuanyuan may want to go to school more."

In the quiet study room, Lu Linchuan looked at the unsmiling Lu Lin, and said straight to the point.

Lu Lin put down the documents in hand, looked up at Lu Linchuan and said, "I'm thinking about it."

Although tutoring is indeed more targeted and helpful to Jiang Yuan's study, and the Lu family is not short of the money for tutoring, Lu Linchuan still hopes that Jiang Yuan can feel like an ordinary child. Campus life may be a bit boring, and it may be different from the campus life he longed for, but he will definitely reap many unexpected joys.

He didn't want Jiang Yuan's childhood to be the same as his own, missing too many beautiful things.

In Jiang Yuan's diary, although most of the records are trivial, but between the lines, it is not difficult to see his longing and longing for the outside world.

Although judging from Jiang Yuan's own situation, it is estimated that there will be no results, but Lu Linchuan still wants Lu Lin to understand Jiang Yuan's aspirations.

"Do you still remember your Uncle Jiang?"

Lu Lin rubbed the center of his brows, and exhaled softly, "Do you know what I regret the most in my life?"

Lu Linchuan was startled.

The alpha in front of him has always been vigorous and resolute. When the words alpha and father are combined, it is a strength that is difficult to resist.

Lu Linchuan rarely saw him in this state.

Lu Linchuan finds it inconceivable for an alpha in power to lower his posture, or for him to show a little bit of fatigue.

"The thing I regret the most in my life is that at that time, I didn't persuade you, Uncle Jiang, and didn't try my best to prevent them from being together. Now I can only treat Yuanyuan better and make up for my guilt back then..."

That's not your fault.

The reason why Uncle Jiang and Xie Yishu were not prevented from being together was because he wanted Uncle Jiang to be happy more than anyone else.He thought that having Uncle Jiang with the person he liked was happiness, so when Mr. Lu strongly opposed it, and when everyone was not optimistic about this relationship, he was the only one who supported Uncle Jiang.

And regret it, perhaps because of his own support, he gave Uncle Jiang the courage to put all his eggs in one basket. Perhaps Uncle Jiang had no hesitation, but his support undoubtedly gave Uncle Jiang, who was under the pressure of opposition from all parties, an impulsive opportunity. .

There is no going back.

But everything is just that he wants to bless Uncle Jiang sincerely.

So it's not your fault, all the faults should be on Xie Yishu alone, he is the one who failed Uncle Jiang's trust and tenderness.

Although he knew it in his heart, Lu Linchuan said, "So, your guilt is also my responsibility?"

Lu Lin didn't answer.

He narrowed his eyes, unconsciously carrying a little scrutiny in his eyes.

He looked at the person in front of him, from the little person who would cry because he couldn't get his favorite toy, he grew up bit by bit into today's mature appearance beyond his peers, even if he was only half-grown Humans can be alone.And his son is much better than his peers, and as a father, he is very pleased with this.

But he also feels guilty about it.

Because he deprived him of all the time in his childhood, made him miss a lot of good things that he should have experienced at that age, and let him grow into what he is today step by step according to his own plan and expectations—undeniably excellent, but He is indifferent and alienated from himself, not like a relative who is related by blood.

But guilt is far less than pride and gratification.

"Many times, responsibility and status are directly proportional. You are an elder brother now, and you are the heir of the Lu family, so you should take on more responsibilities."

"Yuanyuan, our Lu family will take care of her for the rest of my life."

Moral kidnapping.

Lu Linchuan said in his heart.

It's just that he was willing to be kidnapped only because of his "brother" status, and he was never the heir of the Lu family.

Lu Linchuan lowered his eyes and said, "I understand."

Back in the room, Lu Linchuan was lying on the bed, the crystal lamp was hanging from the ceiling, the pale light was dazzling.

After lying down for a while, he sat up, remained silent for a while, and opened the locked drawer at the bottom of the desk.

The locks of the drawers are rusty because they haven't been used for a long time.After opening it, there was only a delicate box lying quietly inside, and a thin layer of dust had already fallen on it.

Inside are some postcards and letters, a photo album, and some small items, all of which were sent back to him by Jiang Yun from all over the world. These large and small postcards and letters have built his dream of traveling all over the world. heart and longing.

It's just that after Jiang Yun left, Lu Lin's requirements for him became more and more stringent, and those longings were also "corrected" by Lu Lin because of "not doing business properly".

So he locked all these things in the cabinet, hid his longing in his heart, and kept hypnotizing himself, as long as he didn't think about it or touch it, it wouldn't be so difficult to let go.

It's just that he's always overestimated himself.

Deliberate forgetting is never letting go.

Lu Linchuan picked up the photo album. Most of the protagonists in these photos were Jiang Yun and him when he was a child.Lu Linchuan looked at himself with innocence written in his eyes when he was a child, and his emotions were a bit complicated.

And the exquisite and beautiful person in the photo gradually evokes the blurred appearance in his memory.

If Jiang Yun is still here, he must be as gentle, kind, and unrestrained as ever.

Lu Linchuan leaned against the head of the bed and flipped through the photo album page by page. He didn't know how long it took before sleepiness swept over his heart.

……

Awakened by the biological clock the next day, Lu Linchuan did not get up quickly as usual, but leaned against the head of the bed.

There was still that exquisite box on the desk beside the bed, and the unpacked letters in it hadn't been reviewed yet.

The door was knocked lightly a few times, and after getting permission, Jiang Yuan pushed the door open, poked out half of his head, and walked up to him on a fluffy cotton mop.

Since Jiang Yuan's eyes recovered, Lu Linchuan no longer had to go to take care of him to wash up every day, and usually the first thing Jiang Yuan did after waking up was to run over and knock on Lu Linchuan's door.

"Brother, can we go out to play today?" Jiang Yuan said standing by the bed.Because the room was heated, he was only wearing fluffy pajamas.

Jiang Yuan has a small frame, and the pajamas are a little loose on him, revealing his fair neck and half of his collarbone.

——It looks like a white and clean boy, but Lu Linchuan knows that his back is actually covered with scars of all sizes.

"No, you have to go to class today." Looking at his disappointed expression, he added: "But in the evening, I can take you for a walk."

Jiang Yuan was happy again.

Lu Linchuan smiled lightly.Children may always be easy to please.

Lu Linchuan lifted a corner of the quilt and patted the place beside him lightly.Jiang Yuan climbed onto the bed and sat beside him. Lu Linchuan pulled up the quilt to cover his tiny legs.

Lu Linchuan put the box on the desk on the quilt and placed it in front of Jiang Yuan.

The familiar face in the photo hit the memory deep in his mind, and Jiang Yuan was stunned.

Those people and memories that were about to be blurred became clear in an instant.

——and the days that he had deliberately forgotten, the days when he was once in the dark in the laboratory.

Jiang Yuan's eyes were a little evasive, as if as long as he didn't look at those photos, he wouldn't think of those things, but he really missed that person so much that he finally couldn't help staring seriously at the person in the photo with a gentle face. The smiling person's clean and clear eyes were misted little by little.

"Big rabbit..." Jiang Yuan whispered.

Lu Linchuan was stunned for a second, and suddenly understood something.

In fact, it is easy to understand that the only person who can accompany Jiang Yuan in the laboratory and is completely trusted by Jiang Yuan is Jiang Yun.

And Jiang Yuan called him "Big Rabbit", perhaps because Jiang Yun also became the same "experiment" as Jiang Yuan.

But most of all, maybe it's because of guilt.

Because of his recklessness and mistakes, Jiang Yuan was trapped in the laboratory with him as soon as he was born, became an experimental product, and suffered a lot of torture.

He is guilty, he regrets, but he is also helpless and powerless.

He didn't want to admit that he was Jiang Yuan's father, and he didn't dare. He was afraid that Jiang Yuan would resent him, and that Jiang Yuan would know that the person who caused all these injuries was his other father.

What a cruel truth that must be.

Uncle Jiang, who likes children so much and is so unrestrained and unrestrained, finally dare not even admit his father's identity.

Lu Linchuan lowered his eyes and said, "These are all the things that Uncle Jiang—that is, your father, left me."

"These were all written to me by Uncle Jiang when I was young. I don't know what kind of person and existence he is in your heart, but these may help you understand him better."

"The words he wrote to me may be the same to you, because you and I are both children now."

"There is also a short story he wrote in the letter..."

Lu Linchuan felt that this was probably the first time he had spoken so much.

Jiang Yuan has been listening very carefully, the corners of his eyes are moist, those things about Jiang Yun are very precious treasures to him.

After Lu Linchuan finished speaking quietly, Jiang Yuan sniffed, the corners of his eyes and the tip of his nose were a little red.

"I know everything," Jiang Yuan said softly.

"I'm a bit stupid, but I'm not a fool..."

It's not like he can't feel it. The complete companionship and care, the unreal tenderness, and the intuition of blood relationship have made him guess the result countless times.

But he never asked.

If the big rabbit doesn't want to say it, then he won't ask.

He had verified the result until the day he was taken out of the lab.

The truth is indeed cruel, but he never felt that it was Jiang Yun's fault.

He didn't even have time, and there will be no chance in the future, to call him "Father".

Lu Linchuan rubbed Jiang Yuan's head lightly, the ears hanging on both sides of his head looked limp.

"What Uncle Jiang said to me in the letter must be what he wanted to tell you." Lu Linchuan said, solemnly and earnestly putting the exquisite box in Jiang Yuan's arms.

"Now, I give them all to you."