Under the shadow

sorry?Maybe

But we're all right

It's just that the person we like loves others in almost the same way as us

Nothing more

—— "Like You, In Time"

In the depths of your heart, is there a person that you can't forget even if you try your best?

I don't know when he/she will quietly take root and sprout in your heart, and after years of constant watering, it will eventually grow into a towering tree.

Your love for him/her has unconsciously shrouded everything about you in a hazy and confused shadow.

Then every relationship since then that you think is a fresh start, in fact, more or less has his/her shadow.

People often say that there are always nine out of ten unsatisfactory things in life, but we still have to believe that there will be someone who is the lucky one out of ten.

So, what is lucky?

I think it's probably that I can't and don't want to escape from the shadow of his/her head, but I can sleep forever under her/his shadow.

Didn't you understand?To put it simply, he/she has come to this world for a lifetime, and he/she who you carefully treasure and hide deep in your heart is the only fixed number in your ever-changing life, and it also happens to be the one who draws the end of your life's emotional history. The man of the end.

From before, now to the end of life in the future.

Will it happen again?

Maybe

But what if?

Somebody has to be one or two out of ten, so why not take a gamble?

After all, what if you win the lottery, right?

Win, get what you want, be happy for the rest of your life

If you lose, you just want to continue living in their shadows.

So it's no big deal if you think about it

Some people stood under the street lamp next to the building and kept wandering, but finally chose to let go of it and forget it, turned around and left, and started again

There are also people who, after struggling, still choose to continue to deceive themselves and move themselves over and over again in the depths of the corner that only they know

But what's wrong?

In the final analysis, it is just that the people we like like others in almost the same way as us.

that's all

It's almost midnight, the last sentence

happy New Year

——— End of Preface ————

Mid-May 2013

South District of City A

In a three-story villa by the river, a woman in a dark red dress was sitting on the sofa in the living room, with a beige lady's blazer on her shoulders.

The woman put her left leg on her right leg casually, and gently shook the goblet in her hand, and the bright red wine rippled.

Ji Huanian looked at Jiang Ran who was standing in front of her with a blank expression, and there was almost no warmth in her coquettish peach eyes.

"Is President Ji dissatisfied?" Perhaps the two of them had been silent for too long, and Jiang Ran gradually felt the coolness. I don't know if it was because the window in the living room was open or because of the aura of the woman in front of him. "Or President Ji thinks I haven't done enough."

"Miss Jiang is fine." The hand that raised the wine glass to his lips paused, and Ji Huayoun took a sip of the red wine in his hand. His voice was calm, and no one could hear or guess what she was thinking.

"What's the meaning of Mr. Ji?" Jiang Ran stepped forward boldly, lifted the chin of the woman who looked coquettish but was indifferent in front of him, and chuckled, "Or... Mr. Ji didn't ,OK?"

"My assistant told me that Ms. Jiang has a girlfriend now." Ji Huanian got up without changing his face, avoiding Jiang Ran's intention to seduce/seduce her. "Ms. Jiang is like this now, isn't she afraid that her girlfriend will be jealous?"

"Blue Eucalyptus? I broke up with her last month. She's so old-fashioned. I don't even want to send it to my door." It seemed that some disappointing topic was brought up. Jiang Ran turned and sat on the single sofa next to Ji Huanian. Picking up the cigarette on the table, lighting it up and taking a puff, there was some sarcasm in his eyes, "So don't worry about Mr. Ji"

"Where is...that Miss Yu?"

"She~ she's just one of my suitors." With some force, he pressed out the cigarette in his hand in the ashtray on the table, and Jiang Ran flirted in Ji Huanian's direction, flirting with smoke rings. / It's self-evident "Since Mr. Ji is so interested in me, why don't you come and ask me in person, the night is long.....heh~"

Taking the wine glass in Ji Huanian's hand, Jiang Ran turned around and sat on Ji Huanian's lap, with his fingers running down Ji Huanian's collarbone, drawing circles on her heart, smiling evilly with the corners of his mouth bent , sticking it to Ji Huanian's ear and whispering softly, "I can let Mr. Ji go deep, into, understand, understand"

"No need." Pushing the person on her back, Ji Huanian got up and was about to go upstairs, before disappearing around the corner, she looked back at Jiang Ran who was still on the sofa with a face full of unwillingness, and her tone was somewhat mocking, "Ms. Jiang only has interests in her eyes." I can't bear it, Miss Jiang, please go back and find another expert!"

It is rare to see a sky full of stars in the dark night sky. Jiang Ran returned to her apartment with some reluctance, and saw the drowsy black shadow lying on the table at first sight.

There was a sound of 'pop', and the dark living room suddenly became brighter. The woman lying on the table was startled awake, rubbed her eyes and got up to look in the direction of the door.

"Xiaoran! You're back." The woman's delicate facial features are all conveying her excitement like Jiang Ran. "Aren't you hungry? I'll get you a bowl of noodles. You didn't come back in the afternoon. It's not too bad to eat when the food is cold." good........."

Seeming to be a little impatient, Jiang Ran frowned and looked at the woman in front of her with disheveled hair and sleepy eyes who kept nagging, and asked irritably, "Why are you still at my house, Yu Yang?"

Yu Yang in the kitchen paused, and then resumed her hand movements. Facing Jiang Ran's impatience, she became more cautious, "Xiao Ran, didn't you agree to be with me a few days ago? I'll take care of it." I............."

"Oh, it's just a drunken remark." Leaving the coat casually on the sofa, Jiang Ran casually answered Yu Yang while unbuttoning his shirt, "Are you serious?"

"Girl...friend...friend" Jiang Ran's words made Yu Yang stunned in place, and the knife for cutting vegetables in his hand accidentally fell on his finger, and blood flowed for a while, "What!?"

"Are you serious?" Looking back at Yu Yang's bloody hand, Jiang Ran looked away nonchalantly, "You know what I want, and you should also know that you can't give it to me"

"Then you..." Washing his wound casually, Yu Yang's eyes were full of disappointment, as if he had gotten used to Jiang Ran's attitude towards her.

"It's just to anger the blue gum, but I didn't expect her to agree directly, but it doesn't matter now, anyway, I didn't give much sincerity, and it's not too bad." The hand that changed clothes paused, and Jiang Ran sighed , went to the TV and found the medical box, put it in front of Yu Yang, "Take care of it yourself and then go back."

Seeing the back of his sweetheart returning to the room, Yu Yang just took out gauze and casually wrapped the wound, then picked up his coat and left Jiang Ran's house.

The temperature on the riverside in early winter was much lower than that in the center of the urban area. Yu Yang only had a thin hooded sweater under his not-so-thick windbreaker, and he was shivering a little from the cold.

At midnight, the roads around the river were unusually quiet, which made Yu Yang shrank his neck in fear and accelerated his aimless pace. The grievance and fear in his heart were magnified to the limit invisibly in the dark night .

A ray of light suddenly lit up behind him, provoking Yu Yang to turn his head subconsciously. As the black shadow approached with a dazzling light, Yu Yang could clearly see who was coming—it was Jiang Ran.

She still cares about me, otherwise she wouldn't come out to find me.

That's what Yu Yang thought when he saw Jiang Ran.

"Follow me back." There was even a hint of indifference in the unwavering tone of "Today is too late, you leave tomorrow"

"Xiao Ran..." Before Yu Yang could respond, Jiang Ran turned around and walked back without looking back at Yu Yang behind him.

Back at Jiang Ran's apartment, Yu Yang boldly pushed open the door of Jiang Ran's bedroom after taking a shower, but was shocked by the sight in front of him.

Empty wine bottles all over the floor came into view, Jiang Ran, who was already in a daze, sat slumped on the carpet beside the bed, drinking with his head up, somehow made Yu Yang feel that Jiang Ran was a bit decadent at the moment.

Looking at the current appearance of the cold and lofty woman in my impression, Yu Yang's delicate eyebrows and eyes are full of worry.

"Heh, do you only have interests in your eyes?" Yu Yang who stepped forward heard Jiang Ran whispering to himself, and slowly squatted down in front of her, looking straight into Jiang Ran's somewhat blurred eyes, firm and distressed, "Xiao Ran, You are not, I believe"

There was an extra figure in front of "A Yuan", but Jiang Ran couldn't see it clearly. He subconsciously called the name in his heart, and stretched out his hand to embrace Yu Yang in front of him. His tone was not as indifferent as in the daytime, but full of Childlike delight and surprise "Are you back at last!?"

This is the embrace she has been looking forward to for many years, but she never expected to get it in this way.

Hearing the name that popped out of Jiang Ran's mouth, Yu Yang's originally smiling face froze instantly, and after a while, only a helpless wry smile remained.

Ah Yuan......

Yu Jinyuan......

This name existed between her and Jiang Ran for six full years!Six years!

Suppressing the bitterness and anger in his heart, Yu Yang hugged Jiang Ran and whispered in her ear, his voice was hoarse and helpless:

Xiaoran, Yu Jinyuan committed suicide three years ago!

Xiaoran, I like you too......

Xiaoran, look at me, look back at me, okay...

"Nonsense!" Without knowing where the strength came from, Jiang Ran violently pushed away Yu Yang who was holding her, squatting on the ground like a child with her head in her arms, repeating something in a low voice.

"Ah Yuan is not dead!......She is just angry with me...As long as I behave...she will come back to find me... ...as long as I behave..."

In fact, Yu Yang did not lie to Jiang Ran. Yu Jinyuan had indeed passed away. On the day of the third anniversary of Yu Jinyuan and Jiang Ran three years ago, Yu Jinyuan finally chose to sleep in the depths of Nanjiang.

All that was left... was a 20 bank card, the real estate certificate and keys of the apartment they were in now, and a suicide note with only one sentence.

Ranran, I'm sorry, live on for me.......

Will always love you Yu Jinyuan

That is to say, from that day on, Jiang Ran seemed to be a different person. She who used to be sunny and smiling was now as cold as ice, and there was no trace of emotion in her words except interests and calculations.

But even so, Yu Yang still couldn't control himself... to get close to her, to... love her.

At this time, in Ji Huanian's villa on the other side

Ji Huanian put on a set of dark blue pajamas and sat on the head of the bed. Her already fair skin was even fairer under the dim light. Her slender hands tapped on the keyboard of the computer on her lap from time to time, even You can vaguely see the blue blood vessels hidden in it.

Looking thoughtfully at the email from his assistant, Ji Huanian had a somewhat unpredictable smile on his face.

Attached to the file is a group photo of two girls at the seaside. Jiang Ran's smile on it is bright and bright, while the girl next to her looks a little quiet and weak, looking at Jiang Ran with gentle and doting eyes.

Yu Jinyuan, a senior student majoring in international trade at University A, threw himself into the river three years ago at the age of 22.

"I really can't tell, this Miss Jiang is still a lover."

"But she wants to use Boss Ji." Ji Huanian pushed back his long hair from his ear, and the flickering earphones looked a little inexplicably abrupt in the dimly lit room.

"Everyone wants to climb up." Ji Huanian's tone was full of disdain, and he hung up the phone, "That's it, no need to check."

Pressing off the only light at the head of the bed in the room, it was already a little dark and fell into darkness in an instant, in stark contrast to Jiang Ran's brightly lit room.

In the room, the flushed Yu Yang was pressed down by Jiang Ran, allowing Jiang Ran to express his longing for his lost lover on her body.

Ah Yuan's voice rang in his ears again and again, Yu Yang's eyes gradually lost the original emotion.

With a wry smile, he responded lovingly to Jiang Ran's "I am" over and over again, as if this could soothe Jiang Ran's heart tortured by longing and self-blame.

Bright lights illuminate the entangled figures on the bed.

Brightly lit and accompanied by the beautiful spring, the two of them had a sleepless night.