love journey

after half an hour

"Sister fell asleep?" Seeing TOP appearing in the hall, Sun looked up and asked.

"Well, fell asleep!" TOP said, and sat down on a random place on the floor.Suddenly she seemed to think of something, and then said: "Since Sister Xinqi told us about her childhood, her sleep quality has improved a lot! Before, she would never fall asleep for an hour. Some Sometimes, I would wake up with nightmares in the middle of the night, but now the situation has improved. It seems that this time I really want to thank you and Dacheng, if it weren't for you, it wouldn't be a blessing in disguise!"

"Nightmare?" Dacheng asked in confusion.

"Well, I just yelled 'Don't jump, don't jump' (in Chinese), and then woke up in shock, sweating profusely every time! I asked her what was wrong, and she just said it was a nightmare."

"Later, I asked a friend who understands Chinese, and I realized that what Sister Xinqi said was 'don't jump'. It’s probably the scene when her mother committed suicide by jumping off the building!” Thinking of Xinqi’s empty eyes every time she wakes up from a nightmare in the middle of the night, TOP’s heart aches.Her strength, her fragility, and every bit of her deeply attracted TOP, making him want to get close, love her well, and give her happiness.

"Sister, it's not easy!"

"So, do you really want to announce my sister's identity? Although, I also want to be able to meet and party with my sister in a fair manner. But I am still a little uneasy, after all, we have just come out of the trough now, Wouldn’t it be unwise to choose this time to reveal the identity of my sister? What if the VIPs don’t accept it? Wouldn’t that attract a lot of ANTI?” Although Sister Xinqi has to accommodate them every time, the meetings are all sneaky, It's like being a thief.But at the very least, it's relatively safe.As artists, how could they not understand ANTI's madness?Moreover, TOP does not disagree with Zhilong and Dacheng's ideas, but he always feels that now is not a good time.

"Let's go with the flow! We didn't think about it before, and we only thought that I was sorry for letting Sister Xinqi sneak around, but I forgot the terror of the ANTIs! Brother TOP, I'm really sorry!" Zhilong said in a low voice. , and Dacheng on the side also nodded, expressing his agreement.

"You guys are also doing it for the good of Sister Xinqi, but you didn't think about it. Since that's the case, let's let nature take its course!" TOP patted the two of them on the shoulder and comforted them.

"Sister Xinqi, will you go to Bali with us?" Shengli asked uncertainly.So, what is the current situation?

"Of course we have to let her go! It's just that we all need to pay attention. Anyway, Sister Xinqi has the identity of the person in charge of Zheng's company, so it makes sense to go with us, as long as we pay attention to our own behavior. Especially It's Shengli and Dacheng, you two, don't be clingy to Sister Xinqi." Such a good vacation opportunity, how could TOP miss the opportunity to get along with Sister Xinqi.Although, you have to keep a distance from Sister Xinqi in front of the camera, don't you still have 2 days of private time?

"Brother, don't pretend to be self-serving, you are the person who is most attached to Sister Qi! Hmph, don't you just dislike us robbing Sister Qi of your heart!" Dacheng and Shengli who were named looked at each other with contempt. TOP said.The thief shouted, "Catch the thief."

"Understood, I will also pay attention!" TOP, who knew he was wrong, replied angrily.

On the second day, in the meeting room of the YG building

"Members of bigbang, have you considered where to go?" Zhao PD asked straight to the point as soon as he arrived.

"Yes! We decided to go to Bali." Sun replied with a smile.

"Can you tell me why you chose Bali?"

"Because it's winter here in South Korea and it's already very cold, so we gave up on the country that is also in winter now. In addition, we are all preparing a new album now, and we work late every day, and our thoughts are a bit confused. I think Bali is a holy place for vacation, and, isn’t it said that it is suitable for emptying out? We hope that we can empty out all the messy things in our minds and create a great album when we come back!” Zhilong took the opportunity to start writing for The new album has been promoted.

"It seems to be a good choice indeed! From now on, you should prepare well and leave in five days!" After Zhao PD finished speaking, the camera stopped shooting immediately.

"Quan Zhilongxi, in order not to delay your itinerary for the next few days, we have decided that the countdown to your trip will be filmed tomorrow. First, we will film a group of you buying air tickets and booking a hotel; then you go to the bank The scenes of exchanging money and making travel plans are these three scenes in total.”

"After tomorrow's shooting ends, we will go to your dormitory one day before departure to shoot the scene where you prepare your luggage. From that day on, we will really start to follow up! Please prepare for the above!" Zhao PD said Several people reminded.

"Yes, we will be ready!" Zhilong replied politely.

"Then let's prepare for the next shoot first, see you later!" PD said and left the conference room with other staff, and went to a reception room of YG to prepare for the later shoot.

"See you later!" The five members of Bigbang said, and followed them out of the conference room.

Half an hour later, in the reception room, Zhilong and Dacheng began to face the camera, gradually confiding their hearts.

"This time the company is willing to give us a holiday. I probably really can't stand it anymore! Recently, we have been preparing for a new album. However, after going through so many things, everyone is actually very tired physically and mentally. Not particularly good. Especially me and Dacheng, after those things happened, we even started to feel confused about our future! Thinking whether I can continue to stand on the stage and sing for everyone. Because I really feel sorry, sorry Those who have always supported us!"

"After the car accident, Dacheng became very quiet, and often stayed alone in the room for a whole day. We were all worried about him, but we didn't know how to comfort him. Moreover, the other four of us were busy at that time. I’m busy with other schedules, so I really feel sorry for Dacheng, I’m really sorry that I can’t be by his side to comfort him.”

"No, I'm actually the one who's sorry. Fortunately, the other four members were not suspended because of me. It's really a blessing!"

"After the accident, I immediately called my manager brother, because I have to take responsibility no matter what. At that time, the TV station had already come, and I could see the microphone and the red light, so I thought I was really doomed!" Dacheng recalled that time The scene, the body trembled unconsciously, at that moment, he will never forget it.

PD: "During the investigation, were you alone?"

"No, I was with the driver uncle at that time. Thankfully, the driver uncle has been comforting me. Let me not worry too much, saying that even if he encounters such a situation, something may happen. He said that as long as he tells the truth, People will understand."

PD: "What did you think when you learned that the deceased passed away?"

"How should I put it, I didn't expect this to happen to me. Kind of, my mind went blank. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry for everything."

PD: "It's really hard. It should be hard to bear such an accident. After leaving the police station, where and how did you spend it?"

"The company said, why don't you go back to your parents' house to be quiet. But I was too sorry to look directly at my parents' faces, so I stayed in my room in the dormitory for a week."

PD: "Just stay in the room like this and do nothing?"

"Because I'm so sorry, I kept crying."

PD: "Have you read it online too? It's in the room."

"Yes, I read it online." Dacheng said, showing his first smile tonight, and this smile contained too much helplessness and bitterness. "I thought that reading the message wouldn't hurt me, but seeing a message like that will inevitably hurt me."

PD: "Which sentence is still hurting?"

"Murderer." Dacheng said and nodded

"That's when I realized that the word is so terrible and cruel. In fact, I can't have that kind of thought. After reading those messages, I had bad thoughts. Of course, I also knew that was the wrong way. Although I also Knowing that’s the wrong way to go and keep thinking that’s the right thing to do? Should I do that? That’s what everyone wants.”

PD: "When did Zhilong hear about the accident?"

"I first heard about it in the early morning after the accident. I was sleeping, and Victory woke me up. When I wake up, people will have a feeling, usually waking up as if something happened. After waking up, the emotion very bad.

"No further words, let me quickly look online, so I read online. The first report I saw, I woke up all at once, and the title was 'Dacheng Death'. So I just stopped there, it was a long Time couldn’t move. Then I pulled myself together, looked carefully, and finally saw the content of the accident clearly. I also felt very sorry for that person, but I knew Dacheng’s character too well, and I was very worried about him. I felt panicked and contacted. No, I really want to comfort him, but I can’t see him.”

PD: "Have you never thought about opening your heart to someone and talking to someone??"

"I am also a human being, and I have shortcomings, so I always involuntarily want to comfort myself. 'It's okay, this can happen to anyone'. If you think this way, you will say to yourself, 'What are you doing? It's clearly yours. Mistakes, now is your time to confess your mistakes', keep saying that to yourself, don't comfort yourself."

PD: "Thinking that you should be punished?"

"Correct."

"Dacheng blames himself very much. His character is like that. If it is good, it is the blessing of others, and if it is bad, it is blamed on itself. He is that kind of child."

"I couldn't get in touch. I went to Dacheng's room to find him, but he didn't open the door for me. I waited for a long time."

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PD: "When I saw him again, what did you say?"

"Dacheng didn't look at me, and he didn't meet his eyes even once, so it hurts to see him like that. Because he is the brother I like."

"It was later determined to be innocent. For me... I don't know how to describe it. It can't be said to be a happy thing, but it can't be said to be a bad thing. I can't say it's a natural result. so......"

PD: "Although so, who is the person who gave me the courage to come out again?"

"Parents, our members, and a very dear sister!"

"It was the family members of the deceased who gave me a lot of courage during this difficult time. At that time, I stayed at the funeral home for a day. In addition to the deceased's aunt, my brother also came. It has become like this, and your reputation has been damaged. Actually, we don’t want it to be like this after Dacheng, hiding ourselves, and things have become like this. If we can work harder in the future, it’s very gratifying to smile like this. Saying this comforts me. In fact, it’s like this It’s really not good, but I was comforted, I felt sorry, and I am very grateful!”

"So, I will work harder in the future, show smiles to more people, and show hope to more people!"

PD: "After this incident happened, do you have any insights?"

"It seems that this accident happened just when I forgot my gratitude. People's hearts are not always the same, and I also changed my mind unconsciously."

"What I can do is to work harder on the show. I will try to show that I am more cheerful and enjoyable than before. Please watch me carefully. Also, if you think it is not good, please always Be sure to give me harsh advice."

"And, now that we have started to resume activities, I will sincerely listen to all suggestions and will accept (suggestions) well."

PD: "So don't you drive now?"

"Yes, until now I haven't had the courage..."

PD private subtitle: Then find a girlfriend who can drive, I am very good at driving, Dacheng xi.

PD: "Shortly after Daesung's accident, Zhilong's incident happened. It seems to be such a shocking incident as the disbandment of Bigbang. This is the first time to talk about this incident on the show, right?"

"Yes, it's the first time I've said this on the show."

"I thought that I might have heard rumors, and whether it was my image or the appearance on stage, it might have aroused the suspicion of the prosecution. So when I received the contact, I felt that I should agree (inspection) out of politeness. At the beginning I was very calm at the time, and I agreed to the inspection openly, but after the inspection, the suspicious parts gradually began to be exposed."

"First there was a urine test, a hair test, and a lot of interrogation. But I never did anything like smoking marijuana..."

PD: "I accepted the test openly but came out with a positive reaction? How did you feel at that time? Were you shocked?"

"I was taken aback, panicked, and felt very wronged. I obviously didn't do such a thing, but I got a positive reaction. What went wrong? To be honest, I didn't believe the result at first. But then I said something that stuck with me, and the inspection over there said 'Yeah, maybe that's why'."

"We held a concert this year. During the celebration banquet, we held a party. We held it with many people and held it in a foreign country. I accepted cigarettes from strangers there and smoked them, so It laid the root of the disaster. This is something I slowly remembered after being investigated."

PD: "Why do you accept cigarettes from someone you don't know?"

"Many people hear this, even if I am a bystander, I feel a little outrageous when I hear this. First of all, when we have a party, we are the hosts, and after the concert is over, we are all in a good mood and drank a lot of wine. In the past, the manager was always by my side, but at that time the manager was not around, and I was alone. After entering the bathroom, someone who was at the party was also there, and gave me a cigarette, and I didn’t think much about it. , and it would be impolite to refuse. It’s also a party centered on us, so a cigarette shouldn’t be a big deal.”

"Anyway, as an artist, you still have to be careful with strangers. My personality looks perfect on stage, but it's different in many ways in private. There is no defense.”

PD: "But don't marijuana and cigarettes taste different?"

"It's really different, but in my memory, I was a little drunk after drinking a lot of wine. I thought it was a relatively strong cigarette, like a cigar. Anyway, I had never smoked marijuana, so I didn't know it at the time. come out."

"The final result is that the prosecution is suspended. It's not a denial of crime, but it's not a state of crime. First of all, because it's a positive reaction, and it's a first-time offender anyway, the amount of smoking is very small. And the age is very young. Small, some are also introspecting, and cooperated with the investigation, and finally obtained a deferred prosecution."

"But it has nothing to do with the result, and it doesn't matter whether you get discretionary consideration, because you need to do a lot of introspection in your heart."

PD: "Comparing Dacheng xi and Zhilong xi, Dacheng xi seems to be very lucky. Zhilong will quickly overcome this idea. When the public sees it, will they have such an idea?"

"I understand very well, and I want to behave like that on stage, I made an effort!"

PD: "Did you read those comments? What was the comment that hurt you the most?"

"'I knew it was like that.' It felt like it was expected."

"You are the center of bigbang's public opinion, so there are things like that. Seeing those words, it's a big shock rather than a grievance."

PD: "The members are also working hard, right?"

"Seungri, even though he's a maknae, he cried when he thought of him. He shouldn't be a crying child like that! I felt flustered and didn't know what to do. He just held on to me and cried like that. I cried. From Seungri’s silent tears, I felt like I heard a lot.”

The filming came to an end here, and after a short rest, Zhilong and Dacheng came to a barbecue restaurant that Bigbang used to frequent, and met the other three members, enjoying the food while filming.

PD: "Shengli xi, after hearing about Zhilong xi's accident, you grabbed him and cried loudly, why did you cry like that?"

"Well, Brother Zhilong used to be very handsome. He is the brother I have always trusted and followed. But after this horrible incident, I am really sad! Before I met Brother Zhilong, because of me I was so sad, so I drank wine. The moment I looked at Zhilong brother, my uncomfortable mood exploded. I kept crying, and I hugged Zhilong brother unconsciously, like that I cried for about 20 minutes." Shengli explained.

PD: "20 minutes is quite a long time!"

"Actually, I was watching from the side, and I felt a little irritable! Although I understand that feeling, I have been crying for too long." Sun now recalls the scene when Shengli hugged Zhilong and cried for nearly 20 minutes. I really want to laugh.He really didn't know that Shengli could cry so much, it was an eye-opener for him.

As soon as Taeyang finished speaking, TOP continued to add: "I want to tell you how I heard it. Taeyang came to me and told me angrily. This is the first time I have seen him so angry. I asked him why he was so angry, and he said Victory is a bit exaggerated, isn't it?"

Sun: "Because we are actually like him, very distressed and hurt."

TOP: "Actually, everyone was in an atmosphere of silent patience and sadness."

Taeyang: "I was also frightened and flustered at the time. However, I thought about it quietly. In fact, as a group, nothing happened to us. Isn't it a bit too smooth? The general combination About 5 years or so because of conflicts, we would disband or something. I often think that if those things hadn’t happened, our bigbang might have disbanded or had a rift due to other things. Thinking of this, what happened to us as a group Something like that, in a way, might be a recipe for us as well."

PD: "TOPxi also sent a lot of text messages, right?"

"My situation is that during this time, when I have to stand on the stage, I feel really embarrassed. When only two members or three members can be on the stage, it is really hard to see the expressions of the fans. It feels very hard."

PD: "Then when is the mood the most relaxed?"

Taeyang: "At that time, five of us were working together, and it was a very difficult situation. We were invited to a very large awards ceremony called EMA held in Europe. We were shortlisted for the awards as representatives of Asia, and we hoped that we could Attending. When we were in Europe, we talked a lot together. We talked a lot about the difficult things in the past, and we ate a lot of delicious food together. Later, we won an award there. It can be said that it brought us hope again. "Actually, they really didn't expect to win the award at such a large awards ceremony, and they are the only group of Asian artists who won the award.When they experienced a series of accidents and were at a low point, they actually received such a big surprise.They are really touched by what the VIPs have done for them.After all, they also know that the awards this time are all voted by fans.

"I am really grateful for allowing us to go on vacation this time. We will definitely enjoy this rare vacation. After cleaning up all the troubles and unhappy things, we will appear in front of everyone with a brand new look. I made a great album for everyone, please continue to support bigbang!"

Subtitle: Big Bang Fighting!Zhilong xi, Dacheng xi, enjoy the holiday, my sister will always support you!