love journey

"That's right, love, we must do it! Why don't we do it now?" TOP, who deliberately misunderstood Xinqi's last sentence, hugged Xinqi while talking, intending to prove it by "doing" His love for Xinqi.

"Axi, you pervert, put it down quickly, do I mean that? You are full of messy things in your head!"

"Isn't it what you said you wanted to make? Then I'll make it for you!" TOP said with an aggrieved face.

"Did I mean that? Ah? I'm really going to be pissed off by you!"

"Okay baby, don't be angry, don't be angry! Don't you want to see me in women's clothing? However, I don't have preparations today, and I can't fit in your clothes. Let's wait until I prepare the props next time! Today, I will dance How about a striptease to compensate you?" For tonight's sex, TOP decided to go all out, anyway, striptease was not the first time, and it was much better than wearing women's clothing.Most importantly, TOP found that every time he did a striptease, Sister Xinqi would become very enthusiastic, which was what he was most looking forward to.Although, so far, he has only performed twice, but that's what he thinks!

"Really? When you prepare the women's clothing that suits you, will you show it to me?" Xinqi asked worriedly.

"Really, how dare I lie to you!" It's just that the preparation time can be delayed as long as possible.

"Then I want to see you in school uniform, just like that on the LIVE!" Xinqi looked at TOP expectantly with her starry eyes.

"Okay!" Although there was too much "helplessness" in this good voice, TOP had no choice but to agree to his lover's request.

"Oh yes, long live Shengxian!" Xinqi said and jumped into TOP's arms while cheering. "GO, GO, GO, go to the striptease!"

Seeing Xinqi cheering in his arms, a sly look flashed in TOP's eyes. Tonight, he must make up for the "homework" that has been left behind these days!

It was late at night, but the two figures in the bedroom were still "struggling" hard.

Time passed in such a quiet passage day after day. On the night of May 5st, Dacheng's traffic accident brought bigbang to their first crisis since the peak period of "Lie".

Xinqi looked at Dacheng who had been silent since he came back from the police station, and sighed softly.Strictly speaking, this accident cannot be regarded as Dacheng's fault.But South Korea is such a country that expands the small flaws of public figures infinitely.Immediately afterwards, all kinds of condemnation followed like a snowflake, making you breathless.

In addition, Daesung felt self-blame, and after the accident, YG stopped all his schedules considering Daesung's state and the public's attention to this incident.All this made Jiang Dacheng, who originally had a murderous smile, never show a smile since that day.People became even more silent, which made the other four members of bigbang even more worried.

"Dacheng, it will pass, everything will pass! Don't blame yourself too much, this is not what you want to happen, huh?!" Because the other four members of bigbang are still busy with their schedules, so take care and explain The burden of Dacheng fell on Xinqi.

"Sister, I'm so sad. I'm really sorry for the deceased. I didn't mean it, really. But why do you say such vicious things to me?" Dacheng was helpless like a child, Holding Xinqi choked up.Those comments on the Internet really made him breathless!

"Sister knows, sister knows, WULI Dacheng is such a kind person, how can he be like those people on the Internet? Dacheng, don't care about other people's opinions, just be yourself!" Xinqi let Dacheng hug her, Then he patted him on the back and comforted him.

"But I can't do it, I can't not care about other people's opinions, sister, am I useless! I hate myself so much, maybe they are right, bigbang shouldn't have a "scum" like me! Yes I've dragged my brothers down," Dacheng said, unable to control his emotions anymore, he started crying while hugging Xinqi.He really likes to sing, and he likes the feeling of being on stage with the other four members, singing and dancing for everyone!He really didn't want to lose the dream he had held on to for so long.He doesn't want to leave the stage!

"Fool, how could you drag them down? You are one fifth of bigbang's essential, without you, there are only four of them, it's not bigbang. Dacheng, don't think about it, people on the Internet are talking nonsense , how can you care about what those people who are afraid of chaos in the world say! Cry, cry to your heart's content, vent all the pain and troubles in your heart and you will be fine! Everything will pass!" They are all so positive and cheerful Dacheng, crying so helplessly, so sad, even the hardest heart is melted.

Since that day, after having a heart-to-heart talk with Xinqi, Dacheng's situation has finally improved a bit.At least he won't be bored in the room all day anymore, and he will go to church for half a day every morning.When the members talked to him, they were no longer silent, and would answer a few words from time to time.And he also began to rely on Xinqi slowly, just like a newborn chick relies on its mother, Dacheng will only feel at ease and feel safe when Xinqi appears around him.

At the end of June, Dacheng was not sued.Although the matter is over, Dacheng has not recovered from the blow of that accident.Except for going to church every day, he just stays in his own room in the dormitory. As long as no one pulls him out of the room, he will stay in the room quietly all day.Quiet makes people feel pampered.For this reason, Xinqi had to spend time every day in the bigbang dormitory to talk with Dacheng, enlighten him, and hope that he would not become more and more autistic due to lack of communication.Because he was so quiet.

Misfortunes never come singly, Dacheng's incident has not been completely over, and then Zhilong had another accident. In mid-July, Bigbang's captain, Quan Zhilong, was involved in a drug abuse incident.

"The relevant person in charge of the Seoul Central District Prosecutor's Office revealed that G-Dragon had smoked marijuana during a tour in Japan in mid-May, and the hair test results on him in July were also positive."

"G-Dragon voluntarily confessed that he had smoked a cigarette handed to him by a stranger when he was being investigated by the prosecutor, but he did not realize at the time that the thing might be marijuana."

On the Internet, in newspapers, and in the news, there are overwhelming reports about Zhilong's drug use. Bigbang seems to be plagued by bad luck, bad things happen one after another!

Zhilong, who was originally under more pressure than other members, has become much quieter since the inspection results came out.I often shut myself in the room, either composing music or smoking, and sometimes drinking to relieve my worries!His situation can be said to be several times more serious than that of Dacheng, and the depression that occurred during the preparation of his first solo album gradually surfaced.This made all Zhilong's relatives and friends, including Dacheng, worried!

Xinqi looked at the two depressed people and saw so many people worrying about them, and finally couldn't bear it anymore.

Inside the Bigbang dorm

Xinqi pulled Dacheng to Zhilong's room, and after signaling him to sit down with Zhilong, she found a comfortable position on the bed and sat down.

"How long will you be like this? Don't you feel proud to have so many people worrying about you and worrying about you?"

"Ha, I always thought that bigbang was the most powerful group I knew! Although, I don't know many groups! But their songs are very good, and people like me who have never been interested in pop music are willing to sing along Just a few words, they are so suitable for the stage and music! But, what about now? When did Quan Zhilong, who is full of confidence, become so unconfident? Jiang Dacheng, who has a murderous smile, where is your smile? Because of that little You can't take a small blow?"

Zhilong and Dacheng understood Xinqi's intentions, but they just couldn't pass the test in their hearts.As if their dreams were suddenly shattered, they were at a loss for their future.The more he thought about it, the more irritable Zhilong said: "Sister, you don't understand..."

"I don't understand? Quan Zhilong, Jiang Dacheng, you actually say that I don't understand? Let me tell you, what are you suffering today? In the face of death, everything you have endured is nothing!" Xin Qi He was really angry, and he yelled loudly at the two of them, regardless of whether it would scare them or not.

"Have you ever tried the feeling of hovering on the verge of death? You know a 7-year-old girl who was pushed down the stairs by her father's mistress. She watched her mistress holding her father's arm with blood on her head and didn't even look at herself. How did you feel when you just walked away like that?"

"When the nanny found out, she was already dying. Just a little bit, she died! In fact, it's so good to die, everything is free! But no, she didn't die, she lived bravely Come down. Because she thinks it’s okay without her father, because she still has a mother who loves her the most? Haha, what a silly child! When she is discharged from the hospital, do you know what greets her? It’s not a warm hug from her mother It was not her mother's loving touch! She was downstairs in her own house, watching her mother jump off the roof of the tenth floor, and died in front of her eyes! At that time, her world collapsed, and a A child who is only 7 years old, first walked around the edge of death, and then lost the two closest people in the world."

"However, she survived. Although she also closed herself and exiled herself, she finally figured it out! Why should she punish herself for other people's faults? In this world, since no one loves her and needs her Now, then she should love herself even more! So, she gave up her tears and learned to be strong. At a young age, she said to herself, 'I want to become stronger!', only in this way can I not be hurt, Only in this way can she not be bullied! And now she has done it too." Xinqi said as if recalling.She never told anyone about these things, and just kept them in her heart like a shackle, haunting her.I don't know why, but today I was able to say these things under such circumstances, and my heart felt a lot easier in an instant!Perhaps, it's time to let go of the nightmares that have plagued me for nearly 20 years.

☆, Chapter 54

As for Zhilong and Dacheng, including the other three who were eavesdropping outside the room, they were already shocked by Xinqi's words.They knew before that Sister Xinqi had an unhappy childhood, her father abandoned her and her mother to go with other women, and then her mother passed away, they all knew this.

But what they didn't expect was that there were so many things they didn't know, and among them, whether it was almost dying or witnessing their mother committing suicide by jumping off a building, they couldn't imagine it!They don't know how Sister Xinqi survived when she was 7 years old, but they can imagine how panicked and helpless she must have been at that time!Why would God do this to a 7-year-old child?Now they can finally understand why sister Xinqi was so excited when she received a call from her father?If it were any one of them, it should be more exciting!

TOP, who is slowly recovering from the shock, can't care if the fact that he eavesdropped will be discovered. At this time, he just wants to be by Sister Xinqi's side, to give her silent support, so that she can have a shoulder to rely on .He couldn't participate in Sister Xinqi's past events, nor could he share her pain.However, he told himself that in the days to come, he must be by Sister Xinqi's side and experience happy or unhappy things with her.And he also has to work hard to make her happy every day in the future and make her happy.

While thinking, TOP opened the door and sat down beside Xinqi, carefully hugging her into his arms.

"Did you all hear that?" In fact, Xinqi had already guessed that TOP, Sun and Shengli would definitely be eavesdropping outside.Anyway, she didn't intend to hide anything.

"Well, let you think back to the unhappy things. Baby, you are not unloved, and you will never be abandoned again. You have a grandfather who loves you, and you have good friends like Sister Jiahui and the others. There are so many friends in Korea, they will never abandon you as a family and friend! Of course, there is also me! Maybe I am not doing very well and occasionally make you angry, but I have a wish to make you happy Sincere heart!" TOP said softly in Xinqi's ear after holding Xinqi in his arms.

"Sister Xinqi, thank you! If it wasn't for me and Dacheng, you wouldn't have to recall such unhappy things! You are right, compared to what you have experienced, what happened to us is really nothing! I have been so decadent and self-pitying, causing everyone to worry, I am really sorry." Zhilong said with a choked voice.

In the face of sister Xinqi's experience, the matter between him and Dacheng is really nothing.It's funny to think about it, after so many years in the entertainment industry, it's not like he hasn't experienced this before, but this time he was still defeated by the public opinion!Quan Zhilong, you are really weak, cheer up quickly, don't disappoint Sister Xinqi's heart.

"Sister Xinqi, thank you for being willing to share your story with us! Everything will be fine, as you said, we must become stronger, only in this way, we will not be bullied! Sister, you will always be by our side , Are you watching us get stronger?" Xinqi's words had a really big impact on Dacheng, and it also made him firmer in his determination to become stronger.

Ever since his accident, sister Xinqi has seen everything silently done for her.But he just accepted sister Xinqi's dedication and care for him with peace of mind, but forgot that all this was because she treated him as a friend, a younger brother, and a person who was very important to her. Do it instead of taking it for granted!He really sucks.

But he really cares about Sister Xinqi. For some reason, Dacheng finds himself relying more and more on Sister Xinqi. She is no longer just a friend to him. At that time, Sister Xinqi, who was always by his side and supported him, was his relative, an existence just like his own sister.

Sister Xinqi is right, only when they become stronger, they will not be bullied, and they can also do what they want, without being bound by various things, and truly enjoy the fun brought to them by music.Sister Xinqi has TOP taking care of her. I may not be able to do anything for her, but he can sing nice songs for her. Didn’t my sister say that she likes to listen to bigbang songs?Then they will work hard, try to sing songs for a lifetime to her and all the VIPs who have supported them all the time.

"You two fools, just figure it out, and it's not in vain to say so much! Many times, instead of hiding in the corner and complaining about yourself, it's better to stand up and face it bravely! In the future, there may still be many things. Unsatisfactory things are waiting for you, but I believe that bigbang is the best! You can do it! Go, don’t be timid, just do it with your heart, even if you fail, it is still a very good experience. Wait When you get old, you will definitely be proud of yourself when you think back to that experience. The outside world is beautiful, just waiting for you to discover and create it!" Xinqi leaned in TOP's arms, looking at Zhilong and Dacheng said, speaking in a very calm tone, with a faint smile on his face.Zhilong and Dacheng will never forget in their lifetime that on such a sunny summer afternoon, Sister Xinqi flew into their dark world like an angel.Get them back on their feet.

When everyone was quiet in this relatively warm atmosphere, the words of some short-circuited students immediately interrupted such a peaceful afternoon.

"Sister, I can't guarantee what will happen to the other brothers, but I can guarantee that I, Li Shengxian, will be Zheng Xinqi's good brother and friend for the rest of my life. I will depend on her for the rest of my life, even if she throws her away! Hehe!" After Shengli regained his composure, he also entered Zhilong's room, knelt down in front of Xinqi, and spoke sincerely.It's just the last sentence, no matter how it sounds, it's not the same as the previous one, as if it has changed a bit.

"Axi, what do you mean kid! What do you mean you can't guarantee what will happen to the other brothers? Could it be that you are the only good guy and we are all bad guys?" This is Zhilong who has always been at odds with Shengli.

"What does it mean to depend on her for the rest of your life? You don't want to live anymore?" This is TOP with a strong desire for exclusivity.

"My sister doesn't want you to be his younger brother, you bastard, you always get into trouble! Sister Xinqi wants to be my older sister!" This is the culmination of becoming more and more dependent on Xinqi.

"Ah, Li Shengxian, haven't you been playing for three days, and your skin is itchy?" This is the sun joining in the fun.

Obviously, as soon as the words of victory came out, they immediately became everyone's public enemy, but after being made such a fuss by him, the originally gloomy atmosphere became brighter all of a sudden.

Xinqi leaned against TOP's arms, watching Zhilong and Shengli chasing and fighting in the small room first, and then joining Sun and Dacheng, and the flames of war spread to the entire dormitory, she laughed lightly. Voice. "It's great to meet you!" This is what TOP heard Xinqi say in a low voice.Although Xinqi spoke in a low voice, as if she was muttering to herself, she could still hear TOP, who had been paying attention to her.

TOP bowed his head and kissed Xinqi's forehead, and whispered in her ear, "It's nice to know you, and, I love you, baby!"

"Sister! Come and save me! My brothers are bullying me!" Victory's wailing sound once again destroyed the sweet and warm atmosphere between Xinqi and TOP.

"Axi, this kid, if I don't clean him up today, I'll take his surname!" Unbearable, TOP stole a piece of incense from Xinqi's mouth, got up and left Zhilong's room, intending to clean up Shengli.

It is obviously not Xinqi's character to not watch when there is excitement, so she also followed TOP out of Zhilong's room.As soon as I arrived at the hall, I saw five big boys stacked together, and I finally couldn't help laughing out loud. "Hahahahaha, you guys are so fun, is this stacking Arhats?"

That afternoon that Bigbang will never forget ended with such cheerful laughter.

In this way, under Xinqi's "persuasion", Zhilong and Dacheng finally cheered up again.That night, the two also posted their first message after the accident to fans who cared about them through the Internet, and posted their latest photos on the Internet to reassure fans.

Their message reads: These things happened, I am really sorry, let everyone down!The depression these days has also worried everyone!Thank you very much, everyone still supports us as always, and I am also very grateful to a friend who made us understand that decadence is not the solution to things.The only way to deal with it is to face it bravely. Bigbang will always be bigbang. I love you all!

As soon as this message came out, many fans who had been worrying about Dacheng and Zhilong finally breathed a sigh of relief.They have always firmly believed that their ouba is innocent, and they will always support it!Of course, fans are also very interested in the "her" in the mouth of the two evens!They all speculated in private, who is that "she"!

Xinqi once heard such a sentence from several VIP friends, they said: "True love is always to be abused!" After experiencing these two incidents, Xinqi truly understands this sentence truth.

Although the matter is over, because both of them have been temporarily suspended from all activities, they still continue to stay at home, which can be regarded as stealing a leisure for themselves.This made the other three people who have been active in their activities increasingly despise Zhilong and Dacheng.That's envy, that's jealousy!

Why, the three of them were exhausted rushing everywhere to make announcements, but Zhilong and Dacheng, the two "culprits", got a blessing in disguise, and they could enjoy it at home!Not only did they not have to rush the announcement, but also the "love meal" that Sister Xinqi asked the restaurant to deliver every day, how could the three of them not be jealous! ! !Of course, these are just occasional imaginations. After all, these days, Zhilong and Dacheng are not easy. They are all seeing it. Compared with rest and delicious food, they would prefer Zhilong and Dacheng to be fine.