The Melancholy of a Third-Rate Writer

When Gu Ping woke up in the morning, the room was still dark. It turned out that the curtains were drawn tightly so that the sunlight did not disturb his sleep.

Gu Ping went to the window and opened the curtains, looking at the warm sunrise.No matter how much pain his body endured, no matter how tired his mind was, he could still wake up early according to his usual habit.

He likes to live a regular life.

Gu Ping stood for a while, until his body warmed up, he straightened his collar and prepared to go out to work.

At this moment, his cell phone rang, and it was Xu Damao's call.

Gu Ping smiled and pressed the answer button.Xu Damao's voice sounded a little hesitant and worried, and he faltered and asked, "How was last night...are you okay? You...he..."

No matter what, it always feels good to be cared about.

Gu Ping smiled and said, "I'm fine."

Xu Damao didn't believe it at all. He couldn't sleep after returning home yesterday, and searched for information about Mr. Qin over and over again.The more he understood, the more frightened he became. He couldn't understand how Gu Ping got involved with such a person, but when he thought about the smooth sailing of the Gu family in the past few years, he was sure that there was indeed something between Gu Ping and that person.

Thinking of the situation last night, Xu Damao was extremely worried.

Xu Damao said: "I, is he gone? Can I go and see you..."

People say that it is a "tiger". The reason why the man got this nickname is kept secret by most people. The only thing that is certain is that he has a domineering personality and a strong wrist, just like a tiger.If such a guy becomes enraged, Gu Ping will definitely not be able to deal with it easily - he won't be at ease until he sees it with his own eyes.

Gu Ping laughed, but he sighed and said, "Are you trying to confirm that we really have something?"

Xu Damao stuttered even more.

He really wanted to have something, and the more he got in touch with him, the more he found that Gu Ping was covered with a layer of loneliness and loneliness. Although this kind of wording sounds a bit hypocritical, he really wanted to - really wanted to erase them from Gu Ping's eyes .He wants to spend his birthday with him, year after year; he wants to live with him, day after day.

He knew that Gu Ping would not believe what he said. After all, a few months ago, he was crying in front of Gu Ping with the smell of alcohol, and a few months ago, he was killed by Gu Ping for crying for Lu Xiaohua on the side of the road. Flat take home...

How could a person like Gu Ping believe such a "sincerity" so easily changed, such a promise so easily made.

Xu Damao's nose felt sore.

Gu Ping asked: "What's the matter?" Before he could answer, Gu Ping went on to say, "Don't come to me now, just contact Shengshi directly for business matters, and it's best not to call."

Xu Damao couldn't accept it: "Why!" After asking, Xu Damao fell silent again, because he already understood that it was because of Mr. Qin's interference.

For that kind of person, asking Gu Ping to sever contact with a certain person is just a matter of saying.

Gu Ping said: "You are still young, and you haven't thought clearly about what you want and what you want to do. It's normal to be confused for a while. It's not what you really want. Work hard, and you will encounter the worst things in the future." Someone for you."

Xu Damao's heart felt painful and uncomfortable as if it was tightly clenched by a strange hand.

Gu Ping knew everything, everything.Before he understood why he was always rubbing against Gu Ping, Gu Ping knew what he wanted from him. Gu Ping graciously accepted him, graciously taught him how to deal with his future life, and generously Leading him through the haze of the past...

Xu Damao said, "What about you?"

what do you want?

What do you want to do?

Where is the right person for you?

Xu Damao choked up his sobs, he felt that he was extremely embarrassed by crying, but he couldn't suppress the sourness in his nose.He felt that he was so close to Gu Ping for the first time, so close that he could feel the almost suffocating loneliness in Gu Ping's heart.He asked again: "What about you?" His voice was trembling, "Who will accompany you on your birthday! Who will accompany you on your vacation! Who will accompany you on the agreed trip!"

Gu Ping said: "These things are not important at all."

Xu Damao said loudly: "Damn it's not important! It's important! It's important! It's important!" After the yelling, there were only heavy gasps and sobbing.

The words "very important" echoed in Gu Ping's mind, and a faint but genuine smile appeared on his face.What happens next is a matter for the future, at least some people think so-this is already a very good gift for him.

Just as Gu Ping was about to say a few more words, a chill suddenly shot up his spine.He looked along the source of the chill that made him feel cold all over his body, and saw Mr. Qin standing there looking at him for an unknown how long.

No matter how long he listened, the man's displeasure was clearly revealed.

Gu Ping said to Xu Damao: "I'll hang up first." After speaking, he unilaterally ended the call.

Mr. Qin did not step forward.

He is restraining.

For a man like him, showing emotions is not a good thing.Being led by emotions, venting anger and dissatisfaction wantonly is a stupid way that will never be tolerated.

Gu Ping in front of him looked so vulnerable, if he really attacked out of rage, the consequences would be disastrous.

Mr. Qin stood in the same place and stared at Gu Ping's face. Even though he didn't know much about "Gu Ping" himself, he knew how rare the smile that appeared on his face just now was—not that Gu Ping was usually serious. , on the contrary, Gu Ping has always greeted people with a decent smile, and that appearance looks like a spring breeze.

But it was different just now.

It was not a mask that Gu Ping hung on his face, it was sincere and from the heart - it is undeniable that such a smile made Mr. Qin feel that he had discovered a treasure.That's right, treasure.So what followed was the anger that quickly filled his heart. Even though Gu Ping had been by his side for several years, he was not the one who opened the treasure.

This kind of anger is absurd, but it is understandable: for example, you have been playing a game for several days, and suddenly someone else takes over. Playing, will also be secretly unhappy.

After analyzing the reason why he had this feeling, Mr. Qin felt that it was very normal, and immediately calmed down.

He didn't want to be led by the nose by this unhappiness, so he maintained his usual expression and suppressed the idea of ​​severely "punishing" Gu Ping.

Mr. Qin's silent sullenness made Gu Ping a little confused.

Gu Ping came in to calm himself down, stepped forward and asked, "You didn't go back?"

Mr. Qin was a little satisfied with Gu Ping's proactive approach.

He motioned Gu Ping to get closer, and asked, "Who did you just call?"

Gu Ping said: "Friend."

Mr. Qin asked: "The one last night?"

Gu Ping hesitated for half a second, then nodded.

Although he had already guessed the answer, Mr. Qin still said with a sarcasm, "Sure enough, he is a friend who cares about you enough." He reached for Gu Ping's cell phone, searched for the latest call in front of Gu Ping, found the contact, delete.

In one go, neat and natural.

Gu Ping didn't raise any objections, and calmly took the phone back.

Mr. Qin looked at Gu Ping as obedient as usual, no matter how he looked at it, he didn't like it.Obviously it's still the same face, but after seeing his other expressions, I feel that this appearance doesn't fit, the smile doesn't fit, the eyes don't fit, the tone doesn't fit—it doesn't fit anywhere.

Mr. Qin said: "I will stay one more day."

Gu Ping was taken aback, and asked, "Do you have any arrangements?"

Mr. Qin said: "No, you can arrange it for me."

Gu Ping was a little surprised. Seeing that Mr. Qin's expression was not very good, he wisely changed the subject without asking further questions: "What do you want to do?"

Mr. Qin said: "I haven't thought about it, you can think about it." He looked at Gu Ping, "What do you usually do?"

Gu Ping told the truth: "Go to work, exercise, work dinner, family dinner."

Mr. Qin commented objectively: "Very boring."

Gu Ping laughed: "It's really boring to say that."

Mr. Qin said: "I should be one of the few 'accidents' in your boring life." When the word "accident" was mentioned, Mr. Qin could clearly feel Gu Ping's body trembling slightly.

What kind of people are most afraid of "accidents"?Insecure people.

Such a person will carefully understand everything there before going to a strange place, and observe carefully for a long time before integrating into a new environment. Accepting a person... requires a longer period of psychological construction.

No matter when and where, such people will try their best to create a situation that they can control, and try their best to prevent "accidents" from happening.Even if an "accident" happens, he will do his best to keep calm and try to increase his sense of security as much as he can.

Gu Ping is obviously such a person.

Mr. Qin reached out and pinched Gu Ping's fragile Adam's apple.

He has seen countless people, and it is really easy to see through a person.

Didn't understand, just because he didn't think to understand.Once he thought about it, all of Gu Ping's emotions couldn't escape his eyes.

Mr. Qin leaned close to Gu Ping's most sensitive earlobe, and breathed on Gu Ping's neck, making Gu Ping tremble involuntarily.

Mr. Qin said with a light smile: "You should know what kind of person I am, and even how scary I am sometimes, so don't play tricks in front of me."

Gu Ping's body felt a little weak.

Mr. Qin was very satisfied with his reaction, and said, "Since your life is so boring, let me arrange it."

Mr. Qin took Gu Ping to a shooting club in the suburbs.

There are legal guns and bullets for members to practice, but they are generally not open to the public.

Mr. Qin asked the staff to lead Gu Ping to get ready, and went to change his clothes.When he walked out of the locker room, Gu Ping was already standing in the shooting position. The clothes that were different from usual made him look different, only the gentleness between his brows hadn’t been erased—even if he was standing in a place full of evil spirits like the shooting range, he could Still like a humble gentleman.

Mr. Qin stepped forward, raised his finger and tapped Gu Ping's forehead.

Gu Ping was stunned.

Mr. Qin laughed, and said, "Why do you always show such an expression that makes people want to bully you? Do you believe in my endurance?" He took the gun from the staff and put it in Gu Ping's hand, reaching out to hold it. Holding Gu Ping's palm, he sighed helplessly, "—what if I can't hold back?"

This posture is equivalent to Mr. Qin hugging Gu Ping from behind. Although it is nothing in terms of the relationship between them, Gu Ping feels very uncomfortable with so many pairs of eyes watching.

Of course, Mr. Qin could feel Gu Ping's resistance, but he didn't let go, but laughed: "Aren't you used to it? It's because you're uneasy, right?" He expressed Gu Ping's mood at the moment in the coldest tone, "'Things are out of my control, what should I do if it's bad, I have to calm down, I have to think of a way to keep things from getting worse'..."

Word for word.

Gu Ping said: "Mr. Qin really has extraordinary insight."

Mr. Qin did not deny: "This is the foundation of my foothold. I can't even see this. I have been pulled down countless times." Ask, "What do you think you should do about the thing you're afraid of?"

Gu Ping couldn't answer.

Mr. Qin said: "If it were me, there would be only one answer: face it."

"Face it."

"And beat it."

"Or—" he taught Gu Ping to pull the trigger, "destroy it."

boom!

Right in the bull's eye.

Mr. Qin smiled approvingly: "This is a good start, your hand is very steady, try it yourself."

Gu Ping's vision blurred for a moment, and then suddenly became clear again.He held the gun and began to try to shoot towards the bullseye, miss, miss, miss...

He persisted ten times, and finally hit the crimson bull's-eye with the last blow.

Mr. Qin took the gun out of his hand and said: "Okay, if you continue, your wrist will not be able to bear it tomorrow. Let's go have a meal."

Gu Ping obediently followed Mr. Qin.

After getting into the car, Gu Ping said to Mr. Qin, "Thank you."

No one had ever taught him how to face his fear—this was the first time.The first time I was discovered, the first time I was enlightened, and the first time I was taught how to vent them out.

Although it was a bit late, it still made him very grateful.

Mr. Qin said: "I never accept verbal thanks." He pressed Gu Ping's nape of the neck, rubbing it back and forth with calloused fingertips, "If you think of thanking me, take the initiative to kiss me once."

Gu Ping paused, and kissed Mr. Qin's lips.

Mr. Qin was very happy.

The process of digging for treasure is really enjoyable.

Although Gu Ping's weakness was too obvious, and it was too easy to win, it didn't affect the sweetness of the result.