The Melancholy of a Third-Rate Writer

When Cousin Doubi woke up, there was no one else in the room.

He was silent for a moment, and couldn't help but laugh at himself for being restless and irrational.

It's useless to say anything to Uris and the others. It's better to save your energy and make yourself more comfortable.

Cousin Doubi didn't force himself to do it, but lay on the bed and watched the scenery outside the window.Without the cover of the tree, the sky is directly set in the window, like a royal blue gem.

He thought about it seriously for a long time, but for some reason he just couldn't remember how he felt when he saw Kim Uris for the first time, let alone where he found the courage and courage to run after Kim Uris desperately. will.

His life was probably like climbing that tree. He used to just look at it, thinking that if he climbed up, he would see Kim Youris.As long as Kim Ulisken gave such a little response, he could be happy for half a month, so he never looked down, so he was never afraid of falling to pieces.

It wasn't until the tree under his feet was cut off abruptly that he realized that he had nowhere to stay.

Can only keep falling.

Literally fell to pieces.

Cousin Doubi closed his eyes and rested for a while, and finally lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

He's not that weak, it's just a minor injury, there's no need to lie on the bed and pretend to be weak.

At this moment the door was opened.

Cousin Doubi turned his head, and Kim Youris was standing at the door.

Cousin Doubi's mood suddenly became a little lighter, and he said with a smile: "I don't know it, we seem to have known each other for almost ten years, and you really haven't changed at all."

Uris' panic amplified a little bit.

After knowing the truth back then, the reunion with Doubi's cousin's every move was replayed one by one in front of his eyes.

It turned out that it was not just awkwardness, but real despair.

It was he who made Doubi's cousin so desperate.

Cousin Doubi said he wanted to leave, but he really wanted to leave.Cousin Doubi said that it is best for him to be with someone else, because he really wants him to find someone else.Cousin Doubi said that he couldn't bear the days around him, it was really unbearable.

Looking at that seemingly ordinary smile, Juris' heart clenched tightly.

How will Cousin Doubi convince himself to smile in front of him.

He was once the culprit of his kidnapping.

He once gave up on him.

He kept by his side those who had treated him badly.

He has let the matron sneer at him all the time.

He brought home the boy who was like him.

Obviously he killed the boy back then, but he still blamed him for not being the same as before.

Uris' heart seemed to be torn by an invisible hand.

He wanted to open his mouth to apologize, but in the end he could only stride forward and hug his funny cousin tightly.

Yuris tightened his arms, strangling Doubi's cousin to the point of suffocation.

Cousin Doubi smiled and said, "If you want to kill me, don't do it, it makes me feel very uncomfortable."

Uris said: "Don't leave me."

Cousin Doubi looked calm: "Aren't we all married? How else can I leave you. If I really want to sue for divorce, I can't win you. What are you worried about?"

Yuris was not relieved by Cousin Doubi's words, on the contrary, he was startled by Cousin Doubi's calm tone.

Half a year ago, Cousin Doubi was still alive and laughing.

In just half a year, he had forced Cousin Doubi to such an extent.

Yuris bowed his head and kissed Doubi's cousin on the lips.

This kiss was not at all like his usual style.

Only then did Cousin Doubi realize that Yuris seemed to be different from usual.

But that didn't mean he liked Uris' kiss very much.

Cousin Doubi frowned imperceptibly, and didn't push Uris away, but waited patiently for the end of the kiss.

He promised cooperation, promised loyalty, but never promised to respond enthusiastically at all times.

Yuris, like a person who stepped on the ground and wanted to grab a little support, couldn't help hugging Doubi's cousin even more tightly, but found that he couldn't rely on kisses to suppress the anxiety in his heart.

Yuris left Cousin's lips and repeated again: "Don't leave me."

Cousin Doubi is a little impatient, this is not over, is it?

He comforted him like coping: "Okay, okay, I won't leave you."

Uris could not hear Cousin Doubi's insincere perfunctory.

He hugged his teasing cousin tightly.

A long silence spread between them.

No matter how inattentive Cousin Doubi is, he can still notice that Uris's behavior is completely different from usual.

After a long time, Cousin Doubi finally couldn't bear it and said: "Don't do this, just let go if you have nothing to do."

Uris let go of his hand and looked at Cousin Doubi quietly.

Cousin Doubi was a little surprised at Uris' easy talk, but he pressed back on the bed in the next second.

The familiar oppressive feeling made him painful and afraid.

it is as expected!

Cousin Doubi struggled unwillingly.

Yuris lowered his head and kissed the person in his arms, as if he could only feel relieved if his lips and tongue were constantly intertwined.

Cousin Doubi didn't want to get hurt again, so he simply stopped moving and let Uris do whatever he wanted.

Cousin Doubi's obedience made Uris freeze.

Four eyes facing each other.

Cousin Doubi saw many strange emotions in Yuris' eyes.

The reason why Uris nearly lost control may be because he woke up to something, maybe because of something he discovered.

But what does that matter, no matter whether the person is guilty, sad, or introspective, the way of doing things will still not change.

Cousin Doubi said: "I probably have slept for more than ten hours? I'm a little hungry."

Uris refused to move away.

Cousin Doubi said: "I want to eat, after eating, you can play however you like, it's up to you."

Uris stretched out his arms to pick him up, and told the servants standing outside the door to prepare lunch.

The funny cousin is at a loss: "I am a big man with long arms and legs, what do you look like holding me like this!"

Uris picked him up and buried his head by his neck: "Don't leave me."

Funny cousin: "..."

Love to hug or not!He really can't handle this repeater!

Yuris seemed really ready to hug Cousin Doubi and not let go, and let Cousin Doubi sit on his lap to eat.

Cousin Doubi felt weird, but in the end hunger prevailed, and he buried himself in lunch.

When the desserts were served, Cousin Doubi somehow remembered that in order to annoy the matron, he purposely sat in Juris' arms and hung them around Juris' neck to feed him snacks.

At that time, Uris' face was dark and his movements were stiff, but he still couldn't resist his begging, and opened his mouth to bite down the sweet and greasy pastry he fed.

At that time, he had the elation of a winner, and his heart was full of sweetness, but he didn't think how long the sweetness that was so superficial that it could only be used to show off could last.

Cousin Doubi paused for a long time, so long that even Uris almost realized what he was thinking.But in the end, he reached out to pick up the snack and put it in his mouth, until he finished his share, then he raised his head and said, "I'm full."

Uris raised his hand to wipe the debris off his lips.

Cousin Doubi felt an uncontrollable dull pain in his heart.

"What's so delicious about this kind of thing? It's sweet and greasy."

"I like!"

"The corners of my lips are sticking again."

"What does that matter! Just kiss it off!"

"dirty."

"Can't you just kiss me once—"

The taste in the mouth was obviously extremely sweet, but it became extremely bitter in an instant.

Cousin Doubi turned his head and looked at Yuris, their breaths were so close that we couldn't distinguish between you and me.

Yuris hugged Cousin Doubi tightly from behind again, as if he wanted to rub Cousin Doubi into his arms.

Cousin Doubi was taken aback for a moment, and said that sentence first as a joke: "I will not leave you."

Resigned to his fate, he leaned into Yuris' arms and completed the second half of the unclear sentence in his heart.

——But I don't know how to bring myself closer to you again.

Cousin Doubi's heartbeat overlapped Yuris' chest, but Yuris's heart was empty.

Like countless seven years apart, they couldn't really touch each other at all.

Uris kept tightening his hands.

He could only repeat the same words: "Don't leave me."

Cousin Doubi was startled, but didn't answer, and stayed quietly in Uris' arms.

The servants came to clear the table.

The scorching sun shines through the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the ground is golden.

The setting sun moved westward, and the red sunset glow dyed the sky red.

No one dared to disturb them, so the whole dining room was silent, only the shadows of the two of them moved on the ground with the light.

The slowly changing light image is editing the lost time.

Cousin Doubi finally couldn't sit still, and opened his mouth and said, "It's getting dark." After speaking, he realized that his voice was a little hoarse.

Yuris didn't move, still holding him tightly.

Cousin Doubi was silent for a moment, and in the end he could only ask, "What's wrong with you?"

Yuris also opened his mouth, his voice hoarse than that of Doubi's cousin: "I'm sorry." When he said this, it was like breaking an embankment, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry——"

Funny than cousin meal.

Uris said: "I don't know what happened to you at that time, I don't know what kind of life you have lived in these years. I don't know, I don't know damn well. I hate you for forgetting me, so I refuse to find out ——" His arm was already stiff, but he refused to let go, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Cousin Doubi felt Uris' hands trembling.

Turns out he didn't know anything.

Cousin Doubi didn't know whether to feel funny or sad.

I don't know anything, so it's understandable to do anything.

Didn't know anything, so he wasn't to blame.

Know nothing, so nothing wrong.

But if you really care, why don't you know anything.

If you really cared so much, how could you ignore it for so many years.

That was seven years, seven full years, he lived in a muddle-headed and heartless way, seemingly happy, but in fact he didn't even know what he was doing.Lost memory, lost thinking ability, foolishly living a happy life that he thought he was jubilant, and only recalled the longing and despair buried in the deepest part of his heart in nightmares.

He longed for that person to save him.

That man made him despair.

What Uris did back then was not wrong, it was the best choice, and if it was him, he would probably do the same.

But Uris owed him an explanation.

This explanation was seven years late.

If Uris was willing to give him half an explanation and half a word of comfort, everything might be different.

And seven years later, Uris could only give him "I'm sorry" and "I don't know".

he does not know.

In fact, this already explains everything.

It's not that it's not important enough, not enough to care about, not enough to take it to heart.

Cousin Doubi let out an "oh" and said, "I see." He looked sideways at Yuris, "Actually, I have something I've wanted to say for a long time——"

Yuris' voice was hoarse: "What are you talking about?"

Cousin Doubi covered Xiao Dingding with embarrassment: "I want to go to the toilet, and I've been holding it all afternoon. Seeing how devoted you are to silence, I've never had the nerve to bother you—"

Uris' face suddenly turned black.

Cousin Doubi jumped out of Julius's arms nimbly, waved his hands and said, "I'll go pee first, you can continue to meditate freely!"

Yuris wanted to stand up, but his thighs, which had been sat on by his teasing cousin all afternoon, didn't work at all!

It lived up to expectations...and went numb.

The author has something to say:

Mr. Rigeng and Mr. Shenzhan lived a sweet newlywed life.

Manuscript box gentleman is dejected.

Mr. Duan Geng sneered and said, "Yu Lip, why are you sad, what you love is not Ri Geng."

The Manuscript Boxer was taken aback for a moment, and asked, "What did you say?"

Duan Gengjun said: "The person you love, you can only see it once in your life. Once you see it, you can only wait for the next article. You were born for him..."

The Manuscript Boxer said, "What's his name? Why can't I remember?"

Duan Gengjun said: "His name is San Geng Jun, people in Jianghu call him V San Geng, he is the meaning of your existence."

Mr. Manuscript Box felt the memory flooding in like a tide, and he suddenly showed a sweet smile.It said: "Thank you for telling me, I will live a good life until I see him again. As long as I see him, I will definitely remember everything between me and him."

#No more medicine, what should I do?#