The Redemption of "White Moonlight"

Fortunately, things went wrong enough, so many coincidences passed, and finally let you come back to me.

In fact, for a long time about the fact that he liked Ji He, Helezel was in a state of self-deception. On the one hand, he couldn't face the fact that Ji He was passionately in love with another person, which made everyone On the one hand, he couldn't admit that he might no longer have Ji He's love.

The closer he gets to Ji He, Helezel involuntarily distances himself from Ji He more and more. Secretly, he hopes that his series of actions can earn Ji He's attention, but soon he realizes that it is useless.

It seemed that no matter what he did, he couldn't stop Ji He from approaching Jian Yilin.

However, Ji He still surrounds him, with an appearance of being incomprehensible to his alienation.

Many times, when Ji He came looking for him, he almost couldn't help but get close to Ji He again, but when he thought that Ji He's tenderness didn't belong to him alone, Helezel's heart turned cold again instantly. go down.

It was a long pain, which continued to ferment until it spread and penetrated into every corner of his body.

These turbulent emotions, which seemed to be completely alien to him, made Helezel wonder if he was abnormal.

And the culprit who caused all this was undoubtedly Ji He.

But Jian Yilin was the only one to be damned.

Sometimes he would pick Jian Yilin as his opponent in the arena, and beat him hard time and time again. It would be better if Ji He was present, he wanted Ji He to see that he was the better one.

But often, facing Jian Yilin with a bruised nose and swollen face, Ji He would only show a distressed expression.

"I don't know that your relationship is so bad..." Ji He smiled, "If you find him unhappy, you should ask him to come out and explain the matter clearly, let's have a good exchange, or your colleagues, how bad it is... ..."

Ji He didn't understand at all, Helezel looked at his face silently, anger and powerlessness growing in his heart at the same time.

This is not a good state, but it is the first time that Hereser is so clearly aware that he is living vividly and enthusiastically as a "person".

Hleizer once again began to force himself to adapt to the life without Ji He. He participated in a certain technology project and did not tell Ji He; he was preparing for the last mission and did not tell Ji He; millet.

He didn't know what he was doing, he was like some obstinate child, waiting and waiting, waiting for what he thought would happen to him one day.

At that time, he didn't have the consciousness to learn to fight.

At that time, he didn't realize that what he actually wanted was Ji He.

I'm about to graduate, maybe I have to separate from Ji He.

Helezel forced himself not to think about these things. He heard that Ji He still failed to pursue Jian Yilin, but... what does this have to do with him?Anyway, he and Ji Heben are two people who shouldn't have any intersection.

Helezel's arrogance does not allow him to find a Ji He who loves others.

So, is this the end?After graduation, is it all over?Helezel was thinking, suppressing, and waiting. He was trying his best to control something deep in his heart, and it only needed an opportunity to explode completely.

On the night when Ji He came to drink with him, he was supposed to get on a plane and go to other districts to take part in the assessment.

But after receiving Ji He's text message, Helezel agreed almost without thinking.

He believed it was worth it.

He just wants to remember that that night was the first night between him and Ji He, Ji He hugged him tightly, the distance was negative, and he completely lost his mind and asked for what he had always wanted from Ji He, Almost forgot everything.

Jian Yilin?To hell with it, Ji He only belongs to him at this moment, even though Ji He was still crying and getting drunk for that guy not long ago.But Ji He did care about him, because Helezel heard his own name from the mouth of the drunken Ji He, and he automatically replaced all the names Ji He called with his own, as if Ji He was the most at this moment. I love him.

It was an absolutely fantastic evening.

Helezel confessed to Ji He.

But Ji He just yelled and didn't answer him.

But when he woke up the next day, subconsciously, Helezel knew that Ji He was delirious last night, and after a brief panic, Helezel ran away.

It wasn't his style, but he did it anyway.

He didn't care if he missed the exam, he sat in the dormitory, waiting, he knew that Ji He would definitely come to him.

In the afternoon, Ji He did come.

Helezer still remembered that the sky outside the window was very cloudy at that time, and he sat alone by the bed, blocking Ji He out of a door.

Ji He said "I'm sorry" to him. At that time, the expression on Ji He's face was ashamed.

Looking at his face, Helezel knew that he was rejected.

All luck collapsed at that moment, after that, he tried his best to escape, unwilling to see Ji He again.

Not to mention that after that, the relationship between Jian Yilin and Ji He seemed to heat up again.

·

Hleizer's life is in order, and everything he handles is still perfect, as if there is never a trace of fault.

Of course, all these are appearances, and only he himself knows that after experiencing magnificence again and again, all the colors in his world have faded away, leaving only the original bleakness and silence.

It's not that Ji He never came to him, but he often chooses to thank guests behind closed doors. There is no need for them to meet, he thought, even if this is not what a "friend" should do.

Complete the final task step by step, and wait for Ji He to graduate this year, everything will be relieved, he thought.

He thought he could do it meticulously.

However, on the day of the actual combat exercise for graduation, there was an accident at the venue, and real terrorists were mixed in.

All the calmness and illusion created collapsed at that moment, thinking that Ji He's life might be threatened, Helezel couldn't control his actions.

·

Lying on the hospital bed, Helezel stared blankly at the ceiling. He didn't know if Ji He would come to see him, and he even hoped that someone could tell Ji He that he was injured because of him.

But instead of Ji He, he waited for Jian Yilin.

Jian Yilin told him: "I'm with him."

Hleizer closed his eyes, he was already disappointed enough anyway.

·

"Hellezer, how is your injury now? Last time I went to look for you, you stopped me at the door again. To be honest, I was a little sad, but I can't understand it. It seems that unconsciously, I I have done a lot of wrong things, and I often think, why did we become like this? In the end, I think it may be because there are many misunderstandings between us that have not been resolved.

I'm going to the authority area soon, authority area 23, I heard that it is a place with difficult conditions, but I think I will definitely become the lord in the end!

I wrote to you this time to tell you... In my eyes, we are still friends, although you may not admit it.

I don't know what went wrong between us, but I always feel that if I don't write this letter, we may never speak again.From childhood to adulthood, the person who has been with me for the longest time is you. No one can take your place. I believe it will still be like this in the future. If I just break up like this, I will be very unwilling, so I wrote this letter.

Sorry, I'm a bit out of line, what I want to say is, no matter what happened to make you angry with me, please allow me to say sorry to you, although I don't quite understand what I did wrong, so I Think, when we meet again, you must tell me, as long as I can do it, I must make it up to you! ! ! "

This letter was the last letter Ji He wrote to Helezel when he left the authority area. It was caught in the door of Helezel's dormitory. The paper was thrown into the trash can.

Looking at it, Helezel smiled.

It turned out that it was so simple to drive away the haze hanging over his head, he couldn't do it himself, but Ji He did it easily.

For four years, during the four years Ji He left, he has been studying.

When we meet again, how should we treat him?

·

Four years later, the pagoda owner named Zhang Ruixin introduced a "mother" to him.

Just the moment he raised his head, Helezel recognized that these were the blue eyes that belonged exclusively to Ji He.

Although this man named Lin Huai was shy and timid, his face was slightly different from the person he had been thinking about day and night.

But Hleizer kept him.

Anyway, if it wasn't Ji He, it wouldn't pose a threat to him.

And if he is Ji He... Helezel lifted Lin Huai's chin, imagining the cursed and most authentic soul in his body under such an appearance.

It's fun isn't it?

Hleizer is almost addicted to this role-playing game.

Several times, he chose to remain silent even though he could expose it directly.

Because this kind of Ji He would not reject him, would not resist him, would not run away from him, and would not make him sad by repeating himself.

He was even afraid that when the game was over, Ji He would return to the way he was indifferent to him at the beginning, so several times, when Ji He was about to reveal his identity, Helezel stopped him in time.

But he was always on the verge of anger, because whenever Helezel couldn't help but get close to Ji He who was pretending to be someone else, he would always wonder if the former Ji He also took on this kind of task , and at this moment, in Ji He's heart, does he only have disgust for his approaching?

In the four years since he left Jihe, his heart was as quiet as stagnant water, and again, when his eyes met him again, he was like an empty wilderness suddenly endowed with endless vitality. In an instant, from barren land to grassland, In the end, it becomes an endless rainforest, which is endlessly abundant from generation to generation.

·

"What's wrong with you?" Eyelids were gently touched by warm force, and Helezel raised his eyes, facing Shang Ji He's eyes, "Why are you listless?"

Ji He tilted his head and stared at him questioningly.

Helezel lowered his eyes expressionlessly, and his gaze swept over every corner of Ji He's body. When he confirmed that the marks on Ji He's body were all left by him, he smiled slightly, and raised his arms to hug Ji He. waist.

"I had a nightmare." He said sullenly.

Above the head, the strength from Ji He made Helezel feel at ease.

"Are you afraid?" Ji He asked him.

Helezel shook his head, with Ji He here, what else is he afraid of?

"I'm going to open a window." Ji He held Helezel's face and kissed him lightly again.

Looking at the back of Ji He walking towards the window, Helezel narrowed his eyes slowly.

Sunlight poured in from the window, shining on every corner of the room, but Helezel only saw that Ji He's figure was coated with a layer of light.

The coup has just passed, and the two who have adapted to the abnormal life are not used to facing each other in such a daily life.

"Let's go, let's have breakfast." Ji He grinned.

"...Well." Hellezel got up and walked to him.

Today is an ordinary day with Ji He.

The author says:

It's over!Thank you for your support along the way!bow! !There is no update because I have been too busy recently (at the end of the period, you know), the ending of everyone in the follow-up episode will slowly drop!

Followed by the new article "The Man Who Lives in My Body", the gloomy and vicious tongue beauty Gong x greedy for beauty soberly suffer, it is absolutely beautiful!