Zerg friends are also delicious

With the beginning of the new semester, Eden entered a period of development.

He smells...you don't know how to describe it.You just know that the moment has finally arrived.

You are caught off guard.In your plan, this important node should have happened two years ago.He will find the female he likes, and you will distance yourself little by little without any trace.

In this way, the new habit will quietly occupy the gap after separation.And the transition time of dozens of months will make you feel less pain for each other.

You didn't expect it to come so late.Late Every day your resolve falters so much that you don't know how to speak.

He often talks about the September start season.Talk about projects you've discussed together, painting scenarios that seem within reach.

It was a wonderful dream.You want to wallow in it.One more second is one second.

So you tell yourself: wait for the last semester to start.Wait until the actual application process begins.Then, you don't need to reveal everything.As smart as Eden, he would soon discover how ridiculous that agreement was.

You know very well how many worms will jump up with their chrysalis for joy once you give up that position.You also know what it's like to have your shattered heart crushed to powder under your feet when he shows a real smile to another worm.

Thanks Lucian.He did a rehearsal for you.

Instead of living in the panic of losing every day, it is better to let go actively.It doesn't matter if the evacuation is late, as long as it is firm enough.

You start pushing him towards Brian.The adult female you've investigated the background, studied the biography, observed their interactions.He fits all your expectations.He will take good enough care of Eden.

You designed everything.But forget, Eden was never your pawn.

***

He kissed you.

Before this kiss, you didn't think it was that hard to let go.

After that kiss, you realize you want him more than you know.It was a great longing to be burned by the light and not want to leave.They hold your throat, and whisper in your ear every moment of waking up or falling asleep: I like it.like.Really like.I like it very much.

You don't want to leave.I don't want to give up that position.

What if?What if?In case Eden...

I like you too?

You imagined the future you would have while panting, trembling with joy for that slight possibility.Your heart is like a bird out of the cage, wandering in the sky, singing the beauty of life.

Expectation is a dull blade.It gives you the hope of life, and cruelly cuts off the ropes that connect you.So you fell into the abyss, covered in bruises.

Your hair, your skin, your knuckles start to flake off.Your joints, bones, and internal organs start to burst.Your heartbeat, pulse, and breathing all but disappear.

Just friends?Just a pheromone anomaly?

Eden said that only ignorance can produce love.He is wrong.Because if he's right, what is this fire that burns you every minute, every second, without end?

You like him so much that every cell is screaming, every heartbeat is his rhythm, and you feel that you have exhausted your life.But why can't he hear or see?

If you were born a few years earlier.If you had realized what he meant to you earlier.If you make up your mind earlier.Will everything be completely different?

You know the answer.

The answer is no.

You are the root of all problems.It is your cowardice that traps you between hope and despair.It is your low self-esteem that turns into shackles and entangles your progress.

The world will not give you everything you want just because you pray in your heart day and night.The more beautiful and precious something is, the more you need to fight for it with all your strength, and you will never back down even if your head is broken.

It was you who hurt Eden while bringing yourself pain.

In the drizzling rain, Eden knocked on your door.

Again.

He was tired and vulnerable, lost and helpless.But he still bent his eyes, opened his arms towards you, crossed the walls you built, and walked firmly into your world.

"No worm will replace you. Because you are Seth. The most intimate place around me will only belong to you."

This word is a curse.With magic power, it restructures your broken tendons, broken muscles, and criss-crossed bones.

He cares about you.

Only you have heard this phrase.No matter what the future holds, at least in the past 20 years, at least in the short present, no worm can surpass your position in his heart.

You should be content.Master of the universe, you have nothing more to ask for.

***

Under the dual effects of alcohol and pheromone, Eden kissed you again.

This time you kissed him back.

Eden is your magnetic pole, the permanent destination of your heart, where your body desperately wants to be.

Your body is burning with thirst.You are so happy that no words can describe it.

You want to give him everything.Whatever he wants.Your future, your life, your soul.As long as he wants.As long as he speaks.

But you choose to pretend that nothing happened.Pretend everything is still going according to plan.

You don't want to keep asking that question you already knew the answer to.

There are three more months.Only three months.You want to say good-bye to him dignifiedly and put a perfect end to your 20-year friendship.

this is you.

You don't think you deserve it.I don't want to fall into the phantom of expectation again.You don't have the courage to go through it again.

Because if you do it again, you will definitely kneel down and beg with all your shame, and even throw away all your dignity.

Even if Eden likes you, what can you give Eden?

Family?Looster is almost on an equal footing with the royal family.

resource?The Grand Duke of Looster and Marshal Clive stand at the top of the empire.

Worth of a bug?By himself alone, Eden can get any worm he wants.

And you occupy his place of female monarch, but you can't even guide him to complete an awakening successfully.

With you, Eden would just sink into a sinking vortex.He has to scruple the extremely complicated rules of the royal family, endure your inexplicable bad temper, and at the same time be seized by your greed for the last breathing space.

That's right.You are an extremist.You are sinister, cruel, suspicious and jealous.Once started, you will never allow other bugs to intervene.

You've mentally chopped off the hands of those females that touched Iden.Also fantasized about blasting unsightly bugs into the mud with a pulse gun.

It has nothing to do with who you are.This is nature.Ethics, morals, and legal norms mean nothing to you.

There is a beast lurking inside of you.In the past, it fell asleep.Now, it roars day and night, roaring endlessly.

Again……

No.There will never be another time.

***

You can no longer see Eden.

Every breath he takes, every gaze he casts, and every word he utters, is a catalyst to accelerate the burning of your rational nerves.

As long as you're with him, you're like a mad bug.Determination, planning, consideration, gains and losses no longer exist.You only have him in your eyes, his voice in your ears, and his taste in your nose and tongue.

The pain of actively pulling away is comparable to the pain of staying with Eden.

You turn off the terminal, refuse to communicate, force yourself to forget his message after message, and for the first time, you even know that he needs you and refuse to respond.

Eden is sick.Eden is sick.Eden is sick.

These words keep running through your mind.

You can't help but touch Eden.The real Eden.Not the words he wrote down.Not those pictures you secretly took.Not a video of your past.

You're like a drug-addicted bug.Knowing what is waiting for you ahead, but still deceiving yourself, telling yourself that you only need a little, just a little.

you go.You roll in the window of his house to stop other bugs from interrupting your stolen time.You hug him tightly.Imagine that this might be the last hug between you.Then you allow yourself to hug for a second longer.Another second.Another second.

You didn't expect him to mind Joplin that much.He looks super cute when he thinks about it.Seriously frowning and curling lips are so vivid and bright.Most of all, there's a tension and confirmation in his slightly higher-than-normal voice.

He is jealous.

The fact that you can't help yourself—

You kissed him.

***

You escaped.Very embarrassed.

Your fiery body boils.You dip it in ice water and tell yourself over and over again that you can't do it again.

You missed appointments for no reason.No explanation is given.

You're such a jerk, aren't you?

But you have to.You have to let this little disappointment, this little bit of dissatisfaction, build up.Let these ambiguous borders disappear in smoke.Make Eden clear about his goals.Make your departure traceable.

You must keep your distance.

You escaped for half a month.It was not until the school sent an interview invitation due to too few days of attendance that you had to step into Muronia again.

Before that, you ordered a new product from RAS.You have no preference for all foods.You sign up for membership, recharge regularly, and refresh with pinch points just for that male worm.By the time you realize it, the cake in the freezer has been delivered to Pat.

【Feel sorry.You throw it away. 】

【Such a waste.Just in time for afternoon tea. 】

You change your clothes, get on the suspension car, and look at the afterimages left by the lush trees on the car window.

The inverted hourglass keeps going day and night.Spring is already half over.Your last days are few and far between.

Hi miss Eden.Miss him so much, miss him so much.

Even if it's just to look at his nameplate and smell his scent.Just a little.Just a little.

Panting, you jump out of the car, grab the cryobox, and run down the hallway at lunchtime.

You wake up the locker's input panel and enter the alphanumeric combination without hesitation.The green light comes on, and you smell Eden's pheromones.

The combination to his locker is your birthday.As in all your passwords are Eden's birthday.

This is your tacit understanding.Your unique bond.Now, you will cut it off with your own hands.You drop your eyes, your heart aches and your fingers tremble.

After speaking with the principal, you went to see Joplin.He has some news about Novelissen, and he wants to talk to you face to face.

he is very smart.I guessed your identity just based on the reports from Starnet and my own deduction.

He is very strange.As the successor worm of a prominent family, he gave up the prosperity and comfort of the central galaxy, and insisted on spending the best years of his life in the icy fields and howling winds.

"Why should I go to Norfressen?"

At your question, Joplin raised his hand to his mouth and grinned under the cover of a cigarette.

"Because there are important insects I want to see." Smoke overflowed from his lips, covering his eyebrows and eyes.

"Too long...too long..." he murmured.

"Your Highness, you are not the only one who is suffering. You want to escape. And I, with my body broken into pieces, want to get closer."

You are startled by the weight of those light words.However, he has quickly adjusted his expression: "So, be my dance partner, Your Highness. Anyway, I don't like it, so why don't we make do with each other."

"Think of it as assistance between friends."

"friend?"

"What? Your Highness thinks that I am not worthy?"

of course not.You didn't expect to gain so-called "friends" in this situation.The word has always been exclusive to Eden.

You rush to deny it.The stuttering that I hadn't committed for a long time came suddenly.Half a minute passed without you uttering a single word.

Joplin laughed.There was something strangely infectious about his laugh.The stone that weighed heavily on your heart seemed to lighten a bit.

When you come back to yourself, you find yourself laughing too.

***

Eden noticed.

He knows your retreat and has insight into your plans.There was incredible helplessness and heartbreak in his eyes.

Your heart is beating wildly.Your blood runs cold.You clearly planned everything, but when he appeared, everything went haywire.

He hissed and growled.He kissed desperately and frantically.He gives you the faint hope that is close at hand but out of reach.

You hate it all.You just want to be free.You pushed him away hard.

His expression scares you.You are shaking all over.You can't come any closer.Get any closer and you'll have nothing left.

"Xiao Yi... Actually, there are some things that I have always wanted to tell you... but I don't know how to say them..."

You have been friends for 20 years.You know how to pierce his disguise and drive that knife into his chest.

you made it.The sky fell apart, and the sky fell.it's all over.Indulging in false dreams.Sweet and painful torture.

This is obviously what you want, and you have already expected that this will not be an easy task...

But no worm ever told you it was going to hurt that much, it hurt that much.

Every cell in you hurts, and every nerve ending trembles in agony.It hurts so much that you want to cry out, but you can't make a sound.It hurts so much that you want to cry, but you can't shed a single tear.

***

"Don't let yourself regret it, Seth."

Lucian told you so.

No, all this has not started yet, and you are too late to regret it.

The image of Eden curled up in Brian's arms becomes your new nightmare.It's [-] times more terrifying than you ever imagined.

You are falling, falling and falling.You never bottom out.

This is the endless abyss.And this time, he won't reach out to you again.

In the sky, the stars keep twinkling.In the ear, the stream flows quietly.In front of my eyes, weeds grow wantonly.

You pray to the starlight.

If you want to separate, please take all your memories with you.

Or turn the river against the flow and bring you back to that summer night.

"Seth, look at this."

Footsteps sounded from behind.Hugh throws a stack of documents into your hand.

A few minutes later, you sat up abruptly and looked at him with your most determined eyes.

"Father, I'm going."

On this day, there are still two months before the arrival of summer.

Your escape plan has failed.

Even in pain, you don't want to look away again.

You just want to watch him and go back to him.

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感谢在2022-01-0809:00:00~2022-01-0909:00:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Yaohuan, turn around the moon one by one;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigated the nutrient solution: 22 bottles of Hahaha; 8 bottles of Xi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!