no wind in the valley

On the way home, it has been very quiet, and the car window has passed through the already green trees.

How can it be so dark in April?

Shi Yan's red and swollen face was printed upside down on the car window...

When Shi Yan entered his bedroom, he saw the messy desk, and the things on it had disappeared.

A dull ache in the temples...

Li Ying followed behind her, "I put the things away for you, and I will return them to you after this matter is over."

"...Okay..." Shi Yan felt very tired, and the sense of powerlessness was most obvious at this moment.

"Mom, I know you don't object to my sexual orientation...but why don't you let us be together?" She could see that Li Ying had been helping her. Without her, today's trouble might have been even worse.

Li Ying took her daughter to sit down and put her arms around her: "Your current age, and that child's family."

"Your grandma has always said that you are right, you should know."

All Shi Yan's grievances and unwillingness and her mother's support made her hug Li Ying and cry in her arms.

Just cry out, mom knows how hard you are.

Li Ying hugged Shi Yan all the time, comforting her non-stop.Touching the red and swollen half of his face made him feel uncomfortable.

Seeing this scene at the door, Shiting wanted to step into the bedroom, but changed another direction and left here.

He felt that he was not wrong, it was for the good of the child, and that she was still young so that she could return to the right path in time.

But seeing his child crying so sad in his mother's arms, he felt that he was a sinner again, as if he had forced the two to separate.

However, now that the first step has been made, the second step must be taken.

"Hey, Lao Zhang...I'm Lao Shi...I have something to ask you..."

That night, Shi Yan packed his luggage and left Nancheng.

Back in Beicheng, her mobile phone and various communication tools were confiscated by Shi Hall.

"Dad..." Shi Yan begged him, because Shi Ting asked her to delete Zhou Qiyao and cut it clean.

Shiting rarely saw his daughter looking at him with pleading eyes, turning his head to one side, but his tone was no exception: "It's useless, break it clean!"

"If you still think about that woman, I'll ask her in front of her, what's good, and turn your fans around!"

It turned out that the closest father would also threaten... Shi Yan's mind flashed Fan Ning's face, and she seemed to see the overlapping of Fan Ning's and Shi Ting's faces, and her headache was even more severe.

From WeChat to the photo album, there is no longer Zhou Qiyao in it.

Shi Yan looked at the photo album, and it was ridiculous that after being together for so long, there were so few photos of the two of them together, even if there were only Zhou Qiyao's single photos, she saved them one by one from Zhou Qiyao's circle of friends during the period of crush.

Shi Yan put the phone in Shi Tang's hand, his eyelashes trembled, and a tear ran down his face: "Are you satisfied?"

"I'm not going to have any more contact with her."

"...all...let it go..."

It seems to say to myself, it seems to say to Shi Ting, and it seems to say to Zhou Qiyao.

His eyes slowly lost focus, and there was only a nervous voice calling his name in his ears: Yanyan!

-

When I woke up and smelled a disinfectant smell, I knew I was in the hospital.

A male voice could be heard outside: "Old Shi, you are really good. The child has hypoglycemia and high fever. You, a doctor, didn't notice it. You have to take good care of the child when you are busy with work."

"I know, I know…"

Li Ying was sitting next to her, looking at the medical literature in her hand.

"mom…"

Only then did Li Ying raise her head, "I'm awake, do you want some water?"

Shi Yan nodded, and felt dizzy when he moved.

"You have a high fever, it's almost 40 degrees Celsius, and you're not afraid of burning yourself stupid." Li Ying helped Shi Yan up, put a straw into the cup and fed her: "Are you hungry?"

Long time no concern.

When Li Ying asked, Shi Yan remembered that she hadn't eaten much since yesterday, so she nodded.

"Let your dad buy some for you later."

"..." Shi Yan didn't want to see Shi Ting.

Although her father in her impression is very serious, he is very kind to herself, will understand her own thoughts, and will let herself complete the things she chooses.

Although during this period of time, I often asked myself to go back to school because of my academic performance, but it was not like this.

What happened this time made her feel that the slap on the face interrupted her picture of the tall and stalwart father in her impression.

Now the person in my heart is an unreasonable person who threatens my weakness and persecutes me.

"Mom, can you give me back what Yaoyao gave me?" Shi Yan asked.

I don't know why, but Li Ying can't see the light in Shi Yan's eyes. That sunny, cheerful and smiling girl has changed.

"When you're better, I'll pay you back... don't let your dad see it."

"Thank you mom..."

"Drink some more water."

Shiting heard the whispers of the mother and daughter at the door, and he didn't know what to do.

Shi Yan lived in the hospital for two days and was fine. When he got home, Shi Ting asked him to pack his luggage and send her to his grandmother's house in the countryside.

I also found a nanny for myself, to be precise, it should supervise me.

"I don't want it!" This was the first time she yelled at Shi Hall in the past few days.

"If you don't want it, you have to!" Shi Ting's exhaustion was visible during this period, and the black circle in front of his eyes was very thick.

"It's only April, how long do you plan to keep me under surveillance?" Shi Yan asked coldly.

Li Ying didn't let Shiting talk any more, she told her: "Your father contacted Beijing Medical University to let you go to the matching school in country S for the first five years, and see if you can return to China when you are in graduate school." This means that you may be abroad while studying in graduate school.

"Don't let me come back again?" Shi Yan didn't look at Li Ying, but kept looking at Shi Hall on the side.

It turned out that Yaoyao and I were not the only ones who broke off the relationship, "You want to break off all my friends, don't you?"

"With them, you will only be even more unsightly. I don't allow you to have contact with them!" Shi Ting finished speaking and left.

"Mom...he has become a stranger..."

Li Ying looked at the man who was no longer energetic, and was dejectedly packing her luggage in the room.

She turned around and went to the bedroom to take a bag of things: "Take it."

Shi Yan took it and looked at the contents inside. The joy of getting it back was not too much, but more sad.

She didn't know if Zhou Qiyao really didn't love her anymore, or if she never had feelings for her from the beginning to the end.

Or Zhou Qiyao was also warned by Fan Ning... These are all her guesses. When she left that day, Zhou Qiyao was still so indifferent.

.....................

Life in the countryside gave Shi Yan a feeling of returning to nature.

It's not that the development in the countryside is not good, it's because she doesn't have any high-tech products, and the only thing she can make calls is the landline at grandma's house.

I get up at eight o'clock every morning, run in the morning on the asphalt trails in the country, watch the short TV series with my grandmother at night, and go to bed on time at eleven o'clock.

Supervising my aunt, in addition to cooking, is to see if she secretly asks someone to borrow a mobile phone to call someone.

The employer told her not to let Shi Yan touch any high-tech products.She didn't know why, but she just did it anyway.

Although grandma is over 70, she is very energetic and can play Tai Chi fan and foil sword in the morning.

There is also a vegetable field in the yard, so grandma took Shi Yan to help her sow seeds and grow vegetables.

"Yanyan, this month, I don't think you really want to accompany me as an old woman." Grandma squatted on the ground to set up a shelf for the seedlings, and asked Shi Yan who had been looking at the ground.

Shi Yan scratched his head, because he was distracted, very embarrassed: "Grandma, no."

With mud in her hand, grandma dabbed on Shi Yan's face, "Little liar."

Grandma stood up, Shi Yan hurriedly supported her who was a little dizzy when she stood up suddenly.

The grandparents and grandchildren walked to the faucet with their arms to wash their hands.

"I can see that you have something on your mind. Your parents arranged a nanny for you, and I knew it was to watch you when I got up." Grandma washed her hands and sat down under the gazebo with Shi Yan.

"Nowadays young people don't have a mobile phone or something. If you want to borrow my old woman's mobile phone, you will be watched by the nanny."

Grandma rubbed Shi Yan's head with her hands, "Yanyan, I don't know what's going on with you and your family, but when I'm here, just relax and stop holding back."

"This is a place for me to relax and enjoy this small village without smog."

Grandma got up, "I'll take a nap, so don't stay in my yard every day, you won't get tired of panic."

Shi Yan looked at the back of his grandmother walking into the house, and tears fell down again.

She hadn't cried for a long time, and this time she was infected by her grandmother's words, obviously she didn't say a few words, which really made her cold heart feel the warmth of her family.

Plus today is Youth Day - 54th.

The flowers should have been delivered, and the letter must have been read...

I haven't spent your birthday with you yet, so I left.

Shi Yan took down a necklace from his neck, on which hung a pair of rings she made.

A birthday present that has no chance to be given out, this is Shi Yan's only thought.

On the day she came to the country, Shi Ting opened her suitcase, and inside it was the things Zhou Qiyao gave her.

In front of Shi Yan and Li Ying, Shiting dropped the handle, burned the cards and small notes written on it, and the cute SpongeBob SquarePants watch that Zhou Qiyao gave her for her birthday was trampled to pieces.

Shiyan has a boyish personality since I was a child. I often watched Ultraman when I was a child, and I like to imitate the actions in it every time to protect the world.

I also like to wear a bed sheet as a cape, which is inspired by the cartoon "The Lion King".

I want to be happy every day, laughing loudly, "Who is ready", "I'm ready!" dialogue.

Only now did she know that when she grew up, the things she naively thought were all false when she was a child.

She has no light, cannot be a hero, and is no longer happy.

Her last tenacity was destroyed by her father himself.

Happy birthday, Bureaucrat Zhou.

.........

From mid-April to the end of August, Shi Yan stayed in the country for nearly four months, and Shi Yan also started school.

Shi Ting and Li Ying sent her to the airport.

The two of them couldn't bear it when they looked at the skinny child who followed the pole.

During this period of time, Shi Yan never answered Shiting's calls, and she rarely chatted with Li Ying's calls, and Li Ying basically talked about it.

Li Ying gave Shi Yan a new mobile phone, "The calling card in it has been installed for you, now I don't care about you."

Li Ying also sent her the notebook and tablet to the school over there.

Shi Yan looked at the phone in his hand that he hadn't seen for a long time, and smiled, but he didn't feel very happy, and she didn't know the contact information of those people: "Thank you, Mom."

When it was time to register, Shi Ting asked Shi Yan, "Are you hating Dad?"

Shi Yan shook his head, "No."

"Then during your time..."

"I already knew that it was impossible for me and Zhou Qiyao. I have met her mother many times, and every time she asked me to leave Zhou Qiyao. I was very naive at the beginning and always thought that if two people were firm together, they would not be separated." Shi Yan lowered his head and touched a pair of rings through his clothes, without letting Shi Ting see.

"Later, I found out that I was too naive... I couldn't overcome the secular world and I couldn't overcome a person's letting go. Without you, I would break up with her, she said she didn't love me..."

"I'm just disappointed in you...Your strength is because you destroyed those things in front of me and made me lose my respect for my father."

"Don't worry... I won't come back before graduation..." Shi Yan just felt a little bit reluctant to Li Ying, "I will prove you wrong by myself. I owe you the tuition fee for this semester and the living expenses you gave me. Wait. I have the ability to give it back to you."

Shi Yan is not stupid and sweet. When he arrives in a strange place, he needs money to buy some daily necessities.

She still needs money from Shiting, but when life there is stable, she will be on her own.

Shi Ting moved his lips, not knowing what to say, watching Shi Yan pull his luggage, passed the security check, and was no longer seen.

"This is the result you want. You shouldn't have ruined her thoughts." Li Ying said.

Shi Ting felt that he had done nothing wrong: "Give her those things, and she still won't let them go."

Li Ying shook her head: "You are a doctor, you know that txl is not a disease. Your stubborn appearance now makes me think you are unreasonable.

The child has already been separated from you. When she comes back in a few years, if she keeps alienating you like this, you will know how much you will regret it. "

"... "

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When Shi Yan got off the plane, she was out of place in a strange country with strange skin and face.

Pulling the suitcase out of the airport, a Chinese girl holding a sign outside, saw Shi Yan coming out, and ran over happily.

"You are Shi Yan, right!" the girl ran to Shi Yan and asked happily in Chinese.

Shi Yan saw that the sign in her hand was written in Chinese—"Welcome, Shi Yan!"

"I am, are you?" Shi Yan also communicated in Mandarin, and he was very friendly when meeting fellow villagers in a foreign country.

The girl held out her hand, "I'm your classmate, Li Jia."

Shi Yan also shook hands with her politely, "Hello."

It was only later that I found out that Li Jia reported early and was specially arranged to pick her up.

They lived in a dormitory with a local girl named Lisa.

The dormitory is like an apartment, with one room per person, one kitchen and living room, and three bathrooms.

I have to say that this is a good school, and Shi Yan is very satisfied with these.

Lisa is a sweet girl with an open personality. For feelings, in Chinese words: she wants to give everyone a home.

Li Chengshu has a carefree personality, which is similar to Shi Yan's personality, and he can chat with Shi Yan every time.

Life abroad is not bad, but Shi Yan has to work part-time every day.

Leaving early and returning late, plus the pressure of studying medicine is still high.

Li Jia looked at the tired man who returned late: "Shi Yan, I think you were bald earlier than us."

"Don't worry, I eat black sesame seeds every day."

Li Jia didn't understand, "Your family is not bad, why are you working so hard?"

Shi Yan took out his own necklace, touched the ring on it, and rang a few times: "I want to have the right to speak, so that I can get what I want."

"You have a story." Li Jia looked like she wanted to hear it.

Shi Yan laughed and said, "Do you have any wine? Hahahaha."

Lisa also came back at this time, smelling of cigarettes and alcohol all over her body, with a few bottles of wine in her hand...

Shi Yan: "..." This is outrageous.

Hahahahaha, Li Jia laughed from ear to ear, "What a coincidence!"

Lisa didn't know how she made people so happy when she came back, so she found out after asking, and then she also sat on the sofa next to her, as if she wanted to listen.

Shi Yan raised her forehead, she didn't know that foreigners like to gossip like Aunt Li at the entrance of the village.

Lisa also opened the wine, "Come on, Yan, let's talk while drinking."

There is no way, Shi Yan took a sip and fell into memories: "I was sitting on the upper bunk on the bed that day, and a girl pushed the door and entered..."

The author has something to say:

Maybe from the beginning of watching Shi Tang, he is a good father, to the middle part, Shi Tang will be very stubborn and self-reliant and ask Shi Yan to do everything well, and now he is crazy.

Shi Ting and Li Ying will let Shi Yan let go of some things and let her choose, but the premise is that these things in Shi Yan are safe and normal, and they can play under their own control.

However, the things that Shi Yan has done now are out of control, which led to these situations.