After taking the cub of the rival in love

I don't know how many times he went over the speed and how many red lights, Cheng Mu finally stopped the car, slammed his fist on the steering wheel, and after a while, he covered his hands and frowned tightly: "Hiss..."

After the pain in his hands was not so strong, Cheng Mu put his arms on the steering wheel and leaned his head up. His eye circles were slightly red, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath, feeling extremely uncomfortable in his heart .

If you eat Huanglian, the unspeakable bitterness will spread on the tip of your tongue, and you can't spit it out.

Cheng Mu wondered what he didn't do well that made it so difficult for Xu Shan to trust him. Those former playmates had already left the relationship behind when he made up his mind to chase him, and let Xu Shan chase him It was true that he had some bad thoughts at the time, but after being together, he really put people on the tip of his heart and hurt.

He doesn't say how much he has paid for Xu Shan, but he really likes this person. The person he knows he likes at the first sight is different from the previous ones.That young face was clean and pure. Cheng Mu liked his shy smile, his stuttering when he was nervous, and his dazed expression. It was so cute.

But the sense of alienation that couldn't be dispelled made him very powerless. He tried hard to get into Xu Shan's heart, but there was always a barrier.The thank you when I bought him a cake, and the flustered sorry after being stepped on by him accidentally, the last thing he likes to hear is Xu Shan saying these two words to him.

Lie on the steering wheel for a while, Cheng Mu slowly opened his eyes, turned his head and let out a long sigh, sat up and stepped on the accelerator to turn the car around.

Driving back to the place where Xu Shan got off just now, Cheng Mu stared at a window on the apartment floor for a long time, his eyes were deep, as if some emotions were surging, and finally returned to calm.

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It rained all night, and Xu Shan listened to the sound of rain all night.

The night was quiet, except for the patter of the rain on the glass, there was no extra sound, the air in the bed was thin, and he could hear his breath so heavily.

The quilt facing the face was wet a lot, Xu Shan bit his lips to prevent himself from crying, he didn't want to cry, crying is a coward's behavior, but emotions involved the lacrimal gland, tears rolled out in a strand , I can't stop it.

When he was a child, relatives at home often told him to be obedient and obedient, otherwise his mother would remarry and give him a younger brother, and then he would be abandoned.He can't stop his mother from remarrying, and he can't stop his mother from giving birth to younger brothers and sisters. The only thing he can do is to be good so that his mother won't abandon him.

But he is so obedient, Cheng Mu still doesn't want him.

Xu Shan stretched out a hand from under the quilt to find the mobile phone, but suddenly remembered that the mobile phone had been left in Cheng Mu's office, and withdrew her hand again. After a while, a very soft and very hoarse voice came from the quiet room: " What do you like? I can change it..."

He sobbed softly, with tears all over his face: "I can really change it, you still want me, I'm very obedient."

What answered him was still the patter of the rain on the window sill, which was extremely indifferent.

Xu Shan suddenly remembered the gossip he had heard in the company.

In fact, many people who have gone abroad do not believe that he graduated from a first-class university. Even though his grades are still in the top three in the class, he does not have the temperament of a first-class university.Mu Shi didn't have a secretary, and the assistant's job was no different from that of a secretary. Xu Shan was also happy that he had found a good job with his real skills, so he could honor his mother well.

However, his colleagues privately discussed that he stayed in the Mu family because of his boss's friend. Later, more and more people started gossiping, and they didn't even bother to tell him behind his back. Xu Shan also began to wonder if it was because of Cheng Mu's It was because of him that he was kept. After all, there are so many people who are better than him. There are even many people who have returned from studying abroad and want to have a foothold here. I am not as good as them. Why? will be left behind.

Sniffing, Xu Shan wiped tears on the quilt, lifted the quilt, got out of bed and walked to the bathroom.

"Snapped."

With a clear sound, the suddenly bright bathroom made Xu Shan, who had been in the dark all the time, squint his eyes uncomfortably, and after washing his face, he raised his head, obviously a little absent-minded.

The young man in the mirror has red and swollen eyes, messy hair, and no blood on his face. It is estimated that his eyes will be severely swollen tomorrow.

He wanted to pull the corner of his mouth and smile, but no matter how ugly he smiled, his eyes were a little blurry, Xu Shan hurriedly raised his hand to wipe his eyes, took another look in the mirror, turned around, turned off the light and went out.

Walking to the bed and sitting down, he picked up the small alarm clock on the bedside table and checked the time in the dim light. It was four o'clock, but he still didn't feel sleepy.

Looking down at the floor for a long time, Xu Shan took a coat and put it on, and walked slowly to the window.

It was still raining outside, the sky was gloomy, the thick clouds could not see a little light, the street lights were dim, and there was no one on the street, except for a few cars passing by occasionally.

He spent the second half of the night sitting by the window, his mind was muddled and he didn't know what he was thinking.The night wind blew his face numb, and he watched the lights of the shops on the street light up, the number of pedestrians and vehicles gradually increased, and dawn ushered in the dark and heavy rainy day.

It's just that Xu Shan didn't expect that he would see Cheng Mu after opening the door. He still clenched his hand into a fist, probably wanting to knock on the door, but he didn't expect him to open the door so unexpectedly.

But Cheng Mu was stunned for two seconds before realizing it, put down his hand and took a step to hold his face, his brows were tightly locked: "Why are your eyes so swollen, you didn't cry all night, did you?"

His body was wrapped in a layer of cold air, Xu Shan's fingers accidentally touched his clothes, and the coolness penetrated from his fingertips, which was lower than his temperature after sitting by the window for several hours.

"You...won't you sit outside all night, right?" Xu Shan's head became even more confused, and the tip of her nose felt a little sour looking at that face.

Cheng Mu directly ignored this question, and touched and touched his eyes distressedly, "Didn't you apply a hot handkerchief? Why are you so ignorant of yourself? Look how swollen it is."

He sighed in a low voice, a little annoyed: "Even if I really don't want you, you can't do this...how can I rest assured that you are like this..."

Xu Shan's eyes brightened slightly, "Then you still want me, don't you?"

Cheng Mu didn't answer him directly, but hugged him tightly, and said in a muffled voice, "I thought about it for a long time yesterday, and I can't figure out what I did wrong..."

"No, you're fine..."

Xu Shan said anxiously, but was interrupted by Cheng Mu: "Let me finish, Shanshan."

"I've really thought about it for a long time, I'm going to break my head but I can't think of a reason, but it's true that it didn't give you a sense of security. Yesterday I asked you why you didn't tell me when you were bullied. You said you were afraid of causing trouble to me. In fact, I am very angry, you make me feel that I am useless."

Xu Shan opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything, so he had to hold him tighter.

"So yesterday when I said I didn't want you, I was angry. Really, I was too angry and sad." Cheng Mu paused, "But after calming down, I started to reflect on myself, whether I don't know you well enough, but you also Don't hide yourself in the shell, I know you are a single-parent family, maybe you are more sensitive because of the environment you grew up in, but you have been shutting yourself in the shell, and I have been unable to really hug you. "

"...When I was young, my mother was busy with work, and my father was gone. She wanted to earn money to support my family, so she often put me in my uncle's house." Xu Shan's Adam's apple moved slightly, and he buried his head in his arms, a little choked: "But aunt They hate me very much. They don’t care if my cousins ​​hit me, and I can’t fight back. If I fight back, I will be beaten by a bamboo stick. I will not be allowed to eat for a day when I stand in the corner. She said that I am a wild child that no one wants. An uncle, and then he won’t want me anymore.”

Their words were so vicious that children of a few years old would remember them for a lifetime.

"Cheng Mu, I'm very scared, I'm afraid that my mother really doesn't want me anymore."

Cheng Mu's heart aches when he thinks about it.

"Actually, I also know that I have a personality problem. I am timid in doing things. It is difficult for others to like it. I also want to be more cheerful. I want to act like a baby with you so that I won't embarrass you." Tears welled up and rubbed on my face Cheng Mu's clothes were smudged with a series of dark colors: "But it's so difficult, and I'm afraid you won't want me."

"No, Shanshan." Cheng Mu lowered his head and kissed him, wishing to show him his heart, "How could I not want you, I want it."

"Yesterday you said you didn't want me anymore." Xu Shan was brooding over this matter.

Being slapped in the face quickly, Cheng Mu touched his nose, "I will never say such things again, trust me."

Xu Shan bent the corner of his mouth and said softly: "Okay."

He was silent for a while, then said softly, "Thank you."

"Actually, Shanshan, there are more beautiful words in this world than sorry and these."

"Well, what?"

"I love you."

Seeing Xu Shan raised her head and looked at herself with trembling lips, Cheng Mu smiled: "In the future, when you want to say thank you or sorry, then say I love you, and take it as thank you and sorry, I love this sentence talk."

Xu Shan wiped away her tears, and smiled at Cheng Mu: "I love you."

"You don't know how good you are. What other people say is really not that important. The most important thing is to live a happy life." Cheng Mu touched his face, "In the future, you have to live for yourself, blindly pleasing others will only make you happy." practiced himself."

"I know it's impossible to change your personality all at once, so take your time and I'll be with you. So, is your account book here?"

He changed the topic a little quickly, Xu Shan couldn't react for a while: "What?"

Cheng Mu took a deep breath and looked at him very seriously, "Do you have the household registration book and ID card with you? I thought about it for a long time last night, and finally figured it out. Since I can't give you a sense of security, let's get married." .”

He rang Cheng's parents and mother's house at two o'clock in the morning. The old couple were completely confused by the sentence I was going to get married before going out with the household registration booklet.

Where are you going to get married in the middle of the night?Oh no, who are you marrying!

Cheng Mu sat in front of Xu Shan's door all night with his household registration book, thinking about many things in a mess, but the only thing he was most determined about was getting married.

Then get married.