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"I think it's a symptom..." Xie Liaoyuan thought for a while with a smile, "Will you hold grudges when you recover? If you don't, I agree with you."

Lan Chiyang didn't even move, thinking he shouldn't talk to Xie Liaoyuan anymore, his circuits were so clear, his mind hurts if he wanted to keep up with him.

"Brother Lang, look, although I'm poor and white, I have arms and legs, which is more than enough for you... Don't feel unworthy, it's okay for me to suffer a little, we can get along..."

Stretching out his hand to pinch Xie Liaoyuan's mouth, Lan Chiyang got up and looked at him, and said seriously: "Okay, I will hold grudges and double."

"You still want to gag me when you feel uncomfortable? Are you motivated subjectively?"

"If you keep talking, you will have the motivation to kill you." The voice of saying this became smaller and smaller, and Lan Chiyang seemed to have exhausted his strength.

"Brother Lang, you can't kill me like this..."

"Well... I'll bite you to death when I'm well..."

"At that time, you can't bear to..."

"……"and.West.group.hate.

"I'm not talking anymore, I'm going to sleep."

"..."

"I don't turn off the lights, can I watch you?"

"..."

"Put your head here..." Patting his chest, Xie Liaoyuan pressed Lan Chiyang's head into his arms.

"Xie Liaoyuan..." There was a feeling of being too annoyed by this guy to have a depression attack. Lan Chiyang listened to his strong heartbeat, his eyes were bulging with copper bells, he had no choice but to yell out his anger a little name.

"Hey." The answer was quick and crisp, "What's the matter?"

"I..." Lan Chiyang pushed away someone's hand that quickly touched his face, turned over and got up, knelt on the bed and looked at Xie Liaoyuan who was lying flat, took a deep breath, and said quickly: " I got this disease because I was educated in public by the class teacher in the first year of high school. Her words did not have the effect of transforming me as she expected. I am a pervert, and then just like in serials and novels, I became the target of being bullied by everyone. People who went to high school after nine years of compulsory education are not as knowledgeable and level as everyone imagined, and they started to bully Things are no different from children. Breaking your things, isolating you, mocking you, the biggest mistake I made myself was choosing to let things go, because I didn’t have a single fucking old classmate in that shitty Guozhong high school , I was scared... Grandma took me to see a doctor to change the environment, but I couldn't get rid of the fear of being forced into a corner and had no way to fight back. I took a break from school for half a year and went to a new high school, a famous third-rate..."

"Third rate...how is it famous?" Xie Liaoyuan pinched Lan Chiyang's wrist and successfully interrupted him, subconsciously thinking that the conversation should slow down.

After saying such a long paragraph, Lan Chiyang felt that he could hardly breathe, and for a moment Lan Chiyang couldn't see anything in front of him...as if he had fallen into endless darkness.

This darkness is so familiar.

Every time Lan Chiyang relapsed, he felt that he was walking in boundless darkness.The boundless darkness made Lan Chiyang breathless, but he didn't dare to run around.

In Lan Chiyang's consciousness, there is an endless abyss at his feet, and the demon of severe depression is calling to him in a low voice.There is an endless cliff beside him. He knows that every time he goes up, he will be one step closer to the blue clouds and blue sky. He also knows that every time he goes up, he must use all his strength to climb up with his hands and feet until his fingertips are bloody. Maybe Linli will have a little bit of progress... From the moment of illness, Lan Chiyang has never stopped.

He knows that depression will follow you like a shadow for a lifetime, affect every aspect of your life, and become a ubiquitous obstacle in your long life... Lan Chiyang was afraid before, and it was because he was afraid that he was in the current situation and entered the stage of treatment After the process, Lan Chiyang decided not to be afraid anymore, never again.

Lan Chiyang's psychiatrist Grandma Jin said that there will always be an end, and Lan Chiyang believed her.

Why study medicine?Lan Chiyang hopes that he can help himself.

The interval between each recurrence becomes longer, and each recurrence time shortens, which is Lan Chiyang's most glorious badge.

The last relapse took six days, and what healed me was the endless starry sky above 4000 meters above sea level in Dajin County. What will it be this time?

Lan Chiyang began to imagine, imagining the reason for this wonderful moment. If possible, Lan Chiyang hoped that the wonderful moment would come sooner...

Xie Liaoyuan stood up, let go of the hand that was holding Lan Chiyang's wrist, and replaced it with a light one, "Exhale... one, two, three, four, five, six, seven..."

Xie Liaoyuan's low voice lingered in Lan Chiyang's ears, and Lan Chiyang breathed according to the rhythm he read, inhaling deeply and exhaling slowly... Lan Chiyang raised his head, he knew that Xie Liaoyuan was In that place, you can see it as long as you look up, as if after passing through the fog, Lan Chiyang finally saw Xie Liaoyuan and his smiling eyes.

Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale...

Lan Chiyang felt that his lungs were filled with air, and his chaotic mind gradually cleared up. He opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound...

do not give up.

Opening his mouth again, Lan Chiyang uttered a word with difficulty, "Because..."

Although I don't know how long it has been, but this word continues the question Xie Liaoyuan asked when he interrupted himself before—"How famous is the third-rate high school?"

At this moment, Lan Chiyang wanted to answer his question.

But after the word was finished, Lan Chiyang paused.At this moment, Lan Chiyang saw Xie Liaoyuan suddenly change the direction of the wind.His eyes that were mesmerizing just now with a gentle smile, now there is a trace of seriousness in both the expression and eyes...

Xie Liaoyuan became nervous.

Xie Liaoyuan like this made Lan Chiyang want to laugh, if he could...

Lan Chiyang smiled.

Lan Chiyang smiled.

Xie Liaoyuan heard Lan Chiyang's soft smile very clearly, this smile came so naturally, just like any other day before.

Because of Lan Chiyang's soft laugh, Xie Liaoyuan stopped counting, pinched Lan Chiyang's hand, looked at Lan Chiyang, kissed Lan Chiyang's palm, back of hand, every a fingertip...

"Because of what?"

Xie Liaoyuan didn't know that when he said this, his voice was so hoarse, as if he hadn't spoken for centuries.

"Hehehe...Because our school's freshmen are very scumbags and the repeat students are very tough..." After Lan Chiyang finished speaking, he stretched out the index finger of the hand that was not pinched by Xie Liaoyuan, and poked gently at the end of Xie Liaoyuan's eyes , so that he closed his eyes and tilted his head, "Relax, there are crow's feet..."

Xie Liaoyuan squeezed his hand again, "Give me a little time. I don't know much about depression. I will use my fastest speed to understand everything about it, give me some time... "

"Xie Liaoyuan..."

"Brother Lan..." Xie Liaoyuan squeezed both of Lan Chiyang's hands tightly, "I... was frightened."

"I want to laugh at you again..." Lan Chiyang replied very fast, so fast that he wondered if he hadn't relapsed.

"Just laugh." Xie Liaoyuan was honest, reached out to pick up his mobile phone, and handed it to Lan Chiyang. There were some words about depression on it, "I just read these things temporarily, saying that I have no interest in everything Losing the ability to feel happiness, I...my most intuitive feeling is that you will never laugh..."

Lan Chiyang's answer was a faint smile, then leaned towards Xie Liaoyuan, and gently touched the tip of his nose with his forehead.

"Xie Liaoyuan, don't be afraid, I will come back, I promise you..."

There was no spirit in the tone, but what he said made Xie Liaoyuan feel at ease a lot. It was still a super strong hug. Xie Liaoyuan really didn't know what else to do besides this.Hugging Lan Chiyang, "What else can I do?"

"wait for me……"

Lan Chiyang closed his eyes, feeling uncomfortable, but not so unbearable anymore.

He opened his eyes suddenly because his hands were empty, Xie Liaoyuan's first reaction was to reach out to grab someone.No? !Sitting up suddenly, Lan Chiyang, who was entering the room with a thermos cup in his arms, was taken aback.

"Xie... Liaoyuan..." Lan Chiyang didn't even feel that Xie Liaoyuan was awake, because he made sure that he had fallen asleep before going downstairs. In order not to wake him up, Lan Chiyang walked on tiptoe and went downstairs There are a total of sixteen steps in the small indoor spiral staircase, and each step is as silent as possible.However, as soon as he came up, he sat up suddenly, and he couldn't see his expression clearly under the not too bright light of the night light, which made Lan Chiyang stop immediately.

"I'm here..." Xie Liaoyuan heard Lan Chiyang's probing voice, rubbed his eyes with one hand, and stretched out his hand in Lan Chiyang's direction with the other, "Where are you going?"

"Find water to drink..."

"I'll get it for you." Xie Liaoyuan lifted the quilt to get up.

"I've already got it back." Lan Chiyang took two quick steps and held his extended warm hand.

"En." Xie Liaoyuan responded, turned his wrist, and pulled Lan Chiyang over, "Just wake me up, don't go by yourself, what should I do if it's cold?"

Lan Chiyang climbed onto the bed on his knees, just when he got close to his bed, Xie Liaoyuan walked over, "It's warm here, don't sleep separately, okay?"

"I'll disturb you if I can't sleep..." Although Xie Liaoyuan said the words of refusal, Xie Liaoyuan had already wrapped Lan Chiyang tightly with his own quilt, and now the two of them were in the same quilt.Lan Chiyang's cold hands and feet were covered by Xie Liaoyuan. Thinking about his current actions, it should be quite funny, like a big bear hugging corn?

"What did you say before...Xiao Liang is always the senior of your school?" Xie Liaoyuan ignored Lan Chiyang's opinion, half-closed his eyes and continued the conversation he still remembered.

Lan Chiyang felt that he had completely lost to Xie Liaoyuan in terms of who was more stubborn.

"Well, Xiaoliang is always my senior, a repeat student, who can make it to the north of the Qing Dynasty. Next time we meet, I will let you see the demeanor of Baihua Middle School, a third-rate prestigious school..." Lan Chiyang said softly, this time Yiye seemed to want to tell Xie Liaoyuan all about his past.

"You're not a tough repetition sequence." Xie Liaoyuan hummed not wanting Lan Chiyang to put gold on his face, "You started reading from the first year of high school..."

"After taking a break from school, I was lowered a level. It's no different from repeating my studies." Lan Chiyang didn't allow him to take himself out, "I've seen trabeculae fight all the time, the kind where super-superior students fight to death..."

Xie Liaoyuan always had a more complicated view of Jingsheng Finance's Xiao Liang, who always smiled gently and acted like a good fortune boy. He always felt that the next meeting would be a little awkward, "The next thing should be the right person who hasn't been punished yet. Bar?"

"Well, it's said that Mr. Xiaoliang's family has a very good attitude. They sent him to the doctor to make amends. The other party made a mistake and was beaten, but he was also very satisfied with the resolution. After this incident, I asked my grandma what she would think if I fought with him? Grandma said She is only willing to pay the other party's medical bills... I thought, fighting is not a big deal..."

"I broke free from the shackles that top students can't fight..." Xie Liaoyuan laughed twice and said, "Is the record brilliant?"

"Not as brilliant as in your diary..." Lan Chiyang thought about the basic format in someone's diary—communication with the other party is fruitless, so let's fight—turning around and gently kissing the corner of someone's mouth, " What's the matter with you?"

"My mother loves to tell me that our soldiers bleed but not cry. I have felt that I am a soldier since kindergarten...following my mother to the army can't play with toys. The training ground is quite fun. The training ground How else can those brothers and sisters play with me? Fighting and playing... I am good at it and deeply feel that fighting is a good way to solve problems."

"...until one day I found a 79th edition of the "Criminal Law of the People's Republic of China" at home..." Lan Chiyang remembered the original words in Xie Liaoyuan's diary, "Punishing crimes and protecting the people is a mission that shines with golden light... "

"That's the first sentence of the General Provisions of the Criminal Law..." Xie Liaoyuan explained with a smile, "When I saw it, I felt a shock all over my body."

"Xie Liaoyuan, it's still early, go to sleep...I can do it myself."

"It's a long night by yourself, it's different without me..."

"Stupid... don't stop me from taking the medicine tomorrow. The dose I take is not large, it's just to help sleep... Sleeping well is the first step to come back."

"Understood. Tell me more, I won't step on the pit again..."

……

Looking at Xie Liaoyuan's slightly fluttering eyelashes, Lan Chiyang felt that it was good to watch him sleep...