Survival in a relationship

"Hey, Pang Da, what happened when you and Yi Gu went on a mission?"

Chanyuan Maki looked unhappy, "This guy looked like he wanted to kill someone when he was training with me just now, are his wings stiff?"

"I'm just a panda, pandas don't know, pandas don't know anything."

Pan Da shrunk himself into a ball and said autistically.

Goujuanji patted him, "Dajie?" Are you all right?

Now Zenyuan Maki is very sure, something must have happened, she was dumped by her girlfriend?

In a sense, Maki of the Chanyuan may have really hit the mark.

After a day of sweating, Yi Guyoutai was soaked in hot water, but his heart was cold and cold. His thoughts had already drifted to other places. You and a strange man had a good conversation like a couple in the coffee shop The happy look played in his mind in a loop.

After being taken to the Conjuration High School, Yigu Youtai unilaterally cut off contact with you. One is that his current situation makes him not want to bring you into danger, and the other is that he seems to be It will be able to control Lixiang so that she can't hurt anyone.

So when you maintain that Lixiang is a special Lika in front of you, Lixiang will not hurt people. You don’t need to be afraid that Lixiang’s illusion will be torn away, and he doesn’t want to see it anymore—the fear, alertness and disgust in your eyes. .

Therefore, he chose to escape.As long as he doesn't go to see you, he can still lie to himself that he is not hated by you.

After he and Lixiang hurt those four people, after being imprisoned in that closed space, when he clearly understood that he could never return to the time when he lived happily with you...

Otoko Yuta wants to end his life.

This kind of thought came after Li Xiang died, after his family members who left him went to the outside world to wander with Li Xiang like that, after he tried countless times to stop Li Xiang and failed, when he desperately divided himself and others into two worlds. ——

Yi Guyou wanted to bid farewell to this hopeless world in the form of self-mutilation many times, to reunite with Lixiang.

However, Rika would save him every time.

Because Satoka loves Otoko Yuta, no one is allowed to hurt Otoko Yuta, including Otoko Yuta himself.So he could only continue walking with such a heavy and lonely heart.

until I met you.

Sometimes, even Otoko Yuta hates his own appearance, his face is pale, his pupils are too large, his appearance is gloomy, and his personality is cowardly and withdrawn. Even ordinary people will not have the mentality of wanting to make friends with him when they see him like this. When bad people see it, they will come up and step on it and spit, as if he is some kind of garbage that pollutes the environment.

And only you, will accept his appearance that you don’t like even yourself without any grievances, tell him loudly that you want to be friends with Otoko Yuta, even if you are obviously afraid of Lixiang but still want to befriend him, will you Sincerely talk about many advantages that even he doesn't know, and will take him to many interesting places. When he sees him being bullied, he will choose to help silently because he doesn't want to hurt his self-esteem. When he finally can't bear it, he will Said that she was very selfish and only hoped that Yi Guyoutai would not be bullied...

Counting your help to him, I can't count it. Every day when I get along with you, Yigu Youtai can find a new place where he is tolerated without a bottom line.At that time, he really felt that he was favored.

The despair of wanting to die is far, far away from him at that time.

Xing Chuan Li is the light that saves Yi Gu You Tai.

Therefore, at a very early age, Otoko Yuta fell in love with Xing Chuanli irresistibly.

Qimoto Lixiang was the first love when she was young, and the emotion of liking has faded after her death and turned into another deeper bond.

Because he felt guilty about Lixiang's death, he kept living with her share of guilt, sticky and inseparable, like a swamp, and he was willing to fall.

And you are like the bright moon hanging high in the sky, a scene that he can't touch but doesn't want to disappear from his eyes.

After realizing that he likes Xing Chuanli, Otoko Yuta not only covets the warmth he can absorb from you, but also suffers from torment in his heart.

Such a sweet love will only ferment alone in the dead of night in the dream of being alone. Otoko Yuta who cursed Li Xiang never felt that he has the ability to give you happiness.

Yi Guyoutai understood later that it was not Lixiang who cursed him at all, but because of his own selfishness, he used the form of a curse to keep Lixiang in the world like this.

After realizing that your love is a curse, if you really want the girl you like to be happy, you should let go.

But when he felt the warmth, he could never return to that dark and cold world.

I like you but I dare not clarify my heart with you, I am obviously afraid that you just regard him as a friend, and because the girl believes that he likes Li Xiang, I am afraid of becoming the kind of adult who she thinks is half-hearted and unfaithful to emotions. There are many reasons why this love cannot be expressed, and the fear of cursing the person you like seems to be the most insignificant one of them.

He is really a despicable and shameless villain, Yi Guyoutai thought self-deprecatingly.

Obviously with such a bad idea, but still pretending to be friends with you at the same time, knowing that others have the right to like you, but selfishly trying to put an end to someone who wants to develop a relationship with you that is more serious than him. intimacy possible.

Even if you can't fall in love, he doesn't want to see you being hugged and kissed by other opposite sexes or even doing some more excessive things. Just thinking about such a picture is enough to make Yi Guyouta go crazy Lose.

It's like a dragon who snatches a treasure and keeps it in a cave. Even if it doesn't belong to you, even if you can't really own it, you will never allow it to be snatched away by anyone.

Therefore, it is better not to have a future that cannot fully own you, and may not even stand by your side.

It doesn't matter if you die...

Facing those magicians who spoke strange words, leaning against the cold prison wall, the young man who had lost his most beloved treasure was thinking blankly.

"Is this really good?"

Until a man who claimed to be Gojo Satoru appeared and said something like this to him——

"Even if Xing Chuanli died because of this, it doesn't matter?"

The dispirited young man raised his head because of his simple words. His pale face was even more horrifying than the scary special effects of female ghosts in horror movies. Black air continued to emerge from his body, and he hadn't used much water for several days. The voice from the moistened throat was hoarse and unpleasant, like the chants of death, accompanied by a kind of cold that pierced into the bone marrow.

"If you dare to touch her, I will kill you!"

Yigu Yuta got up, staggered a few steps because of his malnourished body, and with a black shadow that devoured everything, he and Gojo Satoru looked at each other through the railing——

"If Li loses a single hair because of you trash, even if I die, I will curse you to go to hell together."

"Hmm, isn't this alive again?"

Gojo Satoru was delighted by his "garbage", and the smile on his face grew wider, "Your appearance of a villain who wants to destroy everything is much better than the half-dead appearance just now."

"However, even if you are really willing to obey the arrangement above and apologize with death, even if the magicians are really moved by your death and don't bother Xing Chuanli, do you think—"

Gojo Satoru took out a stool out of nowhere, turned the stool around, sat down with his legs spread apart, rested his hands and head on the back of the chair, and talked about a very heavy topic in a very relaxed manner——

"Can Xing Chuanli obtain happiness as easily as ordinary people?"

"What do you mean?"

"The inferiority of human beings, the indifferent society, the malice that exists in every corner of the world..."

Gojo Satoru pointed with his fingers, "You should be able to understand things like these."

Is it—

Yi Guyou opened his eyes wide in disbelief, feeling uneasy that monstrous anger was brewing in his heart.

"Because you are very close, everything written as "rumor" and read as "blade" all points to an innocent girl. "

Gojo Satoru said in an understatement tone: "It's really pitiful. After recovering from illness, I was informed of my friend's "disappearance" after returning to school. I also had to bear the cold eyes of the whole school and fell into isolation In the helpless situation, if she knew that her best friend was really the murderer who hurt those four people and died in a place she didn't know, she might not be far from collapse. "

They...how dare!

Yi Gu Youtai is holding on to the railing, his lower lip has already been bitten by blood, as long as he thinks of the torment he has endured when he is not around, he only needs to put them on the girl in the same way...

The girl who was as beautiful as light was stained with ugly filth until she died of erosion.

It was something more desperate than letting him die.

"Even if the magic world doesn't intervene, that girl is not far from death, and the cause of death is called "human malice", unless she can save herself. "

Gojo Satoru waved his hand and said, "But the problem is that there is someone she has always loved and cared about who has the ability to protect her, but he left her behind and selfishly chose death to reunite with his Ome."

"It's all wrong payment after all, it's so pitiful."

Gojo Satoru took out a handkerchief and wiped away the non-existent tears.

"I want to go out."

Yi Gu Youtai straightened up, a flash of determination flashed in his green eyes, "I won't let you guys kill me."

"It seems you've figured it out."

Seeing that the young man finally no longer wanted to die, Gojo Satoru had achieved his goal, he stood up and extended an invitation to the young man in front of him, "Enroll in a high school and become a conjurer, Otoko Yuta, will you The huge magic power on your body is transformed into a weapon that you can drive, and only by becoming stronger can you protect her well."

"it is good……"

This time, Yi Guyoutai no longer hesitated.

Later, Gojo Satoru, who became his teacher, made a deal with him. It is best not to have any contact with you until he grows into an independent magician. Otherwise, in order to contain him, more enemies will attack him who has no self-protection ability. If you make a move, of course Gojo Satoru will send someone to protect you.

Therefore, Yigu Youtai can only let go of the distracting thoughts in his heart and become stronger as soon as possible.

However, the scene he saw today revealed a lot of information. People with sensitive minds always tend to think too much.

Didn't Mr. Wutiao say that you are having a bad time?

Didn't it mean you would be bullied?

It was because of this that he always wanted to become stronger as soon as possible.

However, who is the strange man opposite.

Yi Gu Youtai could sense that the man had spell power.But it's just to protect her. Why are you so close?And why are you so close to him?

The defenses in my heart began to crumble.

Out of the bathroom, Yigu Youta, who let the water drip down his hair, sat in front of the desk, staring blankly at the photo framed by the photo frame. In the photo, you are very happy to arm him with a shy face, and the girl is facing The camera showed the brightest smile.

"Yuta is my most important person..."

Obviously said so.

But you didn't feel sad because of his departure, and you immediately threw yourself into the arms of others.

Yi Guyouta has a feeling of being cheated and betrayed, he seems to realize one thing——

In fact, you don't really need him.