I took the fine script for the role of suffering

In the end, Zhao Fei still didn't say anything about the truth about the biscuits.

If you hadn't seen the crystal glue handicraft, if you hadn't heard the words... maybe when Lu Tan mentioned the biscuits that time, although he might be guilty, he might just say it.

Now, he really can't do it... and he can't even imagine Lu Tan's most likely disappointed and sad reaction after the explanation.

I can only think of it to make up for it!

In the first week of school, in addition to familiarizing himself with the school, courses, classmates and teachers, etc., Zhao Fei would go back and forth to watch videos of various desserts and pastries, especially cookies!

Vow to make exactly the same!

The school didn't give him a place to "experiment". In those few days, he could only memorize the steps and details over and over again like memorizing, and planned to go to Lu Tan's house to show off his skills on weekends!

The three roommates in Zhao Fei’s dormitory, apart from Guo Xi whom he met on the first day of school, the other two are all locals from City A. They live in a remote suburban area. One is Qian Xiaoliang and the other is Liang Yi. very polite.

For Lu Tan who always came over, he never asked too much.

Everyone gets along very harmoniously.

As for Lu Qin's dormitory, Zhao Fei went there once on the night of the first day of school, and it was also a four-person dormitory of the same size. After all, only the graduate school can apply for the double-single dormitory of University A.

But there is an empty bed in his dormitory, and there are only three people living there, and they have arranged their names on the first day... Others are ranked by age, and they are ranked by height.

Lu Tan is the boss.

Zhao Fei was puzzled when he heard about it: "You guys are so strange."

The two roommates graduated from Drama Academy, and immediately raised their orchids and pointed at Lu Tan: "It's not that the youngest one thinks it's unfair! He said seriously 'the time of birth is not something you can choose', oh, the combined height is We can choose?"

Lu Tan didn't change his face: "Calcium supplementation and reasonable exercise during adolescence can change a little bit."

The second child and the third child: "...Xiao Zhao, fork him out!"

Zhao Fei couldn't bear to fork, and mingled with it with a smile: "What's so good about the boss? Shoot the top one... Do you guys drink milk tea? The fund I invested in earlier made a lot of money, everyone is happy!"

"Yeah, the sky is falling and the tall guy is holding it up hahaha..."

"Then I want green milk! Thank you Xiao Zhao, I will treat you to dinner later!"

……

In fact, Zhao Fei also thought this incident was very funny. After leaving the dormitory, he asked Lu Tan in a low voice if he wanted to be the first in everything.

The other party refused to admit it, saying that two and three were not pleasant.

Lu Qin is taller than before. Zhao Fei visually estimated that he should be about 1.8 meters seven now, and looked up at him: "What about four?"

"There are no four in our dormitory."

"But I'm the fourth in our dormitory."

Lu Tan frowned, said in a low voice that it was unlucky, and asked them to change to the youngest.

For a while, Zhao Fei couldn't hold back anymore, he couldn't hold back his laughter until his stomach ached: "My birthday is so early, how can I be the youngest? Well, I'm actually the second child that you think is ugly."

Lu Qin was not angry at his teasing, so he looked at him a few times, and said very double standard: "Two is not bad. However, Zhao Fei is the best listener."

"..."

Zhao Fei was about to wave again, and when he walked out of the dormitory, he couldn't help jumping and bumping into him, the bump was very light, and the other party stretched out his hand and pulled him into his arms in an instant.

No one deliberately concealed this relationship.

Before the weekend arrived, Zhao Fei had already gotten along with Lu Tan's two roommates visibly, and added WeChat to each other.

Those two were standard straight men, and they didn't think of their relationship as a couple at all, and they always thought of them as very close friends.

Once the second child stared at his slightly curly hair in the dormitory and asked him where he did it. He brushed his sideburns with a comb while talking: "You came to our class yesterday, and several female classmates looked at you. Lu Tan was so jealous. My face! Hehe, I’m not jealous, I’m a gentleman with a big heart, I just want to be one..."

Zhao Fei stared at his cropped hair: "I'm afraid this can't be done."

The third child sneered mercilessly: "Second child, is your hair length a problem? Don't embarrass others."

The second child said angrily: "Who do you look down on you? Just wait, I will look like a new life after the hair perm is finished. At that time, it is not something that ordinary looks like you can afford!"

The other party smiled and kicked over...

Zhao Fei was eating melon seeds, watching the excitement was no big deal.

When they were chatting nonsense, Lu Tan was usually reading a book or paying attention to the stock market. Occasionally, he would turn his head to look for Zhao Fei. After finding Zhao Fei, he suppressed a few traces of peace of mind on his face, and continued to study the content of the day's plan as soon as possible.

It's finally Friday.

night.

As soon as he walked into Lu Qin's new home, Zhao Fei rubbed his hands and ran to the kitchen.

There are all kinds of kitchen utensils for making biscuits, and the ingredients have been bought in advance. What he said to Lu Tan was that he was bored and wanted to make desserts for fun.

After dinner in the evening, two boys in coffee-colored aprons concentrated on making desserts together. Lu Tan kept looking at Zhao Fei distractedly while making desserts.

Zhao Fei's thoughts were all on the cookies, following the steps in memory again and again, except for the first one which was a bit ugly, the latter ones became more and more decent.

After everything was done, Lu Tan put it in the oven for him.

They bent down together and looked in through the transparent glass.

Zhao Fei's pupils were dyed a lemon color by the yellowish light, his mouth was tightly closed, but he kept praying in his heart that there would be no mistakes, and that it would not be unpalatable... It should be exactly the same as the taste of the biscuits that time!

The people next to him looked sideways at him, and only recovered after Zhao Fei got up.

Zhao Fei stretched his waist, washed his hands and went back to the living room. Feeling that it was a bit quiet here, he turned on the TV.

The movie channel is playing Romeo and Juliet.

Lu Tan poured hot water over, and after scanning the movie, he suddenly frowned.

Before Zhao Fei could react, Lu Tan came over and changed the channel. His face was calm and he couldn't see any other emotions.

The changed channel is rerunning an old drama.

The two sat on the soft sofa, Zhao Fei ate grapes, and said casually, "I've seen all of this."

Lu Tan changed the channel again.

This is a highly rated period drama.

Zhao Fei raised his feet, curled up on the sofa, put his head on Lu Tan's shoulder, and looked at the screen seriously.

The weather wasn't cold, so Lu Tan took a thin blanket from the side and covered his feet.

Zhao Fei smiled: "What are you doing?"

Lu Tan said, "Your feet are cold."

Zhao Fei poked the blanket with his toes, put down the grapes, hugged his neck, and arched his outline like a small animal.

"Xiao Tan, I don't feel cold."

"I touched it, it was very cold."

"Then you try again?"

Zhao Fei's black eyelashes flickered frequently, and he spoke with a small breath.

Lu Tan rolled his Adam's apple and lowered his eyelashes.

Suddenly, he reached out to take the blanket away, covered his bare feet with his hands, leaned over and kissed her hard.

……

Tonight, freshly baked cookies became the least important thing in my memory that day.

In the bedroom, the lights were dim.

When Zhao Fei couldn't control his crying, Lu Tan covered his eyes for the first time, so that he wouldn't see his uncontrollable terrifying expression. His eyelashes trembled slightly, and he kissed his white forehead with extreme restraint. , like dewdrops that shatter at the touch of a kiss.

This was a dream that made him panic and exhilarated.

……

It was bright the next day.

Zhao Fei slumped on the bed like a small dried fish.

Next to him was Lu Tan who was hugging him tightly, already awake, looking at him quietly.

The roots of the ears are red.

Zhao Fei: "..."

It wasn't like that last night!

He moved, feeling like he was going to fall apart after running for more than ten kilometers after not exercising for a long time!

As soon as the hand was raised, it lost energy and naturally fell down.

Lu Tan hugged him tightly again: "Zhao Fei..."

I just read his name, asked him what he was doing, and didn't say anything.

After a while, Zhao Fei deliberately teased him: "Xiaoqin, you are pretty bad."

"……No."

"Everyone is like this, isn't it?"

Lu Tan stopped talking and bit his neck lightly.

Zhao Fei felt itchy, and shrunk his neck with a smile. The two quarreled for a few minutes, and couldn't help hugging each other again...

This autumn, Zhao Fei was deeply impressed.

Mainly because of two things:

The night that opened my eyes to Lu Tan.

A new round of awareness of the word "exciting".

Jiangcheng, Caiyunshan Welfare Institute.

Saturday morning.

Zhao Shuran looked at the group photo in his hand, then at the obviously decorated door in front of him, and tentatively walked in.

Aunt Liu found the group photo on Wednesday, when Zhao Shuran was still in school, so she took a photo and sent it to him.

Zhao Shuran only had a vague impression of many people and many things when he was young. For example, he remembered that he was adopted by the Zhao family couple. In the group photo with many people back then, the old man was actually there.

In the group photo, the one in the middle is myself standing at the gate of the orphanage, the Zhao family couple are on both sides, the dean is on the far left, and Zhao Changlin, who is not in good health at the time, is on the far right.Then there are some staff.

In Zhao Shuran's memory, he was admitted to the orphanage at the age of four, and his family memories before the age of four are minimal. He only remembers a mother who had an accident. There should be no relatives on the mother's side, so he was sent here.

After the Zhao family adopted him, they moved to Shaojing within a few years to settle down.

After sleeping all night at home on Friday, he got up early and bought a ticket to take the high-speed train to Jiangcheng.

After seeing the dean, Zhao Shuran handed over the photo immediately.

The other party was about to retire, and it took a while to react after seeing the group photo: "...you went out from here back then? That's great, that's great!"

The dean didn't remember him very well, but he kindly invited him in and talked to him about the changes in the orphanage over the years...

At noon, Zhao Shuran asked about the donation account of the orphanage, saying that he wanted to do what he could.

The dean was very surprised. After asking him about his current situation, he patted him on the shoulder: "You just went to college... Everyone has received their wishes, but let's talk about it after you work. You seem to be having a good time now." Well, the children who go out here can grow up like this, everyone is very pleased."

Zhao Shuran was silent for a moment, nodded and said, "Yes."

"Whether it's you or the Zhao family, they have always been my benefactors..."

"A person looks at himself with pity, and almost forgets that he is luckier than so many people..."

"Sometimes before... I was the one who got into a dead end."

"I'll come back when I make money..."

The dean smiled and wanted to leave, but Zhao Shuran remembered the purpose of coming here, and chased after him, saying that he wanted to see the files from that year.

Physiological memory is blurred in childhood, and there are also orphans who come back to check their background in adulthood, and the dean didn't think much about it, so he took him to see it.

As in memory, his biological mother was a single mother named Jiang Qiu. She was already an elderly woman when she gave birth to him, but she was not married. She was cheated by a man from out of town and disappeared without a trace during her pregnancy. disappeared and never came back.

When she was too old to have an operation, she gave birth to the child.

Later, when the child was four years old, her biological mother should have been emotionally hurt, various life pressures, and criticism from neighbors, which led to depression and finally went to a dead end.

To Zhao Shuran's surprise, his biological mother, Jiang Qiu, used to work for the Zhao family's company!

He is a small clerk who basically doesn't have much contact with high-level officials.

The dean said: "Speaking of which, you should also thank your grandpa in name. I remember that he passed away three or four years after you left the orphanage. Alas, he was the one who persuaded Mr. Zhao and Mrs. Zhao to adopt you. , said that a sensible child like you can just be a company with the naughty little grandson at home, so that the grandson at home will not be lonely or something..."

Zhao Shuran naturally had no impression of this. After being adopted by the Zhao family, the grandfather seldom appeared at his son and daughter-in-law's house.

The dean's words made him feel divided: "How could it be grandpa..."

"Old Mr. Zhao, he had been paying close attention to the welfare home in Jiangcheng during his lifetime, and he has received many donations and help from him here, so thank you for organizing a cultural performance that time... I kind of remember it now! You were seven years ago. When you were around the age of [-], when you played the electronic organ on stage, the old gentleman cried for some reason, and not long after that, you were adopted by the Zhao family...I still have a deep impression of the old gentleman crying!"

Zhao Shuran's thoughts fell into confusion: "...what was I playing at that time?"

"Forgot, it's been too many years... It should be some simple little tunes for getting started..."

After leaving the orphanage, Zhao Shuran was still confused.

He took a taxi to the Zhao family's old house, but stopped in front of the house and didn't dare to go in.

The nanny inside hummed a song and came out to water the flowers. He subconsciously flashed behind the tree, thinking of the grandma who always had a straight face, hesitated, and finally returned to the car and asked the driver to go to the high-speed rail station.

When it was dark, they rushed home, and the Zhao family couple also came back, as if they had just finished a banquet, they both looked a little tipsy, on the sofa, the woman leaned against the man's arms, smiled and talked in a low voice, when she noticed someone coming in, she quickly sat upright. up.

Zhao Shuran was slightly taken aback: "Dad, Mom..."

Lin Jinwei smiled and said, "Why did you come back so late? Did you go out with your new friends? Did you have a good time?"

Zhao Shuran was a little guilty, but he didn't explain, nodded: "Happy... Shall I go get you some hangover soup?"

"It's already drunk, it's okay, you rest yours."

He nodded, his mind was still a little confused, he said a few words to them, and went back to the upstairs bedroom lightly.

Perhaps because he thought too much during the day, Zhao Shuran dreamed about his childhood after a long absence this time.

It was a blurred picture before entering the orphanage.

A woman sat in front of the dilapidated piano with a dejected look, teaching him to press the keys of the piano.

Her voice was far away, and she said softly, "Xiaoran, you want to play the piano like this."

"When my mother was very young, a young lady came to live in my house, and she liked to play the piano like this... Then she died, what a pity."

"However, my mother only recently found out that the chairman who arranged for me to work is the big brother who failed her back then. He is now a prosperous man... He always asks my young lady about the little things about living in my house in those years..."

"I was only in elementary school at the time, so I don't remember that clearly, but I discovered one thing."

"These people are cheap! When people are around, they don't cherish them, and when they are gone, they are moved and recall the past..."

"Xiaoran, mom can't bear it anymore, so she can only find a way to find a possible way out for you..."

"Miss always has these small movements before playing the piano, you want to play like this..."

"In order to offset the guilt towards the young lady and the unborn child, Zhao Changlin will go to all the orphanages in Jiangcheng every year... Maybe he will arrange a good place for you for the sake of the young lady..."

"Mom knows you don't understand what mom is talking about...I don't know either...Mom is sorry for you..."

Zhao Shuran woke up drenched in sweat.

I looked at my watch, it was only four o'clock in the middle of the night.

There is some twilight outside.

He sat up and propped his head to recall the scene in his dream.

There will be deviations in childhood memories, but the depressed face of the woman is extremely real.

Gradually coincide with the memory.

That was his biological mother.

Some fragments of memory in the brain slowly followed the thread and began to gather.

He suddenly recalled an incident that happened in the first year when he was adopted by the Zhao family.

It's something he's almost forgotten about.

At that time, during Chinese New Year, he was taken to the old house to meet the grandma. He hid behind Zhao Fei and watched secretly, but the other party pushed him away forcefully.

Lin Jinwei came over and asked him to play the piano for grandma, but before she sat down and started to play, the old man dropped the cup with a blank face.

It was also that day, when he thought about it, he thought that his small movements before playing the piano were too rustic and his performance was not good enough to anger grandma. Later, he corrected it abruptly after practicing the piano. After that, he didn't dare to touch the piano in front of the old man again. ...

He suddenly discovered that the luck he had known before and the opportunities gained by good performance may...may all be deliberate arrangements.

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