I'm really not your cub

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Han Jin who is still young can't understand the meaning of this sentence, he just instinctively doesn't want to leave his parents.Holding the teddy bear, he came out and hugged Han Yue's leg, and said in a childlike voice, "Mom, Xiaojin doesn't want to be separated from you."

He was next to Han Yue, obviously very scared, but he still showed a cute smile to Tan Yan: "Dad, don't quarrel with Mom, Xiao Jin will be very obedient and obedient."

Han Yue was taken aback by Tan Yan's words, she even wondered if what she said just now was just her hallucination, how could Tan Yan say such a thing, she felt a chill in her heart.

Han Jin's soft and warm body made Han Yue's heart feel like falling into an ice cave, warming up a little.

However, Tan Yan's reaction was like a hammer smashing all of Han Yue's luck.

He pushed Han Jin's hand away indifferently, looked at Han Jin with disgust, and said coldly, "Go away, I'm not your father."

Han Jin didn't understand why Tan Yan said that, but the child's heart is sensitive, he instinctively felt Tan Yan's dislike for him, and big tears fell down.

Han Yue hurriedly hugged Han Jin in her arms to comfort him. She covered Han Jin's ears, and her tone was no longer affectionate. She said word by word: "Tan Yan, what kind of person are you?"

Tan Yan smiled indifferently: "Who is it? Didn't you say that you like me in every way? Han Yue, is this what you mean by love?"

The tone of Tan Yan's last sentence was also questioning.

Han Yue looked at Tan Yan for a long time, then spit out a few words in disappointment: "I love the wrong person. Tan Yan, let's get a divorce."

Tan Yan's face was blank at first, and then he said in a fierce tone he had never seen before: "Don't even think about it! Han Yue, it's not that easy!"

The two fell out completely. One day, Han Jin, who hadn't seen his father for a long time, saw Tan Yan at the gate of the kindergarten.

After Tan Yan often quarreled with Han Yue at home, Han Jin was actually a little afraid of him and dared not go with him, but Tan Yan asked him if he wanted to reconcile his parents?Walk with him if you want.

Of course Han Jin wants his parents to reconcile, he has seen his mother cry secretly several times.He looked at Tan Yan with ignorant eyes, and nodded happily.

Afterwards, Tan Yan drove Han Jin to a suburban orphanage. He bought many toys and snacks for Han Jin and asked him to play with the children.

Han Jin listened to his parents very much. Even though these children didn't treat him well, he still remembered Tan Yan's words and tried his best to play with them.

It wasn't until a child broke the toy that Tan Yan bought for him that he got angry and told the other party with a serious face: "Apologize, or I won't play with you."

The other party said unhappily: "These toys belong to the orphanage, why don't you give them to my mother, I will tell the dean's mother!"

"It's not yours. My dad bought it for me. I can lend it to you to play with, but they are all mine." Han Jin explained to other children seriously.

"Big liar, good liar, none of the children in the orphanage have a father!" The other party seemed to have finally grasped something about him, and pulled the other children to laugh at him together.

Han Jin was flustered by the laughter. He turned his head to look at the door, but he couldn't find Tan Yan.

With tears in his eyes, Han Jin held back his tears and asked the staff of the orphanage who came in: "Where is my father? Why didn't I see my father?"

The aunt of the orphanage lovingly hugged Han Jin. She hadn’t seen a child as cute as Han Jin in the orphanage. It’s not true. What a good child, how could the adoptive parents be willing to give up? She comforted and said: " As long as you obey, you will have new parents soon."

Han Jin said stubbornly: "No, I only want my own parents."

Han Yue couldn't find Han Jin, and Han Yue almost went crazy. After hearing that it was Tan Yan who picked up Han Jin, she found Tan Yan.

Tan Yan said: "He is a mistake, as long as you give up on him, I am willing to forgive you and tolerate this mistake."

Han Yue's answer was a fist slapped on Tan Yan's face, and all her affection for Tan Yan was consumed.

"Tan Yan, you hand over my son! I don't want your forgiveness." Her son is only four years old, he is so sensible, and often makes her, a real mother, feel that Xiaojin wonders why anyone doesn't like it, but Now Tan Yan actually hid him.

Han Yue was out of anger. After being with Tan Yan, she hadn't sweared or used hands for a long time, but today everything she endured fell on Tan Yan.

"You madman, I don't care for your tolerance, I want my son!"

One punch.

"I'm telling you, my mother has endured you enough, after returning my son to me, you get out of here!"

a slap.

Tan Yan let Han Yue beat him, unmoved.

The fierce Han Yue, she burst into tears suddenly, and she gave Tan Yan a slap while crying: "Tan Yan, do you regret it?" Otherwise, how could the boy who used to be like a ray of light become like this? She was in pain, but she still said that sentence, "I regret it, I really regret it."

If she knew that their future was like this, she would rather not have met that young man swaying under the shadow of a flower.

Tan Yan staggered a few steps. He couldn't see Han Yue crying, and couldn't admit that Han Yue regretted saying the word. He told Han Yue where Han Jin was.

The word welfare house wiped out Han Yue's sadness, she slapped Tan Yan hard and quickly, and ran out of the house.

Han Yue finally found Han Jin the next morning. The first time Han Jin saw her, he rushed over to hug her and kept calling her mother.

Han Yue hugged Han Jin tightly, and heard Han Jin say in a nasal voice: "Mom, Xiao Jin is very good, and I always remember what you said. Little men don't shed tears easily, so although Xiao Jin is very Miss you, but Xiao Jin never cried."

Han Yue's eyes were sour, and his heart ached terribly.

"Mom, where's Dad? Xiao Jin listened to Dad's words very seriously, are you reconciled now?" Han Jin looked at Han Yue expectantly.

It was Han Yue who answered Han Jin with a tight hug, and she said, "Xiao Jin, it won't happen in the future, mom will always protect you."

Later, it took a lot of trouble for Han Yue to divorce Tan Yan and win Han Jin's custody.In order to divorce Tan Yan, she didn't ask for anything, so she left the house completely.

Fearing that Tan Yan would do something harmful to Han Jin again, she changed Han Jin's surname and left City C.

Of course, when talking to Lin Su, Han Jin didn't talk about his experience of being thrown into the orphanage by Tan Yan.

He didn't want to look too pitiful, and let the little good people around him compensate him for their guilt.

"Then how are you doing after Mother Han's divorce?" Lin Su looked a little dazed. He listened carefully, not only caring about what happened to Mother Han, but also wanting to know about Han Jin's past.

Han Jin's voice was a little hoarse, and he continued: "Later, we went to Sister Yue's hometown, a small village next to City C."

The reason for choosing that place, Han Jin can easily come up with the answer when he thinks about it now.

The tuition fee is cheap, and there are ready-made houses, even self-built houses in the countryside, but it is the best choice for Han Yue who has no money.

But small places are not all good and bad.The first disadvantage is that people speak fearsomely. Han Yue was young and beautiful and brought back a child with her surname. The clothes that the mother and son wore were not affordable by ordinary people.There are rumors that Han Yue went to be someone's mistress, and in the end, she had to go back to the countryside.

The second is the xenophobia towards outsiders in rural schools.Han Jinde is a first grader in a rural elementary school. He is fair and cute, and his body is always clean. He wears a navy uniform that he has only seen on TV, with a little yellow hat on his head, and a schoolbag with cartoon pictures on his back. , Pencil boxes are all three layers, all of which are too novel for children who grew up in the country.

Moreover, Han Jin, who has been studying in the best kindergarten, knows very clearly no matter what questions the teacher asks, and he can get the teacher's praise and preference every time.

This made those children very envious and jealous. If Han Jin was really a child in the city, everyone would not have so much hostility towards him.But Han Jin obviously lives in the same place as them, and his mother is even a vixen in the adults' mouths. How can he have these things?Why is it different from them?

When these children asked their parents for things that Han Jin had, but were beaten by their parents, they began to exclude and bully Han Jin.

Especially when they found out that Han Jin, a city kid, was taught to be too obedient, and he wouldn't take the initiative to fight back if he was bullied, but to report to the teacher.And their homeroom teacher just said a few words to them verbally, and directly criticized Han Jin for being troublesome.

Gradually, Han Jin became silent. As a young man, he still didn't understand why the method taught by the teacher didn't work anymore in another place?

Until someone wanted to snatch the pencil case that Han Yue bought for him, Han Jin, who has always been obedient and obedient, fought with his classmates. Han Jin had never experienced a scene where he needed to speak with his fists since he was a child, and he failed to win without any accident. other side.

Because Han Jin retaliated, the school invited parents, and the other party was a couple. The two were unreasonable and unreasonable. The head teacher didn't want to cause trouble, so he favored the other party, accusing Han Jin of being unfriendly to his classmates. If there is a next time, he will not He was allowed to attend classes in the classroom, and was punished to stand outside.

Han Jin couldn't understand why he was the one who was punished when he obviously did nothing wrong. Han Jin didn't feel wronged when he was beaten, but after being scolded by the teacher, he suddenly wanted to cry.

When Han Yue came over, what she saw was a fat woman poking Han Jin's forehead and cursing. Suddenly, she felt angry and slapped the fat woman's hand away, protecting Han Jin behind her.

"Whom? Bring me your hand!"

The fat woman was taken aback, but seeing Han Yue coming alone, and hearing her name, she also remembered about Han Yue.She is not afraid of Han Yue, a single woman.

The fat woman took her husband with her, and when she faced Han Yue, she felt jealous and disdainful. She said that Han Jin didn't have a tutor, so she dared to hit him when he was transferred to the class.

Han Yue originally wanted to endure, she was no longer a lawless little sister, she wanted to raise her son.

It was just that Han Jin, who had been quiet all the time, heard the fat woman scolding Han Yue. He stared at the fat woman and said, "You are not allowed to scold my mother."

"Yo, you little bastard, you still dare to stare at people, you really are a child without a father."

Han Yue was directly angered by the phrase "little bastard". She put the handbag on the table gracefully, and said in a cold tone: "Dare to scold my child? What kind of trash are you!

The contemptuous look in Han Yue's eyes made the fat woman jump up in anger, and rushed up to hit her.

Han Yue didn't spare any strength and directly moved her hands. Don't look at Han Yue thin, even if there is a teacher pulling sideways, even a fat woman can't beat Han Yue, so she kept screaming for her husband to help.

Finally, the principal came, and the two were separated. It was said that they were fighting each other, but anyone with eyes could tell that it was the fat woman who was being beaten.

Han Yue won the fight, but her reputation was ruined. People in the village called Han Yue a shrew. Han Jin was a bastard no one wanted. Yue was isolated by the people in the village, and the school tactfully let Han Jin transfer for fear of getting into trouble.

Living in front of Han Yue showed sharp edges and corners, and she couldn't stay in the countryside anymore, so Han Yue took Han Jin to another school.

Without a ready-made house, Han Yue could only rent a house, and the fixed monthly expenses forced her to try various jobs. Han Jin also began to follow Han Yue's workplace and changed schools.

Children grow up so fast that Han Jin couldn’t even wear those brand-name children’s clothes, and Han Yue’s money can’t afford the brands that Han Jin has been wearing since he was a child. He began to become silent and not talkative.

At the beginning, Han Yue worked as a clothing shopping guide in the mall during the day, and took over manual work at night, so that she could barely afford the living expenses of the mother and child.

Gradually, Han Jin entered the sixth grade, and Han Yue's job improved. She was beautiful and aesthetically pleasing. Customers liked to listen to her recommendations for clothes, and the increased income from being a shopping guide could afford the expenses of the family.

Even though she was poor, Han Yue still attached great importance to Han Jin's education, but Han Jin may be more like her, with poor grades and almost failed every subject.

Although the conditions at home are better now, it is impossible to send Han to various cram schools.

Han Yue can only tutor Han Jin herself. Every day when Han Jin is doing homework, she picks up Han Jin's books and starts to study from the beginning, which is more serious than when she was studying.

Perhaps Han Yue's tutoring had an effect, or it could be that Tan Yan's academic master genes finally took effect. Han Jin's grades improved quickly, from failing to sometimes getting full marks in the exam, but Han Jin was getting better day by day. There was silence, and the smile gradually diminished.

Han Yue couldn't ask anything, so she took a day off and secretly went to school to see Han Jin.

Han Jin grew up slowly, thin and small, wearing an ill-fitting school uniform, sitting alone in a corner, and the students around him deliberately pulled the table far away to keep a distance from Han Jin.

Seeing that Han Jin was being isolated and bullied by her classmates, Han Yue was furious. She looked in the direction of the podium to see the teacher's reaction.

What made her even more angry was that a middle-aged man with thinning hair was boasting on the podium with a pointer. He was not lecturing, but bragging about how amazing his classmates were. After bragging about his classmates, he began to criticize social injustice.

Han Yue looked at the time, it should be time for class now, she looked at the situation in the classroom again, many students were playing and playing, or secretly reading comic books, only Han Jin was doing homework with a pencil .

Some students deliberately hit Han Jin on the head when passing notes.

The discipline in the classroom was getting worse and worse. The teacher was dissatisfied that no one listened to him, so he beat the pointer hard. Seeing that he still couldn't discipline the situation, he began to curse: "Sure enough, he is a child of the bottom class. If you study well and don’t even listen to the teacher, you will only be a piece of rubbish when you grow up, a moth of the society, and you will be worthless all your life! Those children from rich families are born with things that you can’t have in your entire life. Don't know how to work hard?"

When Han Jin was being bullied, he didn't see it, but now he took Han Jin into the knife: "Some students don't listen carefully when the teacher is lecturing, and pretend to do homework. Do you think you are great? You don't need the teacher to teach you." , what are you still doing sitting in the classroom!"

The students in the class were attracted a little bit of attention. They looked at Han Jin and laughed happily. In a chaotic environment, it is also a mistake to work hard.

Han Yue couldn't listen anymore, she walked into the classroom and took Han Jin's hand, and led Han Jin who was pale.

"Mom, where are we going?"

Han Yue cried as soon as she walked out of the school gate.

She said, "Xiaojin, your mother will take you to another school tomorrow. It's because your mother is not good enough to care about your situation in school."

Han Jin's mood was very calm, he shook his head: "I still don't want it, and it will cost money to transfer schools. In fact, these schools are similar."

Han Yue was stunned. Yes, changing schools means a school selection fee, and with her current financial ability, she can send Han to this kind of third-rate school. Big, not necessarily worse.

When Han Jin found out that Han Yue was crying, his calm little face became flustered: "Mom, don't cry, just wait until junior high school, so that I can change schools. I will never get such a high score in the exam again, just It'll be fine, mom, don't cry."

Han Yue's tears fell more and more. She, who has always been strong, squatted on the ground and cried loudly: "I am useless. I brought you into this world, but I have no ability to give you a good life. Xiao Jin, I'm sorry. Mom is useless!"

Han Yue cried for a while, then she suddenly took out her phone and dialed Tan Yan's number.

Han Yue said with red eyes: "Xiaojin, how about I send you to my father? He can give you a good life and send you to a school where all the classmates and teachers are polite."

Han Jin clutched the corner of Han Yue's clothes, and stared at her with dark eyes like black grapes: "What about you, mother? Are you with me?"

Han Yue thought, she could bow her head to Tan Yan and apologize, no matter what he said she would admit she was wrong, she shouldn't beat him, she shouldn't quarrel with him, as long as he can give Han Jin a carefree childhood.Only then did she clearly realize that her self-esteem was worthless.

She is a loser, she has made her life a mess, and is slowly ruining Han Jin's life, no wonder Tan Yan said she would regret it when they divorced,

"Xiao Jin, don't be like me. Mom hopes that you can become a person like your father in the future." He is cold and decisive, but he can live a rich and superior life. After the divorce, Han Yue sometimes even saw Tan Yan on TV. After divorcing her, Tan Yan's life was prosperous, but she lived in a mess, which clearly proved the mistake of their marriage and the correctness of divorce for Tan Yan.

Han Jin was frightened by the disappointment in Han Yue's words. Although his mother would cry behind his back sometimes, she never spoke to him in such a tone. It sounded like a gray cloudy sky.

Han Jin's small arms hugged Han Yue's legs: "Mom, don't go away, and don't send me away, you are fine, you are the best mother." He repeated this sentence and found that it was right. Han Yue is not convincing at all.

Han Jin held Han Yue's hand, and he said seriously: "Han Yue, it's good that you are like this, don't change!"

This is the first time that Han Jin called Han Yue's name. Han Jin is still too young and his voice is immature, but he has worked hard to learn to talk to Han Yue like an adult on an equal footing.

No matter how serious and mature Han Jin puts on, he is only an 11-year-old child, but his affirmation of Han Yue is like a life-saving rope tied around Han Yue, allowing her to regain strength in difficult times. move on in life.

Han Yue pressed the mobile phone that hadn't been connected yet, her tears flowed even harder, she knelt down and pressed her forehead against Han Jin's: "Well, I won't change, my mother will always accompany Xiao Jin to grow up .”

Han Jin breathed a sigh of relief. He knew that Han Yue was very tired, making money and supporting him. He really wanted to grow up as soon as possible: "Han Yue, I'm not a kid anymore, I can help you share the burden."

It seems that if I no longer call Han Yue's mother, I can share the pressure on her and feel more like an adult.

Han Yue was amused by Han Jin's address, and she said with tears in her smile, "From then on, I will call Xiao Jin your brother Xiao Jin?"

Han Jin didn't hear Han Yue's ridicule, but secretly puffed out his chest.

"If you don't transfer schools, you won't be able to stay in this class. How about mom applying to the school for class transfer?"

"Does it cost money to transfer classes?"

"No."

Han Jin breathed a sigh of relief, he wiped away Han Yue's tears with a tissue, and made a decision like an adult: "Then transfer the class."

Afterwards, Xiao Jin became Xiao Jin's elder brother, and he always used the method of calling Han Yue's name to appear more mature.Because of lack of money, Han Jin was about to be promoted to primary school again, so Han Yue only transferred Han Jin's class.

On the weekend, she went to Taekwondo to find a part-time receptionist. The salary was very low and only enough to pay for food. She only made one request, that the Taekwondo Hall should teach Han Jin for free. She was afraid that Han Jin would be conflicted, so she accompanied Han Jin Studying, when there are no guests, she will accompany Han Jin to practice from the most basic side kick with the baffle.

After graduating from elementary school, Han Jin also ushered in the peak period of growth. He started to grow taller and stronger like a spring bamboo shoot after drinking enough rainwater. The original thin body gradually grew to Han Yue's shoulders. The arms have also become stronger, and the body has begun to gain muscle.

Maybe it was the missed call, Tan Yan called back later, Han Yue changed the number, she didn't want to make trouble, so she didn't answer, Tan Yan came to look for her later, but she didn't see her.After dialing the phone, Han Yue found that she had completely let go, and she didn't hate Tan Yan anymore. Tan Yan was no longer the white shirt boy she had a crush on when she was young, and he would never appear again.

Han Yue worked as a clothing shopping guide for several years, so she opened a clothing store directly, and her family's financial conditions improved.It's just that when Han Jin was in the first year of junior high school, Tan Yan came to find Han Jin. At this time, Han Jin was past the age of worshiping his father, and he could accept the fact that Tan Yan hated him.

The reason why Tan Yan came to talk to him was very simple. He said that Han Jin was a drag on Han Yue. The reason why Han Yue worked so hard was because of Han Jin. He said he knew a couple who had no children. Don't be the adopted son of that family.

Han Jin refused, and not long after that, Han Yue closed the clothing store and took Han Jin to another city.

Han Jin asked her why, Han Yue only smiled and said that she was tired of staying in one city and wanted to change to another place, and the educational resources in this place were really bad, so she wanted to change Han Jin to a better learning environment.

Among the group of followers that Han Yue knew since childhood, only Xu Meng has walked a completely different path over the years. He went to a sports school, took the college entrance examination by himself, and finally became a physical education teacher.

Han Yue not only wants to raise Han Jin, but also considers Han Jin's future.

But Han Jin knew in his heart that there must be a reason for the delay, and both mother and son chose to hide it because of the same mentality.

"Then what happened afterwards?" Seeing Han Jin stop, Lin Su asked.

Listening to his cuts and cuts, Lin Su was so sad and guilty that he seemed to cry, and Han Jin suddenly didn't want to talk about the following things.

"Lin Su, I didn't tell you these things to make you feel guilty. I just want you to understand Sister Yue a little more, and don't believe Tan Yan's words so easily." Han Jin raised his eyes and looked straight at Lin Su, "And Lin Su, listen to me, don't apologize to me, you did nothing wrong in this matter, I won't allow you to apologize."

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感谢在2021-07-0601:48:31~2021-07-2514:59:57期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!