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Suddenly, I felt a strong dizziness.Here she is, a set of white casual clothes, so energetic, so free and easy, so beautiful, my former lover, the girl who once belonged to me.She is leaving, leaving me forever. From then on, I can only hide in a dark corner, watching her, thinking about her, and imagining her living happily with others in other people's world.

She kept walking forward without looking sideways, her steps were fast, until the moment she entered the gate, she turned around suddenly, her eyes swept over all the people, and finally she turned her head, passed the security check, and kept her head down. Go forward until it is out of my sight.

Pei Fei, I loved you, I still love you, and only you.I meditated in my heart, tears streaming down my face in an instant.

The plane began taxiing off the runway.

Farewell, my best child, farewell, my purest love.

When the plane got into the clouds, I remembered what she said: It feels so good to be on the clouds!Reminds me of that time when I rode you in the suburbs...

I don't know how I got home from the airport. I only know that the taxi driver took me over many roads, many buildings, many trees, and a plane, which has been following me in the blue sky outside the window. fly.

After getting out of the taxi, I was limp all over and didn't know how to move home.

"Miss Mu! I have your letter!" Someone shouted, I shook my head, and somehow I had hallucinations.

"Miss Mu! Your letter!" The voice was still shouting.I froze for a moment, and looked blankly at the place where the sound came from.The community security guard held a letter in his hand and was smiling at me.I smiled at him mechanically, and seeing how slow my response was, he hurried over and handed the letter to me.While I was saying "thank you", I saw the words on the envelope: Received by Mu Chenyu.My hands are shaking, my heart seems to have stopped beating, it's Pei Fei's handwriting!

I also don't understand how I got home so quickly, trembling, I closed the door and leaned against the door for a long time, when I was finally able to calm down, I leaned on the sofa and sat on the floor, unfolded her letter:

Mu Chenyu:

You must not know what to do now, my blue crystal blue diamond, my stupidest fool.However, I am very happy now, I am in the blue sky again, in your blue arms, I still want to tell you: It feels so good to be on the cloud!Reminds me of that time when I rode you in the suburbs...

You are the stupidest woman in the world, how can you give up your life's happiness casually?Do you think this will make me successful?Without you, without happiness, what else can I do?What else can I achieve?Hurt me and yourself like this, you are so stupid, you are still a teacher, an unqualified stupid teacher.

I never believed that you would give up on me.But your words, your indifference and silence scare me, especially your "romantic date", which makes me shiver all night, you villain, you are so cruel that there is no peer in the world.I lay in bed for several days, and returned to Lugu Lake and Lijiang in a daze. Every minute and every second of those ten days, you loved me, you loved me every minute and every second.I'm back to the week I was with you and you still love me and love me every minute of every day.Back to six years ago, six years, you have never stopped loving me... I am sober, you will not change, you will not change so fast!This thought empowered me suddenly, and I vowed to find out the truth.I went downstairs to guard you every day, and every day the security guard said he hadn't seen you coming back, so I suspected that you were with her again, and I still couldn't think of leaving.You have no idea how hard it took me not to get mad with jealousy.You bastard, I must let you taste this taste too!

You finally came back that evening, taking your "girlfriend" with you.When I saw the two of you getting out of the car together, I was so cold, I was dying of cold.Then she shouted to the car: "Honey, you go back first, I'll stay with Chen Yu for a while, and help her tidy up the house." I just warmed up, and I began to look at you carefully, you are so thin, so thin, so weak, The eyes were deeply sunken, and there was no expression at all.I really want to rush over and hug you tightly.But I dare not, I am afraid that you will run away again as soon as I pass by.I quietly followed you and heard your "girlfriend" comforting you: "Don't think so much anymore? It's already been decided, so let it go." "She will hate me forever." You cried. "Don't you just want her to hate you? How can she come out if she doesn't hate you? Don't worry us anymore, you still have friends like us..." I couldn't leave, and I didn't dare to see you, so I stayed in your community, Wait for your friend to come out.

You must not have imagined that your most trusted friend "betrayed" you, and we talked for two hours.How embarrassing, I cried and laughed in front of her.However, I'm so proud, I feel that I'm so good, I really deserve to be your disciple.Mu Chenyu, I love you, I will depend on you for the rest of my life, you are not allowed to go anywhere, you can't resign, you can't hide, you must stay in school happily and obediently until I graduate, you can't go anywhere Run around and suffer, remember?That is where we know each other, every plant and every tree has a story and love.Also, you don’t know how much the classmates in our class liked you before. They thought you were a really good teacher, so let more students feel your excellence. I’ve been away for a few years, and I approve you to love them more.My good teacher, my good lover, for me, you have to endure for another four years!I don't care whether I work in the government department or a big company, I believe in the ability of both of us, we will definitely find our place.

After knowing the truth, I regained my confidence and strength, and began to calmly think about the future.I decided to accept my dad's plan.In this way, I will have a wider world, I will build myself better, and we will be able to live together better in the future.I will work hard to work and study, and I want to come back once a year.

Let me tell you, during this time I also discovered a big secret.

One day I went into my dad's room and wanted to talk to him about studying abroad. He went out. I was very surprised. He used to lock the door every time he went out. It was like this when I was very young. I never left alone. in his room.I sat on his swivel chair curiously, and casually opened a notebook on the table, but I was frightened, so I quickly closed the notebook and ran back to my room.

My dad is gay too!That's why my mother divorced him.

This incident strengthened my belief, I think, as long as we work hard, Dad will finally bless us.My grandma loves me all the time and I think she's fine.

Before I leave, I really want to see you once, but I will definitely not be able to leave when I see you, so I want to make you suffer for a few more days, who told you to be so cruel.

Mu Chenyu, we are stars who have stayed together for billions of years, we are bright and warm, so we must be happy.

I love you, whether it is past life, present life, or future life, we are destined to be together, love yourself well, wait for me well, wait for me happily.

裴菲

I read the letter over and over again, and the tears kept flowing.The afternoon sun came in from the balcony, and the whole room was bright and warm. In the transparent and clean sunlight, I heard her voice:

"We are two stars, the two closest stars. We have been together for tens of thousands of years, hundreds of millions of years, billions of years...

"The days without you, I am very lonely, very lonely, I want to come to you...

"Without you, I wouldn't know the direction. I was in a hurry, so I bumped around and made many circles...

"We are made of light, not water. We all have to be bright and happy! It is eternal bright and happy!"

Epilogue: Boundless Dreams

A few words that are bound to be typed at the beginning of each episode of a Hong Kong TV series: This story is purely fictional.

I didn't take it seriously before, but now I think it is very meaningful. I will use this sentence to end this story:

This story is purely fictional.

Pure fiction.

Li Yu said in "Lang Taosha":

Outside the curtain, the rain is murmuring.Spring is waning.Luo Qun is not resistant to the cold before dawn.In the dream, I don't know that I am a guest, and I pay for nothing.Don't lean on a railing alone.Unlimited country.Separation is easier than reunion.Flowing water, falling flowers, spring is gone, XX world.

I'm a guest in my dream, always paying a fee.

Turgenev's love stories are good because he never really had love fully.

Mark Twain could not write a masterpiece with the theme of love, because love was always saturated in his life.

The story of Sanmao's Sahara Desert was so pure and beautiful that it became a legend. Later, someone verified that it was a world she constructed with imagination.

When the cravings get too strong, we like to fill our stomachs with pancakes.

I am a very different kind of painter, what I paint is the untouchable love in the mysterious world, I drew a big pie for myself.

The real, tangible world is actually:

At the age of 25, half a year before my mother died, I got married, and my mother finally closed her eyes quietly.

I have a traditional husband with a six year old.

Part of my life stuck at nine.Insecure, dark and fearful nine-year-old.

Some stay at 13 years old.The 13-year-old who was admired, liked, and used for the first time.

Some stay at 17 years old.The 17-year-old who destined my love direction.

Some still stay at 23 years old.I am a hopeless 23-year-old who knows that there is no chance of love in this life.

I never grew up, I was always just a kid.I was never a child, and my mind seemed to be born that way, lonely and obsessed.

I love